Chuckybb

So I just had an incredible two encounters with an extremely dominant top in Mexico. The second one today was about an hour ago and I still have his come and piss dripping out of me. As a totally submissive bottom, I kind of get nervous if a top is more interested in my cock than my hole. This top showed no interest in my cock during the two sessions. He made it quite clear that I was there to service him and he wasn't the slightest bit interested if I wanted to come or not. That is exactly how I like it. The session started with him in his work boots and nothing else. I was totally naked. I was on my knees worshipping his cock and balls for about ten minutes. He then squatted down and raised both of his arms. I could smell his sweat. He gestures towards him armpits and I devoured his sweat. It was intoxicating. He then pointed to his cock again and I fell to my knees. As I was worshipping his cock, he slapped my face if he thought I wasn't concentrating enough. He then pulled me up by the throat and started spitting in my mouth. He then forced me face down onto a massage bed and fucked me . There was a mirror in front of us and every so often he grabbed my hair and pulled my face up to see him raping my hole. After about ten minutes he flipped my over and my legs were over his muscular shoulders. He entered me again violently and stated to choke me, alternating between slaps and spitting in my mouth. After another ten minutes he blew his load inside me. He didn't withdraw. Then he told me he was going to piss in me. Obviously I begged for it. When he finally withdrew I felt the torrent of come and piss being released. He bent down and started draining his own piss and come with his tongue. He then told me to taste his piss and come as he kissed me passionately. Everything I want from a top. His needs, not mine. Dominant to the point of violence and fear, but then passionate and giving. I am in his total control, and he knows it.

I have often fantasised about being forced to take part in a ritualistic ceremony of worshipping and washing a dominants feet. As a total submissive, I see myself kneeling before the dominant to carry out a ritual of feet washing and cleaning with my mouth as well as water, oil etc. I have created some AI images showing my fantasy. In these images, the submissives must go through a process to be finally seeded bareback by the dominant. It starts with the washing of the feet and slowly, over time, escalates to worshiping his cock. Then the ultimate act of receiving his loaf.

I don't know what others think but as someone who has been on prep for about 5 years, I must have taken dozens of poz loads. Tbh it's not something I even think about. So, is knowingly taking a poz load purely a psychological pleasure? Because there is no physical differences as far as I'm concerned. I love that prep has taken the status question out of the picture for me. All I can say on total honesty is that if you are about to fuck me and give me your load, then for that moment you are my god and I will worship you like one until that load is inside me. And after, the process starts all over again.

My default reaction is to say an older top as I am much more attracted to older guys Nd fond it easy to submit to and serve them. However, if there is a young top that I'm not particularly attracted to, they just need to be direct enough, dominant enough and confident enough to tell me what they want to do and I'll be on my knees serving them and pleading to be bare backed.

I sort of fantasise on a type of gay handmaid's tale. There are no women. Only men in different levels of authority and domination. Obviously as a handboy my position is the lowest of the low. There to be fucked after being assigned to a dominant top. My name would probably be ofchad or something. I see each handboy having a QR code tattooed on their necks, so that the police can scan and identify your owner. If you don't have a QR code then your fair game to be fucked by anyone. So, it's sort of in your best interest to have an assigned dominant. I could go on forever, but you get the drift

I was taught by my previous dominant to completely submit to my top. Therefore, his pleasure is my goal and is all that matters. If a top has decided to fuck me, I crave his load inside me and I ain't gonna make any stupid requests that would disrespect him. For the time he is fucking me, he is my god.

It's not a deal breaker for me but it is my absolute preference for BB. Why would I accept a condom inside me? Well, if the top was very dominant and was for example holding me down, hand over my mouth or around my throat then I'm already putty in his hands. I'm there to serve him and if that is his desire to wear a condom or him leave, I'll go for the condom. The load inside me is the icing on the cake, my ultimate objective. But if I'm enjoying being completely dominated and he's rough, I ain't gonna miss out on that as well. It's a question of priorities.

Thank you for your message. Very informative.

Okay, so this is really a question for people with medical knowledge (or more medical knowledge than me). I take Doxycycline 200mg after any bareback sessions. I'm bottom only. I know from experience and from other threads that it doesn't provide much protection for Gonorrea. So, my question is this. In Spain where I live, most saunas have douching facilities. If, after taking loads, I were to thoroughly douche before leaving, am I minimising the risk of gono infection or does it not really work that way?

I was on a fuck bench at a sauna in Spain. As one guy grunted and shot his load in me, I felt a powerful set of hands hold me down until the grunting top pulled out and left. The guy now holding me down violently took his place. I felt absolute desire for what I imagined was a total alpha top. As he was fucking me I dared to turn my head round to see his face. He abruptly stopped fucking me and grabbed my throat. He whispered I to my ear... It's none of your fucking business who is fucking you... I immediately took a more subservient position to allow him to finish. He kept his hand around my throat until he bred me. He then pulled out and walked away. I never saw his face, but what he said to me stayed with me forever.

