Straight and Bottom Cumslut?

[NewCumdumpSlut]

I’ve considered myself straight and have liked girls most of my life. I’ve never been attracted to men. However, I’ve always found bareback gay porn EXTREMELY arousing and I have always imagined myself as the bottom taking loads. It makes no sense. I’ve always wanted to be that bottom in the Treasure Island video and the urge has just grown and grown since school, until I couldn’t take it anymore. After breaking up with my girlfriend and feeling pretty bad, I decided to give into my desire. I ordered PREP and went to a Club Slammer (my first time in a bathhouse). After feeling incredibly awkward for about 20 minutes, I stripped to my jockstrap, went up to the play area, and got in a sling. I’ve fantasized about doing this for years, but just couldn’t resist anymore. It didn’t take more than 5 minutes before this daddy was sliding his cock in. I never could have imagined the pleasure of being fucked bareback. My god, I loved it. After some initial pain I moaning in ecstasy, and was begging for him to shoot his load in my pussy. He did along with another 6 guys. I couldn’t control myself. I was begging for it. 
 

Does this mean I’m not straight? This was my first time doing this, but for 1 week all I have been able to think about is getting more loads. Is this normal or am I addicted? I’m craving cocks and cum more than anything now. I’d like a relationship with a woman, but I’m worried it’s too late now. Also, if I’m taking a ton of loads (which I think I’m about to), how reliable is prep? All I want to do is go back and and take more cocks and loads. Please give me your advice. 
 

Harper 

[Eptxbttm]

Why worry about labels? You took the first steps which are the hardest. Enjoy yourself on the journey and see where it goes. 

[ktopper]

You seem to be similar to me. I am attracted to the ladies and like having them in my life. Straight men do nothing for me. But if I find out a guy is gay I find them very erotic. I fucking love gay sex. I don't worry about labels, I just love to fuck. I joke that I am gay with a hetero kink but I could also be said to be straight with a gay fetish.

And don't be afraid to try topping. I started as a bottom but once I started topping I found my true self.

[ErosWired]

8 hours ago, StraightBottomSlut said:

Does this mean I’m not straight? This was my first time doing this, but for 1 week all I have been able to think about is getting more loads. Is this normal or am I addicted? I’m craving cocks and cum more than anything now. I’d like a relationship with a woman, but I’m worried it’s too late now.

Yes, it means you are not ‘straight’, as far as that label describes an exclusive sexual orientation. But not to worry - almost no one actually is. Scientific research on human sexuality since the 1970s has fairly conclusively established that human sexual orientation is not a set of polar opposites, but rather a continuous spectrum, with all persons having some greater or lesser degree of same-sex affinity, which is influenced additionally by cultural factors. In other words, under certain circumstances, most people might find themselves naturally attracted at least in some small way to a person of the same gender. That doesn’t suddenly mean they can no longer have a heterosexual relationship.

Many people are perfectly happy to consider themselves bisexual. (There are some gays who insist that anyone who says he’s bi is just in denial about his gayness, but as a bisexual person I assure you that is untrue. I have taken more than a thousand cocks up my ass, but I like ladies just fine.) If you find women attractive, sexy and fuckable, then there is no reason it would be “too late”. The one consideration, however, is that unless you find a female partner who is agreeable to you also having sexual contact with men, you may have to make a choice between your desires. We face choices in our lives all the time when we must select one thing over another because we cannot have everything we want. You may have to choose if you cannot find a way to enjoy both. But discovering that you take pleasure in being fucked by men does not automatically close the door forever for you on a relationship with a woman. If I were to find just the right woman to be in my life (it would have to be a singularly remarkable person) then I could happily turn my back on sex with men.

I wish you good fortune in your self-exploration.

[NWUSHorny]

As a bi-guy, I'm pretty sure this means you are bi. I 1st acted on my opposite sex desires at 13 and my same sex desires at 19, I'm 54 now and still enjoy being sexually active with both sexes.

In my opinion, You aren't straight if you continue to act on this desire, and you aren't gay unless you swear off sex with women entirely.

