PozToxVersPig

I chose hole. I'm really verbal during sex, especially if I'm getting poz fucked, and hole rolls off the tongue easier than other words when you're getting fucked hard. Cumhole, cumdumpster (referring to myself and my holes). I avoid pussy and cunt because both of those tend to be galvanizing one way or the other. Some guys are okay with it, some guys aren't, so unless it's introduced by the top, I don't use. I've been asked a few times (not many) how I come up with how to talk dirty/poz talk while getting fucked, and it's legit not something I even think about. It just comes out. It generally follows the idea that I want their dirty load in my hole. The thought of that inspires me. I wanna know who uses entry/entrance and how that works in to a sexy phrase.

I think a lot of people still know the basics, but it isn't really used to indicate sexual preference anymore especially in the age of the apps. Yellow = piss, red = fisting, blue = anal - these are the common ones you'll see. Right versus left is more ambiguous - there isn't really a position for "vers." I tend to wear a red and blue jock in most situations, and my favorite harness is black with a very thin yellow trim. The need for the code is thankfully a mostly bygone era. Today, we're more overt. I'm going to a sex party Saturday, and I found jockstraps online that had words on the waistband like "CUMDUMP" "TOXIC CUMWHORE" "PISS PIG" "FISTING SLUT" "CUMSLUT" "BREED ME" "CUM INSIDE ME" and "TOXIC." Makes it much easier to know what's up. Also - biohaz or scorpion symbols indicate HIV positivity. There's a lot of apparel and accessories with those symbols on it as the poz community embraces these symbols. I've seen several neg friends buy shirts, necklaces, etc. with these symbols on them and wear them out, only to be asked by friends "OMG, I had no idea you were poz." They weren't and aren't, they just didn't understand the symbol.

If you at some point overcame any reservations to being super visible in online sex videos or similar, what got you over the hump of doing so? What did you face in doing so? How did you handle it?

I've recently become much less concerned with having videos taken during fuck sessions, as well as posting them online. I really like it--and video is good advertising! 🙂 My face is never featured, and I definitely respect the boundaries of anyone participating. That said, I have a substantial number of tattoos on my body which are all custom and incredibly distinctive. Anyone that knows me would know what they look like and would identify me instantly based on the ink alone. So why wouldn't I just make and post videos that featured all of me - I'm not trying to be a porn star, but what harm is there in being able to see who I am? If you think even more simply, why wouldn't every profile photo on sites like this, BBRT, etc. not feature a face pic? Assuming I were "discovered" --- Could my employer terminate me for having these types of videos? Yes. I imagine they'd face a pretty significant discrimination lawsuit - because what's the difference between someone having a channel about making cupcakes and me having a channel about having sex? Both are legal. Could it create professional challenges? Sure, among my company colleagues as well as customers/partners/etc., this may shift their opinion about me and that opinion could stifle collaboration, or establish my "reputation." If I were to apply for jobs, it could be used to disqualify me I imagine. What would I say to my family and friends about this? Most families don't have open, direct conversations about sexuality and this level of visibility would cause loved ones to either crawl immediately into their shell or trigger rare types of conversations. "Sex work," "pornography," and those associated with it (even the most vanilla versions) still endure substantial stigma and must accept that will be part of their life. HIV positive people endure similar. So even though it's not right that, it is reality. But why am I afraid of talking about these parts of my life? I've been open about being HIV positive for years, but do I talk about being off-meds? No, not yet. Just an example. So, if I'm engaged in consent-based activities and video them because I like to and don't care about sharing with others who might enjoy it, what's the problem? Very few people who aren't in my gay-tribe would even ever encounter it, unless it was sent to "out" me. But what am I being outed for? This was triggered by a recent hookup - he liked being video'd and wanted it posted, etc. but gave a 10-minute tutorial first about the angles that would hide his incredibly generic tattoo so he couldn't be recognized. Literally, there are probably 10,000 people in Denver alone with the same tattoo that are also gay....(compared to tattoos like mine). And this was a vanilla hookup -- me getting my dick sucked and me fucking this guy. But as much as he wanted to be recorded and to show-off, the fear of being discovered for exploring his sexual likes was terrifying to him. This seems so similar to me being an open barebacker and unashamedly having sex with POZ guys while these things were still VERY [banned word] and maligned by the gay and straight community alike. The early 2000s-2010s were a very different time. The, I let myself be slut shamed and, in some groups, ostracized. I relied on my believe that truly loving people wouldn't care and would seek to understand over time. Maybe starting to talk about being "off meds" and not worrying about my online identity being connected to my real one is the next way I'll step out a bit in front of what cultural norms accept while I wait for everyone else to chill out and let people live. (P.S. I'm also thinking about how hot it would be to have a video of me at Cumunion this weekend - or videos - and to not be concerned about framing things such my anonynimoty was maintained. I can't make that decision for others but I can make it for myself.)

