jd13

I don't think I ever asked any guy his status before he fucked me bareback and shot his load in me. I'd just offer my ass. At first (2012ish) this was because I didn't really want to know. I figured I'd probably end up getting HIV anyway, and was always surprised when i didn't. Later on (2015-16ish), when 'undetectable = untransmissible' became a bit more widely known, I didn't ask because I understood statistics. In UK cities like Manchester or London, around 95-96% of poz guys were UD (and hence not infectious), but 1 in 20 'neg' guys were actually not neg at all, but had undiagnised HIV (and hence potentially very infectious). Work through those statistics, and you could see (back then), that any answer (especially the intuitively 'right' one) to 'are you neg or poz?' was functionally meaningless. Then (2017-18 onwards) PrEP came along and I got on it, so didn't need to ask. Post-pandemic here in the UK, so many guys are on PrEP now that the question is almost irrelevant. These days (2023 onwards) I'm not on PrEP, for Backroom reasons, and so that's why I don;t bother asking these days. Changing reasons, over the years but the lack of asking has always been the same! 🤣

I lost count at age 19 (ish) when I (probably) hit triple (ish) figures. To be honest I hadn't exactly been counting, but having lost my virginity at age 14 to a guy nearly twice my age, being passed round his friends group for a couple of years, and then coming out, hitting gay bars/clubs - and finding myself reasonably popular - then falling pretty quickly into hustling at said bars/clubs... Yeah I don't ever really counted. I know I definitely hit double figures by age 15, after that I can't say anything. So maybe I should more honestly say I lost count at 15 because I was never really counting.

Exactly this - I edited it a bit 🤣 One of the things I cannot stand in a public fuck setting - especially if I am wearing a jock - when I'm being fucked by some guy, and a third guy brings his hand around to grab my cock. I will literally grab his hand and throw it away. Like FFS don't disturb my flow - I am putting all my focus on serving the top here! If the top who's fucking me grabs my cock that's fine: my whole body belongs to him to play with, but other guys? Don't fuck up my fuck focus! 🤣

I voted 'looking to get fucked' because that's the only reason I ever wear jocks. If I'm in a cruise bar or sauna (I prefer naked at sauna), then wearing a jock also has a second signal: don't bother touching my cock. Just focus on your cock, fucking me and using that hole to get yourself off. My cock usually goes soft when I'm being fucked, and after a few cocks in my ass, the best you can hope for out of me is a semi. Unless you breed me, then you've got a 5 to 10 minute window for my boner before it goes bye bye again 🤣 For the most part I am a submissive bottom, and very proud to be so, but I do have my power days.

I've been out of action for the past couple of weeks but my load tally had gone up to 61 in my ass that I knew of, and yeah probably about 25ish down my throat. Had a wild three week stretch from when I posted the above to about mid-April when i started to get this flu. It's perfect blissful weather for cruising right now here in the UK and I'm still laid up ill grrr.

Yeah I must admit the thrill of the chase has a hold on me as much as the destination, and yeah I'd rather the fun not to be over. On the other hand, I have repeatedly said - on here as much as myself - that I'm not gonna test until I can be reasonably sure that that test will be poz. Bit of a fool's errand maybe, but as crap as I feel right now, I can't be sure this is fuck flu or regular flu. I have heard of one either guy in the area who had a regular flu and also got knocked out by it as I have. So yeah it could well be wishful thinking on my part tbh. And on the matter of being thrilled that I might or might not be shooting poz cum: I'm a total btm. That idea really doesn't touch me at all if I am honest. My function in sex has never been to be the one who cums. That runs so deep. My chase is for different reasons to this. Anyway, apologies if I've derailed this conversation with my current stuff - on with guys sharing their definite fuck flu stories! 😄

jd13 on BBRT (in Leeds-Bradford, UK)

Well, yeah, that is the only way to be certain. This could be regular flu but damn, it's a weird flu if so...