[viking8x6]

On 12/26/2023 at 12:14 PM, StraightBottomSlut said:

Does this mean I’m not straight? This was my first time doing this, but for 1 week all I have been able to think about is getting more loads. Is this normal or am I addicted? I’m craving cocks and cum more than anything now. I’d like a relationship with a woman, but I’m worried it’s too late now. Also, if I’m taking a ton of loads (which I think I’m about to), how reliable is prep? All I want to do is go back and and take more cocks and loads. Please give me your advice.
 

1. Yes

2. That's normal. When you first had sex with a woman, I bet that was all you could think of for a week, too...

3. PrEP is extremely reliable if you take it regularly. Do get tested for other STIs, as it does not protect from those and you do want to treat them promptly if you happen to contract them. Also get vaccines for the ones you can. There are several good topics in the PrEP forum that give details on all that.

4. There's no reason you can't have a relationship with a woman and keep taking cock if she's down with that, and (at least in the US where I am) that's probably easier now than it has been at any other time in the last century. I was in a relationship with a woman for 28 years and took dick the whole time, though sex between her and I stopped about 5 years in. She knew from day one.

[hntnhole]

On 12/26/2023 at 12:14 PM, StraightBottomSlut said:

It makes no sense

Might that be because you're trying to fit a round peg into a square hole?  As ErosWired points out above, there is wide diversity among men regarding sexuality.  I wouldn't worry too much about it - and kudos for getting on PrEP.  That will preserve your ability to make choices, if you feel you need to.  

I don't think that who we have sex with is subject to the cultural/societal rules.  We don't murder each other, for the common good.  We don't purposely injure each other, steal from each other, for the same reason.  Those are cultural/societal "norms", and don't apply to who we fuck/get fucked by.  

Try not to make fitting into some pre-conceived, cultural definition.  Be you.  You're special, just as each of us are.  Be who you need to be, and be that guy as often as you.

PrEP is not 100% always always unfailingly reliable, but it's very effective against contracting hiv.  It's as safe as you can get, without becoming a hermit, and the best option we have to mitigate the possibility of contracting hiv.  Thanks for taking that step.  

On 12/26/2023 at 12:14 PM, StraightBottomSlut said:

Is this normal or am I addicted?

Depending on your definition of "addiction", no.  Any behavior that brings immense pleasure is addictive, and for obvious reasons.  Some guys wonder if they become "addicted" to other men's Sperm, when what they're actually addicted to is the behavior - wanton sexual whoring -  that summons forth that special thrill of sharing sex with a lot of men.  

Rest easy.  You're not chemically addicted, you're having the best sex of your life, so of course you only want more.  Forget about trying to squeeze yourself into other people's labels.  Be Free.  

Good luck !!

[hungry_hole]

On 12/26/2023 at 12:14 PM, StraightBottomSlut said:

I never could have imagined the pleasure of being fucked bareback. My god, I loved it.

If you think about it, the most erotic experience is to "feel-wanted", to feel that your body appeals to others. This experience is mostly accepted in women who are supposed to be wanted by men.

A man who self-identifies as straight can only experience feeling-wanted from women, which is an experience that is never as strong as feeling-wanted by a man, because of the hard-on.

On 12/26/2023 at 12:14 PM, StraightBottomSlut said:

It makes no sense. I’ve always wanted to be that bottom in the Treasure Island video

Being a bottom has nothing to do with femininity, which is something many men think, the "woman" of the sex encounter. I started bottoming in my early 20's and I never thought of myself as feminine. On the contrary, they often asked me if I was married because. Being young and in good shape really helped because it's easier to "feel-wanted".

When I bottom someone has to feel horny for me and the hard-on going into my hole is the proof, or at least I can fantasize it is. There is pleasure in feeling the hard-on and because I also get hard-ons I can connect with the guy fucking me. But the best perk, if you will, of bottoming is the ability to get fucked non-stop by identifying with the pleasure of every man as they unload inside me. Every load I take feels like my own, but I never cum.

I've never enjoyed fucking ass, I've tried it, but don't get the enjoyment that I get from bottoming

Getting the load is a different story all together and something that has been discussed here before.