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@wannaBTM you'll get there. Not sure how old you are or how love you've been at it, but you'll get there. Every plug when I upsize can be overwhelming at first. You want to avoid tearing, but if you me "hurts" but you mean it's just really hard, that's different than hurts as in ripping your skin and muscle. I'd make sure i had plug time every day minimum at once. and wear a plug you can for however long you can when possible.

You have quite the collection. I have 31 years of getting fucked by tons of dick and my hole still snaps back. I literally just received TODAY two new buttplugs to use. I did research on this. They have dilators you can try which are very rigid and don't allow the muscles to relax so help stretch more aggressive. Generally looking for harder (as in not soft) plugs. The people I talked tot said you have to do at least 15min a day of in and out action. Keep it in for as long as you can. Two sessions a day if you cn. And get a friend who will help push you because it's harder to push yourself doing yourself. Finding one you can wear all day is good too - long wear sessions help. I don't have the answer though. Kinda on the same journey.

100%. I'll throw one wrench in the gear though. I think about 60% of the dick that I've taken have been from people of color, many in some way with strong cultural connections to the culture of origin. We know how it influences music, dance, and movement. And my statement is not meant to be universal either, but there are some different rhythms between Latino, Arab, Indian, Black and (i''m craving it out from Latino) Mexican men that I've noticed. AIt's not causation, more influence to varying degrees, and I love all of it! 🙂

I agree with @bareback-flipflop - go with the flow and the instincts you have. I've always done it, it's never backfired. If it's anon, just try asking for what you want, and hopefully they'll do the same. I don't get the one and not both mentalities. It's nice to give the top a break and push back on their dick while they catch their breath. It's nice to be held down and mounted and give open access. I don't like getting spit roasted by strangers cuz most times, they have different rhythms and are only paying attention to themselves, so the bottom just bounces around haphazardly. But generally - if someone tells me NOT to move, I'm gonna hold steady. Two back-to-back assholes (both super jacked muscle dudes) about two months ago both kept telling me (yelling at me actually) that I was moving too much. I was pinned down to my bed in both cases and their full weight on my mid-section, and their hands or forearms pushing me down. I could barely breath let alone fuck them back. They both came back a second time but yelled at me both times, "STOP MOVING FUCKER" "YOU NEED TO STOP FUCKING MOVING!" - I was NOT MOVING! 🙂

I continue to refine Part 11 and am getting close. Excited to publish it. One key thing that happens at the start of Part 11 is that I get my first "walkthrough" of the house, now that I've been blindfolded. Though I did not know it yet, there would be a nightly "party" with guests at the house joining that party and so the Dominants re-organized and moved a lot of the furniture to make more room. They also blocked off certain areas and importantly covered a lot of things with plastic sheathing. I had heard some of this happening, but I had no idea where anything was now. Because of this, each night, the Dominants would walk me through the various rooms, describe what had been moved, allow me to touch and feel things, and feel my way around a bit so that I had a sense of my surroundings. Though I knew the general layout of the house, I never have had to walk into a space and learn it (again) blind. I decided to make a schematic of the house. The furniture items with an arrow pointing to another location indicate those pieces of furniture were moved between the time I had arrived on Day 1, and the time of this walkthrough. With the exception of the couch and two chairs, all remained in their moved position for the remainder of the 6 days. The couch and two chairs were moved back so that we could relax at the end of the day. UPDATED VERSION OF HOUSE SCHEMATIC (JAN 12 2025: OLD VERSION OF HOUSE SCHEMATIC:

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@Erik62 I enjoy your thought process - glad it made you think 🙂 Corruption Sex is considered a type of Rape. Rape is about physical violation and abuse whereas Corruption is an abuse of power leading to an exchange of sex for something of value (this is the common legal definition I found while researching). That scenario of "corrupting someone and giving them HIV and Chems" is common in the gay world - but the counter argument is that becoming HIV positive and becoming a drug addict aren't things of value - so the cases don't get prosecuted even if they are reported. Moreover, there are people who do this that never have sex with the person they corrupt. My main point in posting this was: there are some terms we all use that are pretty important that don't have consistent meaning person to person. If one person thinks that "NO LIMITS" means "bareback + a few light kinks" and the other think it means "everything I could possibly do and with another human" you might find yourself in sticky situation when the sex starts (and especially if there are drugs involved). I've spoken to a bunch of bottoms about this - they say they have "NO LIMITS" but when you ask clarifying questions, the lightbulb goes off - they aren't "NO LIMITS" at all - one even went as far as to say - "I'll never say that again." Years ago, I found myself in such a situation. I had said I had "really no limits" and it started off good, until I was immobilized, had a gas mask put over my head, shot up, given so many drugs I couldn't even move or speak, 3 other people I couldn't even see arrived, then several other things happened I won't list here and because of my condition, I had zero to even say something like "I need a break." I may have consented to all of it, but the condition I was in made it feel scary, dangerous, and like I was very vulnerable. It sounds hot to me even still, but it's only hot until it's not and if you can't even speak for yourself, that's just not okay. I'm still gonna fuck random and anon, will never have this convo about limits 100% of the time, and I'll definitely make some sketchy choices about who I fuck with, but for those that might become fuck buddies, I'd rather have the convo so we know just how far we can push each other - and enjoy that freedom. -------- MY LIMIT LIST IS SIMPLE 1) LIKES & PREFERENCES 2) OK, NOT PREFERREED 3) NON-NEGOTIABLE NO's

QUESTION: What do you consider the sexual and/or psychological of "corruption"? Or, what do you think is meant, or what do you mean when someone says "I corrupted him" or "I want to corrupt him" or "I want to be corrupted." BACKGROUND: This was inspired by another ridiculous Chaser convo I ended very quickly. I was busy eating a chocolate chip cookie when I heard the alert and walked to my computer. "You need to poz me and corrupt me." Before I could respond and without any hello, he then proceeded to send a paragraph about how slutty he was (during which I yawned). I asked what he meant by "corrupt" only because I was curious about what this person defined that as - it's a word that comes up but doesn't have a clear definition. Below are the different ways I've seen it come up, in terms of what the recipient wants in terms of being corrupted: WANTS ENCOURAGEMENT: meant to encourage someone to do things they may fantasize about but would not necessarily pursue. In some cases, someone reaches out to you expressing interest in something that is far afield from their current lifestyle. They want to be poz, they want to become a slut, they want to cheat, they want to XXXXXX... Corruption in this case, is the act of making them feel more comfortable with it, encouraging them, showing them opportunities, eliminating their misgivings, and ultimately getting them to take the plunge. There is an interest and a willingness on the person pursuing the encourager that may simply want to understand experiences in order to help them make a choice, and in other cases, the ENCOURAGER might WANTS TO BE TARGETED/MANIPULATED*: identifies a target (based on a type, probably, or opportunity - e.g. drunk guy in bar) and over time befriends, enlists, and ultimately becomes the ENCOURAGER. This is predatory in the sense that it is a targeted pursuit of someone based on identification or opportunity. It involves befriending or establishing connection with someone, grooming them to begin to pursue things they may not have ever thought of, and then ultimately getting them to pursue those things with earnest. The "art" if you wanna call it that of this is that the Manipulator doesn't force the other party to do the things - they use manipulation to get them to beleive it's their own call and pursue it with the manipulator's encourage and support. *if you're the bottom, you may identify this as a scenario you want to experience but it could be true also that you are being targeted by the corruptor without you knowing...so this one is a bit hard WANTS TO BE FORCE GIFTED: has stated that they want HIV/STIS but fantasizes about it taking place in a forced/coercive situation and calls this "corruption" Chasers frequently talk to me about me corrupting them...I'm more akin to the "wants encouragement" modality of this, so the act of simply giving them HIV is not something I would call "corruption" - the term is misused. The receivers here want to think that the outcomes are not of their own choosing, so would like to role play a situation where their choice is taken away. WANTS YOU TO "MAKE THEM": views homosexuality, gay sex, barebacking, something as perverse and so similar to the force scenario, wants you to "corrupt" them by do certain things. Unlike the Encourager, this person won't admit to wanting "it" they want to be forced or convinced to want it and then pursue it. In my opinion, #1 and #2 are a form of "corruption" in the gay world. #3 and #4 are more CNC and roleplaying, mixed with a healthy dose of denial and lack of accountability. Interestingly, there is international law which has a definition for "sexual corruption" and it has to do with an abuse of power and use of quid pro quo type arrangements. If you follow the literature on sexual corruption, only #2 would even qualify for it, "sexual corruption" requires a "convincing the other to do something illegal or wrong." 1, 3 and 4 establish that the person being corrupted doesn't think the outcomes are wrong, and none in this case are necessarily illegal. But when someone says "corrupt" to me in sexual context, I think of #2. And I know #2 happens and exists, there are porns that show it acted out fictionally. But it's one of those words that makes an alarm bell go off because of what I think it is, versus today's chaser who simply said, "I mean...I want you to poz me." It's a loaded word.

