fuckboy20

Not always able to post after I got loaded.

But pride weekend I got a few loads. Met with a guy before pride and got fucked pretty good in a sling and loaded. Went to a party and got fucked by a few guys and one guy gave me a giant load that was still coming out of my ass when I went to the baths. Later that night a buddy of mine fucked me on a floor mattress, put a mirror in front of me and pressed all his body weight on me while he fucked my ass and made me look at his face the entire time I was getting fucked and pinned my arms down. It was so hot and he gave me a huge load. Since then I haven't gotten any loads.

But seeing more friends, fuck buddies, and hook ups that give me loads a hell lot more frequently then before.

I actually got tested the other day at Pride. I wasn't scared at all and I immedietely went into the tent and filled out the paper work. I was surprised at how many people were getting tested too (women too..I know sometimes I think it's only a man's world) and who were thankful that the tests were offered.

I will admit, I was nervous walking around and decided to drink until half an hour passed. I just got in before closing but I got my test results back. Negative. I was actually really shocked. The guy noticed and asked, "Oh..well most people would be happy that they are negative. Are you not happy."

I think there was a tiny fleeting thought that I was hoping it would be positive. Only because I would have been ready to accept it. I am happy that I am still negative. But I don't think I will stay that way for long. It might be true for that time period I would be negative. But recently I've been taking loads in bath houses/sex clubs, not asking a guy's status, and hooking up with undetectable and one known poz. I just figured that is it really justifiable if I am going to take random loads at a club to refuse a poz guy's load because I don't want to be pozzed? If I did not want to be pozzed I shouldn't have barebacked. I don't think it's quite that I'm bug chasing like some do. It's more that I know it will happen eventually. But I don't want the fear of the bug, dying, low immune system, and etc. to stop me from living and having fun.

But yeah..I was originally one of the ones who thought I could stay neg forever. The next test should be much more accurate. Thankfully, a very nice undetectable man taught me better.

I actually honestly told someone recently that my mancunt profile is complete opposite of my BBRT profile and not accurate. I would love to change my mancunt profile to what I really am. But one problem is I barely use mancunt. Second, people I know who are close to me use it. It's going to get to the point where I eventually don't give a damn but right now I'm not at that point yet. But I wonder if the alarm would really sound and a swat team would come in if I remove the safer only...

Obviously everything in moderation.

But after playing with a few guys one night who were big into poppers my throat hurt like fuck the next day. It really hurt bad and I knew it was from the poppers. But then again it was to the point where I was almost shoving it up my nose and inhaling as much as I can. Yeah, they can be really addicting. But really, just an inhale and deep breath and letting the air out slowly is all that's needed. it's the rush and excitement that can cause it to spill or get inhaled constantly. I think it depends on who you are with. I only like a few hits and sometimes during but I have been with guys who need it every second and it's kind of annoying. Also, kind of bad habit for yourself as well.

You really shouldn't need it every second you are having sex with someone, even if bottoming or topping. I still enjoy sex without them. But I do notice when I take them now I get sort of a bad taste in my mouth and throat. Could be the bottle I am using. If I got a new one maybe it would be different. I hear freezing them can help keep them fresher too. The brand probably has a factor too. I use jungle but I've seen guys use others and I've experienced others. I think there are better ones out there.

I had sex with a trucker the other night and it was incredible. He did not breed me, that's why I did not post this in the load thing.

But his whole attitude and demeanor was so much different then everyone at the bookstore. I saw him and wasn't really sure if he was interested in me but he went to a dark area and rubbed his cock. I immedietely got on my knees and starting servicing him..like a good boy. He grabbed my ass roughly and started feeling it. I asked him if he wanted to go to a private room and he said he did. Inside the room I serviced his chest and nipples while he took off my shirt and pants. I sucked him for a little and he kept very roughly, aggressively, and frequently grabbing my ass and feeling it.

He threw me on the bed, bent me over, spit on his dick, and started fucking me raw. The way he fucked was just so incredible though. It's really hard to describe but it wasn't to cum quickly, wasn't for show or to keep a certain rythm. It was just a horny man taking some ass that he wanted and enjoying it in his own time and own way. That's what made it so hot. He fucked me the way he wanted to not the way I wanted.

