backdoorjimmy

I don't think I can ever explain all the reasons why sucking dick makes me so happy. I just love it. The best thing I can say is that I love having a mouthful of manhood. I love moaning submissively while a man's dick is throbbing and leaking in my mouth. When a man is using my throat like a fleshlight and I'm gagging and drooling uncontrollably it makes me feel like I'm in my proper place as a pussyboy. When he cums at a time of his choosing while my little dick is shriveled up and hiding in the skin, it reminds me that he's the alpha. It also reminds me that I'm the beta. That everyone in my life, from the men who use me to my family and even everyone at work, knows I'm the beta.

Not me. I love sucking dick but I need anal. My ass is my only sexual organ so not having it fucked would drive me up the wall.

My very first grindr hook up was behind a grocery store in full view of the interstate. I was so turned on that I pulled my pants all the way off and was bent over naked while cars drove by. After he came in me I sucked him clean before we pulled our pants up and left. I thought the people driving by couldn't see us because it was at around 1am and because they were going fast. But sometimes I drive past that spot on the interstate and it's really well lit and easy to see from the right lane. It makes me wonder if anyone saw me getting railed behind the Farm Fresh that night. Another public place I've hooked up at is a gas station near my house. I've given a bunch of blowjobs in my car by the dumpster. Sometimes I get sad when I drive by because I miss meeting random dudes off grindr and sucking them off in my car. As soon as COVID is over I'm planning to do it again.

I spent most of the weekend with my new bf and his roommates. On Friday my bf surprised me with a pair of purple panties to wear while I was at their place and they really put me in the mood. I was rubbing the fabric against my hole and staring at their crotches and they knew I wanted to get fucked bad. When I finally got laid it felt like my whole body was exploding because I orgasmed so hard. I had to go home on Saturday to spread some river rock in the front yard and my bf came with me to help. It was the first time he met my mom and I was a little nervous because he's older than her but she seemed to like him. When it was over we went to my room to hang out and I was loving how sweaty his skin was and how I could smell the musk from his dick and balls. Eventually I got his pants off and sucked his dick for a while while he rested on my bed, then I put some vaseline in my hole and rode it. When we finished I was sweatier than him. I wanted him to spend the night but I could tell he wasn't comfortable with my mom being around so we went back to his place. Luckily his roommates were in their room cuddling with each other so it gave me all night to be alone with my man. I spent all day yesterday with them and stayed over again last night. They had to work today so I've got my plug in and I'm dying for them to get home so I can go back over there and get fucked again.

It's the best feeling ever. Even if he just rests inside me and I can feel his dick being grabbed by my butt muscles it makes me feel so happy.

I got up early this morning to go see my big daddy before he had to leave for work. The weather's been nice so him and his roommates are having to work every day, which sucks for me. I've been getting laid by all three of them but my daddy's the one that I'm in love with. He satisfies me in every way and when I'm not with him my pussy aches. When I'm in his arms everything feels right in the world. I was there last night and got nailed by all three of them. I made sure their dicks were drained before I left, then I put my plug in and came home. I slept good last night but I made sure I set my alarm so I could get laid again this morning. I got there at 5:30 this morning and got in bed with my stud and got fucked on my back while the other two got ready for work. When he finished I got in the shower with him, then I got him his cup of coffee and made him some toast before he had to take off. While he was downing his breakfast I made out with the other two and was grabbing their dicks, and they promised to stroke my rear end out when they get off work.

