backdoorjimmy

I consider myself a feminist, too, and I agree with you on the point about universally applying patriarchy messing things up. We see it in every aspect of our lives, but there are definitely top women (dominatrix, etc.). When I think about that dynamic outside of the bedroom, I look no further than my own family. My mother is the most in-charge person I know outside of my grandmother. I also think about strong women leaders who serve in politics and in the military. I really like this perspective - it's not that I'm not being submissive, I'm just being what/who I am. That's actually comforting to hear. Not because I'm uncomfortable with what I did, but because it empowers me to stay in the space where I'm most comfortable. The example of natural law (opposites attract) is a good one, though I agree that the dynamic of dom/sub is way more complex than that. In my example, I know what I like in a man. My bf could see what I needed from him on an emotional level and filled that for me. lol..I don't think I could get by in a relationship with another total bottom. In a lot of ways, my boyfriend is a dominant bottom, but he let's his inner top come through to keep me satisfied. It's incredible to talk to him sometimes and hear about the previous partners he's had, and how they've all spoiled him in the ways only a top can spoil a bottom. But he's more than comfortable in his role in our relationship, which I'm grateful for. It feels so surreal to read it, but it's the truth. I guess I didn't exactly manipulate him into using me as a toilet because if I would have picked up on any discomfort or disgust I would have backed out immediately. I have a need for him (and all men) to want to be with me and around me, and if he would have disapproved I would have been too nervous to try to pressure him into going further. I the beginning, I was excited that he let me hold and aim his dick into the toilet, and I was hopeful that it would lead to me being the toilet. But I was also convinced that it was too good to be true and that at some point he'd put up a barrier that would make us stop short of me opening up for his piss load. In a way, that's where I am with him now. Not using manipulation, but knowing that he's probably on the outer edges of his comfort zone. It's naughty and exciting, but this is where it stops for him. And even though I want to take things to the next level, that would be a step too far for him and has the potential to scare him off.

I've always seen myself as a sub bottom, even before I had sex. I didn't know what a bottom was but I knew I was one. In my relationship with my boyfriend I'm definitely the sub. But there's more going on between us than the dynamic in the bedroom. There's the way he takes charge of everything, from holding doors to ordering for me when we're in the drive thru without asking what I want. It dominates almost every part of our relationship and it spills over into the WS realm. When I was flirting with the idea of asking him to pee for me, I was terrified that he'd reject me and walk out on me. I posted here asking for advice and started slow. Holding his dick while he peed, then encouraging him to pee on me in the shower. Then it was asking him to pee in my hair on his way out the door, or pee all over my ass while I was wearing clothes. It was 100% submissive, but in a strange way I was taking on the assertive roll because I was guiding him to my ultimate goal of him pissing in my mouth. I think he would have gone there a lot sooner if it weren't for my fear of rejection. He could tell something was on my mind but I didn't know how to say it tactfully. I wanted him to know that I was fantasizing about being his full time toilet but it was a hard thing to admit. So I took a different approach and it paid off. Funny enough, he was a total bottom before we met. He only fucked me for the first time because we were at the same party and everyone was taking turns in my ass. He was so turned on that he mounted me and fucked me, then we started seeing each other every single day. We both see other guys and he's strictly a cum slut unless he's with me. I still haven't confessed everything I want from him, but I have a feeling he knows and is waiting for me to lead him there, but it's scary. Pretty much everyone in my life probably knows that I'm a sub-bottom. Even my mom knows. Sometimes I wonder if it's related to the daddy issues I had growing up. I longed for a bond with my dad but he passed away when I was 4 and I don't have any memories of him. I used to snuggle into men's sides and was especially worried about being obedient when my mom was dating because I longed for that approval. On the other hand, I'm even submissive at work and around other family members. So it's ingrained in me, and it just feels right to be a sub-bottom. Being marked by my lovers is just another way for me to express that position in the bed and in life.