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I think what @partying.hardis saying here is adjacent to my take as well. But let me start by separating folks that may ask this question into a couple groups. Fantasy ask - there are a ton of chasers out there that have a fantasy about being poz and the experience they'd have being in some hyper-sexual experience where there is a nonstop group of poz guys just begging to to poz the chaser. They say things like "I want to organize a group of poz guys to breed me until I'm poz." They want to hear the story because they want to have input for their fantasy. I don't really enjoy speaking to these people at all because I feel like I'm just generating fantasy content for them. I guarantee you if I said "it was a blood transfusion I received after a major surgery" the conversation would end. Intentional ask - the question from these folks seeks to understand "was there something that made you seek this out and why" and "when it happened, what were the changes after." These folks, IMHO, actually are considering being part of the POZ community for real, deeper reasons. They can talk about what it means to become and embrace being positive, and how that ultimately connects them to a community. (trigger alert: boner killer) I got scared shitless by a friend's experience and then my own about making sure there was consent - I don't stealth. I also am more turned on by someone who really wants it and begs for it, versus someone who doesn't know what's happening. And honestly, the conversations with the "fantasy ask chasers" could be answered by an AI chat bot. MOST [banned word] QUESTION TO ASK ME: "Will you teach me how to become poz?" My brain goes immediately to "what the actual fuck!" My response is somewhere along the lines of; "have nothing but unprotected sex. seek out POZ men who will fuck you, find detectable guys who will breed you if possible. seek out situations that might have more poz men. ultimately, take as much cum without any protection as possible (both condoms and PreP)." I didn't create some magical system to get where I am, but the "fantasy chasers" think there's gonna be some miracle pozzing party for them where they are surrounded by non stop toxic tops. I guess that's why it's called a fantasy.

Just a few days away and I'm stocked about it. Got my gear and outfit picked out. I'm planning on getting down there a little early and headed to Pleasures for a little pre Cumunion stretching and hydration session. Who else is going?

My fantasy isn't exactly unlived, because I've been held captive and used for longer periods of time. Several times for several days, and a couple of times for a week. I think I'd really like a super extended session where I'm just holes for poz and dirty cocks, or even neg ones if they want to rape me. When not in use I'm plugged and in bondage positions, I've got a piss funnel in my mouth and ass, my owner gives out my holes non stop and at all hours of the day and videos and broadcasts all of it live. I want to be tagged by my owner, tattooed at his discretion. Anything goes, including [banned word] off limits stuff at my owners discretion. By the end my balls will be stretched, I may have more dick piercings, my hole will be gaped and truly wrecked, capable of taking anything inside without concentration. Il'l be blindfolded, gagged, have my hearing blocked at my owners discretion. I will be kept on any type of drug or enhancement my owner wishes. My dick will be in a cage but if my owner wants me to breed someone, he can take the cage off, trimix my dick, and have me passively get milked by a bottom. My owner will at occasion give me a paralytic compmletely immobilizing me while I maintain total conscious and during these times hie will use me to the most extreme, along with his friends. At the end, after several weeks or a month or whatever, I'll be released. I'll have new tattoos all over me proclaiming my identity as a total pig. I'll be given a small bag of some essentiallys, driven someone on a road far, and forced to walk piss and cum covered and filled back to town to reintroduce myself.

It was before the first time I was fucked so I think 10. The night before I had my wet dream (not counting that) which I remember vividly. The next day I wanted to feel that feeling again. I knew my mom had "Deep Throat" with Linda Lovelace stashed away in her dresser on VHS. I found it and put it in. The movie sucked but at the end was this dark, sex dungeon two guys one girl extra scene where the woman was getting fucked in both holes. That got me going. I didn't know what to do so I just mounted the coffee table and dry humped it until I came. I then spent 2 hours cleaning EVERYTHING because I was so scared I'd get caught.

Bareback. Lube = Jergen's scented lotion. The image of him pumping it into his hand is deeply embedded in my brain and I remember the smell. I was an early adopter of the internet and learned how to join the chat rooms. Wild west of the internet. I'm pretty sure the premise was getting together to play video games, but part of me knew that wasn't it but I assumed we were similar age. Convinced my mom to drop me off at the mall and walked to his place. There was a significant age disparity. I don't have any bad feelings about it but don't think I recognized what had happened until years later.