I've been having a hard time this week. The studs I've been seeing got called back to work which is good for them but tough for me. I've been spoiled by having three tops to myself for days at a time. Now they have to be up by 5am and out the door by 6:15 at the latest. So I'm back to my old routine of trying to wake up at 4 in the morning to go over to their place to get laid as soon as they wake up and then having to wait for them to get home. Yesterday I didn't get laid in the morning because I slept too late. Since I'm doing the whole social distancing thing I'm staying away from the hookup apps. After they got off work the two oldest came over to my place. We have a couch in the garage and I fixed it up so it would be nice and comfy for them. I also put a blanket on it so I could host out there instead of having them come inside the house since my mom's home all day. I told her I was having some guests over so she wouldn't come out to the garage and see me with a dick in my ass or mouth. When they got here I went inside and got them some beers out of the fridge and made sure they were settled in, then I got on my knees and took their dick's out and started licking and sucking them. I was so horny that I couldn't wait to take my sweats off and ride their dicks but they were still unwinding and drinking their beers so I just stayed on my knees and sucked dick for them both by trading back and forth between them. When their beers were finished I pulled my sweats up and went inside and got them both another one, then I brought them out and got back to work on their dicks. It felt really good to stroke and slurp on their cocks while they downed their beers. My ass was so tingly and ready for their dicks, but I wanted to make sure they were taken care of so I asked if they wanted more beer. When they both said no I took my sweats all the way off and took my plug out. I'd already fingered a bunch of vaseline in my ass so I didn't have to lube up again. I just got on the couch and held onto the backrest so they could take turns plowing my hole. As soon as the first one was inside me he pushed me so my chest was pressed against the back of the couch, then he hammered my ass. His hips were slapping my butt cheeks and it was loud, plus I was moaning like crazy. He nutted in me pretty fast, then my favorite stud had me stand in front of him so he could fuck me. I was having a hard time keeping my balance but I managed to stay on my feet until he was ready to change positions. I got back on the couch and held onto the armrest while he finished inside me, then he pulled out and I was in heaven. I put my plug back in and went inside and got them a couple more beers, then I sat between them on the couch and they took turns kissing me and tugging on my butt plug until they went home.

I prefer to get laid bareback over having a top wear a condom but it's his choice and I'm not going to turn down good dick over it.

I'll see if he still has it on his phone. If yes I'll have him text it to me. Honestly it looks kinda gross, almost like my ass was about to start bleeding. I wasn't in any pain at all and felt proud of how it looked but it was shocking to see.

He's okay with it. Right now he's in a bottoming phase and has been getting steady cock. He still comes through and spends time with me every few days but he was a total bottom before we met and needs to get fucked. I talked to him about spending a weekend with me at their house once this whole self isolation thing is over and he's open to it.

I've spent the last three days and nights with my steady FWB's, the same three roommates I've been posting about for the last few months. I've been going home every couple days to check in with my mom and make sure she's okay, but I've pretty much been living with these guys since the quarantine started. They love having a white bottom to dominate and I love having three hung studs to service my ass for me. On Monday I was in a flirty mood so I dared them to fuck me all day. One of them took out the tub of boy butter and told me to stay in bed and I'd get my wish. So all day they took turns fucking me, expecting me to tap out. But I loved every single second. They were taking breaks here and there, but the longest I had to go without a dick in me was 45 minutes when all three of them were sleeping. When they finally stopped coming to see me in the bedroom it was after 9pm and I was ready to go to sleep. One of them took a pic of my bussy for me and it was so swollen and red that I couldn't believe it. It looked like the the lips were filled with water, but it didn't burn or hurt at all. It actually felt really good and I was totally satisfied. I didn't suck any dick all day, either, so no loads were wasted in my mouth. When I went to sleep I snuggled up with my favorite of the three and slept hard all night. When I got up yesterday i got fucked again by all three of them, but we all needed a rest so we just laid around and only had sex a few times. Right before bed I got laid by my favorite stud and we went to sleep. Then at 4 this morning he woke me up and said he wanted to eat my ass. So I rolled over and let him do it, then he pounded me out and we went back to sleep. We've been taking a break all day today but I feel like I'm ready to get my pussy stroked out again.

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This is a tough question because I think 18 is way too old but I don't really know where to draw the line. I started having sex when I was 13 with a kid who was a year older than me. It felt comfortable and even safe because we had a connection that I couldn't describe outside of the sex and attraction. A few months later I hooked up with a 16 year old guy and felt nervous, a little scared and vulnerable. I enjoyed the hookup but was so intimidated that I decided not to go out of my way to see him again. On the other hand when I was 15-16, I was hooking up with guys that were 18-20 and felt perfectly safe and comfortable. I can't put my finger on the moment that it happened for me, but there was a point where it felt like I was hooking up with a peer rather than a bigger, older guy. I purposely avoided trying to hook up with way older men in their 30's and 40's until I was 18, but that was only because I didn't want to screw them over legally if someone found out. I felt completely ready for it at 15, but knew it was a bad idea for the person I would be having sex with. I'd say 15 or 16 is a good age of consent.

