VersatileBreeder

Wow, sounds pretty crazy. I try to steer clear of guys with drug issues. I once met a guy who was pretty hot, he wanted to fuck me. We started messing around, a little foreplay, and then he wanted to do some coke to "get the party started." I told him sorry but I just wasn't really interested anymore. As for the possibility that this particular guy might be poz and might be withholding his load to not infect me, I have no worries about that. Of course, there is always a possibility that guys lie and he could be lying about his neg status, but with him, all evidence points to him truly being neg. When we first met, even when we were using a condom, he asked me about three times if I was absolutely sure I was neg and disease-free because he could not bring anything home to his wife, that it would ruin his life if he did. Also, before he left after his first time, he told me to please be careful with what I do with guys. I assured him that I don't bareback with everyone and those I do bareback with, I do take risk-mitigating measures. So I am not really worried with him being poz as the reason for him not wanting to cum inside me.

That's not a bad observation, but as this man isn't stupid, I would think he should have more sense than to think that not he not cumming inside a guy lowers his risk. I don't know. Maybe I just need to ask him flat out why he doesn't want to cum in me.

Here's my story. I recently started messing around with this hot 50 year old bi guy. He's married, got kids, etc, but loves having a guy to plow on the side. He oozes masculinity- deep voice, hot body, beautiful 8 inch very thick cock, the whole package. Anyway, the first couple times we met, he insisted he use a condom to fuck me. I am neg, so is he, but he insists on safe play. I, like most people on this site, hate condoms but I couldn't say no to having such an awesome cock plow me, even rubbered up. The third time we met up, he was fucking me with a condom, then he pulled out and took the condom off. I assumed that meant he was done with fucking me, even though he hadn't cum yet, so I turned around to suck him a bit. After sucking him for a minute, he told me to turn around. Next thing I knew, I felt the massive head of his cock at my hole and he pushed it in, completely raw. I turned around and asked him "you sure you wanna do this?" I was asking him to be sure that he wouldn't have any regrets or remorse later, but I think he construed my asking him as my own insecurity of having a raw cock in my hole. His response was "don't worry, I'm not cumming in you." Knowing perfectly well that wasn't my issue and that I would LOVE this man's sperm in my hole, I said, "you can cum in me if you want." I thought he was going to agree to that, but I was wrong. His response was, "nah, I don't mess around like that." He fucked me for a little while raw, and when it came time to cum, he pulled out, put me on my knees and shot all over my face/mouth. So here is what I am wondering... First of all, have any guys had similar experiences with tops before? Why would he not want to give me his load? He is neg, was all about being safe in the beginning because as he told me, he has a wife, kids, etc, but once he goes in me raw, he isn't further compromising his safety by loading me, so why would he not want to? I just don't get it. We are meeting up again this week, I think that after this time that he was able to relax with me, we probably won't be using condoms again, but I really want his load. I don't want to push him on it, but I want to let him know that its okay to shoot it in me. But I think first I need to figure out some possible reasons why he doesn't want to give it to me in the first place.

I have always wondered what size I like best also. Until recently, the two best size cocks that fucked me have been one that was about 8" and pretty thick and rock hard. He was a rough fucker and made sure my ass was well plowed before he'd seed it. The other guy was a trucker with a little less than 7" but EXTREMELY thick, almost beer can thick. Taking his cock was a challenge because he stretched my hole so much but once we started going, it felt SO good. Recently, I met a new fuck bud who has 8.5" and fairly thick but nothing crazy. I swear, his cock fits in my ass like it was made for it. He's got just enough length that I can feel him hit the second hole without slamming into it. Just enough thickness to open me up nice but not stretch me out like crazy. I could get fucked by him all night long. He also fucks with a really good rhythm and pace. Takes his time and usually takes about a good 15-20 minute session in my ass before he shoots his load in there. I take a few hits of poppers with him sliding in and out of me and it is definitely some of the best sex I ever had.