It's just something about those blue collared men like truckers and the way they fuck that's just so damn hot. He did not breed me but he gave me his number and we've talked since then. We are trying to set up a time to play again with another trucker buddy of his.

In short he wanted ass and sex and a hot hole to fuck. Something most guys at bookstores and clubs don't realize or go for.

If we are talking about websites (are we allowed.. *knock knock*) I suggest cam4

Also d8men if it's still around. It was a dating site with cams and you could go into rooms and cam. It was easy to post, "horny boy looking for daddy" and to instantly get private messaged by a horny daddy wanting to skype. Cam4 should be just as efficient. If you really..really want to cam though.. ICUII is the best way. Or was..don't know how it is now. But had some hot times on there.

Okay, I've had a lot of experience with this lately. Alot..

So I can comment more on this. First rule for a bottom is to always make sure you are cleaned out. It can be a little awkward if you feel there is still some water inside...because obviously more is going to be added. So make sure you are really cleaned out or that the guy doesn't mind. It feels natural to me now. But it depends on how much the guy pisses. I've had a guy piss in me to the extent where I needed him off my ass..but he still fucked me with the piss in my ass and bred me. And i've had it where there was a little piss and he pulled out or kept fucking me.

It depends on how comfortable you are with "liquid" inside of you. If you aren't really familiar with water shots or liquid inside you, he might have to get off you quickly. It would be good to let him know that in advance. Also, (unless he doesn't care about sheets, floor, or whatever) make sure he pulls out slowly. That way you can close your ass back up and release.

But really, aside from the hot aspect of pissing I believe it should be used as a finished. Having a guy piss in the ass first and fuck..I don't see the sense in it. I'm sure some do it but it really doesn't make a lot of sense. Like cum, it's a great finished. Either the top fucks you and breeds you and then pisses to completely use your ass. Or he fucks you pretty good and decided to piss in your ass and then finish fucking you and breeding you.

If it works right..it works out very well

Well...I took my first ever "poz" load. At least where the guy told me he was poz. I met him a while back and we hit it off good. We used condoms to fuck though or he pulled out. I felt a little awkward about it and did not contact him for a while.

I went out to the bar first to get a drink. A few sips and I was drunk though. Flirted with a guy there and got drunker as time passed. When I finished my drink the guy had arrived so I went over to his house. Not too tricky driving but so many damn cops. I'd only get pulled over if I get bent over.

So after finally arriving I was a little drunk and tipsy and we made our way to the bedroom quickly. After a little foreplay I take a good hit of poppers and feel his cock inside me. Oh fuck it felt so good..having that raw cock inside me. Part of me was nervous but it was a very small part. He fucked me pretty good and had me take a few more hits. He asked if he could cum inside me and I told him yes and that I wanted it. I felt it flood my ass like other loads have. I wondered if I should have begged for it, begged to get seeded or whatever. I don't think it really matters at this point. I've taken tons of loads recently I'm not afraid anymore. I'm just about ready to take loads from any guys (that I find hot or a daddy that whores me out wants) that want to fuck me or guys that I want to breed me. I'm just about at that level.

But recently I have been taking tons of loads and they were hot. But I've been getting fucked bare more then anything..

It feels great.

Can't speak on ft. lauderdale but I've heard from 3 people that the Atlanta one is boring. It could be because of where it's held at. Great facilities and tons of glory holes, and other cool things. But the guys that generally go (regardless of what it is) seem to be sort of elitists or just cliquish and extremely picky. I thought at a BB event it would be different but I've heard it's the same or not many guys. Haven't been so can't so for sure. I will probably go to the next one though.

Too bad you aren't coming for Pride. You would definitely get some loads

^^^^ This

Very smart. It's true that tops don't always care too much about a bottom's cock. However it at least gets acknowledged by others including tops. A hard cock is also a sign that a bottom is ready or horny to take cock. I like the fact that you wear out your jeans. I have only known one guy who literally scrubbed his jeans especially around the ass part to really get guys attention. According to him it worked too. Hiking boots are a great way to catch tops attentions too. Nowadays it seems most tops want a masculine bottom too. Never hurts to dress the part.

