Pop goes the bottom - my last load was my first.

[tj87]

I remember in my early 20s when poppers were discovered and passed around by my friends - they were a legal drug that got you 'high' but whose mild head rush was quickly eclipsed by weed and other substances - this isn't a chem sex story - but the result was that as I grew up, my little glass jar of Amyl Nitrates languished in the bottom of my wash bag for a few years before eventually being tossed, half full, never to be replenished. I didn't get the fuss.

I'm 32 years old from London, short dark brown hair and big brown Disney eyes. I'm curvy which keeps me looking on the younger side save for a beard which is now a permanent addition to my face. Without it I was a chubby nerd (4/10) being rejected by all the twinky young guys I lusted after. With it, when combined with my thick thighs and pretty decent butt, I'm some sort of cub/bear. Having recently discovered my niche it seems sex is always available - and with all the sorts of boys I wanted previously plenty of whom want to fulfil their bear fantasies. Sure enough I've started dabbling.

I've always loved being a bottom - I've just never been great at it (anxiety over mess and pain) but over the years i've bought various dildos and douches and lubes in the hopes of training myself up. I've always fantasised about bareback sex too, Breeding Zone has brought me many spectacular orgasms.

Enter one beautiful 26yo twink top just before Christmas with whom I've spoken for months online but never met, we lusted after each other's slutty photos and fantasised about raw sex. The stars align and we're both free. He hops on the train and I jump in the shower and start cleaning out. I'm feeling relaxed and start to finger myself in preparation - I tell him and he loves it - that unusual sensation of being penetrated gets me excited. When he arrives he is significantly sexier than his online profile suggests. A yoga expert, tall and well groomed. Skinny profile photos betrayed his very toned hairy body and a deep booming voice...

...and a giant cock, the kind that should come with a disclaimer - and it does because after a heavy session of kissing, stripping, tugging and sucking, he eyes the condoms I placed on my bedside table (just in case).
"I'm not being a dick about this, but they wont' fit", he tells me.
I toy with the idea of suggesting he doesn't need them but keep quiet. Our fantasies remain just fantasies and he reaches into his pocket for a king-size rubber. He wants to play safe and I'm happy to do whatever gets his cock inside me. I really want to make him cum.

He throws me on my back and slides the head of his meaty 8" cock inside me. FUCK. That instant sting. I'm not gonna be able to take it.
"I have some Poppers" he suggests, and as I flash back to being 20, he fishes out the little brown bottle and holds it under my nose. As the blood rushes to my head, he picks my legs up and slides right down to the hilt.

Pain free > Mind blown.

The sex was pretty great. He pounded me, I rode him. We synced up nicely. Apparently I'm super tight. He came faster than either of us expected - no greater compliment - but was able to power through. By the time I was ready to cum, so was he for a second perfectly timed climax. Damn he was hot. Damn I had to get some poppers.

Since this little life lesson, I've been making up for lost time. With my little brown bottle the secret to my success, I've tried and succeeded in getting as much cock as I can. Over the Christmas week I quickly rattled through ten guys, a few of whom came back for more. Turns out I love making guys cum with my ass - a few days ago I serviced three in one day - I'll save it for another story - but suffice to say I am going through a glorious slut phase, which last night culminated in my first load.

With guys 1-10, condoms were used throughout but one highlight included an intense thirty-minute rim job from a beautiful hung blonde 35yo. He was totally game to make me squeal by fingering and eating my ass like I've never experienced before. Face down on my bed with my ass sandwiching his lips, I thought he might just take the initiative and fuck me raw - I hoped he would and I wouldn't have stopped him. I was in heat. When the image flashed into my mind I came immediately, covering my bedlinen with a huge load.
"I've never eaten ass like that before", he told me after coming up for air. "I think you enjoyed that" he added, laughing.

This guy came back for seconds a few days later and I think, I hope... a third encounter is on the cards.

I fantasise that word of my newly discovered dick craze is being spread about. A few days ago, a younger guy hits me up online. He wants to play and who am I to deny him? He keeps telling me how much I will love his cock and he was right. When he arrived, I groped excitedly and found a very thick cock that looked out of place on his cute short frame.

We roll around on my bed and he asks me what I think about bareback sex. I tell him about my fantasies and about my recent encounters and this excites him more. He asks if I want him to put on a condom and I tell him he probably should but as we're talking, I make a point of telling him about my hot rim session, hoping he would get the message - he flips me over and starts to work his tongue and fingers inside of me before asking me if I want him to use a condom.... 