I'm not into age play either, but I'd be lying if I said that my desire to be a toilet wasn't connected to my childhood. I have memories going back to before I was in elementary school of being a bed wetter and pants wetter, too. And as I got older I would lay in bed and tell myself stories about it - some of them were real memories and others were stories I made up about going to the bathroom in my pants on purpose. Looking back I know now that I was just fantasizing about something that had become a fetish for me. When I was in 5th grade I started staying home alone without a babysitter and used my time alone to live out those fantasies and indulge my fetishes. It wasn't sexual at all at the time; I thought I was just being naughty. I would intentionally go to the bathroom in my pants and go about my afterschool routine - homework, getting a snack, watching YouTube clips on my phone. Then I'd toss my wet, stinking clothes in the hamper and change into a clean pair of pants before or after my mom came home from work. The first time she caught me in the act she asked me to tell her what I was doing and I just spilled my guts to her and she let it go. After that I didn't have to hide it anymore. Over the years I realized that it was about more than just wanting to be naughty. I was able to recognize the feelings that I got from engaging in that kind of play. I still love to pee my pants, especially when I'm horny or stressed out. It gives me a feeling that I can't explain. Sometimes I just let a few spurts out in my pants when I'm in public and no one knows. Other times I totally soak my pants on "accident" at home or on purpose if I'm alone. My mom knows fully about this and sometimes she'll bring it up when my room starts stinking, or if she catches me in the act of it when I'm not expecting her to walk in. But it's been almost 10 years since she caught me the first time and she knows that it's just something I do. When I'm really lucky my bf will come over and use me as his toilet. It took a long time to get him there, but he's gotten into the routine of coming over and taking his full leak in my mouth while I kneel in front of him in the tub. It gives me that same feeling I used to get when I was little and would lay in bed fantasizing about going to the bathroom in my pants and I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I spent the night with my men and got my ass stroked out by all three of them. I was feeling a little conflicted because I hadn't seen my bf in a couple days but he came over yesterday and we spent some time together. We've both been in a ho stroll and enjoying it but with the coronavirus we've had to stop. We ended up fucking and it was magical because I love him so much, but it's not the same as it is when I sleep with my three tops. I hate to say it but it's about their size and the way they go deep in my pussy. My bf is super tender with me and wants me to smile all the time - my men bring a smile to my face by wrecking my ass with their big dicks. When he left I hurried over to see my men and they treated me to their dicks. I fell asleep a satisfied pussyboy and slept as the little spoon with my favorite of the three. He woke me up early when he got up to pee so I followed him to the bathroom. When we got back in bed I hit on him and he fucked me into the mattress - now I'm up and cooking breakfast for him while he rests up. I've come to realize that my heart belongs to my bf but my ass belongs to my three tops.

I don't use regular lube anymore. When I'm going out to get laid I finger vaseline into my ass and it makes everything so much better. I've never tried poppers before but a lot of the guys who I've hooked up with have offered them to me.

I enjoy a quickie, too. Last Tuesday I was called over to his house while I was mowing my lawn. We fucked for 5 minutes and I didn't even take my pants all the way off. After he bred me I pulled my pants up and went home to finish the lawn so I could take a shower and head back over for the night.

I love it when someone I feel a connection to is inside me and I can process all the ways I'm into him. If he's got me on my back with my legs in the air, fucking me while we kiss, it's powerful.

Nice! The three guys I'm seeing now are hung and the one that eats blue chews is massively hung. I was intimidated by him and his dick the first time I met him. But he's so tender and has an amazing stroke game. He also loves to eat ass, so sometimes a session with him can turn into an all morning romp with his mouth on my ass and his dick in my mouth, then his dick in my ass and his tongue in my mouth.

I don't mind the shorter fucks when I'm feeling ultra slutty and wanting a bunch of different dicks and loads up my ass. But a longer lay is always my preference.

I started using vaseline in my hole when I know I'm going to be fucked for a while. It makes me so slick that I don't have to take a break unless I get a cramp in my thigh or something. Depending on how good the top is in bed, 15 minutes can give me two or more assgasms.

When I'm in full slut mode, I love getting fucked by a bunch of different guys and don't really pay attention to how long it takes. But for me to keep a regular fwb they have to be able to go for at least 10 - 15 minutes or else it'll turn into a more casual/occasional thing.

I was 13 when I started noticing pubic hairs. It was sometime in the middle of Christmas break when I was in 8th grade.

One of the guys who services my ass eats blue chews a couple times a week and it makes him last forever. Even after he's blown his load he can keep going. I've been really spoiled by it and realize that I like it when he goes for an hour or more. I thought my ass would get sore but it doesn't - instead it just feels more sensual the longer he goes. My legs get sore and sometimes they cramp up, but my ass feels really good and even hungry for more intercourse. I find myself wishing that he could do that for me every single day, but the blue chews give him a headache and I don't want him to be uncomfortable. Fellow bottoms or guys who bottom from time to time, what's your preference? Do you like a top that finishes fast or do you need a good, long lay to leave you satisfied?

White guy here. I answered in the poll with micropenis, but to be honest, it's that way because I don't get hardons. I used to get hard but I haven't had an erection since I was 14. It's an awkward thing to mention because it usually comes with a bunch of questions that I don't have the answer to. When my ass starts to get next-level horny it feels like my dick goes inside my skin. So in its regular form (not hiding) it's about an inch long. When I'm horny and it hides, it can get smaller.

I took my first anonymous load on my 18th birthday. I was dying to get on grindr for years but didn't want to screw anyone over by initiating sex with an adult. Almost exactly at midnight on May 29, 2017, I downloaded grindr from the playstore and created my account. I got hit up by a bunch of guys almost immediatey - a bunch of bottoms and about 4 tops. My mom was sleeping and it was a school night but I snuck out through the kitchen into the garage and drove to meet someone in a grocery store parking lot. We went behind the building and I could see the cars going by on the interstate while we made out, then we got out of the car and he fucked me for about a minute and came in my ass. We both pulled our pants up and he drove away, then he blocked me on grindr and I never heard from him again.

