If I had to choose between being NEG and POZ, I'd choose to be NEG, but I wouldn't change anything that I've done to make that choice. I guess I just wish that I had been luckier.
Actually, if I had it to do all over again, I'd have played it LESS safe. I used to be so picky about who I fucked because I was afraid of HIV. I wouldn't fuck guys that were too thin, or too old, or too eager because the old myths as I was growing up was that that's how you got it. From 16-21, I only fucked 4 guys, and I could have fucked a lot more, but I was too scared. I never used condoms, but I thought I was protecting myself by being selective.
After that I started fucking around a lot more after hearing constantly that bare tops have about the same risk as safe bottoms, and I must have fucked 100 guys between 2001-2006 and didn't convert until sometime in 2007 or 2008 when I was in a relationship and considerably less active.
IF I was a bottom, I'm not sure what I would've done. As a top, I can't get hard with a rubber, so they've never been an option.