Poz Guys - Do You Like Being Poz?

[SpectreAgent]

37 minutes ago, ryanroman said:

This is a question that can be looked at through so many lenses.  Some guys accept it.  Other embrace it.  Others feel it makes them a fighter.  Still others are embarrassed or ashamed.  We still get judged based on our status.  My own bf was embarrassed by what people would think of him based on poz porn content I made with a buddy.  The shaming by others is always a gut punch.  

I get no judgement from my medical staff who are mostly female and all very positive (no pun intended) and upbeat. However, my consultant always gives one piece of advice: be careful who you tell, because you can never untell it.

[ryanroman]

1 minute ago, RawPlug said:

I get no judgement from my medical staff who are mostly female and all very positive (no pun intended) and upbeat. However, my consultant always gives one piece of advice: be careful who you tell, because you can never untell it.

It's very good advice - one you tell, you can't untell. 

[ErosWired]

1 hour ago, ryanroman said:

This is a question that can be looked at through so many lenses. 

Some of them are obviously rose-colored. How many of the “I Love Being Poz” guys have had to have the conversation I’m going to have to have with my HIV specialist at my visit tomorrow morning about why my kidneys are showing alarming signs of deterioration, whether my ART is what’s causing it (a distinct possibility), and exactly how fucked I’m going to be if that’s the case? Because - sorry - the idea that you just take a pill and forget it is bullshit, and anyone who says otherwise is just turning a blind eye to the steady breakdown of the body’s systems under the double assault of both the virus and the harsh medications needed to hold it at bay.

I know that’s not something anybody wants to hear, but unfortunately, it’s reality. There’s no free lunch, nor consequence-free fucking. If someone can persuade me that he’s taken a good, hard, realistic look at what it actually means to be HIV positive, both in this moment and down the road, and in the face of what’s coming still tell me he absolutely loves it, then I’ll be interested in his reasons. Otherwise, he’s just fiddling while Rome burns.

[ryanroman]

10 hours ago, RawPlug said:

I get no judgement from my medical staff who are mostly female and all very positive (no pun intended) and upbeat. However, my consultant always gives one piece of advice: be careful who you tell, because you can never untell it.

Like if you make a porn scene with poz in the title... There's no pulling out after that... And, regardless of those in your life, some will judge you (what if people think I am because of your porn scene?).  It's that bullshit that makes life harder. 

[JamesL100]

Also guys are judgemental if you're getting more sex than they are, even way back with condoms, or you you pull a model gym hunk who said no to the other guys. Add HIV or BB sex to the mix and the gossip rockets.

[ErosWired]

Addendum to my last post above: The result of my visit with my HIV specialist today is that I’m being taken off the ART I’ve been on for the last five years and put on another that doesn’t contain Tenofivir, to see if it changes the trajectory of my kidney function, because Tenofovir is documented to cause renal issues in some cases.

Guess what’s in PrEP, sports fans.

Yep. Tenofovir. So you can’t just pop it and forget it. You have to keep tabs on your kidney function, and some medications, like Metformin, can react with Tenofovir to exacerbate the issue if there is one. (Guess who’s also taking Metformin. Ain’t life just a fucking bowl of cherries?)

I’m not wild about changing meds, since my CD4 counts are usually less than 400 and often in the 200s - I don’t have any margin to experiment with. Plus, this new one needs to be taken with food, which I haven’t had to do since Atripla back in 2015.

Nope, definitely not loving being Poz. Not one microscopic little bit.

[ryanroman]

4 hours ago, JamesL100 said:

Also guys are judgemental if you're getting more sex than they are, even way back with condoms, or you you pull a model gym hunk who said no to the other guys. Add HIV or BB sex to the mix and the gossip rockets.

That's very true - guys are judgemental if you're getting laid more than they are (or if they perceive you getting laid more than them).  I find it ironic that many of the same guys who judge others are getting their whore on when they think no one is looking.  I've run into into them at bathhouses/sex clubs/etc.  And I think it's great (I'm very sexy positive)... But if you're gonna live in a glass whore house, don't throw stones 😈

[ErosWired]

27 minutes ago, ryanroman said:

But if you're gonna live in a glass whore house, don't throw stones

Oh, I’m throwing stones - how are they all supposed to get at me to fuck me with that damn glass wall in the way?

Besides, who would want to own a glass whorehouse? You’d have to go out every hour with a squeegee and a bottle of Windex just to clean off the drool and the cum splatter so guys could see you.

[viking8x6]

52 minutes ago, ErosWired said:

Besides, who would want to own a glass whorehouse? You’d have to go out every hour with a squeegee and a bottle of Windex just to clean off the drool and the cum splatter so guys could see you.

But think of the advertising potential! Better than a storefront in Amsterdam!

[ryanroman]

13 minutes ago, viking8x6 said:

But think of the advertising potential! Better than a storefront in Amsterdam!

I'd love to fuck in storefront during the day in any city 😈

[viking8x6]

1 minute ago, ryanroman said:

I'd love to fuck in storefront during the day in any city 😈

Indeed, so would I!

If we ever have the chance to do that together, you're on 😈

[ryanroman]

Just now, viking8x6 said:

Indeed, so would I!

If we ever have the chance to do that together, you're on 😈

Im dtf anytime you are 😈

[ErosWired]

1 hour ago, viking8x6 said:

But think of the advertising potential! Better than a storefront in Amsterdam!

I thought “glass whorehouse” was another way of saying “red light district” in Amsterdam. Need to brush up on my Dutch.

[bbversapozzguy]

I discovered the thrill of barebacking with gay men very late, in 2010 i was invited at an orgy with 5 men.

They all fucked bare, i got so excited looking at those bare cocks fucking that i started fucking bare.

 

Since that day i fucked only bare, the nex thrill was fucking with gay men which i knew where hiv+.

I really love it.

 

[bottomcumslut123]

I just learned I'm hiv plus.  Tbh I'm still processing it and reviewing pros and cons but I've to tell ya...the thrill of knowing that I can let my piggy slutty power bottom self go for the rest of my life is pretty incredible.