Yes, in a positive and negative way. Last week I was hooking up as much as I could with anyone who wanted to fuck me. This week I'm off work and isolated to three or four guys who I feel good about being with and not worrying about Coronavirus. But it's positive because all 5 of us are in the same boat and I can have my ass satisfied whenever I want to. When this all calms down I can start my slut stroll again.

True. And right now we're kind of all we have. Thanks to this stupid coronavirus I've been sent home from work for two weeks and there''s a rumor that the same thing is going to happen to them, even though they work outdoors. Since I'm not getting any other cock until everything calms down, I'm hoping they'll spend as much time plowing my ass as possible.

I'm a total beta and love it. When I was in middle and high school, guys used to call each other pussy and betamale all the time. It didn't sound like an insult to me because I like being submissive to other guys. I never tried to hide my dick in the bathroom like other guys did because I like having a small dick and I want other people to see it. I didn't just run around showing it off but it gave me thrill when I knew other guys could see how tiny it was. When a man takes total control of everything it just turns me on. There's nothing more attractive to me than laying on my back with my legs open while a top picks my feet up so he can position my ass where he wants it for sex. I know he's in total control of both our pleasure, and his dick is calling all the shots.

It really was. Even though it's been two days and I've had sex with all three of them since then, I'm still kinda reeling from Saturday night. Sometimes it feels like I struggle to explain my bottom orientation to people because I don't outwardly present as feminine. I'm the kind of guy who can work on a car and dig a ditch, but I also have a feminine side that needs to be expressed. I'll install your ceiling fans for you, but later I'll want a man to hold a door for me and wrap his arm around me while we ride in his truck. I'm pretty much out of the closet at home as a total bottom, but I'm also a dirty boy who loves to wear the same underwear for a week and skip a few showers. Idk if that makes sense and sometimes it confuses me too. But when I'm around my men they treat me like the delicate femboy that I want to be sometimes.

Last night I had a really powerful moment that I feel put everything into perspective for me as a bottom. For the last 3 months I've been seeing three roommates that I met on grindr. They just live a few blocks over from me - the oldest one is in his late 40's and super hung and the other two are 18 and 27 and are both hung, too. I know I got lucky by meeting them and it's a daily thing for me to go over to their house and spend time. Lately I've been having strong feelings for the oldest one. I call him big daddy and he calls me his little prince. It just makes my heart flutter when he holds me and he does little things that make me smile. Last week he let me keep his doo rag while he was at work and yesterday he washed my car for me when the sun came out. I think the other two have noticed how he treats me and were starting to feel bad about it so I made it a point to spend some alone time with each of them. I want to give them my full attention and make sure they're satisfied before I go to see my big daddy. I was over there yesterday and had a nice makeout session with the 27 year old. I played with his dick and gave him some head to get him hard. Right away I appreciated how big he was and then looked down at my soft little dick. Eventually he flipped me over and ate me out before he lubed me up and fucked me. While my stud was fucking me, big daddy came into the room and just watched from the door. He was playing with himself while he watched me get railed. He waited for my stud to finish, then he came to the bed and laid down next to me so we could makeout while my stud sat on the side of the bed and watched. While we were kissing I ran my fingers along the length of his dick, then pushed my crotch up to his to show off the difference in size. I don't know why it meant so much to me but it felt like the most important thing in the world for them to see how much bigger their dicks were than mine. My dick is always soft and when I get super horny it goes into the skin while my ass shivers. After that he rolled me on my back and put more lube in my ass, then he took his turn piping me down. While he was hammering my cunt the only thing I could concentrate on was the size of their dicks compared to mine and it made me orgasm hard. After I took his load the youngest one came in and we fucked while the older two talked about how proud I was to show off my little dick. It made me feel so feminine and complete that they were talking about me that way. Big daddy pointed out that my softie wasn't even as big as the end of their thumbs and it made me orgasm again. After I took that last load we spent the rest of the night walking around naked. I feel like I was in my proper place as a bottom with my satisfied ass on display while my small dick was hiding in its skin and in my pubes. I spent the night with big daddy and felt complete knowing that I'd brought attention to the huge difference in our dick sizes.

I had my very first incest experience recently. I've been wanting to hook up with my cousin for a while. I've been seeing his grindr profile for months and I came really close to making my move over the holidays but backed out because I was so nervous and scared. We finally did something about a week ago and it was better than I thought. We started by making out then I blew him in his garage. He came over the next day and fucked me and it felt like all of my dreams were coming true. I'm hoping we can get together again soon. He's staying inside because my uncle had the flu and they want to make sure it isn't coronavirus so I'm not getting anymore of his dick for at least another 10 days.