This is strikingly similar to what I'm going through at the moment for about the past 10 or 11 days. Savagely sore throat, mild to moderate body aches, but just wiped out exhausted... for about three days, then a couple of days less so, then again hitting me hard. This cycle has gone round for the past week and a half and I'm in a rough phase right now. It's weird. No fever/chills, night sweats, rash (but a few weird body itches) or anything like that, and I tested negative for Covid, so yeah, could be a regular flu I guess, but also Starting to wonder if this is it, the thing itself...?

Gotta emphasise it's a total lottery, but yeah, there something that strangely adds to the thrill when you're about to hookup. Like: the anticipation of what kinda guy am I gonna get, he might even be hot etc, and also at the same time: I don't fucking care 🤣 Never set up a GH as I don't host but that is awesome. Also, I miss Craigslist SO BAD!

But on the matter of Trump being a Crisis Cult... at least to the evangelicals (and let me say: crisis cult psychology doesn't operate consciously or even unconsciously in the individual: it is a kind of collective hysteria), I found these lines on the Wikipedia page for the John Frum phenomenon of Melanesia. Tell me you don't see the parallels - again, I am talking about the MAGA/Evangelical Die-Hards here, not the average American voter... "In one analysis of the cult, the figure was first known as John Broom, who was believed by followers to one day return from a distant land to sweep away the White colonials and return riches to the islands. In some versions of the story, a native man named Manehivi, using the alias "John Frum", began appearing among the native people of Tanna dressed in a Western-style coat, assuring the people he would bring them houses, clothes, food, and transport. "Others contend that John Frum was a spirit vision induced by kava, a plant with mild psychoactive properties. Said to be a manifestation of Keraperamun, this John Frum promised the dawn of a new age in which all White people, including missionaries, would depart the New Hebrides, leaving behind their goods and property for the native Melanesians. For this to happen, however, the people of Tanna had to reject all aspects of European society including money, Western education, Christianity and work on copra plantations, and they had to return to traditional kastom (the Bislama language word for customs). "In 1941, followers of John Frum rid themselves of their money in a frenzy of spending, left the missionary churches, schools, villages and plantations, and moved inland to participate in traditional feasts, dances and rituals." See [think before following links] [think before following links] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Frum for more and for citations of the above. D'you not see the parallels or is it just me?? [Edit: yes yes I know I'm totally grinding an axe here, and nobody asked me to riff on this Crisis Cult thing, but... yeah... 🤣🤣🤣 ]

Yeah, to be honest I feel a bit bad about saying 'Trump is America'. Really I was reporting more on a British stereotype of a certain type of American characteristic that looms large in the British national consciousness. Of course it is a lot more nuanced than that. For example, it is very clear and obvious to me that Barack Obama is America too - that elevated, soaring eloquence he has... yeah, you don't find that very often anywhere else outside America either... And you're right about blaming it on 'The Other' being a standard populist playbook thing. And I recognise that a lot of the British media coverage is skewed because you are to us, after all, a foreign country. I'm fairly sure your news coverage of British politics will be similar lacking local nuance. What really resonates is what you say about those who are resisting. Not really seeing that reported in our news much here, but if you go on social media - wow wow that American resistance is visible everywhere. So yeah, I'm gonna stand that 'Trump is America' comment down, and apologise fully and completely for it. Really I was kinda reporting on a stereotypical British perception, and yeah... should've made that clear. Shouldn;t have been so unfair.

I... what the... holyfuckinshit there is so MUCH to unpack there! 🤣🤣🤣

Thanks. I was saying earlier to a guy on BBRT that I've spent so much time bent over taking it raw in the dark rooms here that I really couldn't say who has and hasn't fucked me anymore. It's entirely possible 🤣 ...and I fucking hope so. And if not, we should probably synchronise visits so that you can 😉

It says a lot about Brits that we bloody hate Piers Morgan, even though he's one of us. Btw, edited my post above to add a whole lot of stuff about Crisis Cults. Again, an external view, but still, something else I really feel is true about the true believers of the Trump Cult...