Once I started having sex It took me less than a year to get laid by a person of color. He was my age, really cute and had braces. When he smiled it made my heart race and my butt shiver. I was pretty much out of the closet so when he texted me asking to hang out I knew what he wanted. Since then I've hooked up with countless other black guys. For the last 4 months I've been seriously dating/hooking up daily with three black guys. I've never really had a race preference before, but if I'm honest, I do now. I've become addicted to their huge dicks since I've been seeing them and I can't see myself settling for anything less than 8 inches unless it's just a casual or anonymous hookup.

I consider myself to be a total pig - I do everything you wrote about except being vers. I'm a total bottom, but I drink piss, love eating ripe assholes, will felch a load out of another bottom's ass and more. I'm also into licking stinky feet and sniffing and wearing skidmarked undies. If I can get my hands on my own underwear while I'm on my hands and knees, I'll suck on their skidmarks while I'm getting laid. I do more than that, but I don't want to break the rules of the sub so I'll leave it there. Hot! I'd love to give a 3D rimjob.

This lockdown has been making me crazy but luckily I've been in semi-quarantine with the same three guys I've been seeing since December. I say semi-quarantine because I have to drive to their place to get laid but it's totally worth it because I've been getting laid a lot. Yesterday they were totally worn out so I left them alone for a few hours but on Saturday I drained their balls every chance I got. I've never considered myself a size queen before, even though I love a big dick. But I've been so spoiled that I'm definitely going to have a hard time adapting if I ever lose access. Plus my ass is really loose right now. I had plans to go get laid on Saturday afternoon so I got up early to work in the yard with my mom. I helped in the garden in planted some lavender in the front yard. While I was working I let one rip by my mom and she told me "That was a loose ass fart." She knows I've been going to see these guys to get fucked and assumes that they're hung (they are), so I didn't try to deny it. I just agreed with her and finished my work so I could hurry over and see my studs. I ended up getting my ass wrecked over and over. I spent the night so I could get laid again but I woke up extra early (before 5 in the morning) and was feeling restless. So I texted my bf hoping he'd want to meet up early and screw a load into me but it was way too early and he didn't respond. I got fucked one more time, then I went home and slept in my own bed. When I woke up I wanted to see how loose my pussy really was so I checked it out in the mirror and I was really proud of it! I snapped a couple of blurry pics and one good one, then I moisturized it and let it rest while my men took the day off. Since I didn't get laid last night I'm super horny and have been texting my studs. I literally just got a reply while I was writing this out so I'm going to freshen my pussy up and go get it serviced again.

I consider myself a feminist, too, and I agree with you on the point about universally applying patriarchy messing things up. We see it in every aspect of our lives, but there are definitely top women (dominatrix, etc.). When I think about that dynamic outside of the bedroom, I look no further than my own family. My mother is the most in-charge person I know outside of my grandmother. I also think about strong women leaders who serve in politics and in the military. I really like this perspective - it's not that I'm not being submissive, I'm just being what/who I am. That's actually comforting to hear. Not because I'm uncomfortable with what I did, but because it empowers me to stay in the space where I'm most comfortable. The example of natural law (opposites attract) is a good one, though I agree that the dynamic of dom/sub is way more complex than that. In my example, I know what I like in a man. My bf could see what I needed from him on an emotional level and filled that for me. lol..I don't think I could get by in a relationship with another total bottom. In a lot of ways, my boyfriend is a dominant bottom, but he let's his inner top come through to keep me satisfied. It's incredible to talk to him sometimes and hear about the previous partners he's had, and how they've all spoiled him in the ways only a top can spoil a bottom. But he's more than comfortable in his role in our relationship, which I'm grateful for. It feels so surreal to read it, but it's the truth. I guess I didn't exactly manipulate him into using me as a toilet because if I would have picked up on any discomfort or disgust I would have backed out immediately. I have a need for him (and all men) to want to be with me and around me, and if he would have disapproved I would have been too nervous to try to pressure him into going further. I the beginning, I was excited that he let me hold and aim his dick into the toilet, and I was hopeful that it would lead to me being the toilet. But I was also convinced that it was too good to be true and that at some point he'd put up a barrier that would make us stop short of me opening up for his piss load. In a way, that's where I am with him now. Not using manipulation, but knowing that he's probably on the outer edges of his comfort zone. It's naughty and exciting, but this is where it stops for him. And even though I want to take things to the next level, that would be a step too far for him and has the potential to scare him off.

