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My mistake, I was referring to old (early Feb) and preliminary data. You are correct that polls from last week are showing at 7% nationally. http://www.examiner.com/independent-in-national/the-scenario-that-puts-gary-johnson-the-white-house was one of the articles that was talking about 10%.

Johnson is going to win New Mexico. He has a strong shot at winning Colorado and Arizona as well. Granted that trio cannot win the Presidency however he is polling in the 10-12% range right now and if he gets in on the Presidential debates (NBC, CNN and Fox requirements are polling at 10% to be included) then I would counter that with him getting a substantial part of the vote. Moreso if the fight comes down to Obama and Romney since they are 2 sides of the same coin. He is very different than those 2 on a number of issues. that being said, I'm glad Obama has done some work for gay rights but in the sum of the parts across all of his platforms, he lied and leaves a trail of broken promises behind him. From transparency in government to the Affordable Care Act (aka Obamacare) and how un-transparent that process was and how full of special interests it was to continued crony leadership in government and his starkly partisan positions and finally his caving every time the Republicans flap their arms...he's just not a great leader.

Obama has broken a lot of promises though. Granted, 2010 moderated him to some degree kinda like the Republican landslide in 1994 moderated Clinton but Obama has broken a vast majority of his campaign promises. He's also buckled on a great number of initiatives where the GOP has pretended it was a brick wall. Obama has also significantly failed to address the running deficit and while I'm no fan of the Paul Ryan budget because of what it doesn't do, the fact is Obama has still failed there. I think that either Buddy Roemer (AE likely candidate) or Gary Johnson (Lib candidate) are the likely best choices despite the fact that both of these men were very recently RINOs. The cess pool that is US politics won't change until we get legitimate 3rd parties into congress and force coalition-like Congresses much like the rest of the social democracies in Europe are (the United States is a social republic no matter how hard people cry about how evil "socialism" is) to get things done. The three "independents" are just ®'s and (D)'s that lost their seats to upstarts and not really independents.

As far as both studies I'm in can tell, I have no viral load at all (experimental tests along with the conventional tests that zero out at less than 48 copies/mL) but anti-bodies are very front and center. When I converted my viral load was almost 100k but within 3 months was below 1000 and by the 4th month was undetectable and I've been that way ever since (thus why I'm in 2 studies). That was 4.5 years ago. CD4s are over 800. Never taken a single pill, ever, for HIV. I get tested every month, twice, for free as well as genetic typing/testing.

A better candidate would be Gary Johnson who is a) proven at an executive level (state of New Mexico) a fiscal conservative c) socially more liberal than Obama d) will push to legalize gay marriage and rights at a federal level e) legalize marijuana and get rid of jail for "personal" offenses on other drugs (but mandatory treatment instead). He is running as the Libertarian candidate, is polling at about 10-12% right now and once he's on the podium and you have the Obamney clones looking like tools, he'll shine like a star.

I would absolutely destroy and tear up that little ass of yours boy. Mmmhhh.

I've rarely looked at the bottoms cock. Granted most of the time I'm fucking some anonymous stranger in a dark room but when there is light, I love to watch my cock slip in and out of a hole, ass lips clinging to my shaft on the backstroke and the ass swallowing my cock whole when I push in.

