Sexual Assault And Service

[bttmsubslut]

As a submission bottom, i occasionally find myself with an aggressive dominant top who wants to push my boundaries. It's usually a fine line between something rape-like and boundary-pushing. The boundaries are blurry: when the first fuck of the night slams in my hole without lube, when aggressive fuck becomes uncomfortable or painful, when a couple men hold me down and my arm or leg starts to lose circulation, getting randomly punched, or getting fucked in my sleep, to name only a few. Recently a really hung man at a bath house could see I was a little tight that night. He lubed me up, put me on my back, and rammed in me. It hurt, but he kept ramming, saying he was loosening me up for other men. If I could take his cock, he told me, I could take any guys cock there. I breathed through the pain, eventually loosened up, and by the time he dropped his load in me, I didn't want him to stop. I was begging for more. Another time, a man has fucked me so hard, it never turned to pleasure. He wanted to inflame my rectum so one one else could use me that night. Some tops think that's selfish, effectively denying a hole to other tops. 

 

For a lot of people, these are clearly forms of sexual assault. For me, it's not so clear. These are often some of the hottest scenes for me, even if it can be physically uncomfortable or painful in the moment. I also take my commitment to service as a submissive cumdump seriously. I believe it's my duty (and destiny) to serve men, regardless of my own comfort. To my surprise, I've sometimes even lost respect for men who stop when I've asked them to. I want to be assaulted on some level, which blurs the line of consent. In that sense, I am partly choosing for it to happen, even if I don't make my consent explicit. I think for the general population, consent should be made explicit. But I inhabit a different world, and the rules and mores are different.  The dominant aggressive men who assault me (or "push my boundaries") know what they can get away with. They know that even if they leave me frustrated or hurt, the rules are different for us. They can do things to me they can't do to most people. I take it, and eventually, I may even like it. 

[bbcunthole]

so true

[CumBustion]

On 3/9/2015 at 4:39 AM, bttmsubslut said:

As a submission bottom, i occasionally find myself with an aggressive dominant top who wants to push my boundaries. It's usually a fine line between something rape-like and boundary-pushing. The boundaries are blurry: when the first fuck of the night slams in my hole without lube, when aggressive fuck becomes uncomfortable or painful, when a couple men hold me down and my arm or leg starts to lose circulation, getting randomly punched, or getting fucked in my sleep, to name only a few. Recently a really hung man at a bath house could see I was a little tight that night. He lubed me up, put me on my back, and rammed in me. It hurt, but he kept ramming, saying he was loosening me up for other men. If I could take his cock, he told me, I could take any guys cock there. I breathed through the pain, eventually loosened up, and by the time he dropped his load in me, I didn't want him to stop. I was begging for more. Another time, a man has fucked me so hard, it never turned to pleasure. He wanted to inflame my rectum so one one else could use me that night. Some tops think that's selfish, effectively denying a hole to other tops. 

 

For a lot of people, these are clearly forms of sexual assault. For me, it's not so clear. These are often some of the hottest scenes for me, even if it can be physically uncomfortable or painful in the moment. I also take my commitment to service as a submissive cumdump seriously. I believe it's my duty (and destiny) to serve men, regardless of my own comfort. To my surprise, I've sometimes even lost respect for men who stop when I've asked them to. I want to be assaulted on some level, which blurs the line of consent. In that sense, I am partly choosing for it to happen, even if I don't make my consent explicit. I think for the general population, consent should be made explicit. But I inhabit a different world, and the rules and mores are different.  The dominant aggressive men who assault me (or "push my boundaries") know what they can get away with. They know that even if they leave me frustrated or hurt, the rules are different for us. They can do things to me they can't do to most people. I take it, and eventually, I may even like it. 

I agree ?‼️ I posted something similar in the "Aggressive Tops" thread:

 

IDK, I'm on the fence with this one. I've been fucked by all manner of Tops. Some were lack luster (size, stamina, and/or style). Some were very sensual, taking their time, making the enjoyment last for hours, sometimes days. Some were power tops, aggressive, Alpha-male dom, challenging me as to who could outlast the other. A few were very over the top, literally trying to break me in half amd hurt me. And yes, I have even been sexually assaulted before, too. 

It is one thing to be uber-dom, to aggressively take a bottom's hole and mouth for your gratification. It's a whole other thing to fuck someone with such force and impunity that it causes damage. I once was taken very hard by a Top at Entourage in Vegas. I was in the dark room and I felt him pin me to the wall. I heard him spit and he roughly inserted three fingers in to me up to his knuckles. He then placed his dick at the entrance of my hole and drove it into me. It felt like I got hit by a bus. Dude was thick, as in beer can thick. I felt my hole tear and blood trickle down my inner thighs. I screamed for him to stop but it fueled him to fuck me harder. He put me in a choke hold to keep me from squirming and fighting back. I was just a hole for him to assault. After several minutes, he unloaded his balls deep in my guts, withdrew, spanked my ass hard, and disappeared into the darkness. I packed up and left. I was met with stares by other patrons as they saw the blood dripping from my ass. It was so bad, I went to the ER. The nurse asked me if I was assaulted. The trauma was pretty evident. I said no, that it was just a sexual encounter that was a bit too rough. I don't think she believed me. Truthfully, I don't think it would be right to accuse him of rape, yet it felt like it in everyway.

On the other hand, I've had very Dom, Power Alpha Tops, who were just as hung if not bigger, that didn't try to kill me yet were still very forceful. They knew the difference between aggressive versus abusive. They knew to finger blast my hole with lots of lube first. They knew that they could push their dicks in me with slow and continual pressure, which causes pain with out injury, and they knew when to stop where the second ring gives too much resistance. There is a fine line between turning pain into pleasure and taking pleasure in someone's pain.

[ErosWired]

I have thought about this issue a lot as my commitment to sexual service has deepened. The moment that I first understood the true nature of submission was at the hands of an aggressive Dom who immobilized me and refused to stop manually violating me even though I told him he was causing me pain after nearly an hour of violent finger-fucking. Since then I’ve been sexually abused as recreation by men who enjoy that, and I’ve been raped, because there’s no other word for it.

 CumBustion’s statement about how seriously he takes his service as a cumdump bottom resonates strongly with me, and I’ve said much the same elsewhere. For my part, however, I have no problem drawing a line between what is and is not acceptable behavior from a Top. Those of us who are serious sexual servants provide a kind of outlet for dominant men that is not commonly found. Our endurance, our tolerance, our compassion and our willingness to sacrifice our dignity and our comfort for the opportunity to serve, are valuable qualities.

Indeed, the kind of sex we’re talking about here involves Power Exchange, and anyone who doesn’t understand that the one who controls the exchange is the bottom doesn’t get the psychology at all.

There is no excuse for causing a bottom serious physical harm; there is no justification for intentionally rendering him unable to continue serving. A Top who does either strays over the line into criminality.

I spent five years as the owned property of a sadist. A *sadist*. He exercised cruelties on me that included running a .20 gauge needle through both my testicles, and that wasn’t the worst - but he never caused me any serious harm, and took care of me because he valued the gift he had in my vulnerability.

It is our delight and our duty to surrender our bodies to strong, aggressive, dominant men; it is our privilege to be bred by them and accept their seed into us; it fulfills us and answers the purpose we hear calling us from our DNA. We were made to service them - but we were not made to be torn apart by savages or spoiled by animals. There is beauty in our service, and as much as we have a duty to endure heavy use, we also have a duty to preserve ourselves.