Chuckybb

I was in a sauna in Mexico and I went into a cabin with a guy. He said to me, wait, are you neg? I said yes, I'm on prep which is true. He said I'm neg but not on prep yet, so I wanted to make sure. So, firstly... Does he truly think that someone is going to tell him the truth? Secondly, I might think I'm neg but may not be. This was a sauna for gawds sake. One of the things I love about prep and the medication for hiv is that we are back to a level playing field again. Almost noone talks or needs to talk about status. But, let's try and keep a bit of realism in the conversation when it happens.

So, I've been trying to develop my BDSM fantasies since my encounter with my hot Mexican dominant. While I'm being fucked, I really like the top to put his hand around my throat to control my breathing and choke me. I've no desire to die but it plays with my total submission fantasies. Recently on holiday on G Canaria i found myself each night in Cruise bar. It's not as intense as the other sex clubs in GC and there are less facilities, but there are more guys of my demographic. Older, beard guys. The others are full of youngsters. So one night I was in a cabin with a British bear. Very sexy. I was worshipping his body and cock and we were both stripped naked. He started displaying some mild SM slaps etc and I encouraged him to do more by placing his hand around my throat. He got the message and started to squeeze. I don't know how long he was doing it for but all of a sudden I felt I was dreaming. I hadn't realised I had passed out. I was on my knees. I came to and he helped me up. Welcome back , he said and smirked. Then he turned me around and fucked me bareback whilst keeping his hand in my throat. After he came he pulled out and turned me around to kiss me. I remember feeling this absolute devotion to him. This dominant had choked me to the point of passing out and it made me more attracted to him. He choked me and fucked me and I loved him for it. In that cabin, at that time, he was my world and I was his property.

Well, I fully expect that if I ain't doing a good job, or my attention falters to be slapped back into focus. If I'm not attending to my top as he expects, I fully expect to be slapped or more. I have one top who calls it "correction" for my own benefit. Or, if the top simply wants to slap me as part of his "right as my top to do so", that's also cool with me. Bear in mind, my idea of subservience includes pain, humiliation and correction. I'm not saying it's for everyone or advocating anything but I believe in total submission to my top.

As the author of the post, I can honestly say every part is true. It happened over two sessions with him. After the first session he sent me a text asking if I was into slapping, sweat, piss and verbal. I said yes, and show me more. I have him full permission to take me to another level. He did it. Afterwards he was tender and passionate. During he was brutal. Exactly what I wanted. I reminded him of a saying I once heard.. Kiss me like you love me, fuck me like you hate me. That completely sums up the experience.

A question please....so if the injection can reduce the risk by 30 to 40 %, then presumably with doxypep the risk would be reduced further? Maybe 70 to 80 % protection... Or does it not work that way?

We simply have different perspectives my friend. I am submissive beyond belief and my sexual preferences reflect that. I serve and I please. My relief comes later reliving my experience.

Go for it. You can stop it anytime you want. But you have to take the opportunity first. Go and worship him. Be owned by him. Take yourself to a higher level.

So I just had an incredible two encounters with an extremely dominant top in Mexico. The second one today was about an hour ago and I still have his come and piss dripping out of me. As a totally submissive bottom, I kind of get nervous if a top is more interested in my cock than my hole. This top showed no interest in my cock during the two sessions. He made it quite clear that I was there to service him and he wasn't the slightest bit interested if I wanted to come or not. That is exactly how I like it. The session started with him in his work boots and nothing else. I was totally naked. I was on my knees worshipping his cock and balls for about ten minutes. He then squatted down and raised both of his arms. I could smell his sweat. He gestures towards him armpits and I devoured his sweat. It was intoxicating. He then pointed to his cock again and I fell to my knees. As I was worshipping his cock, he slapped my face if he thought I wasn't concentrating enough. He then pulled me up by the throat and started spitting in my mouth. He then forced me face down onto a massage bed and fucked me . There was a mirror in front of us and every so often he grabbed my hair and pulled my face up to see him raping my hole. After about ten minutes he flipped my over and my legs were over his muscular shoulders. He entered me again violently and stated to choke me, alternating between slaps and spitting in my mouth. After another ten minutes he blew his load inside me. He didn't withdraw. Then he told me he was going to piss in me. Obviously I begged for it. When he finally withdrew I felt the torrent of come and piss being released. He bent down and started draining his own piss and come with his tongue. He then told me to taste his piss and come as he kissed me passionately. Everything I want from a top. His needs, not mine. Dominant to the point of violence and fear, but then passionate and giving. I am in his total control, and he knows it.

I have often fantasised about being forced to take part in a ritualistic ceremony of worshipping and washing a dominants feet. As a total submissive, I see myself kneeling before the dominant to carry out a ritual of feet washing and cleaning with my mouth as well as water, oil etc. I have created some AI images showing my fantasy. In these images, the submissives must go through a process to be finally seeded bareback by the dominant. It starts with the washing of the feet and slowly, over time, escalates to worshiping his cock. Then the ultimate act of receiving his loaf.

I don't know what others think but as someone who has been on prep for about 5 years, I must have taken dozens of poz loads. Tbh it's not something I even think about. So, is knowingly taking a poz load purely a psychological pleasure? Because there is no physical differences as far as I'm concerned. I love that prep has taken the status question out of the picture for me. All I can say on total honesty is that if you are about to fuck me and give me your load, then for that moment you are my god and I will worship you like one until that load is inside me. And after, the process starts all over again.

My default reaction is to say an older top as I am much more attracted to older guys Nd fond it easy to submit to and serve them. However, if there is a young top that I'm not particularly attracted to, they just need to be direct enough, dominant enough and confident enough to tell me what they want to do and I'll be on my knees serving them and pleading to be bare backed.

I sort of fantasise on a type of gay handmaid's tale. There are no women. Only men in different levels of authority and domination. Obviously as a handboy my position is the lowest of the low. There to be fucked after being assigned to a dominant top. My name would probably be ofchad or something. I see each handboy having a QR code tattooed on their necks, so that the police can scan and identify your owner. If you don't have a QR code then your fair game to be fucked by anyone. So, it's sort of in your best interest to have an assigned dominant. I could go on forever, but you get the drift

I was taught by my previous dominant to completely submit to my top. Therefore, his pleasure is my goal and is all that matters. If a top has decided to fuck me, I crave his load inside me and I ain't gonna make any stupid requests that would disrespect him. For the time he is fucking me, he is my god.

It's not a deal breaker for me but it is my absolute preference for BB. Why would I accept a condom inside me? Well, if the top was very dominant and was for example holding me down, hand over my mouth or around my throat then I'm already putty in his hands. I'm there to serve him and if that is his desire to wear a condom or him leave, I'll go for the condom. The load inside me is the icing on the cake, my ultimate objective. But if I'm enjoying being completely dominated and he's rough, I ain't gonna miss out on that as well. It's a question of priorities.

Thank you for your message. Very informative.