Was getting high with some friends last night in Toronto and the subject of unfulfilled sexual desires and fantasies came up. Since we were talking fantasy, there were no limits on the subject matter. Some of it was too fucked up for public consumption (I didn't care but others will) but I thought I'd share the lone thing left for me to "conquer". Let me state, at the end of the day what I propose is both consensual and not meant to be overtly violent but obviously blurs the line between both. I want to meet a closeted married guy, one who usually is in a position of power, trust and a "community pillar" but wants to submit. Maybe I cruise him, maybe we meet up at a porn store, a club or what not. It turns out he's a filthy little cum pig and whores his hole out as a role reversal from his everyday life. My offer to him is the ultimate in being degraded, used and submission: I arrange him to be kidnapped and held, used and destroyed over the course of a weekend. He doesn't know when, who is going to make off with him or what all will actually happen. We pick a safe word now and I strongly suggest he memorizes it and doesn't forget. Then I don't see him again for at least a month and maybe he forgets about our arrangement. when he doesn't expect it, maybe walking to his car in the garage after work or late one night while being a little anonymous and dark room cumwhore in a club/spa, two unknown people bumrush him, blindfold him and drug him. when he comes to, he is bound, ballgagged and stripped naked in a prone position. for the next 3 days is is bred, pissed on, forcibly intoxicated (crank, alcohol, tar, etc) and used by myself and a cabal of equally twisted and sick motherfuckers. When we are done with him between sessions, we lock him in a 10x10 cement room that has only a shower and a shitter. His hands are bound in front of him with metal cuffs, the room is nearly dark and his only escape is when we give him slop for food, bring him out to use him or pump more toxins into his blood. Meanwhile we videotape the entire weekend of degrading filth and make him aware of the existence of such evidence. What's worse is that more than once he is seen enjoying if not encouraging the use of his body as a cum deopsitory. During this time he is repeatedly and often brutally face fucked, gang fucked, has hours long trains pulled on him, fed stimulants to keep him going and to dull the ache that comes from being powerfucked over and over, fisted, choked, used as a toilet, spit on, slapped, posed, etc. Every load unleashed is either in his throat or up his ass with the ignorance as to the toxicity of each load and whether or not he is getting knocked up or not. He is largely denied his own orgasm until we are done for the night, often resulting in achy balls that need their release. His cock is kept caged and in full chastity, his balls are constantly spread and sometimes abused. His hair is pulled, his ass is red from all of the hand smacks and his body put through the ringer, all for the pleasure of some sadistic tops who love to own their bottoms completely. Finally, after one final furious session that leaves his hole gaping, bloodied and oozing cum, lube, spit and crisco (from the rough fisting of course), reeking of stale piss and sweat, bruises from hands around his throat and his cock still caged and locked with no key in sight, we drug him one last time to knock him out and leave him in a public place naked and with no ID. Publicly he acts humiliated and embarrassed but deep down inside his inner whore now needs something more extreme for his next adventure. At the same time he lives in fear that his secret, exposed on the video, is out there waiting to expose him for the cum dumpster and piss pig that he really is. And I will use that for leverage when I feel the need for a cruel streak again... Moral of the story, I'm actually a nice guy and while I appreciate all the bottoms who take my loads and I enjoy the occasional rough fuck, I think it would be fun to just completely let loose and just wreck somebody...with their permission of course. I honestly don't think I could go that far but it's fun to fantasize about it. I think ultimately I'm too nice to go to that level of degradation of another human being. But I guess you never know right? It wouldn't even have to be that upright "moral" character type, it would just be fun as well as easy to both corrupt him and hold something like that over his head for a future degrading sessions...damn, after writing this wish I had a tight hole sitting on my lap and milking my cock.

I'm mixed. Sometimes I like being the first to drop a load in the hole because I get more feeling on my cock from the semi-dry/lubed hole. thats not to say that a sloppy wet hole full of cum can't be fun. It certainly adds a degree of nasty to it but if I had an immediate preference, I prefer to go first.

You just can't be fully aroused. You can but it's very difficult to urinate when the cock is fully engorged/hard. Flip side is it's difficult to fuck ass without being fully hard. He should wait until he really has to piss, get fluffed so that he's hard but not raging/throbbing and then try.

