Only Interested In Bareback/breeding When Really Horny, And That Frustrates Me

[Guest Upstateguy518]

I felt a similar way to you when I first started getting into men. I was always the tough straight guy but found myself jerking off to gay porn far more than straight or lesbian. When I first hooked up with a guy, It was off craigslist and I was so painfully hard because I was so excited about it. When it was all said the done, I couldn't get away from him fast enough because I felt that post-orgasm shame that you felt like wtf I'm straight why did I just do that and to a total stranger no less. And regardless how I felt when I done, I always went back. The feeling does go away once you've accepted that's just how you are.

I agree that you should go on prep and that if you wanna avoid needless other STDs/STIs then sure be a bit picky over who you let bareback you but all in all, Have fun man. Accept who you are and go from there. 

[SuccessfulChaser]

Oh the bullshit that is driven into people's brains but the freight end, pathetic pussies who are responsible for all of the safe sex-AntiQueer messages.   Your own very natural and authentic desires have been corrupted by years of hearing how wrong it is.

fucking...regardless of whic side of the cock you are on...is a wonderful experience.  Humans have evolved to be able to enjoy sex as a pleasure and not just the mechanical part of reproduction.   But those who would control us, have tried to take a natural thing and turn it evil and terrifying.

your conflict has nothing to do with you level of being jhorned up.  It is fully a manifestation of that mental (and artificial) war of good vs. evil.

my own choice to get knocked up included a desire to take an action that would prove to me that I had finally fully accepted the truth.

i can only encourage you to fuck more and worry less.  If you can go to a Cumuniom or other type event you can start getting multiple loads and learn to over come your "flight" reflex.   Be open to any type of sex you can find.   Your body will respond to lots of different types of arousal.  Stop thinking of gay/straight and try to see yourself without gender labels.  

Learn to be a sexual rebel....and let's take the messaging related to fucking away form those trying to control and shame us.   

Good luck...and keep,on reading and posting here.  Lots of great guys and good,so ties,here to help you reclaim your own sexuality..

[ensign]

I think there are plenty of guys here who stepped through exactly the same phases like you do. Being horny you're a cumslut, after climaxing you want to be a saint. In this situation I think the PrEP is a classic compromise. And if you think you can't afford it - how about trying to get some generic medicine like Tenvir EM? It's way cheapter then truvada.

But I highly recommand to see a doctor for this as this medicine has side effects and can harm you if you are positive when you start taking it.

[bihairy]

I say check out PReP. I am on it and love my sex life. I will never use a condom again!  Feels too great to shoot my loads deep inside a man hole.  With insurance and the coupon that the company has available, my pills only cost $40.00 monthly.  Then with coupon is was zero for an entire year.  I have to get another coupon but its not that hard.  I too used to get horned up and fuck and breed and then worry about it. Now I just enjoy it and go back for more. I love groups, three, one on one.  I don't even ask about their status any more. I love going to sex clubs and glory holes.  It feels so good.  Life is too short not to enjoy the sex we need and want.