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Physically being with someone for a hot minute and sharing your life with a partner are really two separate things... Just because you hookup sometimes with random strangers shouldn't call into question your love for your partner... I'm into sharing and love when my partner hookup with other guys and tells me about it later... But before we discussed and started the lifestyle I trusted that they would respect me enough and be smart enough for me not to find out or get suspicious

So I tend to stay away from bookstores and cruising places mostly because I always end up having multiple guys blowing there loads in my mouth within ten minutes of me arriving or if Im feel extra sexy and naughty, my cheeks, hole and thighs will be shaved, my hole thoroughly worked over, cleaned out and lubed up and I give it up to whoever asks because it turns me on how on edge, horny and lustful older guys are at the abs... I always let them slide in bare first and plan to tell them to pull out when they start getting a rhythm, but most of the time they'll get the rhythm and then twitch and thrust there seed inside me... Anyways the last time I played I sucked of a guy who come to my booth and afterwards a middle aged blonde dad kept peeking over the booth wall at me... So I pulled down my shorts, got on my knees and pointed my ass towards the door... Didn't take long before I hear him whispering what a slut I was and how bad he needs to cum... He slide inside slow and did 3 long reserved thrusts and then he blew his loads half I side and half outside leaving a mess running down my crack dripping down to my balls... Before I could really react this Mexican kid grabbed ahold of my hips and started aggressivly fucking me for about 30 seconds until he started gasping for air and spasming... I realize this was getting serious so I got up and pulled up my shorts and this older Asian guy gave me this look of disbelief and sadness that I'll never forget and it always bothered me thinking if I just committed a major sin or if any other bottoms experience the same when they close up shop? I'm kinda thinking if your getting fucked out where other men can see you it's probably best practice to let them have there fun as well?

I became a bottom out of frustration and circumstance. How i suck, How I take cock and how I interact with horny men is a result of repeated bad topping experiences with bottoms. What turned me off from topping: 1. Hairy Masc Bottoms in my experience never clean themselves out correctly which leads to smells and a mess on my cock and balls. 2. Guys who are in a hurry to make me hard always are too rough and once Im hard they are asking me to cum repeatedly, HOW FUCKING ANNOYING!. 3. Bottoms or cocksuckers that are cum whores are seriously the most self centered people on the planet. The whole purpose of bottoming or sucking cock is to pleasure the other person not yourself... - There are the rare few cum whores who genuinely enjoy having sex with men and you will almost never hear them asking for you to cum or be in a hurry for the next load.. I lost my train of thought... I always take my time, Im gentle, I enjoy the process of getting a man hard and working them up to where my mouth and hands won't cut it anymore... Once they are inside me, I match there verbal queues and match how they are with my physically... If they aren't very touchy, never am I, if they have me on my back and start kissing me I kiss with them until they stop... Sometimes guys need to take a break while fucking so I'll reassure them that there is no rush and they don't need to worry about preforming or cumming for me... That it's there time right now and they can spend it with me however they want.... I find once a guy knows that he can take his time and get himself off however he wants with me they end up cumming with a few minutes....

Wish I would of gone out cruising a lot more at HB library, Santiago Creek and The ABS's off Garden Grove Blvd.... Or started taking prep as soon as it came out, still neg.. I haven't bareback bottomed in over a decade 😞 I want to start taking Prep but I'm not sure if I want that on my medical record and have my wife see it. Also, I'm afraid I'm going to go back to how I was a decade ago where my entire life revolved around the routine where I was constantly exercising, eating right, Shaving my whole body every other day, using toys everyday, just for a few minutes of risky sex... I also think I'm going to be going to the abs's by my house every few days and will be coming home everytime full of guys seed. Anyways, The bushes at HB library were super overgrown at the time and alot of cruisers would hang out so you could get a guy's attention pretty easy, walk off the trail behind some cover pull my loose fitting boy shorts down, bend over and brace myself against a tree and wait... I can still remember the sounds of those guys footsteps as they walked up to me, unzipp, push themselves inside of my lubed up hole.mmm!, lol. I get a turned on now whenever I hear people walk through leaves and crunch sticks when I hiking, it's kinda hot. Everytime I told myself that I was going to let them enjoy themselves bare for a few minutes and then tell them to pull out... Every guy would breed me within a few minutes... So I never got to say anything... It felt so wrong to feel and to know another man came inside you, it's sucha [banned word] and unnatural feeling at first, like violating... Then after awhile I started to realize how important it was that that I let men have me if they wanted me to bend over, Everytime I went out cruising I would make sure that I made the experience for that stranger a good one eating right that week, douche, dildo myself for 30 minutes, douche again, dildo for 30, lube back up and head out... Then if I ran into a potential mate, I would make it simple for them and give them whatever they wanted from me, no issue or drama, just a young, smooth, hole for them to fuck and cum into, then go back home to their families and not have to shower, clean there dick off, or be even more stressed than before. It's a satisfying feeling to know that I was the reason another man had a great orgasm and made there lives better just for awhile...

So hot!

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This makes me want to sign up for the gym right now...

Perfection!

I prefer a bottom dressed, smooth and fem... I can't get hard with a masc bottom, hairy or in a jock strap. Being a bottom to me is the ultimate fem position and if there is anything masc about them I cant get hard.

After seeing your profile it's painfully obviously that you only just take pictures and don't actually take dick.