First off, that's a really broad brush you are painting people here with. Are there guys with no self-concern and have a death wish? Sure. There are hetero's that way too. Are there men here that don't have any concern for their fellow man? I would be surprised if there weren't any but again, that's not exclusive to the gay community. The reality is, a lot of people don't like condoms, they have incredibly high sex drives and HIV is still sadly a very poorly understood virus by the community at large. I agree that HIV is not an easy life for a lot of people. Some folks want it for the wrong reasons. Others know that it's inevitable given their lifestyle. It doesn't mean they want to die (although reading Bugshare...fuck that's a dark place). Think of it like this: people jump out of airplanes, off buildings, off bridges, eat bizarre food, do stupid stunts (like Jackass) that have high risk of extreme bodily harm and so on. Barebacking, in its most base form, is not really any different. Yes, the results and risks are different but it's partly the thrill, the rush and the excitement just like those other activities. If someone doesn't want HIV (or any STD for that matter), they shouldn't be barebacking outside of a monogamous relationship...period. It's not rocket science. If you fuck bare and act like a whore, eventually you will catch something. That's part of the risk. If people are deluding themselves to think that every guy is going to be honest (and knowledgeable) about their own status and think trust is enough to avoid getting pozzed, that's on them. Beyond that, negs and unknowns who fuck poz or unknown guys are taking a calculated risk. It has nothing to do with "hating" themselves or "wanting to die".

Masturbation is a great way to train yourself. Just rub yourself to the second before the point of no return, let the feeling subside, rinse and repeat. Don't do it too many times in one night or you'll get a serious case of the blue balls and it might actually hurt to cum. Do this over long periods of time and eventually you'll be able to both control your response and better gauge your excitement level. that and age. When I was in my early 20s I had no control over my dick. Now that I'm in my late 30s, I can fuck for as long as I want and I control when I nut...that is unless it's just a super hot hole I'm plunging into and the view is too much. It's rare that I find a bottom that makes me unload on its terms but it does happen.

It's not all fantasy Pablo, not on this forum and not in the clubs/bathhouses/etc. I'm not a typhoid mary because I'm on the road to being classified as an elite controller. Genetically I'm very rare in the fight against HIV so in that regard, other than the initial despair of finding out my status, HIV has never really been a health issue for me. I don't stealth, ever. Anyone I fuck knows my status but I am also shooting blanks and the likelihood of me ever pozzing anyone, while not absolute zero, is pretty damn close to zero (unless it turns out I'm a LTNP and my immunity suddenly fails but I get tested monthly for free as part of two study on controllers so I'll know pretty quickly if I'm actually toxic). My lone regret is with traditional relationships. I'm obviously bi-sexual in that I fuck men and for the past few years, fairly exclusively. But I would like to settle down, do the kids thing and live that so-called "white picket fence" life with the Mrs. and my 2.5 kids. That is difficult when you are HIV+, even if you are beyond healthy and not actually toxic. I don't do relationships with men, I do with women. So on the latter, both my fear of rejection and the reality of my disease make that life very difficult to obtain. That and I'm on the road 3+ weeks out of every month so that kinda fucks me too. But back to the "fantasy" aspect, I've had guys get a little more wild in the club scene when they hear about my status. Yes, there are some guys that are turned off or move on but to be 100% honest, they tend to be the exception and not the norm. Granted I go to places where my odds are greatly improved but that doesn't stop guys who are neg or unknown from taking my load.

there is nothing worse than dumping my load in a scumbag. I mean it's a total waste. I'd rather blow a load in some fucker's mouth than I would see my cum getting stale in a rubber. Cum is so much hotter and more useful when it is pouring out of a gaped and well fucked mancunt. To each their own though.

