PozToxVersPig

I know who I am and I like it too. It also doesn't need to be 100% consuming but does play a more significant role that might be for someone else. I'm happy with my obsession.

Yeah, and I've been getting fucked for 31 years...

Is it really? My math above doesn't make it seem all that ridiculous.

I experienced another advantage of wearing a jock over the last few days. We were fucking a lot on laminate floors in the living room and I was on my stomach often. At one point I didn't have the jock on and my dick sort of "drug" on the floor and it pulled in an uncomfortable way. With the jock on, I was able to slide forward and back without friction. Just a different point of view.

My estimate is I've taken TEN TIMES 1000 dicks....so cleared this hurdle probably well before the year 2000.

I misread the question. I think you know when it becomes an obsession and desire you canNOT satisfy, even after you've been filled beyond most people's capabilities. I think willingness to be "no loads refused" is critical. And I mean truly no loads refused. Not "no loads refused" but only if they're white, under 60 and not obese. I mean NO LOADS REFUSED. I don't think you have to be 100% no loads refused, but you should be closer with fewer qualification to call yourself a cumdump.

15 - first sexual experience, first breeding. Dumpy older white dude who used Jergen's almond-fragrance hand soap for lube. But probably long before that because I had to search the online chat rooms for quite a while to find someone who would fuck me in those days (1994). Especially given my age.

I feel it a lot of times, but definitely not always. I think it depends on whether or not I've already been loaded/fucked prior and where we are at in the line-up (if there is one). If it's the first guy and it's been a few hours since I've gotten a load, I'll most likely feel it. My entire family tree has a generations old genetic quirk which causes hyperthermia in the men (ongoing elevated body temperature). So most of the time, cum and piss feel cool to me within my hole, not warm. So as soon as I feel any type of coolness spray my hole, that's the cumload. You can feel the puling of the guys dick too, assuming your hole isn't wrecked. My experience at least. I think that @Pozguyinchiis spot on that it's totally a hormonal thing too - I definitely get that no matter what...which is also why I bat people away if they try to get eat the load out of my ass too soon.

A huge part of America is on the verge of homelessness due to the economy, not to mention the existing population of those experiencing homelessness. It's been about 48 hours since I had some...for the third time in 3 days. for me, it's more about "do you have any limits on the dick you'll take, homeless or otherwise." My answer is almost 100% no. Honestly, the only disqualifying factor is if you're just a complete asshole/jerk that doesn't even grudge fuck you! 🙂

This is incredibly helpful about swapping out the piercings. That's a really good pointer. What do you wear in place of it when you don't wear the 0g? Also have you seen these 00g piercings? I don't think my dick is even big enough for that.

I've been to HorseMarket in San Fransico before (maybe 5 years ago). I really enjoyed it. I'm also very used to anon sex and being blindfolded while being fucked, so it wasn't really an unfamiliar situation for me. I had a great time. I plan on applying to be a Mare in 2026 for the Denver event. The Mares get selected by lottery, so hopefully I'll get chosen. They are fun and high energy by comfortable, my impression though I could see nothing, was that different types / styles / body types / ages intermingled more among the Stallions, as well as with the Mares. It is worth it to me to go back. [think before following links] https://horsemarket.net/

Given I've been in my house for the last two nights, I thought tonight I might venture out. However sincere there are no sex parties I can find, and as we all know we have no bathhouses, that leaves me with good-ol-reliable Pleasures. I've been to the one on Colfax, and the one up on Federal. Honestly, I don't have a strong recollection of which location corresponding to which experience I had lol. Any thoughts on which of the locations you'd go to if were Pleasures? If you were gonna go somewhere else and try to get dick, where would it be? It's been a while since I've had this challenge.

Yeah, you essentially also with stupid or uninformed people have to step in the role of educator and explain concepts like U=U, as an example. The ultimate thing that disclosure affords you regardless of the status you are currently in is some protection against legal causes of action under HIV criminalization statutes. In order for there to even be cause, the person would have to become positive/infected, and that it is provable it originated from you, and that you failed to disclose. Because U=U, he will not become positive, so disclosure doesn't matter - as you astutely point out @PozBearWI! 🙂

Sorry - I meant my RESPONSE was a doozy in that it was very long.....not that the topic was a doozy. 🙂

My hole and my dick just twitched thinking about that, especially since I was just talking about going to Berlin today......hot!

Yeah, there's a lot of psychology in that. Some of gay culture began in "dark rooms" because as an overall demographic, we had to stay hidden regardless of the activity...some of that continues to persist into our section of the gay counterculture which is pervy, bb, poz, whatever sex. Sounds like your coworker hasn't accepted this about himself so simply by interacting with you, he now has to face that truth about himself which he's probably been surpressing....other than in the safety of the dark room. My SHIT version of true story of this interaction - I was hosting anon dudes at my place back in Seattle. Did this regularly where I'd leave the door unlocked and dudes would breed and go. This one night, two dudes arrive, I'm spitroasted, it seems to be going fine and then the top wraps his hands around my throat and starts choking me. Not like sex choking, like "I'm gonna kill you" choking me. His buddy was clearly alarmed and told his friend to stop and the guy choking me is like "you really screwed me over and you think you're just gonna be able to not have any consequences. You fucking screwed me..." yelling yelling. His friend pulls him off of me (in my own bed), I pull up my blindfold and there's a colleague of mine who had done some very illegal and improper thing with a major multinational corporation that was our customer. My team at the time had found out about it (not ever pointing the finger at him directly), and reporting it to Corporate Compliance who did an investigation. The Choking Dude was ultimately fired (I didn't even know this before the hookup, it wasn't on my radar.). He apparently blamed the whole thing on me and was going to enact his revenge when he found me on BBRT hosting anon hookups. (P.S. I still took many more anon loads that way for many more years and still do. One bad apple can't spoil the bunch...:)

