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This story was originally posted on my buds blog by NoVAraw (novaraw@gmail.com). I am sometimes asked how long I've been barebacking and how I first got into it. As a guy who loves sharing stories and hearing other people's stories about their sexual activities and kinks, I am generally very happy to answer the question. I've been barebacking for about 8 - 9 years now, since about 2000. My buddy Brian broke my bareback cherry. He wasn't a buddy at the time, just fresh meat, but he has since become a buddy. I was playing online, I think it might have been m4m4sex at the time, and had been just lusting after Brian's profile pic which was a shot of his cock. Brian's cock is about 8" x 6". I actually think that he is thicker than 6". His dick is full round, meaty and veiny. He's got a big set of balls and all of this is attached to a hairy trim, not gym-bound, but trim body. I'm a sucker for big dicks and a sucker for hairy guys. What made it even more appealing was that Brian is actually a very down to earth, smart, nice guy. After just ogling his profile pic for months, I worked up the nerve to contact him. I sent him an email through the online system and we started a brief chat. Very early into the chat, Brian let me know that he only barebacked. I told him that I did not and this ended the conversation, politely but it ended. It didn't end my desire for Brian's dick though. Whenever I'd log on to m4m, I would look at his profile pic and frustrate the hell out of myself. About 3 weeks later, he and I were online at the same time, and I contacted him once again, thinking that he might have forgotten our previous conversation and I might get a different answer. I was so hopeful he would say he'd fuck me safe. But he didn't, after a few email exchanges, he told me once again that he only fucks bare, and he politely turned me down. I was frustrated even more because in addition to not being able to get his dick, I had been online for hours trying to round something up and not having any luck at all. So, I was massively horny with no possibility of getting fucked in sight. I was bruised a bit by his turning me down again, but there was no way I could possibly blame him because he was so good about it. He told me where he stood and let me make the decision. I couldn't justify getting mad at him. Well I let some time pass as I struggled with the question of did I want Brian's dick enough to let him fuck me bareback. I can only describe this as agonizing. I was literally punishing myself, it seemed. Some time later, I was back online, as was Brian. I wanted to give it just one more try, which I did, and this time Brian's answer was much sterner. He said, "You've contacted me a few times and I've let you know that I only fuck bareback. When you're ready to get fucked bareback, let me know." He signed off shortly after this message. He was right. He had squarely put the question where it belonged: with me. I had been attempting to make my issue his and he was not going to let me do that. The next week, I was home for the day and feeling horny as shit. I had been online for a while and had been doing poppers as well, which I love doing, but the combination had me super horny. When I'm super horny, it's like every nerve ending in my body is screaming for cock, it's all I can think about and it consumes all my time. After having been online for much of the day and had been edging and feeling horny beyond belief, Brian came online and I was obsessed with getting some dick. I kept asking myself do I hit him up again and if I do, it can't be to try to get him to fuck me wrapped, not after his last response to me. Do I deal with my horniness by letting him fuck me bare. I sent him an email and said "I'm ready to get fucked bare." That's all the email said. Brian sent a quick response, which said nothing more than "What's your address? I can be there in about 20 minutes." I sent him my address, while my hands were trembling on the keyboard. I shut the computer down and got up from my chair. I started to tremble all over and could sense that most of the color was draining from my face. My hands also started to get cold and clammy. I could tell I was incredibly nervous, moreso than possibly any other time in my life. BUT I also knew that I wanted to see this through. I paced my apartment waiting for Brian to show up. There was a knock at the door. I opened the door and found a good looking dark-haired and dark-featured man. I let him in and I could immediately tell he knew I was nervous. So, he spoke up, realizing perhaps that I was too "stuck" to say much of anything. He said, so where do you want to play? I didn't answer but just led him to the bedroom. Once there, he pretty much took control, I think realizing that he needed to take control if anything was going to happen, but I also realized that he didn't mind stepping up to take control. He unbuckled my jeans, slid me out of my clothes until I was standing naked in front of him, still feeling cold. He started working out of his dress clothes and before long, stepped out of his boxers to reveal his beautiful cock, the thing that led to this entire episode. It was already rock hard, standing at full thick attention, commanding all the attention in the room. Brian gave me a bottle of poppers to hold and told me to get on the bed on all 4's with my shoulders down on the bed, which I did, without realizing that I even did it. I was out of it still, just going through the motions. Brian told me to take a hit of poppers, which were good poppers, fresh. And a wave went over me, easing me up a bit. He got behind me and started eating me out, which he did with a lot of gusto. He had a talented tongue. Periodically, he would tell me to take a hit which I would. He would tell me, after my taking the hit, to push my hole out and then he'd dive back in to eat it some more. In all, he probably ate me out for 20 minutes. At this point, he got on his knees behind me, with his dick in his hand and told me to take a deep hit of poppers, so I did. He put his cockhead against my ring and started pushing in gently, all the while telling me to push out. He kept pushing and popped his head in and just kept it there for a short bit. I was scared that he was in but excited as well because I was starting to feel less nervous and recognizing how much I wanted this to be happening. Again, he told me to take a hit and started pushing his dick in. Brian's so thick, he's not easy to take, but I was wet with all his spit and also incredibly loosened up and horny from the poppers. At this point, I knew without his telling me to push my hole out so that his dick could slide in more easily. Finally, he was all the way in, buried to his thick bush. He kept his dick buried in me without moving for about a minute. He told me to take another deep huff and he started to pull out to just to the point of still having his dickhead inside me. He gave me a long stroke all the way down and back up and with the next stroke down he started fucking me mad. It was his ass to fuck, he deserved it. I gave myself over to his mad fucking. He didn't say much more during this time, he could hear me doing poppers on my own without his having to tell me, so he was just going to enjoy my pussy. After about 10 minutes of fucking me like this, Brian squirted a load of juice up my ass in about 6 awesome squirts. I remember thinking he didn't even say he was going to cum or even grunt heavily. I realized it's because he didn't want to run the risk of telling me and giving me the chance to somehow pull off of him. He wanted to be sure he could plant his seed deep in my ass. He finally pulled out, started getting dressed, without saying anything to me. I was exhausted. Finally he said, I can see myself out. That was my first bareback fuck and I haven't used a rubber since.