My daisy dukes still work. But public is tricky.

I never thought about this. Maybe some people really are tops because cleaning out your hole, maintaining the right diet, and having to watch what you eat and do is too much of a hassle. To me it is fucking worth it. It's worth knowing I clean out my hole and it is fresh and ready for hot loads cocks, and for a top's pleasure. But I used to really get annoyed by it. Not everyone probably has the time to do it as well.

But I want to be the best fucking bottom I can be. But because I am young I am a bottom. I wouldn't mind being versatile one day. I've seen some hot asses before and sometimes those peach like asses some men have or just a nice beefy hairy butt is hot as fuck.

I did read once about a top who decided to bottom once and how they had to go through similar things a bottom did. It was kind of funny because I don't think some tops realize how much work bottoms have to go through to ensure they have a nice clean and prepared fuck hole. All the top has to do is get hard and fuck.

But like I said before. It's worth the effort and work for the top

I took a trip recently and all I thought about when driving was all those horny truckers on the road needing some ass and how I would have loved to give it up. I sometimes see things like "Adult World", "Lion's Den" and Petro's, Flying J, Love Stop and a few other places a long the way.

I am sort of curious which one truckers populate more. Wasn't able to stop this trip though. But I thought about the hygiene thing too while travelling. I've seen little portable douche pumps. I imagine if you get one of those and go to a truckstop or rest stop you could easily clean out yourself.

But still. I really...really want to know why the hell there are always so many big rigs around this sex club area. Well it's not just sex clubs and I am sure they were there before the sex clubs formed. But still. Why do all those truckers gather in that sort of dead end area in the circle. Can't ever tell if it's to refuel or what. I still think of strawberry plains too. In time..

I totally agree with you Fuckboy20. Love getting fucked and cumming while high on poppers - FUCK YEAH! If you want to get really high, and zoom awhile, take as big a hit (in both nostrils) has you can, then hold your breath as long as you can. When you have to exhale, let it out as slowly as possible...and you'll fly! Doing that just as you're about to cum will make it totally, fucking AMAZING! If your top cums in you at that same time...you'll be off the planet.

I recently got taught that. And it's amazing. Hell even using the water shot to clean myself I did that too. I shoved the rod up my ass and fucked myself with it and was so fucking horny. A top really wanted me to let go of myself last night too and I was so fucking high on poppers I was such a fucking bitch whore in heat and he fucking took my ass.

The only thing I have noticed about poppers that somewhat scares me (when you take deep breaths) is it feels like there is something in your throat that feels heavy. I usually take a small burp or I have to let air escape my mouth for a minute. Then I am fine but the initial feeling is a little scary. I'll admit feeling that light headedness and warmth out of nowhere is a bit strange at first but it is pretty hot. Haven't done poppers while drunk though. Might try that with a trusted friend one day. But I love poppers now. It makes my hole much wetter and hungrier and I want any fucking load and cock up my ass and want to get fucked dry, with spit, lube, just any fucking way the top wants to take my boy ass.

...And I left my poppers at a friends. I always fucking do that >_>"

I have hads guys use my phone to film or snap pictures of them fucking me. But I don't let it get in the way of fucking. It can be a distraction.

This. Only had a guy do this once but as this big beefy ruby like bear was fucking me raw he pulls out his phone and asks if he can film me. I say, "Fuck yeah" and he films his cock going in and out of my ass. Even though it was a quick clip watching it always horns me up so much. Even though pretty much everything does. Would have loved to be filmed more. But really the days of bringing a camera or camcorder to saunas or sex clubs aren't needed anymore.

Most smart phones are powerful enough to more then get the job done and easier to carry if you or the guy has that urge. Then he can also email or text the video to you immediately

I think you can have both. Could be because I'm young but I love intimacy and passion with a man after sex and just being next to him afterwards.