(Sorry, this is a doozy....I think I'm riding off the energy of the cum in my hole....) FIRST, let me say that as someone who has been in 3 relationships all ending around the 8 year mark, I can in no way speak to longevity of the open relationship or monogamous constructs. Many of those who responded have far more years under their belts. SECOND, I don't think I want to be in any type of committed relationship, ever, again - open, closed, or otherwise. THIRD, if I had to do it all over again across my 20s, 30s, and 40s, I think I would learn towards "MONOGAMY PLUS" or "OPEN WITH LIMITS" whatever you want to call it meaning - we can have sex with other people, or go to our favorite poz gang bang, or hook up with some trick - but there are limits that help us continue to focus on our core family unit. So maybe you get to go to four sex parties a year, or hook up X number of times, or whatever....but it keeps it constrained. Part of the "assistance" a monogamous structure provides is to create a "walled-garden" around the relationship that allows those two people to focus on exclusively critical components of that relationship - emotional connection, physical/sexual connection, spiritual connection, health and well-being, family'friends/community. I think monogamy strives to achieve a balance between these things, understanding that all may not be running perfectly at any given time, but that you're balancing one area (sexual relationship with other areas that might need more focus at that moment and having a clear conversation with each other about that.) Removing one aspect of focus or shifting attention outside of the "walled-garden" in an open relationship creates a challenge in that - while Person A may feel they are paying an appropriate amount of attention to the "open" part of what they are up to, Person B may be spending more having to think about the other areas because attention has been drawn away. Thus begins the formation of resentment that time and attention is drawn away from the core-unit which is A+B. Invariably I think on person will find that the A+B relationship is of more importance and priority than the "OPEN" construct and things fall apart. As I allude to in my preamble, that's why if you're going to be in some type of "open" scenario, for me, I'd want to have some constraints around it. Those constraints don't necessarily need to be limiting, per se, but they have to be mutually agreed to by A+B so that they both feel that the limit doesn't constrain a person AND ALSO continues to support focus on the relationship. And you keep open commutation about this as things develop. If PERSON A needs to get bred by some rando 2 times a day 7 days a week and PERSON B agrees this still allows for the right level of focus on A+B, then you're fine. Alternatively, if PERSON B feels that only 1 hookup a week will allow the focus on A+B to be sufficient, then both A&B need to come to common ground with each other. Part of any great relationship is expectation setting and follow through when expectations aren't met. If they conversation had simply been like "Yeah, I'm fine with you fucking other people" and then PERSON A goes AWOL and out of control, PERSON B is going to feel some type of way. Net net, I don't think monogamy is a modern-day construct and for that reason alone, we should give it another name and call it COMMITTMENT. If you make a COMMITTMENT to the other person, then you have to deal with the underbelly all of it which is to be mature, thoughtful thinkers and communicators with and together with each other.

The majority of my friends don't play in the Breeding Zone / NastyKingPig / advanced bareback / poz universe so have little exposure to the vast majority of this part of my life. Those that do play on this field know and we talk openly about it or share stories or bitch about a hookup gone bad - my friend the other day called me horrified after a hookup and told me how he had to "waffle stomp" in the dudes shower for 20 minutes and the guy eventually got so concerned he came in to the bathroom and pulled open the shower curtain and witnessed my friend waffle-stomping. I digress. All of my friends know that I am very highly sexually active, and this has been almost my whole life since 15. They all know that I'm poz. They all know that I used to hook up a lot, frequent the bathhouses when I lived in Seattle, had a vast array of sex toys and gear, and even in my former house a sling room. They can make assumptions from there. I don't hide anything and if I were asked or a friend/family member wanted to know more or talk about it, I would and I'd be candid. I'm at a point in my career where I'm not concerned about any exposure to all of this in the workplace - this has made things like fuck pics and videos much more accessible for me to consider than they used to be. Of course, there have been some shocking moments at sex parties over the years. At a Cumunion in Seattle I was in the dark room for many hours taking dick and there was another bottom next to me the whole time. He was high like me. We never really made eye contact or could see each other that well, but as the party was wrapping, we both got up at the same time and realized we were CLOSE work colleagues - on the same team. I would have never thought him the type to take raw loads at a sex party and also to do drugs, yet here we both were. We formed a pretty close friendship after that. There were less ideal suprise encounters but nothing to write home about.

I had this conversation last night with a buddy. If we define "stealthing" as misleading the bottom that you're going do "safe only" or lying about your status, I'm not for this. If it included not proactively telling them you're poz even though they don't ask, then that's not my problem and I have no issue not proactively declaring my HIV status. I have stealthed a few times - one time was a pure grudge fuck because the bottom was a self-righteous asshole even though we still ended up fucking. At any rate, it doesn't really do it for me. I'd much prefer a bottom beg me for my poz cum emphatically while we're fucking, tell me about what a slut they are and how now they are a poz cumdump. This gets me going. This makes me want to shoot my load. Watching and hearing them emphatically become a poz pig.