Being recorded

[CumdumpAmsterdam]

On 11/5/2023 at 10:04 PM, GFF92 said:

But it only takes one ass hole to ruin your life.

The argument, which does make me evaluate my life, is should that be a problem? I am a pig. I know I am a pig. I want the world to know. But ultimately I have to pay the bills too. 

This is a very current topic in my life at the moment. The need to let the world know I'm an easy to use cock sucker is getting bigger every day.

In all the years of sucking strangers' cock, I have been recorded hundreds of times. I don't notice my surroundings at all when on my knees with cock down my throat. I always sink into some kind of trance. I remember a couple of times when I came to after swallowing his load, opening my eyes and looking directly into a camera lens. But somehow I've never seen the footage online.

Your fear is understandable and I have exactly the same.

I do try to change it by putting the situation into perspective: As mentioned above, being recorded doesn't mean the video ends up on the internet. And when it does pop up on the internet, the video stays in a small circle of websites. And when a colleague or a friend discovers the footage on the internet... does it really ruin my life? Will the colleague really report it to my employer? Will I really be fired? And when I do get fired... will I not be able to find another job?

The fear is strange because in real life I do expose myself in public. I wear a light-blue handkerchief in my right back pocket. I wear a necklace saying 'cocksucker'. I wear a big pig ring through my nose and I stare at mens bulges in public all the time. Let alone all the men who already know I'm a shameless pig because they have seen it with their own eyes. This fear is baseless for me.

I too struggle with this and you are absolutely right when you say 'The argument, which does make me evaluate my life, is should that be a problem? I am a pig. I know I am a pig. I want the world to know. But ultimately I have to pay the bills too'.

I would love to be able to upload a clear profile picture of myself and fill my albums with hundreds of pictures of me sucking cock, being used, slurping loads out of condoms, licking his cum from his dashboard after a car date.

But this fear prevents it from happening. There is movement in this area, though. Maybe by the end of the year I will have an album full of beautiful pictures and videos online 😉 

[ffabbian]

I got filmed a lot in the 80s and 90s without any inhibitions but with the Internet  and having my own company I rarely filmed and always without face until recently. I've been filmed felching, getting bred, breeding,  ff, tied up and blindfolded,  caned and gangbanged.  Last year a younger top asked me if I liked being watched.  I love it.  His right  hand was elbow deep inside my hole and  he was using his lap top with the other.  There was ff porn playing on the home cinema tv then a few moments later there were a  dozen or more  rooms with one or two guys  in each one not doing much  and dozens more to scroll through.  I didn't realise that I was on all of their screens till an hour later when I saw  us on his lap top.  Does anyone have any idea what  that site may have been. It was horny af and I wanna go on it again

[Marlin]

On 11/17/2022 at 8:04 PM, korenaer said:

And do you guys upload your videos somewhere? And if you do so, where do you share them?

barebackbastards.com is my favorite place to download my videos

[sluttyjimmy]

I had a bud I regularly sucked off and drank his load.  This guy is a very hot personal trainer who is about 1/2 my age, and definitely a bad boy.  When I sucked other guys off, he had me to record it and message him the videos to watch.  I have sent him 4 videos of me sucking other guys off.

About 4 years ago, when he as 26,  I sucked him off at my place for the first and only time and he wanted to record it.   Being the bad boy, he wanted to record me sucking him off in front of my sliding glass door in the living room of my 3rd floor apartment.  To give some context, the sliding glass door goes out onto a deck that has clear fiberglass sides with narrow support posts.  I did not have any furniture on the deck, so there was nothing obstructing the view between my neighbors' windows across the way and my sliding glass door and living room.  There were drapes at one end of the sliding glass door, but they were open that night and he emphasized he wanted the drapes left open while I sucked him off.

I was hesitant to let this guy record me in front of the sliding glass window, because the building directly across from  my living room is an 4-storied building with 20 apartments, and their windows facing my apartment are about 60 feet away from my sliding glass door.  Based on the layout of those apartments, the windows facing my apartment are 36" x 60" and directly above their kitchen sinks.   Not only was I nervous about the set-up, but it was about 10pm on a Saturday evening, so neighbors were still awake doing things.

I was reluctant to let him recording me, fully exposed, but decided it was ok because the living room lights were out, so the overall risk of my neighbors seeing anything was highly unlikely.

After finally agreeing, we both stripped down to our athletic socks and running shoes, and he had me kneel directly in front of the sliding glass door.  He stood in front of me with his 9" cock pointing directly down toward my mouth.  Each of us was no more than 3" from the sliding glass door, as he was determined to have me as close to the door as possible.

As we prepared to do this, I was surprised when he pulled out a head-mounted mobile phone holder.   He told me he was going to wear it to record me sucking him off so he did not have to keep one hand focused on keeping the camera steady.  He went into the nearby bathroom to secure his phone to the holder and test the angle his head needed to be at in order to ensure the phone was in the best position to fully capture me sucking him off. 

From my position in front of the sliding glass door, I heard him fiddling with the head mount and the phone.  As he left the bathroom and approached me, I was in shock.  HIs cell phone was mounted to his head and he had started recording, but he had also turned on the flashlight on his phone, which was now shining in my eyes as he approached me!  I expected to be in the dark in front of the sliding glass door and now his phone flashlight was acting like a spotlight for my mostly naked body!  I said "Please turn the light off," to which he responded "The light is needed to see the video," in a tone that signaled that conversation was over.  I tried to move my mouth off of his cock to discuss options that left me less exposed, but he held my head firm and barked loudly, "Smack your lips together around his cock, Jimmy  and suck out my milk!"   I looked straight ahead at his cock, but the flash light was still blinding me.  My body started to feel warm from the embarrassment of my neighbors potentially seeing me mostly naked and exposed, sucking this guy off.

Because he would not release my head, I tried to make him cum as quickly as possible..  It took a lot longer than I wanted and to add insult to injury, there were times when he raised his head so he was not recording me., and faced the camera and the flash light out the sliding glass door and moved it around like he was trying to see outside.  The light primarily reflected back into the room and only served to possibly have the moving light catch my neighbors' attention and look toward the source.  He did not shine the light outward for very long and the camera and flash light soon spotlighted me sucking his cock again!  I definitely got the sense that he was proud of his hot body and, being a stranger to my neighborhood, did not care if anyone saw his naked body or me sucking him off.  If anything, he was trying to grab my neighbors' attention and wanted them to watch!

After about 20 minutes, I finally made him cum and after achieving some post-nut clarity, he turned the video and flashlight off.  I was still in shock at the overall experience and asked him to please send me a copy of the video, so I could see how incriminating it was and determine the likelihood that any of my neighbors might have seen us.  He said he would message me a copy of the video when he got home, but never did.  The next time we got together, I asked him to send it to me and he said he offloaded it from his phone, but would send a copy to me...but ever did.

It has been four years and I still have not seen a copy of the video.  Thirteen days ago, he sent me an unsolicited text stating he just watched the video of my mouth "smackin the cum of out of him."  I immediately asked him to message me a copy of the video and I got no response in return.

I am a bit concerned about what the video might show and wonder why he is unwilling to send me a copy of the video to me... but at this point, I think I am better off not knowing.

[Warmnsalty]

I love being watched and filmed. Hasn't happened often but when I find a top who's willing love having a video to replay and remember the fuck 🙂