I was a late starter with anal. I loved to suck but I'd been brought up with the whole "spunk will kill you" mantra of the 80s.
But I was desperate to feel a cock inside me. I always wanted it to be bare. Why bother if you dont take the load? Use a dildo!
In my life I've taken two rubbered cocks and hated it... the whole point of being fucked for me was to take the load inside me.
After the first dick though I was addicted. To the point that even now, if I don't get at least a load a week, minimum, I genuinely start to feel down.
But of course I convinced myself that I was a smart bottom. I chose guys that only topped. I chose guys who had negative in profiles. I avoided poz guys - even, later, the undetectable ones. I believed the guys who said they were negative.
Buy it just didn't properly feed my addiction. It didn't quiet the slut. It simply wasn't enough.
I *needed* to be the slut that I am. So, I began to stop asking.
I stopped looking at their profiles. I mean I didn't care what they looked like. A slut isn't choosy!
And still it wasn't enough.
Finally giving myself to every cock offered as long as it was bare was the thing that finally made me happy. Going to saunas and bending over for every guy who wanted me - but actively rejecting those who wanted to wear a rubber. Almost aggressively seeking out bb.
Going to cum unions.
I crave quantity over quality. I'd prefer 5 low quality, fast, pump and dumps from 5 complete strangers over one good fuck from someone i lnow. I know most guys are the opposite but it is my ethos and it's in my DNA. I am a slut. I'm proud to be a slut. I'm here to take loads. As many as physically possible.
I stopped caring about what might happen and started getting what my psyche screamed for.
I test regularly now of course.
It took years between being afraid, to being able to accept what I wanted to be, but fuck me it made me happy when I got there.
I'd love to know your journeys to full slut as a top or bottom.