@IrishBoi I love how creative you are. I had no fucking clue this existed. Lots of inmates that don't have connection to the outside world, especially the gay ones. If you're looking for gay ex-con sex I will say - they are in every city. There is no filter to search for them unfortunately!

I made an appointment for next week after Cumunion so obviously my dick will be out of commission for a while. I'm gonna follow the directions especially based on some of the experiences above. I'm obviously NOT going to stop getting fucked during this time period however. I scanned the thread but couldn't catch the answer to this question which is: Are there any good techniques to keep your PA/wound covered/protected while bottoming? I imagine it's probably easier to get fucked on your back so your dick isn't bouncing around quite as much. The aftercare instructions only say to "wear a condom" which presumably is intended for the top, not the bottom. Any recos?

I think it is. It's just doxycycline in a high dose I believe. It's super cheap. You should be able to get it prescribed by anyone and available at any pharmacy.

I don't mean to be the uber slut on this thread. My buddy and I were discussing this today when I jokingly said, "I honestly don't even think I know how to use a condom." Sometimes around 7th grade I remember learning how to put one on a banana but I don't even think I got it right back then. I kept unfolding it the wrong way. All of that to say that of the 10K+ times I've fucked (no clue what the number is), I think someone has used a condom one maybe twice. I recall one of the time and it was because I was at a Mormon wedding and the guy was super conservative and freaked out. So these days - if the topic of a condom comes up, I'm a hard pass....from an online hookup, at a bathhouse, whatever. I have not had "safe sex" in almost three decades and I'm not starting now. If that's a deal broker for the top, so be it - they are probably neg and I prefer poz.

Every four weeks I get an alert from the pharmacy saying that I have a prescription to pick up. (All my other ones are mail order). So I go and I pick it up and it's another DoxyPrep prescription from my doctor --- she prescribes it as often as insurance will cover it. Cracks me up. I have a full drawer full of it and my slut friends call me every once in a while and ask "hey...uh...do you have any more doxyprep?" Come to think of it after this last week I should probably down some....

I must have misread. There were a variety of articles about video upload, and it does seem to support the workflow but then always says your video is too large. My misunderstanding! 🙂

100% keep it in as long as possible. If you really get your hole wrecked, you'll feel it get tingly and hot again as you push it out. My goal is always to absorb the DNA/strain so if its in there longer, better your chances.

Ha, I just found it - I have all my Craigslist hookup emails from 2009-2014 in a folder and I remember I had a list of some of the most interesting ones. All of these responded in a hookup....and the good thing there was - you had it in email, with pics, and often phone numbers in the emails (still have them). Here are some of the interesting ones. NOTE: I tested poz in 2014 after all this. Much easier than the back/forth on NKP and BBRT. 🙂 0 gauge PA looking to dump a load - 29 (seattle) pnp looking for fun - 29 - m4m Who needs drilled?? - 47 (downtown) party duo me in myh hotel room - 31 (Seattle Dwntwn) visiting. looking for poz fun - 34 (seattle) str8 looking to deepthroat now - 29 power vers/top looking for nsa - 23 want to rape throat and ass - 27 (seattle) need bb bottom cumwhore - 29 (Seattle) 2 poz buddies partying and watching porn. Wanna join? - 35 (Ballard/Magnolia/QA) Who wants to get hi, get naked and party! - 35 (North Seattle) Hole Collecting Loads (Capitol Hill) (I posted this) poz friendly BB top here, loo king for regular FWB or FB - 34 (north seattle) Boy looking to party and play - 25 (your cock) Top for bb bottoms - 31 (downtown Tacoma) Need Kinky Boy 4 Hole Play - 30 (Tacoma) any bottoms up? got a boner for your mouth or... - 29 (South seattle ish) pig top needs bottom for taking loads - m4m - 34 need a raw bottom for anon fuck - m4m Dirty Bears, Pigs and Cubs - m4m (Seattle) Very horny Top Here lookin 4 white dudes N2 getting bred by hot anonymous bareback poz top - m4mm - 28 (First Hill/Capitol) VGL HUNG TOP looking to par T y bottom this eve need an anonymous ass to breed Lets play/pnp want raw bottom Procuring fun(T) and raw bottom hVGL HUNG TOP iso par T ya and poz/friendly bottom poz top lookin 4 btm into anonymous bareback sex - m4m Pump Cum In Your Ass!! want poz party cock? - m4m hangin at my place- lookin for a bud to party, chill and mess around bb top looking for a bottom (pz ok) Masculine Jock Top looking for aggressive party play bottom - m4m