Last week I met a guy on craigslist- a 41 year old top with a really beautiful 8.5" thick cut cock. When he sent me the pic of his cock, I knew I had to have it. Last week, when we met for the first time, the sex was quick as I wasn't able to get to his place until late at night and he pretty much just wanted to fuck, get off and go to sleep, in the interest of time. Tonight was different. I was able to get to his place earlier in the night and we had some time to kill. We watched baseball for a little bit, then went into his hot tub naked. We started making out in the hot tub and after about 15 minutes decided to take it to his bedroom. I started off by sucking his cock. It takes him a few minutes to get hard, but when he gets hard, his large cut cock stands at attention and stays hard. After deep throating and giving his cock some good oral attention, he guided me onto my back and crawled up in between my legs, spread them out and put them over his shoulders. He grabbed a bottle of lube and lubed up his cock and my ass. As he placed the thick head of his cock in between my legs, I took a deep hit of poppers and he entered me slowly. My heart was pounding from the poppers and that general popper euphoria in conjunction with his thick cock spreading my hole open had me flying. He started off fucking my hole nice and easy. His cock felt so good inside me, like it was the perfect size for my ass. We switched up the position a couple of times- I rode him for a little bit, then he put me face down on my stomach and fucked me from behind. But in the end, he wound up flipping me back onto my back and him on top. His fucking was so passionate. He would rest his forehead on mine and kiss me here and there, but what really drove me wild was when he locked eyes with me. It's like he was telling me silently that I was there to service him for his pleasure, but he also had a certain tenderness to it. After a few more minutes of this amazing fucking, he started picking up the pace and started giving me longer, deeper strokes to the point where I can feel him hitting my second hole. Then he asked me the four best words I heard all day: "You want my load?" As I nodded and moaned and said "yes, please give it to me," he told me he was going to put it in real deep. With a few grunts, he pushed his cock as far in me as it goes and unleashed his seed inside me. He left his cock there and let it go soft before retreating out of me. Definitely one of the hotter fucks I have had and I look forward to meeting him more. We might meet Friday night and make it an over-nighter. Can't wait to see how many times he fucks me between night and morning.

I sort of feel weird about this when it comes to age. I am 29, and pretty much at a high sexual peak in my life. I can do sex (forgive the Borat terminology) just about any time of any day. I don't really discriminate much on age but I am just not much into guys older than 50, just a preference. From personal sexual experience, which I have plenty of... I have found some of the best sex I have ever had seems to be with guys in their late 30's to mid-40's. I am not sure why exactly that is. I have played with guys of all ages (legal ages of course) up to probably 57 or 58. I also notice a difference with how turned on I get by either topping or bottoming a guy (I am versatile) and it usually ties into their age. Usually I prefer to top guys around my age or younger, maybe within a few years older. But when I bottom, I have a soft spot for daddies. I usually don't get that turned on my having younger guys fuck me, it just doesn't do it for me. I have a 19 year old friend who is hung about 9 inches and he can fuck all night, but when he fucks me, it feels very mechanical like there's no passion. It has felt that way with just about any guy younger than me that has topped me. On the other hand, when I have bottomed for guys in their 40's, there almost always seems to be a connection with them and they know how to just take my ass and pound away at it and dominate me. The best fuck bud I had was a 42 year old married guy with an 8" THICK and ROCK hard cock. He would pound me into oblivion, multiple times in a night. And he always knew how to just lock his eyes with mine while he makes my hole his and for his pleasure only. And that fierce look in his eyes when he would pump his load in me... I just never got that with the younger guys. I feel like for them, they just need to get off and they don't feed any mental pleasure into me. I am sure this is not the norm for young guys, I just haven't been lucky. Maybe one day, I will meet a younger top who just blows my mind.

I live in Northern NJ, about 30 minutes outside NYC.

So here's my story. I am a neg vers barebacker. I love giving loads and I love taking loads. I have been playing raw for about 3-4 years now, have had multiple partners, many one-time hook-ups, rarely use condoms. I have given many loads and taken a few. Yet, I am still neg and I want to stay that way. I am not ready to become poz and I'm not sure I ever will be ready for that. My concern is this- I have toyed with the idea of getting on PrEP. I feel that someone in my position (which is that other people would say it is inevitable that I will one day become poz) should be on PrEP. My only issue is this: I don't know where to get a prescription for it, I don't know how to get a prescription for it and I am kind of nervous to start looking into this. I don't really know how gay-friendly my doctors are (I see general physicians at a reputable urgent care doctor's office near me). I have a feeling that if I go in explaining that I am a regular barebacker and I want PrEP as a first line of defense to staying neg, they wouldn't do it. I think that they, instead, will start hitting me with all the safer sex talk, pushing condoms and basically giving me a high school health class lecture about STD's. I am really not interested in hearing all that. So my question to all the guys out there on PrEP (or to anyone who knows the answer), how did you get your prescription for it? What did you tell your doctor and how would you recommend I go about it?

