Post Orgasmic Mood Shift

[snaketat]

your own mind can be a powerful force that even you may not be able to restrain.   I resisted the magnetic pull of taking poz cock for many years.  While I only barebacked....I did sort guys to some extent.   In late September I stopped resisting what I knew was unavoidable and started looking for poz guys to fuck me.  Less than two months later (YESTERDAY) I learned that I am HIV+ myself.

[London1281955]

Took first load after only recently coming out and then worrying about bb but wanted. So went for it. Had a moment of regret after and then knew wanted more and know the risks. Hopefully I won't convert but if do then I'll have deal with. Having a load in me was a huge turn on

[Guest kazore]

Guys, I just want to say thank you. You really helped me a lot to get things in the right dimensions.

As for now I think I'll step back. I just had a condomless encounter and got the PEP afterwards - and that cured a lot. I am still to scared. And you guys helped me to realise that this feeling is also something I have to listen to.

I don't think the mind will stop with the fantasy, but I'll keep it as a fantasy for a while now.

Thank you all for your support.

Hello ensign

How was your first load who was the guy?

Do you think you'll do it again?

Please tell us more.

[cman54]

Just wanted to say I know how you feel but sometimes I think we need to let go and take the risk. I think what London1282955 did and said is hot and I congratulate him for doing it. We need to let our inner animal out sometimes.

[London1281955]

Thanks- hope I don't regret but thought would only end up doing in years to come and so took the plunge. Was an amazing feeling and hard as can't imagine using a condom now. Just hope if get poz that end up ok

[ensign]

Hey guys,

I just wanted to let you know that I started a PrEP with the generika Tenvir EM this week.

At this point I don't know where this will lead me because I just realized that now I have raw sex as a safe option, the urge to do it, disappears. (Another mood shift maybe. The human mind stays a big miracle. Or maybe it's just only my mind )

 

But thank you once more for sharing your thoughts and experiences.   I am very glad I discovered this forum. This was truly the most helpful source in the www for me.

[Guest]

Hey guys,

I just wanted to let you know that I started a PrEP with the generika Tenvir EM this week.

At this point I don't know where this will lead me because I just realized that now I have raw sex as a safe option, the urge to do it, disappears. (Another mood shift maybe. The human mind stays a big miracle. Or maybe it's just only my mind )

 

But thank you once more for sharing your thoughts and experiences.   I am very glad I discovered this forum. This was truly the most helpful source in the www for me.

Just thought maybe this was one of my weird mood shifts also, but I to have experienced this change after beginning PrEP Tenvir EM.  I first became overwhelmed with the desires to let go and begin taking viral loads a bit over a year ago, and as with most have gone though the indecisions and anxiety of trying to understand myself as to why and how after all this time I could and would become overwhelmed with the desire to throw caution to the wind. I'm now at the cross roads that I think all come to, but am still on the hesitant side of making the big and final plunge. With this I began the PrEP a couple of months ago with the idea and thoughts that it would give me the opportunity to begin taking anon and possible viral loads and further get comfortable and ease into this new desire and lifestyle. Once really comfortable then my desire would be to drop the PrEP and let nature take it's course. I have found though that after being on the PrEP for a short time, my desires seem to have diminished somewhat  and the overwhelming desire to be bred has slacked of quit a bit, it's still there, just not as strong as before.  

[Guest kazore]

Congrats ensign on taking control of your sexual healthcare.

Let us know how it goes.

I was very anxious of having bb sex when o started prep.

No i is ok.

I even had my first bb encounter with a know poz guy last week.

[ensign]

hey guys,

 

I just wanted to let you know that for now I am waiting for the test results if the tenofir will be available in my blood. Taking the blue pill for nearly 12 days now. And until I get these results I keep it condom safe. Unfortunately I takes nearly two weeks to check the blood levels.

But I just blew a stranger in a steam sauna of a gym. And I realized that I acted more fearless which was absolutely great.

So I can't wait to get the test results. If you want I'll keep you informed.

[Leather69]

Hi ensign

PrEP is completely effective in your bloodstream after 4 or 5 days. It is also something that you can take a holiday from if you

are not expecting to be out and about fucking.. 

I have a supply but haven't taken any for a few months due to a kidney cancer - now removed. My question to my std specialist

next visit will be can I take it with only one kidney and what affect will it have?

Good luck with your choice.