I've had tons of guys who just wanna fuck and pump n go. And it's hot as fuck and I love that. But If I am really into a guy and he is into me if afterwards he wants to cuddle, make out, and just be beside me that is one of the hottest and fulfilling things ever. It makes you feel at peace and happy and relaxed. If the guy and I have chemistry it can also make me temporarily forget about taking loads. But then again I am young ;P

One of the first guys to breed me did this. He fucked and bred me a few times then he ordered me to cum on his cock. I was so fucking horny and I came on his cock and he shoved his cock back inside me and fucked me and bred me mixing our cum as one and putting it deep in me.

That was so fucking hot. Never used my own as lube though. I cum so much and the loads get smaller each time it's pointless

It truly depends on my mood, the guy, and the chemistry between us. There are some tops I just want to fuck me for a long time. Of course I want their load but just feeling them inside me and taking my hot boy ass and pounding it like they want is such a turn on. Especially changing positions and rythms. Most fucks are usually cum n go but from time to time I find tops that I want to fuck me for hours. But sometimes there are some guys where I just want their load, or I am just so fucking horny that I want any and every load up my ass. Well to a certain extent. Not quite to that point yet. But the desire is there >_>"

I have only had two tops that scared me. One was extremely selfish and rough and as soon as I walked in he bent me over, rubbed my hole, and ordered me to the bedroom. Any hesitation made him raise his voice. He put a little lube on and a condom and started fucking me. It hurt so I whined a little and he got pissed off at me for whining and stated that a bottom should shut the fuck up when taking cock. He did sort of scare me a little because he was mean, rude, but it was also somewhat of a turn on. I actually had to sort of beg him to use the condom (before I took loads) and he reluctantly fucked me for a while. He got tired of me being so nervous and tight though and ended it. He texted me when I left that I should know what I am getting into when I agree to be a bottom for a man and that if he wasn't so horny he would have raped my ass.

The only other time I was ever afraid of the top was at a bath house and he roughly shoved his fingers up my ass and it hurt and tried to fuck me. I like a little bit of foreplay before fucking. I'm not against being bent over and fucked too but roughly shoving fingers up my ass is a turn off.

As for seeing a top and physically being intimidated by him? I feel that way sometimes. But never scared to the extent that the poll is asking. Very interesting poll though.

Thanks, English being my second language makes me appreciate it even more. Also, thanks for sharing all of that, thoroughly explaining your experiences and thoughts of it.

As for getting fucked, I feel every bottom should be able to take big cocks without sniffing poppers. On the other hand, when getting fisted, poppers could be necessary, specially for those who are new to it, as it must hurt a lot more than a dick up the ass.

I forgot to highlight the following: when sniffing it, I did take the top's dick easier, felt less pain, but, at the expense of feeling weird effects in all of my body, which lasted a minute or two, then back to normal. I focused more on the bad/weird temperature rise in my head/face, which kinda scared me, than on how good the dick felt.

If there's a natural substance which makes us hornier and feel more pleasure than pain, I'd try it. I've done/tried a few things to enhance sex, but I prefer it natural, painful or not. When I was 20 yo I remember I tried anal-ease, since I was told that it was great to get fucked. I barely felt the dick, but also felt a really bad burning sensation, it's really anesthetic, and the top needs to use a condom, as the sensation is as bad to the dick. So that's me, everything I try to enhance or make sex easier, I end up discarding it.

I talked more about this in a recent post.

Recently with what I have started doing..some guys have wanted to put me on poppers. Cover a nostril take a deep breath. At first I was yawnish about it because a little rush but that's it. But holding your breath for a few second, controlling how much of a hit you take. You really have control over how much you want to feel or don't want to. And when I'm on poppers innhibitions are down. Cum, piss, groups, cock, sex, bare, raw, it's what I think about. It's what has always been natural about me it's just unlocked with poppers. The notion about getting addicted to poppers might be true though. I've still had guys fuck me without poppers and it's still been hot. I think in some ways doing poppers sometimes makes it easier to take dick without them and more excited. Even though you don't have them the image, the memory, and the sensation is still in your head to take the cock.