This story was original submitted to my old buds blog. It was written by MascBottomForTop (mugenk24euro@tmail.com) who describes himself as "21, 5'5, 120lbs, masculine and athletic, not a twink or boi. Can be sub or fem for the right guy..." Well I met this guy on adam around September of this year. He's a real cutie. About 5'11 160lbs athletic build. A jack of all trades, he could fix or replace almost anything in a house or car which turned me on bigtime. I love a man that works with his hands. He's older than I am by about 11 years (I'm 21). We flirted for 3 months sending texts and emails. I would drool over his cock picks. Its a monster 9x6 inches. The biggest I had before him was only 6.5 so I knew I was in for a world of pain but I wanted him and he wanted me. So this Christmas weekend he invited me over to his place in LA and I didn't really feel like driving that far after work but something in me told me to go so I did. And there he was, much better looking in person and the sexiest voice I've heard in a long time. He made me an awesome ceasar salad and cooked the best lasagna I've ever tasted (he knew it was my favorite). We watched Top Gear episodes on BBC for a while and chatted about all kinds of political and social subjects before I decided to make a move. I moved closer to him on the couch and put my head on his shoulder like I was tired (damn he smelled good) and he put his arm around me. I started kissing his neck and he must have known what I was doing because he grabbed me by the hips and lifted me up to carry me to the bedroom. Our clothes flew off then he put me face down and kissed me all over ultimately ending up tongue deep in my ass. The sensation felt so good I had goosebumps everywhere. Then he flipped me over and sat on my chest to present his fat cock. I immediately gobbled down as much as I could and let him probe my throat, thrusting his cock deeper and deeper until his balls were about an inch from my chin. I couldn't take anymore. I wanted him inside my hole and he could see it. So he flipped me over once again and slobbered all over my hole getting me soaking wet making me twitch it closed and open with every lick. He reached for some lube and a condom, put it on and slowly tried to stick me but it burned almost like icy hot. I told him to take it off and he said "I don't have anymore condoms..." Two things ran thru my mind, the first being I've never done it without a condom and the second I really didn't want to ruin the moment. I sat and thought about it knowing I had been tested negative 3 month prior and he had showed me his negative results before so what the hell... I said "I want u inside me now" that's all it took. He somehow someway managed to slide balls deep inside me. There was no pain at all. It felt so good without the condom. His smooth cock sliding in and out teasing my hole at first then slamming it in stabbing at my prostate. It didn't take me long to cum I didn't even touch myself. Just held on to the edge of the bed as he took control of my hole and made it his. I could feel his big balls slapping my ass and I squeezed my muscles tighter around his cock which he loved. It felt like we had been together for years. It wasn't a simple pounding, he made love to me and at the same time made it known this was HIS hole. I could barely keep myself from screaming. About an hour went by he started pumping harder, deeper, faster... I knew he was going to cum and as he pulled back to take it out I pushed back to keep it inside. Then it happened. He gripped my ass hard with his hands and let out the deepest moan I've ever heard. He leaned forward and layed down on top of me pumping slowly as the cum flowed out inside me. His cock throbbing with every shot. I knew from that day forward I would always let him cum inside me.