A few months ago I was at a gay sauna in the south of spain where I live. I was being followed by a really hot young hairy guy. Very well defined and extremely hairy. He was a bit young for me, but because he was so beefy, well defined and goddam hairy I found him very attractive. He also had shaved hair and a beard. We started talking as he asked me where was good to go to in Town. He had been to a specific place the night before but told me all the guys were too young. He wanted to go somewhere where the guys were older. Like me. So, he was obviously interested. We started kissing and I realised very quickly that he was very active. Very dominant. As we were kissing, his had went down to my ass and fingered my hole. I had already been fucked earlier, so I was wet and inviting. This made him really hard. He took my hand and we went off to a cabin. He sat on the bed and told me to get on my knees. He spoke in English, but I would find out later that he was Italian. He ordered me to suck his cock which I did willingly. I was getting traces of cum and sweat off his cock. I deep throated him to show my compliance. He told me to get up on the bed and lie face down. I did so immediately. He went straight inside me without any hesitation or any form of verbal/non-verbal consent. Straight up. It took my breath away a bit because I wasn't expecting it. However, I will never refuse a top, especially a hot one that is already inside me, so I assumed my most subservient position and welcomed my fate. Once he was into his rythmn, he started pressing me down really hard, almost holding me down. This was a turn on, so I gladly submitted. Then he took his right hand and put it over my mouth. He held my mouth really firmly while he fucked me. And holding me in place so I had no where to go, and couldn't shout or scream for help. I fucking loved it. I was being held down and fucked with a hand over my mouth. I did a pretend squirm to see what would happen. He just held me down more firmly. When he was approaching orgasm, he gripped me harder until he eventually shot his load into me. He held me in place while his cock was inside me and we lay together, me with his arms wrapped around me and his cock still inside me. Leaking his seed. Was I now being cuddled by a man who had simultated rape? Or was it rape? After a while we chatted and he was from the north of Italy. He asked me if I wanted to be fucked by some other guys that night. I said yes. So, he took me by the hand and took me into the darkroom. He stood beside me, monitoring who was approacihing. In the dim light, he watched as several guys took their turn in fucking me. Between each one, he would stop the queue and he would fuck me again. Three guys fucked me and came, and between each one, the put his hand out and stopped the next one until he was back inside me and shot another load. My hole was gaping but was like silk. I welcomed each top but my italian boy wanted to push the seed of the other tops up further. I felt like I belonged to him and I welcomed it. I never saw him again after that night as he returned to Italy the next day. But, he has left me with a longing for rough, rape like, held down, mouth held shut sex. I long for it. Sometimes if I am face down being fucked I take the tops hand and place it over my mouth or around my neck. Sometimes this horrifies people and other times they catch on very quickly and carry on. But, I now long for a top that hold me down and force me to accept him just like my italian boy.

I am there to serve the top. It is his right to unload in me and it is my duty to accept it unreservedly. At a sex club I was once being fucked on a fuck bench. I never saw the faces of any of the tops who unloaded in me. At one point I tried to turn around to look at who was fucking me and the top said "turn the fuck around, it's none of your business who is fucking you. You are a hole". And that, sums up how I feel.

So I'm just back from GC. I went to a sex club for the first time. The Factory. 5 mins max from my hotel. I got there and stripped off just leaving my fuck boy jock. I went downstairs and searched for a top. In one of the rooms I saw a tanned, bearded, hairy Spanish dude. In his thirties. Hot as fuck. I walked towards him. As he got closer I could smell his sweat. Not stale, just overpowering male sweat. I walked towards him and our eyes locked. When I was directly in front of him I lifted one of his arms and started licking furiously his armpit. I was devouring his sweat and essence. It drove him insane. He then lifted his other arm and instructed me to do the same. I obviously obliged willingly. We then kissed passionately and his finger went down to my pre lubed hole. It slid in instantly. I was so fucking turned on by his sweat that I wanted him to devour me. He the put his hand at the back of my neck and led/pushed me towards a sort of fuck bench. I submitted fully and got onto the bench, kneeling and face to the wall. He entered me in one swift aggressive movement. I could smell his sweat getting stronger again as he fucked me. It was animal. Primevil. I was his complete and utter bitch and he knew it. He shot his load into me but stayed inside me, not letting me leave. I was held captive as his DNA was sleeping out of my hole. After a minute or so, he pulled out. As he did so, he noticed a puddle of his come had leaked out onto the PVC. As I stood up, he put his hand on the back of my neck again and pushed my face towards the come puddle. I cleaned it without any hesitation, tasting the combination of his salty sperm, sweat and the pvc plastic. I felt complete. Used, but fulfilled. Dominated and degraded. Everything I was looking for. I then moved around to look for my next dominant... To be continued...

Thanks very much

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