PaganzofLA
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Akbar then the Eagle I’m aiming to be on the floor under the urinal covered in piss and cum by 2am cum wish me a HAPPY FREAKIN BDAY
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Birthday Wish: More & Better I became a TOP by accident, that is a completly fair statement to make. Marginly verse at best, realisticly just fill it long, hard and make it hurt. Although my social awkwardness keeps me from getting laid as much as I need to, as a bottom, no complaints. I've had two long term relationships of over 15yrs each, and still adore these two men. In my 20's I was slave trained for a 6month intensive w/ a top shelf Dom that hardwired me as a default pain pig tie me the fuk up sub. Just before my 50th Birthday I had setteled into a comfortable egg casul sex routine w a few fuk buds in the mid 30's - 60 range. Until one day a 3sum arranged by my elder fuk bud much to my surprise was a 66; 49; 19 age ratio. Until this point in time there was nothing even romotely attractive about sniffing out a 19 yo waifish, slightly efeminine, 5'6 - 5'9" twink--(I've suggested in other posts I believe the legal age of conset should be raised a year to 19, but that's just me). Long story short the next few years I crossed over identified as a TOP and had very, very satisfying hardcore penerative playful lusty nasty naughty animal-magnetizm with a surprise tantric cherry on top kinda sex. Besides the Joy of Fucking itself, it would be the mindset I experience as a TOP ---for lack of a better discriptor---is the mindset of an adult, adult. Because I had essentially the most enlightened hardcore sub-training one could have (and this is a relativity new realization, which is another great story) as a default submissive my experiences subsequently are more about trying to direct that experience. The outcome is on par with asking a HAL9000 computer to Lie. And I wonder why the pod bay doors are all closing behind me… (continued)
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The best thing about my recent and ongoing encounter with home/houseless-ness is the necisity for constant attitude adjustment-and holistically so, so I too would like to bring balance to the LA hook-up scene. You supply the erection pill, powder or shot, and I will gladly TOP upon request, with any offerings of amenities big or small that might aid me in my journey towards upwards mobility. I love to TOP. It’s my most favorite thing in the world (crating manga is a distant second) although I’ve come into my TOP nature very late in the game (at age 49. I will turn 57 in about 56 minutes). I'll post an ode to my life as a TOP who needs to get back on the horse so to say... First cum first serve. I look forward to giving you exactly what you want from a TOP or as it may apply to some... a bit more.
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Paying attention it's hard NOT to notice how my own sense of decay parallels the rest of the shithouse going up in flames, fortunately I've lived in such mayhem for so long what's noticeable is everyone else's "quality of life" curve quickly descending towards my baseline. I guess it just makes it ALL that much easier for me to be the better man, and thank fucking god for that as I've gone from the frying pan of the treachery of self-loathing faggots to the fire of homelessness where those who crusade, do so because they never had much opportunity to connect internally with the luxury of self-loathing and project that shit externally--(and for that who can blame them). Christ like I shall become is ok with me, it makes sense, that is if it makes sense. Now take your pants off, get on your knees and lets get religious together. Considering it's my 57th fucking birthday I would ask ya'll to consider checking out my most recent publication, and if you have any peeps into queer manga send them off the link, give it a read let me know what you really think... [think before following links] [think before following links] https://www.drivethrurpg.com/en/product/512572/threshold-001
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Nice! Where do I join?
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Basically, yes, but what if just beneath that unknown we are to embrace there's something much more familiar than what we think. My economic theory was based on an episode of a ST Next Generation until I read Charles Eisenstein's Sacred Economics–––because before that in my mind money itself was the problem, but really it's not, it's those who have it and what they do with it (which means ALL of us, yes, but to whom much is given is the other part of that equation) And for this reason I tend to think your assumption might better be framed as, "what is it you wake-up every day chomping on the bit for?" I for one think the role of a cog is spot on. But I'm NOT your average Duck either. Capitalism needs to work better plain and simple. How does that happen? Regulations for one, but go ahead and open that pandora. Double dog dare ya... again my position is we can't rest, because we have an obligation to fix. FOR the past five years i have been subjected NOT just in a metaphorical sense, but in a real hands on demonstration of the problem we can't see because it's right in front of fucking faces. Yet most importantly I have list of action items longer than my dick typed out singl spacd with an 8pt font. For five years I've been subjected to a handful of individuals that are beyond just rich (measured in the financial sense of the word, yet some even in other senses too) who seem to have taken the vow that the more they rides buses and score food from food pantries somehow makes them more accountable, meanwhile they lie every second they can, initially having befriended me under false pretenses; plotting to have me evicted from the apartment i'm offering them shelter in. Why? Because they are adult children, that do not know how to manage what they been given. Next up, action items. ANYONE care to know, just ask. -
Perfectly loadable. Amen.
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111% fag
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Ok. I love this perspective you know exactly what you want and what works for you… Maybe it would play out differently between us, or maybe NOT… but ALL i know as a TOP is full service —is keeping you there emotionally, physically as equal until you allow me to dominate you, we spend the whole evening clowning around trading stories, trying on gear, roll playing, making out. And it’s your call, go through with it or NOT… and you see that I’m a good guy, and that this is about taking responsibility for ourselves and each other, because the intensity of the situation goes off the charts, and I’m going to make you feel vulnerable. And I’m gonna push that line, until you allow yourself to be overcome. I don’t want it to be easy. You shouldn’t necessarily enjoy every second of it, but you’ll never question who’s in control, and you be back the nextweekend and the one after that…
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I was late to Topping (late 40’s) but now that all a want to do… your referring to what I call it Marathon Style Breeding. And that takes training, and practice. I had only one rule. One the ride stars, thre’r
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What are you most optimistic about in political developments in 2025?
PaganzofLA replied to nanana's topic in LGBT Politics
Ok. Ok. Ok. So s3nsativ3 my bad. -
What are you most optimistic about in political developments in 2025?
PaganzofLA replied to nanana's topic in LGBT Politics
I AM NOT STEPPING OFF MY GODDAM SOAP BOX UNTIL I'VE SOME RESONANCE. THE LINE TO WALK IS DIFFICULT. 1.) IGNORE THE CLOWN SHOW ALTOGETHER WHILE 2.) PAYING ATTENTION TO WHATS HAPPENING, AND 3.) REBUILD THE NECESSARY INFRASTRUCTURE OURSELVES. THERE'S NO OTHER WAY THROUGH IT, IF THERE IS, OH, SHOW ME THE WAY TO THE NEXT WHISKY BAR, OH DON'T ASK WHY, OH, DON'T ASK WHY,,, -
...yet one more reason we need a new queer identity to emerge online. Queer real-estate on the www. before the rise of the hook-up/dating social networking craze, queer social media was trying to find it's legs, and IMHO despite it eventual, failing the Gay Social Media was a million times more appealing than anything there is currently available today. I need two other interested parties & I can knock over the first domino. The insanity is this: for the past for years I've had to scale shear face learning curves to even be able to approach what I'm proposing, at my own expense. Inadvertently, I created a platform though I set out to create an app. The platform can host multiple types of applications, and NOT only is it compatible with Web3 protocol, my MFB[x] Platform startles both web 2.0 & 3.0 (way past due) so it works like a web 2.5 ––and I think that step is absolutely necessary, because the development my "new" tech isn't really new it's more a significant 'reprioritization' of what we already have. If we build it, it will work better. If it works better people will want to use it, and if you can see the win-fall of that equation alone, then you might concur that is a much stronger foundation than even the titans of social media currently have. Why? Because it all Win Win. And why would anyone on this good earth think that's a bad idea?