Google "Lube Launcher" and "Lube Shooter" and you can find products that are even better at putting lube in your ass...

Do you guys want a chat room feature on this site? I could get one an integrate it with the site, but it costs money so I want to make sure people would actually use it. I'm not sure we have critical mass yet, but maybe... If I did a chat room it would just be one big public chat room with the option of splitting off into a private chat with someone. The issue is there are usually only 5 to 15 guys logged into this site at any given time (plus about 10 times that who don't login) so the people in the chat room would be a percentage of that... Probably just 2 or 3 - maybe 5 when it's busy...

When guys say they're "D/D Free" or "STD Free" are they including HIV or can a poz guy say he's "STD free" as well? Sometimes guys say they're both neg and dd free, but what happens in the case where they don't say anything about HIV? I mean HIV is obviously an STD, but isn't "STD free" more about saying you've been tested for all the little things and don't have stuff like the clap or syphilis?

I see all these ads for guys saying they're "poz and healthy" (example). I can see where that had real meaning 20 years ago, but what exactly does it mean in 2010 when the vast majority of poz guys are on meds and doing fine?

WTF is up in Ontario? Look at this guy's face and tell me how in the hell he could be the one who's forced to plead guilty for assault? The guy (Jake Raynard) needed reconstructive surgery to fix his face he was beaten so badly... Yet he had to plead guilty to assault for kicking his attacker. Why in the hell didn't he go to jury on this one? I can't imagine anyone finding him guilty... I mean even if he over reacted, it was heat of the moment and none of it would have happened if he hadn't been attacked. Read more... http://joemygod.blogspot.com/2010/05/ontario-gaybashing-victim-pleads-guilty.html http://www.xtra.ca/public/National/Thunder_Bay_gaybashing_victim_pleads_guilty_to_assault-8694.aspx

That should tell you something... Sounds like you need to get fucked bareback more often

You you ever find that you can't resist barebacking? Or are you fine with it when the other guy wants to rubber up? But more than that - have you ever wanted to not bareback but just couldn't resist it? I know eventually we just give in and fuck raw, but how much angst did you have when you were just starting to bareback and was it something you just couldn't resist? Personally, it's a bit of a compulsion for me. But one that I enjoy

I just noticed aBBPigInSF uploaded some pics the other day and his ass is INCREDIBLY hot!! (The guiche is a nice touch) If you want to upload pics of yourself or see recent pics that have been uploaded choose the "My Albums" option under the "Community" submenu towards the top of any page...

Thought these were pretty funny - There's Scott's "Pump 'N Go" and then Bug Chaser insect repellent... I want the Pump 'N Go logo made into a t-shirt... Know of any others?

Get this, the judge gave them the maximum sentence... Make sure your conservative friends hear about this case... Talking to people and making them understand that people a lot like you are getting thrown in prison just for being themselves does make a difference...

One of the big problems with US immigration policy is that children who are brought here illegally by their parents, and grow up in the US, are often deported back to their home country - a place they've barely lived in and often they can't even speak the language. They've never known a life outside the US, yet they're illegal and constantly face deportation. There's currently a case like that that has layered on top of it the fact that the illegal is a gay Iranian. If he gets deported there's a good chance he'll be put to death in Iran. His name is Mohammad Abdollahi and he was part of a sit-in protest in McCain's office which brought him to the attention of the authorities and now he's under arrest and will be going in front of a judge on June 16th. Here is a post with more information on his case... http://www.towleroad.com/2010/05/undocumented-gay-iranian-youth-jailed-fears-deportation-after-sitin-protest-at-john-mccains-office.html And here's a YouTube video he made where he explains his situation... He's cute, isn't he? If the US sends him back to Iran it would be horrible given that he could face death in Iran. Hopefully they'll work something out - even if it's sending him to Canada. Speaking of Canada - how he would be handled wouldn't even be up for question there. The fact that he could face bodily harm for being gay would qualify him for asylum. It's incredibly sad the same isn't true in the US. For more about the plight of undocumented students go to DreamActivist.org...