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We're booked for the drink. I'm not worried about having sex with him or not. I think at 21 what I knew about myself was that I liked dick, didn't really have a type or worries about poz/neg body type age etc. and was way above average participant in sex. I don't think I was capable of declaring myself a "total dom top." So that's my questions. With the dude, we'll fuck, we won't fuck, it's not that big a deal to me. 🙂

QUESTION: If you're a dom top / total dom top - when did you first identify this and began to play that role sexually? What age? How'd you discover it? Background: A few weeks ago, at a birthday house party, I met this 21-year-old super clean cut twink. The majority of the people there were at least late 30s so he kinda stuck out and I know 90% of the people there were in full lust. He and I ended up getting introduced to each other because he's studying molecular biology and my friend (who's birthday it was) remembered that I had too, so thought we should at least meet. Really smart kid, we chatted for quite a while about science and other shit. 21 is not really my target demographic so I was not trying anything or interested - training and breaking in tends to take a lot of energy - so I wasn't like "oh he's hot" it was more "he's smart, articulate, interesting." We broke from our group and walked to where the drinks were and he said "what do you like to do?" and I assumed he meant hobbies until he followed up with "what are you in to" in the same sentence and I asked him what he meant. I told him I was not expecting that question at all and that I could show him my list, but it was probably way over his head and would scare him. Anyway, he looked, wasn't shocked, i wasn't feeling like we shifted in to sexual mode, and then he spits out "I'm a total dom top" and i laughed. Turns out he wasn't kidding. He showed me one picture which unmistakingly supported his domtop'ness. We went back to the group, but later when I was going to leave we exchanged numbers. Haven't heard from him until tonight. He just said "let's find a time to get together soon" and we shared some available times in the coming few days and we found a time to meet for a drink. I then mentioned the impact of the PA upsizing and he just responded, "Well, Wednesday doesn't have to be the last time he meet up." Will keep you updated. I'm not saying I wouldn't have sex with him, though he's kinda too good looking/twink for my taste...but I'm trying to imagine myself (age 46) getting domtopped by a 21 year old twink. It makes me laugh and I'm not sure I wouldn't laugh while it was happening.

No shame in anyone's kink man, I agree with the sentiment you started here with. I think it's awesome that people have so many different things that turn them on. I'm not opposed to getting fucked in a public bathroom chained to a toilet, leaned against the wall, whatever. I've enjoyed in the past. The cleaning thing isn't for me though. One reason is that I find bottom/subs much more usable and valuable when they're not vomiting or battling a UTI...and they definitely look better when they don't have bacterial skin infections. And unless I want the same outcomes as the sub, I'm not gonna be able to use them until that stuff clears up, cuz I'll get it and end up in the same position. Also, the chemicals they use to clean public restrooms (and the chemicals constantly time control released in urinals and toilets) are both caustic (burn) and I imagine could cause some internal bleeding, respiratory issues, etc. It's definitely for me than being in a group and getting pissed on/in by a dude or a group. That's fresh. I'm always reluctant to swallow piss cuz it makes my stomach upset and then I can't fuck.