Saturday night I was cruisin and locked eyes with this college aged looking twink. Usually I'm not about the twink look, it's just not my type, but for reasons unknown we just "clicked" from across the room. Small talk led to some fondling and him grinding his denim covered ass against my likewise denim covered cock. We left the bar and went to Steamworks, I sprung for a room and locker and in we went. Little fucker was talking all nasty, telling me how his ass was aching to be stretched, he was hungry for cum, couldn't wait to get powerfucked, etc. Left the door to the room open (I like an audience) and he laid down on the table so that his head was hanging off the edge. I throat fucked him and to his credit, he took the entire length of my cock without a) biting gagging c) struggling I throat fucked him for a bit. I thought he was tapping out at one point so I pulled out and to my surprise, he asked "is that the best you got?". I guess I was being gentle so in his throat my cock went again only I literally fucked his face while working his nipples really hard. Finally got him to gag and spit a bit but that only encouraged me to push down harder with my hips. With his face a beet red and some tears streaming, I backed off. His throat slime covered my cock, a bunch of spittle fell out of his mouth and I had him get on all fours. I ate his clean shaven cunt and pushed my tongue deep in him for a bit while spreading and smacking his ass cheeks. Once I felt he was sufficientl lubed I placed my uncovered cockhead right up against his swollen pucker and he just pushed back. We had 2 or 3 guys watching by this point and I just sunk myself to the hint in his ass. He had good muscle control, squeezed me and was tight but not so tight he struggled to get me in there. Started off with some slow strokes to get him comfortable but again, he started off with the insults and said, "I wanted to get fucked and if you're not up to the task, go away and let me find a real man". Ooookkkkay. To quote Barney on HIMYM, challenge accepted. Started to power fuck him with jackhammer strokes. Kept pulling my cock completely out of his ass and jamming it hard back into his gaping hole. Every time I did that I'd spit on his red and wide open hole and just go all the way to my balls inside of him. Little fucker was still talking trash so I got up on the bed/table with him so that I was hunched over him, pulled his hair back and continued to jackhammer him. More shit talk later I fishhooked him on both sides of his mouth and started driving him into the table with my strokes. I was determined to break him but I would be lying if I said I wasn't working up a sweat myself. Flipped him on his back (he was on all 4s) and face fucked him again to which I got a great amount of throat noise and even more throat slime on my cock an on his face. After some face rape I put his ankles on my shoulders, one hand around his throat and my cock back where it belonged and delivered one of the most brutal power fucks I think I've ever given. About 5 minutes of just hard as I could thrusting with my hand alternating on closing on his throat and then slapping him. Little fucker finally said mercy and that's when I unloaded my nuts inside of his ass. I broke him. I won. My cock was covered with spit, lube and some blood mixed with cum. His hole was a disaster and wasn't going to close up any time soon. Got a few "fuck yeah's" from the crowd that had gathered but I was done. So was he. He thanked me and said he needed that. I told him I had to piss and again, surprising me, he got on his knees, opened his mouth and closed his eyes. Who am I to say no? got his hair, his mouth, his chest...the guy was awash with my piss. On my way to clean up ran into another bottom who wanted a grudge fuck like that but I was spent. Worked the little twink bitch over for nearly 30 minutes. I just wanted to curl up and go to sleep. I was so satisfied from that fuck that I didn't even need to jerk off on Sunday. However 2 days without fucking...not happening. Gonna go cruise Church Street tonight and hopefully land some Monday night mancunt to fill with my cum.

Just the opposite in my case. I was in the ICU during my seroconversion and was sick for over a month. 4.5 years later I'm UD and not on meds at all (never have been).

I can tell you that as a top, it feels worlds better. It's not psychological either. I've used those "thin" condoms before but you don't get the same tactile sensation from the walls of your bottom's ass that you do if you are wearing a scumbag. You can literally feels the ridges of the inside of your bottom's ass. You can better feel him opening up as the head of your cock stretches his ass pipe. On the backstroke you can literally feel his asslips clinging to your cock, almost willing you to push back in (not to mention the sight). It's warmer. Its wetter. I just feels all around better.

slang for the one doing the penetration catching the bug. It's rare and goes against normal germ transmission.

If you are having 2nd thoughts you can a) do it but with condoms don't do it If you're the one fucking, the risk is low. very low. it's not 0% though and the highest concentration of virus is in "ass juice" aka the mucous lining in the rectum and colon (if you go that deep). If you are the one being fucked, obviously the risk is significantly higher but that will depend on his VL (and if he's telling you the truth). ART, when taken religiously, should take the patient to undetectable levels. Obviously people don't get testing every day so VL can go up and down depending on a variety of factors. At the end of the day, though, this is a decision you have to make based on risk vs reward. If this is a conquest and you can live with the risk (and possible results) of fucking someone with HIV, go for it. Otherwise stick with the neg guys. I caught my virus from an upstream infection. It happens. It was also a woman but that's another story...