The bottom is the guy I fucked a few months ago... Great bottom. Highly recommend you give him a load if you can... http://www.rawtop.com/blog/2010-02/fucked-another-blogger-barewhore24

I've attached one of the only studies I know that has quantified how risky barebacking really is. When I say bareback tops are nearly as safe as safe sex bottoms - this is the study that backs up those numbers, but it says a lot more than that... Read it over and see for yourself. If you know of other more recent studies that have similar data, let me know. varghese2002-29-1.pdf

I've thought about asking my doc for the test. Knowing would make a difference psychologically. I heard there's a place on the Internet where you can get a complete genetic analysis and it includes the CCR5 mutation test. When I heard about it they were charging $400, which I didn't feel like paying. If it were just the one test and more like $40 or $50 I'd do it in a heartbeat. BTW, I think it's CCR5, not 35...

You may know by now that the people that are immune or resistant to HIV tend to come from countries that were hit hard by Smallpox. Their ancestors were the ones whose bodies fought off the disease and then that genetic adaptation was passed on to their offspring. Once Smallpox was eradicated they phased out vaccinations between the 1950s and 1970s. Even though HIV had been around for something like 100 years it was in the late '70s that HIV started spreading and then in '80/'81 they started noticing a wave of people getting ill. That means Smallpox vaccine might be an effective HIV vaccine and even a treatment for people with HIV... Read more... http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-1279237/End-smallpox-vaccination-linked-spread-HIV.html

I'm keeping this as a separate forum for a few reasons. First, some people don't want to think about HIV when they're jacking off, but also some of the stuff is important and it's better if it not get lost in the other discussions...

This isn't a bad marriage joke about marriage being like a prison sentence - it's the real deal... A gay couple in Malawi (Steven Monjeza, 26, and Tiwonge Chimbalanga, 20) married each other and now they're being sentenced to 14 years hard labor for "unnatural acts and gross indecency"... Read more... http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2010/may/18/malawi-gay-couple-jailed

A lot of the guys who come here are looking for things that are sexually arousing, so I think political discussion should be kept separate since injustice can sorta kill a hardon, but I also think it's important to talk about the ways we're still not equal 'cause we should never forget we're not "there" yet - not even close, actually...

I really could care less. To me the bottom's dick is irrelevant. Hell, I think it would be hot if the bottom were a eunuch. That said, when a bottom gets hard and stays hard without touching himself it is a signal he's enjoying himself and that's always good feedback. So I'd say if you don't get hard be sure your top knows you're enjoying yourself. That said, my bf is a top and he not only likes the bottom to get hard, he likes it when they have a big dick. So it depends on the top. I think a lot of bottoms wear jockstraps to hide the fact that they're not hard. It takes their dick out of the equation and makes the top focus on their ass and not notice their dick. I added a poll to this thread to get feedback from tops...

Yeah, it's a multiple choice question... The results so far tell me I should try to gain muscle since almost everyone likes muscle bears, but i shouldn't bother trying to lose fat... Chubs are doing better than athletic guys... Go figure. If you compare the responses to the other one about which bottoms people want to fuck it's clear it's all about older guys with some meat on them breeding younger thinner guys...

Just wondering how many guys discuss HIV status before a bareback fuck? Are there times when you do and others when you don't? I know for me I never bring it up. I used to, but it's just not an issue anymore. I do have some bottoms ask - usually "neg" guys who want to know if I'm neg, but generally guys don't seem to discuss it. In fact I'd say less than 1/2 of the guys who list their status as neg in their profiles ask me if I'm really neg...

This is the companion question to the one for tops (versatile guys can vote/comment in both). The question is what sort of guys do you like to get fucked by and why? It sorta goes along with the earlier thread about what bottoms look for in a top...