My Secret Christmas AIDS Fuck

[Tommy Tank]

I've wanted to tell this story for a while now.  It happened in the mid 90s, and no one has ever known about it, apart from the other person involved, and I honestly think he would be happy to share it now too.

I had known Jamie for a few years, he was a friend of one of my closest friends and I had met him at various social events although I didn't know him particularly well.

In the mid 90s, just before he turned 30, Jamie became ill and was diagnosed with an AIDs related condition.  Over the next few months, Jamie lost quite a bit of weight - but otherwise his body did not change much.  Internally, it was a different matter and he was taken to hospital suffering from severe pneumonia.  He was not expected to survive, but he did, although the doctors said he would be unlikely to survive another serious illness.  

Jamie had no partner and his family didn't want to know him, so my friend Paul decided to take him in and a group of us decided to look after Jamie between us and make sure he had everything he needed.

I quite often sat with Jamie when Paul was at work at the weekends and we enjoyed each other's company.  Over the next couple of months we got to know each other quite well.

Paul was working on Christmas Day that year and I said I would be happy to sit with Jamie.  I arrived in the early afternoon and we talked for a while.  Then I helped Jamie take a shower and stood with him while he took a nice long piss in the toilet.  Soon he was sitting comfortably up in bed in clean T-Shirt and underpants.  I made us a drink and we talked for a while longer.

After a while, the talk turned to sex, and Jamie told me how much he missed it.  We began to talk about sex and Jamie confessed that he had always liked sex without a condom.

"Do you want to know a secret?" I said

Jamie nodded and I leant forward

"So do I!"

Jamie looked surprised.  "You like sex without a condom?" he said and I nodded.

"Fuck!" said Jamie

Neither of us said anything for a moment and then I asked him "Are you hard?"

Jamie nodded, "Yeah," he said  "Are you?"

I nodded too and stood up.  Jamie looked at my cock sticking up in my trousers and then looked at me.  I nodded and he reached up and began to rub my hard cock through my trousers.

I pulled back the cover and saw Jamie's cock was hard in his pants.  We stroked each other for a while and then I pulled his pants down, freeing his cock, and took it in my hands.  I began to wank him gently.  "Oh fuck!" he moaned "That's so good!"

I wanked him for a while and then I pulled my jeans and pants down to my knees.

"Why don't you suck my cock?"  I whispered

I moved closer to the bed and pushed my cock towards Jamie's mouth.  He licked the tip and then took my cock into his mouth.  He sucked me really well and this, together with the knowledge of what we were doing brought me very close and I knew that if I let him suck me for much longer I was going to cum in his mouth.

I pulled my cock out of Jamie's mouth and took hold of his cock again.  He had been wanking as he sucked me and his cock was super hard.  I wanked him for while and then rubbed his balls.  He lifted his legs and soon my finger found his arsehole.  He moaned softly as my finger pushed into his arse and I began to finger his hole.  

"Oh fuck!" he moaned, "Oh fuck, I wish you could fuck me right now!"

"Maybe I could,"  I said, but Jamie shook his head.  "No," he said, "You can't fuck me."

I wasn't sure what he meant.  "Could you take it?" I asked, and Jamie nodded "Oh yes," he said with a grin, "I could take it - but it's way too much of a risk for you."

"Let me worry about that," I said, and motioned to him to kneel up on the bed.  I wasn't sure he was going to do it at first, but after a moment's hesitation, Jamie moved round and knelt up on the bed, presenting his naked arse to me.

I pulled his cheeks apart and gently fingered his hole and then I pushed my tongue right up him.  Jamie moaned as I licked his hole and after a while he said "You have to fuck me now!"

He opened a drawer and passed me a small tube of lube.  A few seconds later I was pushing the head of my cock into his arsehole.  He groaned and told me not to stop but just to take it slowly.  I pushed slowly but surely right up him and then gave him a moment to get used to my cock.

Jamie sighed, "Fuck me!" he said

Jamie's hole was really tight and I enjoyed every minute of fucking him.  I started off slowly, pulling my cock all the way back and then pushing it back up him slowly, and then I began to fuck him a bit harder.  I could tell that Jamie was enjoying the fuck every bit as I was.  "Oh fuck!" he moaned, "Don't stop!  Don't fucking stop!".

I took hold of his hips and began to fuck him really hard.  We were both totally into the fuck now and after a while I told him I was going to cum in him.