I completely agree, and you give some good, detailed perspectives here from the inside of the US. I guess I was just trying to give an external, cultural perspective - not that detailed tbh - from here in Britain. Peace to you too man 😉 *** The other thing that I didn't say here, but have said elsewhere, is never underestimate the power of a Crisis Cult. Saw it a bit here with Brexit, and then the whole thing with Boris Johnson... and yeah, if I ever criticise the US for voting for Trump, never forget that Brits gave that utter fucking imbecile Boris Johnson a landslide election victory in 2019. I do believe Trump's rise owes an enormous debt to crisis cult psychology. There's something kinda 'John Frum' about the evangelicals who are devoted to him, like he is literally the Second Coming who will make all this liberal, gay rights, civil rights, women's self determination, progressive stuff just.... disappear. There's an old anthropology story about some Melanesian islanders who believed that if they danced a certain way, and prayed really hard, that Sydney Harbour Bridge would appear on the mountain, and they would become wealthy Australians. John Frum. Or the 19th century Native American Ghost Dances in response to the mass killing of all the bisons and the destruction of Plains Native cultures. The sign of something that's dying, and this is the last gasp. Psychologists call it Extinction Burst. This really has the feel of that for me...

My experience is similar to @GuelphGuy72 . On apps and websites, I am open about being a 100% bareback btm, and during a hookup, I have never had a guy even take out a condom to fuck me. That said, if condoms are mentioned in the pre-hookup chat I will be blunt about saying no to that. In sauna/bathhouses, the vast majority of tops fuck bareback without a word. There's an occasional condom, but I just walk away from that. Sometimes the top will follow me and offer me bare, at which point I gladly give my ass. Cruising areas, I have only met one guy who absolutely insists on condoms. I've seen him about 3 or 4 times, and he always hits on me, even though I have turned his condom down each time. He won't fuck without. Everyone else either fucks bare, or will jettison the condom if I say 'bare only'. I posted a cruising 'Last Load' story recently, which included a guy who wanted to fuck me with a condom, but abandoned that idea when I promised I could make him cum in 2 minutes if he fucked me raw. Story at the link below - see Guy #1 😉

Honestly if you work it, you can get a lot of action at Basement on a Sunday. Those dark rooms and dark corners are always busy. I even got in the sling there for a bit...

Here in Britain, we've always seen the US as a close ally re: foreign policy, but we also keep Americans kinda at arm's length because although we share a common language, the cultural differences are huge. And I don't think Americans really realise that. But recently, even that perception of America as an ally is rapidly changing here, and that's principally because whatever your political persuasion here in Britain, most of us despise that kind of brash, vulgar, nakedly racist style of politics that Trump, Musk and Vance embody. Remember the Trump Baby Balloon? That was us. It says a lot about how we see him, how we see ourselves, and how we see 21st century America. Check this out: right now Trump has an approval rating of 13% here in the UK. Reform UK, Nigel Farage's far right political party, and the nearest political bedfellow to Trump's Republican party, is polling at around 25% Work that statistic through: half of all British people who do resonate with that far right, straight white grievance politics cannot stand Trump. That's how toxic he is over here that even the British white nationalists don't like him! That brashness, that lack of grace, or style, or dignity, that narcissism, that grandstanding... that's kind of a British stereotype about Americans anyway, and right now your government is broadcasting it in the Megawatt range. It's having a huge effect on the perception of your country here. We voted en masse for Brexit (well, I fucking didn't but anyway), and now something like 65-70% of us want a closer relationship with Europe. That must include a good many who voted Brexit, and a major reason is because America no longer feels like a friend to Britain, or Europe. I know a lot of Americans have been asking how America is going to survive a second Trump term, but here in Britain, a lot of us think, quite simply, that Trump is America, that he and his government embody so much of that sickening underbelly that America would rather not see of itself. Sorry to say these harsh things, because on an individual level, many Americans are warm, wonderful people. But fuck me, this is the underbelly bursting forth like the Alien out of John Hurt's chest. And very few of us are actually that surprised...