I'm not super hardcore into painal but I am blessed/cursed with a meaty cock that has taken more than one hole by surprise. Unless the hole is lubed up (preferably with a load already in there) I'm not one of those guys that just stabs away and hopes for the best. There is a time and a place for rough/dry/brutal ass fuckings. I certainly don't mind pushing a bottom past his comfort zone if that is something he consents to but while the occasional "ooohhh, ouch" can be fun, more often than not it's a boner killer for me.

I prefer very anonymous sex and dark rooms at bath houses give me just that. I can sink my cock into a hole, see if it's where I want to pop and if not, no commitment or being harassed to finish the job. Likewise, after I unload, if it was a great fuck it's a good memory but I don't have to worry about being hounded to hook up again.

not a fan myself. I have no problem maintaining a rigid erection akin to when I was 18 so there goes that reason why. However I have a thick shaft and an above average ballsack so finding something comfortable is also a different task. Just not for me.

As a top, I really enjoy a "clinger". That is on every backstroke, his ass lips or the inside of his cunt clings to the shaft of my cock. It's strictly a visual thing but I fucking love seeing that. I did fuck a bottom last year that was too gaped. I literally could almost jerk my own cock off inside of him he was so fucking loose.

I don't argue that for a second which is why I said there is only 20 years of research with ARTs. I have no doubt that ART will get better over time but absolutely agree that science and medicine don't know enough yet to say what happens next. It's why I said, Just not to the level of detail you specified. But you are spot on.

Being POZ means a lot of things. First off, jerk off and get it out of your system for a second and if need be, rub a second one out if you are still horny. The most important thing you can do here is think with the head on your shoulders and not your dick head. For starters, you will have a communicable virus, one that by definition will eventually kill you*. HIV can come with a lot of complications. It can also be something that never bothers you. Point is, you won't know until you actually get the virus. ART has come a long way since its inception in the early 90s. The side effects aren't as bad, they are more effective today than ever before and you potentially could live a very normal life provided you are religious with your therapy. The alternative is to not take ART until you CD4s get into dangerous territory (around 250-300) but there's a lot of medical theory regarding latent HIV storage, artificial aging, memory loss (debated but not debunked) and so on. you are also at a very high risk of getting opportunistic infections that don't bother 99% of the population if you aren't on ART and your immune system is further compromised. Or you could be that 4-5% that is a LTNP or even that less than 1% that is a controller (I'm on the road to being classified as an elite controller in a few years as an example). The fact is, you just don't know. Personally, I'm less afraid of HIV than I am of HPV and the bacterial family of infections. Just know that if you have HIV, some bacterial infections are not only harder to treat, they hit you harder as well. On the flip side, once you have HIV that's it, you have it and no longer need to sweat about it or spend time worrying if you are getting POZed or not. Only you can decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing and nobody else can really make that decision for you. Again using myself as an example, I wasn't seeking HIV nor did I really want it but by fucking a stripper bareback I consented to the risk of catching it. I now know how that story turned out. So understand that if you fuck bare and moreso if you take loads in your ass, you are consenting to the risk of being infected. Make no mistake though, it will change your life. How is up to you and those around you. A lot of folks in your life may not understand so that makes disclosure a dicey thing. Not sure about your kids and their age but it is something your ex-wife could use against you (it's a stretch but it happens). Again, just empty your nuts once or twice and really have some serious self-reflection time. Think about how this could affect all the facets of your life. Consider the cost of ART if you go down that path (even with insurance it's expensive as fuck) and if you can be religious about keeping your regimen. If you conclude that you can live with this and the possible side effects both financially and from a health standpoint, become a little whore piggy and get your brains fucked out and enjoy the ride. Just don't let your cock think for you (hypocrite here, god knows I let it think for me all the fucking time) when it comes to this very important decision. There is no going back. *By definition, HIV untreated will kill you. Using Magic Johnson as a very public example, however, ART is very effective and survival rates are in excess of 20 years now (because that's the upper limit of how long ART has been available). Beyond that is still unknown but just keep in mind that HIV is still the path to AIDS and with HIV can come other health complications.