So I don't really know where to start. I guess you would say I am bisexual. I am attracted physically to women and have only dated them. I have fucked around with just as many guys as girls though. With guys though it is purely sexual I enjoying sucking cock, swallowing loads, rimming, and being fucked with some occasional me fucking or getting sucked. I just love cum and knowing that I made a guy cum with my mouth or ass is what makes me happy. I have only fucked bareback I enjoy the feel and reward of cum straight not having to worry about a condom. I am left with a dilemma though I know the risks fucking around bb with stds and HIV. Luckily so far I have stayed negative but it's also not easy to find clean honest guys. I have even been talking to some undetectable and guys who don't care. I haven't hooked up with them yet since I don't know if I want to take that risk and step of becoming poz. I don't even know what advice I am looking for I guess I just need to figure out what I want and what I am. To me it seems like I am a heterosexual man who wants to be a submissive fucktoy for men if that even makes sense. Thank you for reading and any advice maybe I'm not the only one who feels this way.