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I'm obviously not the only one struggling with faith and flesh. Stay this course and show me it can be done.

NoWhat a hug great 24 hours and it's only Saturday afternoon. Last night, around midnight, a down low neighborhood hoodlum texted me. He wanted to stop by. He comes in and says cops were in his building so he slipped out. He gets undressed, I get undressed and we chat for a bit. After a while, I start sucking him off. He's about 9 inches long but skinny. Soon he stands up and bends me over the bed. After a few minutes of pounding, he floods my gut with his signature big load. After, we have a cigarette. Usually after he comes he tells me his woes. But he he's quiet. Then he starts jerking his dick asking if I want some milk so I sit underneath him until he shoved his dick in my mouth and blows another load down my throat. Soon, he gets dressed and leaves. This afternoon, I cleaned my apartment and my hole, installed a new air conditioner in my bedroom. A guy from NKP is finally able to slip away from his girlfriend. He's tall, fit with a long well trimmed beard. He isn't it " hot" or "cute.". He's handsome with beautifully proportioned features. I have A/C in living room and bedroom and I give him his choice. He goes into the bedroom gets undressed and climbs in bed--with his cell phone. I don't suck dick when somebody's on the phone usually. But he seemed shy. Doesn't really say much until I start to suck his 7in fatty and it comes alive. Then he drops phone and he starts with the occasional "suck it. Suck Daddy's dick." I do and after 10 minutes, he tells me to sit on it. That was awkward, so he stands us up and bends me over the bed. I can see the mirror at the foot of the bed and he can see the one on the other side. He starts plowing me slowly and slips out a few times. Then, he grips my hips so firmly I can't move and starts a furious buttfuck, making my cakes jiggle. For about half hour, he fucks and ducks and get quite verbal. "You Daddy to shoot in your ass?" I tell him I want it. I want his load. Flood my guts. But he edges himself. He gets close and slows down, seemingly savoring the moment. Finally he says he's going to explode and does so loudly. He keeps it in me to drain it. He washes up and takes his nearly folded shorts and tee and asks if he can come back later. My smile and my slightly dripping hole say yes. He smiles and is out the door before I can put on shorts to see him out. He is welcome in my home and hole anytime. And while I'm writing this, guy number two s load oozing out, a fuck buddy drops by unexpectedly. I let him come by unannounced because he doesn't mind sharing a piece of ass. Plays well with others. And he has a real fat dick.

I just tried to create an account, but I was informed that my email was already in use. Has anyone else had this experience? Any thoughts on how this could've happened?

I personally love the word 'hole.' There's something manly and lurid about it. Another favorite word is 'buttfuck,' so I like masculine words in general. That said, I agree that once I contextualize the words 'pussy' or 'cunt' I decide if I am being demeaned or not. Usually that kind of contempt is evident before the pants come off. And I rarely see in general. If it's not meant to demean, its usually, especially in the right moment, a huge turn on.

Back when I came out, (The Earth was still cooling.) We used the terms, French active and Greek passive. Then, it was just active and passive, then top and bottom. Now, it's Dom and Sub. Now, bottom and Sub are used pretty my much synonymously. While I am always a bottom, I'm not always a sub. When I'm higher than God, I'm very sub. Otherwise, I'm just me, obstinate, outspoken, bossy at times, especially professionally. A regular top deeply offended me recently and said he was done with me. Fine. Two weeks later he was back. I told him until I forgave him, he was the bitch. I made him beg. Things went back to normal eventually, but I made it clear that sub doesn't mean without respect or boundaries. Are you always sub even outside of sex? Do you set boundaries?

Back when I came out, (The Earth was still cooling.) We used the terms, French active and Greek passive. Then, it was just active and passive, then top and bottom. Now, it's Dom and Sub. Now, bottom and Sub are used pretty my much synonymously. While I am always a bottom, I'm not always a sub. When I'm higher than God, I'm very sub. Otherwise, I'm just me, obstinate, outspoken, bossy at times, especially professionally. A regular top deeply offended me recently and said he was done with me. Fine. Two weeks later he was back. I told him until I forgave him, he was the bitch. I made him beg. Things went back to normal eventually, but I made it clear that sub doesn't mean without respect or boundaries. Are you always sub even outside of sex? Do you set boundaries?

I like the full cock in my mouth or at least the head and some of the shaft. I love it when the squirts hit the back of my throat. I also like to keep the dick in my mouth after the guy stops cumming to drain the last drops.

Last week, I was so horny I was climbing the walls. So this guy I'm not fond of at all called and I invited him over. I think he's a fucking cad to be honest, and he thinks I'm a little stuck up. (I don't you can be too uppedy with dicks in your ass and mouth simultaneously. But that's just me.) Anyway, this guy has a gigantic dick, super long and fat, and incredible stamina, and shoots loads like a machine gun. I'd sit there while we rested and think I can't stand this guy and then I'd be on my knees gobbling his dick and bending over for more cum. Has anyone else had this experience?

Wow. I'm definitely in the minority here. I did my share of dark rooms when I was younger and when they seemed to be more plentiful in NYC. Now, I'm too visual. (Blindfolds don't do it for me either.) I like being able to see who's loading me up. Even if I'm AUFD (ass up face down, we need an acronym for that, right?) I like knowing who's there. I could be turned on by the guy's look, his bad boy reputation, his filthy talk, or even the look of hearty lust on his face.). This past weekend, this guy I think is a real fucking cad, with a monster dick, fucked and flooded me for over 24 hours straight. I was somehow turned on by the fact that I didn't like him and that he doesn't like me much either. But I loved watching him in the he mirror while he pounded away, blowing 2 or 3 loads at a time. He was excited too. He doesn't care for me either, but he LOVES my ass. He looked so happy to see me on my knees sucking his massive dick and taking his loads. Like he was fucking me in my place.

