Aborne

Thank you for your thoughts! I am continuing to update the digital copy, including new chapters, and have had the opportunity to edit with a proofreader (the entire project has been self-funded, so apologies)but it's taking shape. Thanks for the encouragement and the feedback.

I feel like there’s a difference and maybe it just comes down to awareness and … enlightenment? It’s hard to describe. It seems so many guys go through the motions and enjoy fucking for the pleasure it brings and the satisfying release. But it’s almost like they’re going through the motions. Now, they are some fucking good motions. But I don’t know about you but anytime I’ve told a guy about how badly I need him to cum inside me and that the reason he’s cumming over is to inseminate me I feel like everything becomes so much more heightened. From the moment he walks into the room, things are just so much more fucking intense. We both know what he’s here for. That by the time he leaves the sperm that’s in those balls will have been pumped into my hole. The foreplay where I’m worshipping his cock with my mouth and he’s rimming my hole just takes on a whole new meaning. I’m not just pleasuring his cock. I’m pleasuring the cock they will be breeding me. The balls that are carrying his incredible man juice. He’s not just rimming me to make me feel good. He’s literally prepping my hole for his load, warming me up to receive him. And the eye contact. When we both know how powerful the act we’re doing is, what’s really going down, as he pumps inside my hole it’s just so wonderful. We don’t even need to speak. We both just understand that there’s nothing more important. This is big. This is breeding. Not quite the same as just fucking for fun if you ask me.

I am the author. It’s available as a digital book on Amazon for a much lower price. You need to check the kindle section and make sure your adult content settings are turned on for it. The physical copy was made as a secondary option - but the digital option is best as it will continue to be updated going forward.

Had a session with my boyfriend that just started with us spooning in bed. You know, one of those, just comfy napping and then I feel his boner knocking on my door and I start suggestively grinding backwards. Next thing you know, a little spit, and he’s in me and we’re just slowly grinding. Because we were moving so slow when he came I felt every single twitch and spasm of his cock.

About a week ago. Was staying at a hotel on Tenerife. It was late and the front desk guy popped up on Grindr. He couldn’t leave his post for long but there was a bathroom in the small lobby. He met me in the second stall. Tried to stay quiet as he fucked me against the wall but his cock was pretty thick. My moans and his grunts as he pumped me full of his load probably echoed throughout the lobby. Luckily no one was there. This was also a rare time where I physically felt my mood change with his load in me. I felt so satisfied and relaxed, and I hadn’t even cum myself.

I don’t know how to describe it but my orgasm cumming balls deep in some guys ass is intensely different from the one I get from jerking off or a blowjob. I don’t know if it’s that the entire length of my cock is being enveloped so the orgasm itself is more intense or the psychological knowledge that my load is going deep, but just going into that final flex of my cock that I know is ending with ejaculation, my whole orgasm feels like it’s taking place in another universe. I guess it is. His universe. It’s just…hard to describe…but free? It’s this massive explosion of energy that fulfills a purpose when it’s cumming in his hole.

I’ve always known that I am a cumdump at heart. Maybe not in so many words but it’s always been clear. I love to think about cocks and balls and those fucking awesome swimmers. I can edge for days without touching myself and just lose myself drooling over the idea of that sperm and pulsating cocks shooting into hungry holes. I’ve always been an enthusiastic cum swallower. There’s never been any question in a hook up that I don’t want to see those tadpoles seeing open air. But despite being on prep, I’ve somehow never been able to take the plunge. Then last night I hit it off on Grindr with the guy working the front desk at my hotel. I don’t know what was different. But instead of leading him on or dragging things out I ended being super direct saying I really thought he was hot and it would make me deliriously happy if he could fuck me raw and cum in me balls deep. He said he couldn’t leave his post but that there was a bathroom in the lobby and he could sneak away and fuck me there. Again, so not like me. Sex in public. Meeting someone. I know this probably sounds pretty basic to most of you on here. But it’s something I’ve always talked myself out of. But jerking off hasn’t been cutting it. Not scratching my itch. So I did it. I walked straight into that lobby bathroom without looking in his direction. It was late and there was no one else there. I went to the furthest stall and just dropped my pants and briefs with my back to the door. I fired off a final text that I was ready and wanted his load so bad. I heard the door open and suddenly he was in the stall behind me. I didn’t even bother to turn around. That’s the thing I didn’t really give a fuck what he looked like. I just cared that he needed to cum. With my head pressed against the conrete wall looking down all I could see was his tattooed legs. Then he was inside me. Then we were fucking. And I realized that this strangers bare cock was inside me. That he was horny and hard and my hole was getting him off. I felt … euphoric. Knowing that my hole would be wrapped around that cock when his orgasm came. The power of that fucking orgasm inside me. And then he’d blast his load, his fucking sperm into me. I felt..right. It felt right. And when he did blast his load, I was in heaven. Knowing those swimmers were burrowing their way inside me. This guy who I didn’t fucking know. Didn’t know his name or face but his dna was already owning me. That I had given him that pleasure and release, that the deflating cock and shuddering male breathing heavily behind me were a result of me - felt so simple and purposeful. I got back to my room with his load still in me. I don’t think I imagined that my mood changed. I felt calm and satisfied. Almost high. And now I’m just thinking about how this has been accessible to me this whole time. I’ve just been too scared to indulge. No more. Enough time and opportunity wasted. Honestly it’s cause of this board that I finally worked up the courage to be true to myself and grow past my own insecurities. I’m so happy I did. I’m already on Grindr see who I can find to continue this new chapter without hesitation.

For me, prep just kinda opened a door or insight into my psychology I’d been trained to ignore since youth. Growing up it was just no question that you fucked with a condom. Still, any chance to gobble down sperm, I’d be on it, preferring a guy finished down my throat than in the condom. I didn’t fully understand why I wanted - needed that. Then with Prep, all of a sudden, realizing that I can have cocks erupt in my hole … it just flipped a switch. Made me realize how much I need those babies in me, the power of breeding, transfer of DNA, how natural and necessary it is. That what I crave more than anything else is the SEED. And how intense and sexy the act of that transfer is. It’s absolutely unlocked a different part of who I am and it’s been a journey realizing that it’s a natural desire and that I shouldn’t have guilt about it.

Another vote for team absorb. He chose my hole to breed and impregnate. Just imagining his swimmers inside me and his DNA being absorbed into my system is a huge part of the appeal of bareback gay fucking to me.

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