NewcastleCloset Posted July 2 Report Posted July 2 I'm in London, miles away from home. I'm going to give in this week. I try to stop myself but the more I deprive myself the harder I need it when I do finally give in. I will invite strangers to my hotel room. I will let them use my hole. I will let them cum in me. I will drive home to my wife with a used up hole looser than her pussy. I will continue to lie to her. Cock is the most brutal drug. I can't stop! 1 5
Giftgiver53 Posted July 2 Report Posted July 2 Don't be too hard on yourself. Cock and cum IS very addictive. Once we have ignored the long list of mental and social road blocks we will get on our knees and bend over every chance we get. So many tastes and styles to choose from. As NIKE says " JUST DO IT " you will be happier and the other guy will be happier..
NewcastleCloset Posted July 4 Author Report Posted July 4 (edited) 19 hours ago, greo said: Should be sleeping with it inside you not on the face! Couldn't agree more. The top was the definition of basic. He also insisted on a condom even though I protested. Oh well. Somerimes....Sometimes they disappoint. It wasn't all a total waste. I got my hole hammered. Literally. See pic 😉 Yes, that is an actual hammer. Edited July 4 by NewcastleCloset
Bibttmmiami Posted July 6 Report Posted July 6 On 7/2/2024 at 2:35 AM, NewcastleCloset said: I'm in London, miles away from home. I'm going to give in this week. I try to stop myself but the more I deprive myself the harder I need it when I do finally give in. I will invite strangers to my hotel room. I will let them use my hole. I will let them cum in me. I will drive home to my wife with a used up hole looser than her pussy. I will continue to lie to her. Cock is the most brutal drug. I can't stop! So you’re potentially exposing your wife to HIV/AIDS and other STDs/STIs without her knowledge or consent. What a wonderful husband you are. 1
tallslenderguy Posted July 6 Report Posted July 6 On 7/1/2024 at 11:35 PM, NewcastleCloset said: I'm in London, miles away from home. I'm going to give in this week. I try to stop myself but the more I deprive myself the harder I need it when I do finally give in. I will invite strangers to my hotel room. I will let them use my hole. I will let them cum in me. I will drive home to my wife with a used up hole looser than her pussy. I will continue to lie to her. Cock is the most brutal drug. I can't stop! Speculating, i don't think it's addiction, but dependence (and there is a difference, at least in the healthcare profession). i suspect what you need is to come to a place of self acceptance and start living honestly with who and how you are. When one is conflicted about being attracted to the same sex, not fully accepting, it can lead to what seems an addictive cycle where you try not to have sex with guys until you give in to your need/desire and have sex with guys. That sex can be a sort of temporary fix, an affirmation of who and how you are, then you are ashamed, etc., go back to fighting your self. i'd advocate for professional counseling. The lying and cheating are going to end up hurting all involved, i don't think it's a good or acceptable way to go. 2
hntnhole Posted July 6 Report Posted July 6 5 hours ago, tallslenderguy said: Speculating, i don't think it's addiction In the traditional, accepted meaning of the word "addiction", neither do I. That said, the feeling of freedom to be the man we were born to be, actually living out our most sexual fantasies, is a behavior that can indeed become addictive. I use zero drugs (other than a medical prescription and PrEP), yet I look forward to spending weekend nights in the fuckjoints tremendously. In that sense, hitting the fuckjoints on the weekends is a (perhaps semi) addictive behavior, without the physical dependency that chemicals induce.
tallslenderguy Posted July 6 Report Posted July 6 9 minutes ago, hntnhole said: In the traditional, accepted meaning of the word "addiction", neither do I. That said, the feeling of freedom to be the man we were born to be, actually living out our most sexual fantasies, is a behavior that can indeed become addictive. I use zero drugs (other than a medical prescription and PrEP), yet I look forward to spending weekend nights in the fuckjoints tremendously. In that sense, hitting the fuckjoints on the weekends is a (perhaps semi) addictive behavior, without the physical dependency that chemicals induce. i have no evidence to back this up, so it's conjecture on my part. i still feel my pause button pushed. Our sex drive is a natural appetite. We never consider habits like eating as addiction, but as naturally feeding a need. Our selection of food may be based on appetite, but we are still looking to sate hunger. As i see it, You fast for a week before 'eating.' i've experienced what feels like bonding to a Man Who breeds me repeatedly. The evidence is base on hetero study, but there is evidence that absorbed semen effects the brain in a bonding way. Idk, but i can easily speculate that a Top could have an instinctual awareness of the ability of His semen to bond a bottom to Him... we sure seem to discuss it a lot in round about ways lol. i guess i just grouse at the negative connotation that "addiction" implies. i don't see feeding a natural appetite, hunger, as addictive behavior? 1
hntnhole Posted July 6 Report Posted July 6 11 minutes ago, tallslenderguy said: absorbed semen effects the brain in a bonding way. I'd call that part of the "connection" I sometimes go on about. I suppose what it brings into question is, what - exactly - is "reality"? What you experience is completely real - as "real" as anything else. While it's not a physical thing like a hammer or a car or whatever, it's still, none-the-less completely real for you. The act of Breeding - pumping my seed into another man who needs it - is just as real, in that I'm connected to him and he to me. In that sense, you and I are two peas in a pod. I don't overeat - but I do eat my fill 3 times a day. That's a biological necessity that everyone needs to fulfill, just like sharing sex (maybe not 3x a day though !!!) I'm not a medically trained man like you are, but it makes sense to me that the semen - a man's essence - can affect the brain in wonderful ways. 1
PozBearWI Posted July 6 Report Posted July 6 To the extent we define compulsive behavior as addition; perhaps it is; but nothing like a full on chemical additiction. 2
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