I'm in garden Grove, ca.. I goto the abs on gg blvd and magnolia... The bookstore is separated into 3 sections... The middle room is the main store and the rooms on the left and right are the theaters. Each is has its own door so it's kinda cool there privacy so to say.. Anyways, I used to play in the theater rooms a few years ago and I'm not sure at what point this happened but I'm now that guy at the counter shooting the shit with the abs clerk while all the other [banned word] come in for theater tokens or erotic accessories... I usually go to the store for poppers or lingerie and end up spending an hour there talking to my guy... It's kinda cool, he pretty cool to as well... But now that I know him I don't have the nerve to go next door to the theater... He's been there for years so I'm pretty sure he's seen me at some point wait ass up in the stalls and has also seen me suck off several dozen guys.... I dunno, maybe this is a word of warning... Keep your enemy's close and keep the relationship with your local abs bookstore guy to just business... Now when I feel the need to be naughty and desire to satisfy horny men. I have to go-to this seeder bookstore down the street that has 0 privacy and everyone can see when your doing stuff in the booth... *. I'm rambling at this point .* I have had a fantasy that the abs guy that I'm friends with ends up introducing me to another guy who runs another abs and he needs a gloryhole tender and that I should give it a shot 🙂 hehe, wish that was an actual real thing...

Right around 19-20 I started to really get into giving myself up to whoever want me.. I shaved constantly, I ate and worked out constantly and whenever I was home my hole was lubed up and had a dildo in it... Start back a few years I discovered the hb library by my house was cruisy.. I usually start out at the bathroom which is on a hill over looking the park so when someone heads inside anyone looking can see... Since I was young whenever I went in it would be too long before I heard footsteps... I would usually wait in the stall with it unlocked a guy would come in open the door apologize go-to a urinal and then come back right after with his cock out for me to suck... I did this alot one summer until one older Mexican guy reach down to my ass while I was sucking him and slide his finger in my already lubed hole and he made a hissing sound... He took his cock out of his made and told me to follow him... He took me through the park and we walked from the paved path onto the cut grass and into the bushes.. Once out of the clearing we walked through the overgrown bushes and trees for a few minutes until we arrived to a completely secluded area where the tree canopy covered everything. There was a tree in the middle that has a thick branch about waist high that I used to steady myself while I took of my shorts. I put some lube on his cock suck it some and turned around bent over and braced myself on the tree branch. I was going to tell him to pull out after a few minutes.. it felt odd have a guy hump me so aggressively, I remember my head bouncing and my cock and balls doing the same... Just when I was about to tell him to pull out he stopped and killed out... I asked him if he cummed and he said he did and then I asked him if he was clean and he told me not to worry about it and walked off.. I remember standing there feeling shocked and worried and also turned on at the same time.. after that I drove home and when I got to my room I jacked off while I used my dildo and used some of his cum for lube on my dick... I blew so hard... The happened alot there... I also just wanted to feel the cock for a few minutes and pull it out and suck the guy off but most of the times the guys would cum inside me without saying a word or wouldn't even ask.... Pic below is me now and thinking about letting guys slide in bare again... I'm not sure though now

So I've been gearing up to start bottoming again after about 10 years in retirement... So I've been changing my diet, excerising, shaving everything except for my face and arms everything else I've been trying to keep smooth like a fem would do.. I've also been buying lingerie and see what makes me feel the sexiest... I've been topping and worshipping cock for years and the topping has been a big disappointment...it's really hard to find what turns me on so il just get going to be that since I can't find anyone... Anyways, in my eyes a bottom shouldn't ever be more masc than the top so obviously I totally prefer a femmy bottom so that's what I'm going to try to be exactly like that.. OK enough bullshit, I've been cleaning myself regularly and using toys to get myself back into shape so I can be receptive and accommodating as possible for the top... The other night I rediscovered the muscles that I used to use to massage cum out of all those older daddies cocks that would fuck me in the park bathrooms and bushes over by my house way back when I just turned 18.. The dildo I've been using was 7in with like a standard thickness probably like 3 inches.. So after some thought I went to a ABS by my house and bought some lingerie and a 9 in 4in thick dildo.. Holy Shit!! I totally get it now... In the shower I completely saturated my hole with lube and worked that wonderful piece inside me... Once I relaxed and started working it back and forth I kid you not I was just gone... Like outter space gone... What the hell man I've never experienced anything like that before holy fuck! I couldn't see anything and I was drooling, it put me in the moment so suddenly I almost forgot what that was like .. I totally get the whole BBC now.... Once I got that fucking dream maker going back and forth Inside my married non prep'd hole I wasn't going anywhere... Even when I took it out to reposition myself, my body naturally just waited ass up with my hole wide open waiting for it to come back inside me...

There is a bookstore about 30 miles from me that has booth with GloryHoles... I have been holding on going there because Im afraid that I'd stay there all night.... I also 10-15 years ago I would let any random cock that I got hard slide into me bare... I would also let them do it and then plan on telling them to pull out if they were going to cum and before I could tell them they would already be thrusting deeper into me and breathing heavy... I made lots of older men at HB Library Park happy back then 🙂 Also, I'm not on prep and lately I've been remember the feeling I got when those men would unload inside of me and it's been turning me on a lot.... The last 10 times I've came Ive been thinking about being bent over with there aggressive hands on my hips while they thrust into me harder and faster, building up, grunting, until they do one final thrust and stop... zip up and leave quickly while im still bent over with there cum dripping out of my insides... ... So I don't want to go there and be tempted to back myself up to the hole because im afraid of catching stuff, especially after being on this forum awhile...