So, I've used since (but don't yet own) and I like it for all the reasons listed above - holding you open, taking on fluids, etc. I don't think it's quite as worth it if you don't have multiple dicks or pissloads coming and if it's just one dude, would prefer the raw dick. For loads/piss to stay in with it inside, the bottom needs to stay ass up the hole time. If you want to level up, they also make metal grommets. I had one very similar to this. If you're working on stretching, this delivers. It's intense though. For the top, I think the silicone is better, though, because you do get some wrapping around your dick. (I no longer have this because I'm nearly certain a bottom left with it still inside without realizing it). I also had a metal buttplug with a removable screw out center. I didn't like it much. The screw out interior was narrow and not meant for a dick, but rather, for you to attach your shower douche. Try douching with that thing once and you'll go back to just using it as a buttplug. With very little ability for water to escape, even at low pressure, you end up filling up your guts with water which takes it's time coming out...at unpredictable intervals...(thank god I was well prepared, so it was more like I had a self-lubricating hole for the rest of the sesh, but I don't advise.)

Part 11 is going to be slightly delayed. I keep editing it and re-editing, largely because the principles I establish above. The challenge I'm having is this - what happens next is the first of the nightly parties. By now it's clear that Day 1 is focused on football and general prep of my hole. If you're not in to piss, you probably won't care about the delay. The challenge I'm having is - the experience for the Dominants was way different than my experience. The Dominants, I later found out, had made these parties strictly invite only (again, I have no idea how they found the guys, but they had to be invited), and they targeted between 5-7 guests each night - a manageable number given the space. While they would make this abundantly clear for the subsequent nights, it was not clear to two of the invitees on Day 1. Two of the guys ended up knowing each other, did not understand it was "invite only", and in addition to themselves, brought 3-5 people each. So, and I'm guessing, the number skyrocketed from 5-7 to 11-17. According to the Dominants, another guest at some point left to use his phone in his car and also invited some friends, but Jacob realized he had done so and told him to call them off. From what I could hear, there were quite a few people, and it could have been easily near 20 people. Because there were established start-stop times for the party, this influx of people happened very quickly. This was the first of these parties, so I didn't know that anything was out of the ordinary, but I was a bit overwhelmed with how many people I felt were there - but still trusting the Doms and the process. (I'll talk about how I was being occupied in the story itself). I only learned this after the 6 days, but Alex stayed near me to make sure I was doing good (they never let me be alone or out of site during these parties), and Ethan and Jacob apparently pulled the two invitees aside to clarify it was "invite only" event and guests were not allowed. Fortunately, there were multiple cars involved, so the two invited guests stayed (along with one each of their friends), and the remainder left. From my perspective, however, I could sense a shift in the room. I was occupied (more on that in the story), but it got much quieter (not quiet) and the area felt less full. It was definitely something I could perceive, but I was otherwise occupied, but it did distract me for the remainder of the party, because I wondered what had happened - was I not attractive enough, were they grossed out by the fact that I was this submissive dude in this kink/football experience, did they think I was ugly? I went to bed thinking this and woke up the next day having let go of all that thinking, but it did influence the evening. So why all the editing - I realized that I had written the experience both from my perspective and the Doms perspective for the first time in a chapter. The reality is - I didn't know this was all happening until a conversation I had with Ethan 2 days after the 6-days, and then at the dinner we had about a week later. Writing it that way broke the principle of this being a 1st-person narrative, and the way it read was confusing. I couldn't quite figure out why I was confused reading it...then I realized I hadn't stuck to my writing approach. This might seem insignificant, but I did feel it read in a very confusing way. I've rewritten the whole thing over the last three days and now I'm doing final edit. I'll hopefully publish today, perhaps tomorrow.

I have had a lot of piss in me. I wrote about one such experience that happened a while back and jerked off a couple times just writing about it. I've been piss filled in my hole lots, piss fucked plenty, been coated with piss all over my body, in my mouth and yes, I've swallowed plenty. Generally, I've found that when piss comes up the most is if there is a party happening. Swallowing checm piss just does something to my stomach, every time. Put it in my asshole, all over me, wherever, but I've had a few fuck sessions cut short just because I swallowed more than just a little bit. And I'd rather keep going and get used in other ways! 🙂

Author's #2 is really my precedural recording of what I did to keep myself accountable. It's really a process doc. The only reason Sorrowful isn't Chapter 1 is because it isn't written in Narrative form and when I wrote it, it was raw and I didn't want to change it....thus it is an authors note. But it is, in fact, Chapter 1 of the story,