I have used the OraQuick at home test. My only gripe with it is that it costs $40. I think it could be a little more cost effective than that, especially considering that there is so much unnecessary packaging that comes in the kit (when you try it, you'll see what I mean). If they cut some of that crap out, maybe it could cost only $20 or $30. But anyway, that gripe aside... What I really like about it is that I gain the following advantages using the OraQuick over having to go to a clinic to be tested: - No need to worry about clinic hours (their hours during the week are usually erratic, at least the ones by me). You can take this test whenever you want. - No waiting room anxiety- there is nothing I hate more than getting the test and then being told to wait in the waiting room for a half hour, wondering... - Though it is pricey, the cost is about the same as an insurance copay if you go to a doctor or Planned Parenthood- only way to beat that is go to a free clinic. - I have the peace of mind knowing that IF the test should come back positive, I can have some time to myself to figure out how I am going to proceed with my life. I can inform who needs to be informed and worry about going to a doctor to get confirmatory testing and meds. I know I don't have to worry about having ten clinicians up my ass bombarding me with 54 questions about my most recent partners and our sexual roles, etc... I can just deal with it myself.

I am typically pretty versatile, but lately have been caving into my bottom side. Like most guys on this thread, I LOVE getting bred. LOVE IT. There is nothing hotter than a guy unleashing his big load right into my ass. On one level, it makes me feel like I now have a bond with that guy and on another level, it makes me feel like a total subservient whore whose only role is to please men and receive their loads. BUT, I do not want to become poz. I discuss status as much as I can with potential partners to the point where I then make the decision to let them BB me or not. I usually go with my gut feeling on it. I know it is risky. I actually realized recently firsthand how risky it actually is. Story goes I had a fuck buddy I met on craigslist. We discussed status over e-mail for quite sometime (a couple of weeks) before we actually met. He was neg and said that he also wanted to stay that way and had no tolerance for people who do are not upfront and truthful about their status. He came over one Sunday afternoon and we had great sex. He plowed my hole like the fate of the world depended on it. He loaded me up twice that day. We met again a small handful of times over the next few months, then one day, I said I think it would be smart if we both got tested together. We both went on a Saturday and got rapid tests done. Both tests negative. We went back to his place and he again fucked my brains out and filled me with his loads. A few months went by and I got really busy with work and had not much time to hook up. He kept texting me, trying to get me to go see him so he can breed me. He missed my ass. I missed him and his cock too but I just did not have the time. Well, right after Thanksgiving (this point being about four months since we last hooked up), I got a disturbing text message from him. He instructed me to check my e-mail and he apologized for "what he did not know until this morning." Also said that he will probably be unreachable for some time. i checked my e-mail. It turns out he went for his annual blood work, all STD's tested, etc, the week prior. His doctor called him and told him he needed to come in and it was urgent. Turns out he was HIV+. As soon as I read that, I left work, told them I felt sick and went straight to the nearest clinic. My greatest fear is that he may have been in his window period when I tested with him four months prior and he loaded me up at a point when his viral load was at high levels. I got a quick rapid test, extremely nervous, but the nurse called me in and told me my test was negative. Huge rush of relief. When I finally calmed down and got myself together, I e-mailed him back telling him how awful I felt about his converting to positive and if he needs any support, I am there. I heard back from him about a month later and to this day, we remain friends. He later found out who it was who pozzed him. It happened about two months prior and the guy who did it did not know his + status. He was an avid barebacker and hadn't been tested in over a year, so his VL was probably raging. The hardest part for me to swallow of the whole thing is that during those months where I did not see him, he kept asking me to get together with him. The only reason I didn't was because I was so busy. Had I free time, I very well may have let him fuck me and load me up... With an extremely toxic load that I would have just assumed was negative because we got tested together. Had I gotten pozzed by him, I don't know what I would have done. I just am not ready to become poz and I don't think I ever will be. It really is scary for me to think about and the experience made me more cautious about who I meet up with. So, moral of the story for the neg BB bottoms who want to remain neg.... BB is always going to have that risk. Taking loads is always going to be Russian Roulette. Even when you think you KNOW a guy's neg status, he could still be poz. Just make sure to take care of yourselves and don't take any risks you're not comfortable with.