I am so hard reading comments here. I chased. Took me 6.5 years and I am as thrilled today as I was my first test as poz. When I was dating my second BF, He fucked me raw for two weeks before telling me. I instantly decided life was too short for bad sex, threw away all my condoms, and began the chase.
I have four men who are convinced they carry my strain. I stealth. A fave activity has always been to pull the condom between thrusts and act like I was removing it when I was done fucking them by making it snap. The few who recognized the change in sensation would always thrust harder against me.
I take meds holidays to infect and wish I could live off meds, but opportunistic infections slow my fucking down. STD's are the job hazard, but I don't care if you tell me you have syphillus. If you're hot and I wanna fuck you, we'll fuck.
Someone said it was a duty to spread it and as a Satanist, I agree. Gay sex and HIV are the two best tools to corrupt a xian away from the tyranny of the bible and into true joyous living. There is a sick thrill that it is deadly untreated, but c'mon, you all have some little sick thrill fantasy that you don't discuss because it is socially unacceptable. Accept yourself and own your desired. It i liberating.