ARE YOU A FAGGOT? • Do you get hard when Men order you to strip? YES • While you know you should hate being called a faggot, does it actually turn you on? YES • Are you most at ease when Men give you orders? YES SIR • When a Man spits on your face, deep down, does it somehow feel right? FUCK YES • When you jack off, do you imagine being dominated and degraded by Men? YES EVERY TIME • Do you like being fucked with other Men watching? YES I LOVE IT • Have you ever fantasized about being taken to a gay club, completely stripped and led around on a collar and leash? NOT JUST FANTASISED BUT HAVE DONE THIS (but only once) • Have you ever let a Man piss down your throat? YES OFTEN • Has a Man ever ordered you to jack off in front of a group of fully clothed Men? YES AND I DID IT If you answered YES to any of these questions, then you are a FAGGOT. YES SIR Embrace your true self. YES SIR Strip. Kneel. Beg. Obey. YES SIR I AM A FAGGOT and I am proud of this.

For fuck's sake, that's the only thing you took away from this story? Wow, man, just wow. What a petty judgemental comment to send to a total stranger on the internet about whom - it is worth reminding you - you know nothing. You have no idea the depth to which anonymous trolls online like you bore the fuck out of me. Hush now. Since you're actually asking theese questions in good faith, I'm happy to answer 🙂 For me, breeding a hole has no pleasure whatsoever, no feeling of pleasure or even a sense of authenticity about it. It's so far away from who I am as a sexual person: my role has always been to do the work to get guys off, not get myself off. It's not merely unpleasureable... it's almost like asking me not to be gay, although that sounds a bit overdramatic tbh 🤣 One of the ways I know I'm a true and total btm is that my cock goes soft when I'm fucked, and after a few fucks, my ability to get hard again is pretty much gone for the day. I might get hard again after a guy has cum in me, but it's all too brief. The jizzjoy takes hold, but the boner doesn't. That's the sexual truth of me. My sexual identity is that my primary sexual organs are my ass and mouth. My cock is pretty much my own personal plaything when it's not locked up in chastity, but even then, i don't often cum when I get home after a sauna visit. My deep sense of satisfaction in sex comes from having given men pleasure the opportunity to cum: that's my authentic role in sex. I don;t often arrive home from a sauna visit still horny. I'm satisfied and satiated having made men cum. I sometimes cum the morning after, but not always. The implicit sugggestion in the above troll's snarky comment is that I somehow 'owe' another man my cum at the end of a sauna visit is absurd to me. No one owes anyone anything in sex: it's all about consent. I do not consent to fuck or cum in another man, ever. I consent to let men cum in me, among many other things. The implicit pressure - I suspect the above troll may not be intelligent enough to understand this subtle point, but you will - that to not do something I do not consent to is 'selfish' is laughable at best, and at worst, downright toxic. I've met guys like that, they give me the ick.

I have an absolutely massive foot fetish. Licking feet is a huge turn-on, especially working the soles with my mouth and tongue as an act of submission, or just for the horny thrill. I posted a video of me licking feet on Tumblr recently. Bit rough and ready selfie vid but here it is, enjoy 😉 [think before following links] https://summer-of-jl.tumblr.com/post/780653647765831680/bit-rough-and-ready-but-heres-me-licking-feet Like, download, share on any platform if you like. I have a bit of an exposure fetish too 😉

I am loving all these guys, please keep 'em coming! 😉

Oh this is all fucking awesome, especially that turning from a little bitch guys want to break to a power bottom riding cock. Again, another skill I don't think I could attain, simply because I'm tall, lean and athletic. Though I'm a total btm, I'm constantly told I give off top vibes, so no one's ever gonna say I wanna break that little bitch. Instead I get to surprise guys when they realise this definite top is gonna get railed like a whore 😉 But "I'm gonna break that scrawny little faggot"... fuck I wish I had the body type that guys would say that to or about me. And you're another one who can bust a nut when being fucked, so yeah another fantastic skill to have that I can't even! 🤣 But this remind me - those top vibes I give off... quite often I do attract bottom guys, because they think I'm top... and quite often, once the truth is revealed, they do end up fucking me. Not always... but I do have a track record in turning self-identified 'total bottoms' into temporary vers guys, even sometimes to a cumshot inside me. That's a skill to have, right? One I'm sure a lot of us have too 😉