"Oh fuck, yes, yes!" he moaned as I began to shoot my load right into his arse.  It felt like I was never going to stop as I shot more and more cum right up him. When I had finally finished cumming in him, I pulled out and he laid back on the bed.  His cock was hard and he took hold of it and began to wank himself.  I moved his hand away and, bending forward, I took his cock into my mouth and began to suck him.  He moaned as I sucked him and I could feel his cock getting harder in my mouth.

I stopped sucking for a moment.  "Do you want to fuck me?" I asked him.

"No way," he said "I can't do that!"

I put my finger over his lips.  "Do you want to fuck me?" I said again.  After a moment of silence, Jamie nodded and I grinned at him.

I'm not quite sure exactly what was going through my mind as I bent over the bed and pushed my arse out.  I felt Jamie move in behind me and then I felt the head of his cock pushing into my now lubed arsehole and then I felt him push his cock right up me and begin to fuck.

I knew what I was doing was madness, but I couldn't help myself - in that moment I wanted nothing more than for Jamie to fuck me and then cum right up me.  Until a year or so before this, I had always been careful to practise safe sex, using condoms on every occasion and even reaching behind me every now and then to make sure that the guy fucking me still had his condom on - and now I was taking the biggest risk of all.  I also wondered what my friends would say if they knew what I was doing. I knew they viewed me as someone who was very measured and made wise decisions both at work and in my personal life and as far as I knew, they all practised safe sex too.

And now, here I was, bent over the bed, being fucked without a condom by a guy who had AIDS -  I can't tell you how turned on I was!

Jamie was fucking me harder now and I could tell he was getting close.

I was urging him on now, telling him to fuck me harder and moaning "Cum in me, fucking cum in me!"

A few minutes later, Jamie cried out "Oh fuck!" and I felt his whole body shudder as he thrust hard up my arse and I knew he was cumming deep inside me.

I was playing with myself as Jamie fucked me and the moment I felt his cum spurting into my unprotected arse, I shot another load of cum out in front of me,

When he pulled out of me, I took Jamie's cock into my mouth and sucked him for a few minutes and soon he was back in bed.  He was tired now and needing a rest.  When Paul came home from work a couple of hours later, Jamie was sleeping, with his arms folded and a contented smile on his face.

When Jamie woke up a couple of hours later, we had all had a meal together and then spent a very enjoyable evening.  All the time, I could feel Jamie's load up my arse and I could tell he had shot a really big one up me.

The next time I sat with Jamie was one of the last.  He told me then how much he had enjoyed what we did and said I would never know how much it meant to him to feel so horny again and to feel wanted and loved.

As for me, I couldn't stop thinking about what we had done and I knew it would not be long before I was taking more risks. 

Of course I knew there might well be consequences from what we had done on that Christmas afternoon - but I decided to cross that bridge if and when I came to it.

 

[cman54]

Sometimes we all just need to let our guard down and do what feels good at the time. What you did for Jamie was awesome. I'm sure you felt good about it after you done it. It showed how much you cared about him. Good for you. 

[mspsubmale]

would love to meet a Jamie here, and since my birthday is close to Christmas...receive a combination birthday/Christmas gift I would cherish forever.

[POZbreedingPIG]

I have been poz, high toxic and not on meds for many years. I would love to feel Jamie's AIDS ☣ strains in me 😉 

I want it deep inside me 🤪

[Knightfalconer]

23 hours ago, Tommy Tank said:

The next time I sat with Jamie was one of the last.

its sad that he passed away soon after, but you have the memories  (& maybe something else) for the rest of your lives.

I was too scared to approach the first guy (whom I knew, was poz).

Well, I was only 19, in my second year of university and hadn't come out yet. I'd found a room off campus, in a shared house in Brighton. A housemate mentioned he was gay and I summoned up the courage to admit that so was I. What followed was a two week period, during which I was taken to many of the gay bars and clubs in the town.

One sticks in my mind, not only as it was my first time in a gay bar, but also because of one of the men behind the bar. Malcolm was a mature, friendly guy with a moustache (giving him that 'Tom of Finland' look, which appealed to me immensely. He was tall and slim, very friendly, but without that creepy, 'dirty old bloke' mannerism. The bar became my regular for a while and I grew increasingly attracted to Malcolm. I learnt that he was HIV, but that didn't worry me. He was still a nice guy whom I fantasised over.

Trouble was, I never got up the courage to say anything to him. I so wanted to be fucked by him. Soon after I'd finished my degree and moved away, I learnt that Malcolm had passed away. Now, the bar is no longer even a gay venue. Life is full of regrets.

RIP Malcolm

(Aquarium Inn - Steine St - Brighton)

[pozpopperpig]

What a beautiful Christmas story.  You gave Jamie a wonderful gift and hopefully he gave you one as well.