This has come up for me occasionally, but not often. I once had to assure a top that I was positive before he blew a load in me. Another top dropped two loads in me on Sunday and tested positive on Tuesday. He called all upset. I told him that most likely you had your blood drawn prior to the weekend.; that there is usually an incubation period; that I have been undetectable for years; and that he has to assume all men are positive and protect himself first. Once he calmed down, he apologized. I think he needed a face to associate with his conversion. That was last year. Just last week, he called and came over and dumped in me again as he does from time to time.

Been in NYC for about 30 years, but Cincy is still my home. Who knew you could have that kind of fun there? Go, home team!

I once got loaded up by a cop with a gun. He walked in and quickly made it clear he wasn't here to bust me but wanted to bust a nut in me. He stripped really fast and wrapped his gun in his clothes, putting the bundle away from us. He was a white dude, fit, tatted older guy, a salt and pepper flat top, early fifties. I asked if he was a cop because I just somehow knew he was. The leather jacket in the dead of July was a giveaway. He said yes, from the next county. As soon as he sat on the sofa, I put away my favors and kneeled and sucked his dick furiously. I was relieved that he wasn't interested in the T and accoutrements. Soon, he smiled and said can I breed you. He seemed pleased with himself for knowing some lingo. I got up and kneeled on the sofa. He grabbed some lube from the coffee table, dabbed a bit on and then slammed into me. He only spoke once more during, asking me if I liked that raw dick. I did. He grabbed my hips and shot into me, spazzing for a long moment. Quickly, he pulled out, and carefully unrolled his clothes from the gun. In a flash, he was dressed. Saying don't call me. I'll call you. He then said, stay out of trouble and was gone. The cop, the gun all turn on for me. I love every hue in the rainbow, but getting fucked up the ass by a white cop was the biggest turn on. And if I wasn't turned on, I was gonna.give it up anyway. Thank God be was there to bust nut and not me. And thank God he was sexy as hell. The only shooting gun was in his pants.

Here's an update. First time in 7 years.

After getting my hole stretched by a fat fist, another guy, a 6'7" white dude came over and fucked me for a while. He was slim as well as tall. Around 40ish. Eventually, he ende⁷d up pulling his dick out and shooting two loads in my mouth.

Yesterday, a hot new fb came by. He's a 50ish Latino with a dick like a tree trunk. Sexy as hell. We caught up for a while and then, he tossed me on the bed, mounted me and blew his load into me. After that, he began to finger my count and announced he was going to put his hand in my ass. I hadn't been fisted in 6 or 7 years, and his hands are huge with fat fingers. He was so forceful and firm, but so gentle and patient.

Saturday, an FB I hadn't seen in a while came over and dumped a huge load in my hole and then right before he left, he shot a load on my hole. Yesterday, Sunday, I was determined to get some stuff done around the house, but I had another visitor. A 30 year old local thug and gangbanger with a 9 inch dick came by and was backed up. He put me on my knees and was going to blast a load down my throat, but after a vigorous skull fucking, he lifted me up and bent me over, blowing a monster load in my cunt. After a quick break, he did end up nutting down my throat. Soon after, he bounced and I went back to my chores.

192. Never been fucked in a sling.

So fucking hot!!! I love eye contact when a daddy is coming in me.

Thank you for sharing that information!

As an uncle to close to 30 nephews (including great nephews,) I definitely wouldn't dream of that kind of relationship. As a nephew, I most likely would go where you have, and I can't see myself having any issues with it. More power to you!

I too have had some dark bouts of depression since the pandemic. I put on 40lbs. (At least 5 friends have put on much more.) It hasn't at all affected me getting laid and loaded as I was averaging about 3 -4 guys per week during pandemic. I have two guys now calling and texting, banging my y back door. The aesthetic where I live is different- guys love huge asses in The Bronx. Some of my fbs have asked me to stop losing weight. (I've lost 22lbs so far.) I've had a nice round ass, broad shoulders and a tiny waist for over 3 decades,. I used to be one of those wretched people who are whatever and didn't gain weight. I now think the challenge is to love myself as is and to recognize what other people see in me besides a good body. I also need to understand why I'm making demands on myself that others don't make. That question will need to be answered long after the other 18lbs come off.

I say go for it. With 3 guys involved, there's gotta be something we can relate to.

I enjoy your posts immensely. I love the subject matter and your prose is very engaging and vivid. I'd appreciate more.

Eros Wired, I say to you what I say to all hands on parents. Thanks for your contributions. I think a lot of problems with 20 somethings stem from a lack of education at school and home. The kids don't learn social skills. They sit in front of computers all day and phones and e-gadgets the rest of the time. As a result, they don't learn empathy, social or conversational skills. Instead they speak the reductive language of texting. Lol. STFU. LMFAO. In school systems where learning to write cursive is too much of a hassle, their language skills continue to degenerate. The youth in this country ranks in the twenties in math and science, but most students in this country actually believe they rank number one. With poor writing and math skills, they lack an understanding of both tone and abstract and analytical thinking. (My 20 something nephew, otherwise an excellent kid, said something to my older sister as if she were his peer. As I predicted, she hit the roof.) Despite the poor skills, these kids graduate, creating a breathtaking sense of entitlement. They feel they should be given what we have earned. Not only are many 20 somethings toxic, not all, but many, but they are also utterly uninteresting. And lousy fucks too.