"Yes." I tell him and he obliges. His cock is so thick that even after my recent exploits, I rely heavily on the poppers to get him inside me. He is a selfish fuck - and I love it. When he cums, he dumps the condom on my bedside table and leaves. I reach into one of my drawers and pull out a giant dildo, bought a few years ago - the one I always wanted to work up to but was never able to take. I slowly push it into my now very loose hole. I think about being used by such a cute young guy, I think about his huge cock and how open my ass is. I cum very fast and I text him to thank him.

Last night, I invited him back - none of the pretence of round one. He's pulling my legs apart and rubbing lube on my ass. Sliding his digits in one after another, gentler than before.
"Do you want me to use a condom this time?" He asks. I reach over to feel his huge cock and discover he's already lubed up. He begins rubbing it against my hole and the head feels so soft and warm, without any of the odd friction of a latex condom. I gasp - it's like being rimmed by an extra thick tongue - and he smiles.
"Do you want me to use a condom?" He asks again and I stay silent as I help him push the head of his cock into my ass and it slides all the way into me.  It feels so good. So natural. It feels like silk - and definitely a highlight of the experience...

I look over to the unopened bottle of poppers on my bedside table and wonder if my ass is too loose from the toy, or if raw sex just feels so good I no longer need their help. I eye the unopened condom sat next to the bottle and my cock springs to life.

I must be looser because the sex takes longer, but the sensation is incredible and the psychological impact of having his bare cock inside me is keeping me right on the edge - I try and avoid touching my cock but as his body grazes it I nearly cum. When he does eventually tell me he's getting close, I've already made the decision - go big or go home - and I tell him to give it to me. I want his cum. This makes him climax but I don't feel any different. I don't feel his cock stiffen or his load shoot inside me.

When he pulls out of me, that's when I notice the difference. He flooded my insides and it bursts out of me. This moment may only have lasted a second but the sensation seemed to go on for ages. I immediately finger at my hole, it's so loose and so wet... I can't get over how wet it is.
"Finger my cummy hole." I beg him and as soon as his fingers slip inside me I orgasm and it's intense.

"I'm definitely coming back," he tells me with a smile.

He leaves and I cum three times more. 
First almost straight away while watching bareback porn and thinking of how much of a slut I might be becoming.
Second after I return from a post-fuck shower when I spy the unused condom on my bedside table which sets me off again
Third a few hours later when the rest of his load spills out of my ass and I replace it with one of my modest dildos.

I've spent the last 24-hours torn, freaked about where this road might lead for my health, sex life and future, but incredibly horny at the same time. I can easily see how people overcome the fear and turn into real cum dumps, but I guess only time will tell if this is the path I'm on. After seeking advice from friends about what I should do next, I find myself inundated with offers for more bareback loads.

So as a long-time lurker on this forum, I thought I would add the story of my first load.

[evilqueerpig]

NEVER had a condom on/in me so I know nothing about safer sex.  Now that you've experienced the difference between wrapped and bare, can you ever go back to condoms?

[tj87]

I'm not sure if i'd consider it "going back" - I love that sensation of getting filled with huge cock and if a top really wants to use a condom, I'm not gonna stop him BUT, I'm not sure they'll be the default - it feels too good having a bare cock press against my hole.

I've also started taking PrEP. 

[Guest]

congrats on your evolution boy!  I bet anything if you go back to those first 10 you made wrap up at least 9 of them will be back for a raw fuck if you offer them :)  Also glad you found your niche as a cub bottom - sounds hot and sounds like it's working out great!  here's to MANY more loads up that beefy ass for 2020!!

[HardOneLA]

Fuck yeah buddy, welcum to the Zone!  Isn't it great when you realized what we're really meant for, who we're meant to serve, and how we're meant to get it?!?  Oink!

[Neverenoughcum]

I couldn’t agree more with HardOneLA, after I realized my purpose it’s hard for me to get enough.   To me it’s the ultimate experience when my Top unloads as deep as he can in me.  I try to keep it in me as long as I can sometimes absorbing most all of it if not all.  I makes me complete having his DNA in me.  
 

it’s just what I was born to do, I know it, I own it, and I even love it.

[clickdude]

Hot stories. I love how you took all that heat to a boil that exploded in you. Gimme more!

[bttmdon]

For me it is the ultimate joy to feel the hot cum.

 

[garsento]

I am glad you had such fun.

[tj87]

Mmm, the fun has been pretty nonstop since - although not for the last few weeks - and alas one particularly beautiful FWB I've been playing with is taking the current climate as an opportunity to quit his job and move back home (on the other side of the world) so I'm a bit gutted about that - he was something special.

On the plus side, I've got a long line of eager boys to drill me once the lockdown is over, and I plan to take every load I can find and fuck the memories of him away. 😜