I've always seen myself as a sub bottom, even before I had sex. I didn't know what a bottom was but I knew I was one. In my relationship with my boyfriend I'm definitely the sub. But there's more going on between us than the dynamic in the bedroom. There's the way he takes charge of everything, from holding doors to ordering for me when we're in the drive thru without asking what I want. It dominates almost every part of our relationship and it spills over into the WS realm. When I was flirting with the idea of asking him to pee for me, I was terrified that he'd reject me and walk out on me. I posted here asking for advice and started slow. Holding his dick while he peed, then encouraging him to pee on me in the shower. Then it was asking him to pee in my hair on his way out the door, or pee all over my ass while I was wearing clothes. It was 100% submissive, but in a strange way I was taking on the assertive roll because I was guiding him to my ultimate goal of him pissing in my mouth. I think he would have gone there a lot sooner if it weren't for my fear of rejection. He could tell something was on my mind but I didn't know how to say it tactfully. I wanted him to know that I was fantasizing about being his full time toilet but it was a hard thing to admit. So I took a different approach and it paid off. Funny enough, he was a total bottom before we met. He only fucked me for the first time because we were at the same party and everyone was taking turns in my ass. He was so turned on that he mounted me and fucked me, then we started seeing each other every single day. We both see other guys and he's strictly a cum slut unless he's with me. I still haven't confessed everything I want from him, but I have a feeling he knows and is waiting for me to lead him there, but it's scary. Pretty much everyone in my life probably knows that I'm a sub-bottom. Even my mom knows. Sometimes I wonder if it's related to the daddy issues I had growing up. I longed for a bond with my dad but he passed away when I was 4 and I don't have any memories of him. I used to snuggle into men's sides and was especially worried about being obedient when my mom was dating because I longed for that approval. On the other hand, I'm even submissive at work and around other family members. So it's ingrained in me, and it just feels right to be a sub-bottom. Being marked by my lovers is just another way for me to express that position in the bed and in life.

I'm not into age play either, but I'd be lying if I said that my desire to be a toilet wasn't connected to my childhood. I have memories going back to before I was in elementary school of being a bed wetter and pants wetter, too. And as I got older I would lay in bed and tell myself stories about it - some of them were real memories and others were stories I made up about going to the bathroom in my pants on purpose. Looking back I know now that I was just fantasizing about something that had become a fetish for me. When I was in 5th grade I started staying home alone without a babysitter and used my time alone to live out those fantasies and indulge my fetishes. It wasn't sexual at all at the time; I thought I was just being naughty. I would intentionally go to the bathroom in my pants and go about my afterschool routine - homework, getting a snack, watching YouTube clips on my phone. Then I'd toss my wet, stinking clothes in the hamper and change into a clean pair of pants before or after my mom came home from work. The first time she caught me in the act she asked me to tell her what I was doing and I just spilled my guts to her and she let it go. After that I didn't have to hide it anymore. Over the years I realized that it was about more than just wanting to be naughty. I was able to recognize the feelings that I got from engaging in that kind of play. I still love to pee my pants, especially when I'm horny or stressed out. It gives me a feeling that I can't explain. Sometimes I just let a few spurts out in my pants when I'm in public and no one knows. Other times I totally soak my pants on "accident" at home or on purpose if I'm alone. My mom knows fully about this and sometimes she'll bring it up when my room starts stinking, or if she catches me in the act of it when I'm not expecting her to walk in. But it's been almost 10 years since she caught me the first time and she knows that it's just something I do. When I'm really lucky my bf will come over and use me as his toilet. It took a long time to get him there, but he's gotten into the routine of coming over and taking his full leak in my mouth while I kneel in front of him in the tub. It gives me that same feeling I used to get when I was little and would lay in bed fantasizing about going to the bathroom in my pants and I wouldn't trade it for the world.