It is TOTALLY why I am who I am today. Its super clear.
To be fair I was already a kinky little boy, but they steered me into the perversions I have now.
I cover it briefly in my profile description. Here's the longer version.
In the mid to late 90s I was 10 years old. Like I said, I was KINKY. Hornier and younger than any kid I've met. By 10 I'd already been:
- fucking my own ass with carrots from the fridge...
- sucking off moms boyfriends dog and trying to get it to fuck me...
- borrowing an early digital camera from the school lab "for a project" and using it to snap naked pix of me sucking the dog...
- and finally being humiliated in school when I tried to play "show and tell" with another kid from a higher grade, and he got his friends to come too... when I pulled out my cock first and asked to see theirs, I instantly became the school "fag" "gay" and "queer".
It was the school incident that did it. I now had names for what I was into. I was a latchkey kid (mom worked nights, no dad) and I had the Internet. So I went online and quickly found gay places... and others like me.
I didnt say my age there, as I didnt want to get kicked out I just said that I was younger and the city I lived in. A guy replied and said he was from my area, and we emailed. I told him how young I really was. He didn't have a problem. We chatted about what I liked and I even sent him the pics of me and the dog (this is a key fact for later).
He soom suggested I meet him to chat about gay life in person. I was eager to meet another fag like me. So he arranged to pick me up and stay a night and we'd go to a party.
OK in hindsight obviously a sex invitation. But I was a dumb naive kid. I figured it was a normal thing to have gay parties. So I told my mom I was doing a sleepover at a friends (she never checked) and he picked me up from the street corner at 3pm.
He seemed high energy (I later learnt it was "tweaked") and super excited about the party. He lived outside town, like on a bit of land... it was dark when I got there so I really had no idea exactly where it was that day. Yup, big red flag in hindsight but this is why kids get in cars with strangers.
Literally the moment we got inside he closed and locked and deadbolted the door. He had a boyfriend (also tweaked) and the second the door was locked he POUNCED. Like grabbed me. And then so did the other guy.
I thought they were going to murder me. I screamed and yelled. But nobody was in earshot. They wrestled me into the bedroom and ripped off my clothes. Handcuffed me to the bed. Then they got naked and started to stroke and pet me (and them). They smoked something (later I learned crystal) and shotgunned some into me. I had a rush and felt weird. I was still thinking they were gonna kill me.
And then one lubed up his cocks and RAMMED my ass. Like, balls deep in 3 massive thrusts. No time wasted. If I hadn't been using those carrots in my ass already, they would have split me open. As it was it HURT. I screamed bloody murder and bawled.
Many years later I figured out they had partially torn my sphincter... the unintentional side effect is that from then on I had no problem taking big cocks without much warmup. So, not all bad 🙂
So all evening, night, and the next day they fucked, sucked and molested me over and over. They kept going with the help of the drugs... and kept me up with occasional shotguns if i got drowsy.
They covered all the sex bases. Anal. Oral. Forcing me to suck them. Whips. Pissing in both my holes (I peed on myself). Having me fist them. So much more. And they took photos of me doing it all.
I later figured they knew they were poz, high viral...and HIV being a semi death sentence back then, decided to indulge some pedo rape fantasies while they could. I dont know if they pozzed me then, or later (I'll get to that).
Their insurance was to scare me. They knew where I lived. They had their photos and my dog photos. They said they were sending copies to their friends (which they did) and if I told anyone they raped me, they or their friends would come after me, my mom... and publish the pics of me so everyone would know what a slut whore faggot I was. To their credit they had it all figured out.
They dumped me back at home at the end of the weekend, and I was so sore I pretended I was sick and stayed home from school for a few days.
They figured they'd seen the last of me. But I was a kinky horny kid... who had never had an adult male pay any attention to me. And here were 2 guys who'd spent the weekend paying attention to me. Loving my body and saying how hot and beautiful and tight I was (also that I was a dirty slut, which I kinda knew, and that validated me and my dog [banned word] stuff). Here were guys who wanted me and found me sexy like nobody else did... found every inch of my body worth exploring... and I got their penises stiff. Gays, like I was. With big penises, and I liked penises. And, they hadn't killed me, right? And after it hurt, it didnt so much, and I even felt so sexy excited about a lot of what we did. And there was an excited thrill about the danger and adventure (and maybe some of that was also the crystal, but I LIKED the crystal, too. And I didnt know any other gays in real life. And so on and on went my thoughts. And as I thought my cock got hard every time.
So a few weeks later, one little 10 year old slut whore... emailed the guy and asked if he could have more please, sir...
Over the next years a lot of fucking went on. They did know other pedos and they fucked me too. And later on, I wasn't the only kid who came to their sex parties.
So all that... made me who I am. Easy link. I like anonymous bareback sex with anyone. I like pozzing, stealthing, cum, piss, chemsex, boys... everything they did to me, they made me too. They taught me how to be a [banned word]. Thanks guys.