HA. I just had this conversation yesterday. Two summers ago I created two profiles to test whether being 100% or moderating performed better. One was real (like my profile and all profiles today) and the other was more moderated. There are a few topics that either divide people or pull people out of the closet: Status - "ask me" and "poz" "undetectable" and all the variations - you learn quick a lot of people will say things privately. When I posted on here and elsewhere "poz, not on meds" or whatever, lots of dudes I would never have hit up hit me up. Negs who chase, like toxic cum, etc. - these are always confusing profiles cuz they try to sound like girlscouts and then you chat with them and all they want is dirty dick. I don't trust thisvery much. Drugs = No. Hit you up and say "You partying?" and if you say yes, or I do, suddenly they do and want to get high. Makes it really hard to use filters to find the right dudes to hook up with, so I've just gone with honesty. The thing that confuses me the most is the occasional message I'll get saying "can we use a condom" or "are you clean" or some other bullshit. And it's on BBRT or NKP. In person you don't just cough up some of these details but online doesn't help if people aren't honest. I still think Craigslist back in the day was the best. I was a BBer and POZ chaser in late 1999s early 2000s and it was easy to scan those ads. "Party Poz tops looking for raw bottom to fuck now - host - (27)" was easy to decipher. I think probably 90% of those ads resulted in a fuck session. Now 90% of my time on the sites is about 10% effective.

This is a bit of a boner killer - so consider yourself warned. I'm happy to share details if wanted. I'm sharing this because I think sites like this and others are places where we need to feel like we can be pigs without being defrauded or scammed. I myself am deep in pig/pnp culture so shits gonna happen but I don't think that should include being frauded and extorted by fakeass accounts who aren't even fags and are just here to take advantage of us. I've had shit stollen from my house, or money taken at a bathhouse - but it's a real ass person that fucked me and stole from me, not some fake ass person praying on me. DON'T JUST BLOCK IF IT IS TRULY PREDATORY: Plenty of dudes had encountered this and specifically the account involved here...I got several DMs after I posted about it. Some had fallen victim to the scheme, some had just blocked the account recognizing it was bullshit. No one had reported it. We all have felt wronged on this site, so we shouldn't REPORT people who just piss us off or are not into us, but if this is predatory fraudulent behavior we can help each other out by reporting. I exchanged quite a few emails with NKP fraud support today and I trust their intent to keep sites "safe" from fraud. This was one response from them: "I have been an admin on this site for about 12 years and see a lot of what happens. As a team, we catch a majority of the fake and scam accounts. Some are bound to make it past us. It is not just this site that has these scammers (I am sure there are many out there, not sure if it is any type of organized group). I see them on Grindr, scruff, etc. We take these complaints seriously and do what we can to prevent it from happening. They are like whack-a-mole. Take out one and another pops up. But we keep at it. Block and ban them as fast as we can. This is one reason we rely on our members to report this activity. the faster we prevent it and block it, the better." When I shared with several of the guys I was communicating with the profile that was involved in my friend/my experience, the response was "oh yeah, he's been around for a while." Notably, I did a Google image reverse search of his profile image. His profile image is that of a legit San Francisco based escort service, has substantial amounts of reviews, and the site itself has credibility in our community. I actually messaged the legit guy who responded shortly after saying the account was absolutely not him, he was not on NKP and never had been, and was pretty upset his image was being used. DO NOT SEND MONEY: If someone is an unknown to you, never send money. And if you have, don't fall victim to that scheme which then says "oh, shit, you think you could chip in for XXXX" and then I'll be on my way. THEY ARE COUNTING ON FEAR: I share a wide variety of things on these sites as do others; many of us have different comfort levels of how open we are. These predatory fuckers know that people who are frauded in these situations are less likely to report it to authorities (in the case of financial loss) because they would have to explain the situation in which they were defrauded. Don't let that rule you. Start by reporting to the site. One guy told me he had lost over $1000 via a scheme which finally led him to report it to the site. In the case of my friend and me, the lost was $200. I reported immediately. I hope this post comes off as well-intended as it was intended. I want to a be a pig. I wanna be in a community where I can be and I can fuck and use and be who I am. I just don't want motherfuckers ruining it by praying on us when we will never have a chance at their load. I've been stone cold sober for 48 hours and gonna take one more night of rest before being back on the train of swapping loads. Happy weekend fags.