Have You Been Raped as a Child and Became Attracted to Men like your Rapist?

[SlampaBay]

On 1/29/2011 at 4:48 AM, SpunkJunkyPissHound said:

Pay attention Stealth-boys- you poison a kid and you deserve to die in a sick and horrible way. My suggestion ... castration followed by forced testicle consumption. Enjoy the fantasy but keep your sick sauce to your self.

I’ve often felt this way and wondered why fictional stories like we have here and elsewhere never result in the possible mental break of the victim and his ultimate revenge. I mean, it has to happen sometimes. It’s the Law of Averages isn’t it?

PLEASE NOTE — I’m very aware that this urge for revenge or punishment is not my most common response, not by a long shot. I’m incredibly turned on by authoritarian domination stories. Always have been. And I started having sex with older men very early, never forced, always treated well. In truth, this was the only real attention I got early on. I can’t fathom how much worse I would have ended up without it, at least initially. Of course, a 5 year old’s undeveloped psyche can’t handle the subtleties of sexuality. At least I couldn’t. And I’m still attracted to the older (more experienced, more dominant) men; unless they’re dominant younger has never been attractive to me. And I’ve never met a man, any man, where I didn’t first judge his potential sexual value for me.  Anyway, where was I? Oh, yeah. Castration, forced testicle consumption…

So while I usually wank with the rest of you to these stories and my interests have gotten more specialized every once in a while, the story (or my mood) will turn me into The Equalizer or Liam Neeson and I want to teach Cruelty itself a lesson. 

And if it evokes the urge to such violence within me in the privacy of my own room, surely it exists elsewhere in the world.