But yeah I'm not against them anymore. Love them. I like the little rush. And I love taking a huge hit and temporarily reaching headspace and feeling so lightheaded and just want the top to fucking destroy my hole and own my ass and just take it. Or to worship their cock like it was the last cock on earth. That intensity is powerful...

..Fuck

Since May of this year.

I did not before but now I do. I'm not worried about having sex with a undetectable or neg guy. Semi worried about poz but with the cocks I've taken raw one had to be. But I can't openly take a raw cock of a man admitting he is poz and not on meds yet. But it's not only that. I hook up with guys and take loads raw. But a whole group of guys in a massive bareback party. God knows what they might have. Catching AIDS would be a parting gift. The grand prize would be AIDS as the base and STDS as the grand prize.

Did not mean to make that sound sarcastic, cruel, or offensive but I'm just random and asshole-ish like that sometime. But hopefully the point was made.

I think it's also where I live and the situation I am in. When I move out and have a place of my own I might be "Fuck it. I'm going". I did drive to the area last night. Parking was packed so I had to go around back. I was so scared of whether I should go in or not. One worry was I know one of the guys who works there. The other is this really would be like taking the full plunge. After that night there would be no more "neg only" (that already went away), "undectable only" (recent) and it would skip poz only and go straight to "doesn't matter". The only preference would be physical attraction. And also I would have to accept that I would definitely be poz if I took more then a few dicks that night. Again, I don't think this is a step I am ready for yet. In time. I also don't like the idea of being intiated to getting pozzed like that or just a random thing that happens. When it does happen one day I'd rather it be because I had so much hot fucking sex because I'm a hot piece of ass or because someone I play with is and I accept that about them and myself.

..I probably put wayyy to much fucking thought into this though. But this is definitely a goal to one day go to a cumunion party. And I want that free fucking dvd too!!!!

Heh. You talking about a guy I almost dated?

Sweet hot sexy irish man. We had so much in common and I went to see him at least twice a week and spent the night a few times. He told me he wanted to learn more about being dominant with me. He was never verbal, never was rough or treated me like a bitch, whore, slut, like I like. But the interests and bond we had was enough to sidepass that. It was the condoms thing that got me. He would never fuck me bare. But I considered maybe dating him and going steady. But he flaked a lot later so it worked out for the best.

The point is this. Even though he was so hot and I loved everything about him, mentally, physical, and everything else, sexually he was not the right partner for me. In some ways it would probably be like the situation with my Sir overtime.

But after going out more and having sex with more men. I realize that there are men out there who want to control me, fuck me, and treat me like a little whore slut during sex but still have the passion and tlc afterwards and still be buddy and friends after too.

There are others out there. If you want to settle on the sex because there is something deeper or something else with him think carefully about that. But if you just like him for sex mostly and he isn't really fullfilling your need go elsewhere. If you develope a really deep relationship with him it will just lead to you cheating on him because he is not fullfilling you. Both partners need to be fullfilled and satisfied. If one person in the relationship isn't happy with something like sex it's going to inveitibely become an issue down the road.

I can say this because being in one myself I am not looking through the glass. I have experience with this. You need to do what makes you happy and feel good

Hey Miko

I see you have a few similar posts, and it is good that you ask so directly.

AIDS was indeed pretty horrible and scary in the 80s and 90s.

The term bareback didn't even exist then. There was no public talk about choosing to become HIV positive - much to the contrary. I was scared back then.

It's a different world today. I know guys in their 70s who have been living healthy with HIV now for over 30 years. HIV educators still try to scare people into staying HIv negative, and I think it is inaccurate information. sure there are good reasons to stay negative - not having to deal with meds and monitoring your health, but it's not the end of the world that it once was.

SO to answer your question, no, I'm not worried - I feel confident that I will be able to remain healthy with HIV.

Staying healthy does require some effort - taking care of yourself, going for regular HIV tests, and taking meds faithfully and would require a commitment to do that if you choose to go down that road.

spend some time on this site, and read the many discssions on here from other guys who struggle also with their sexuality vs the risk of becoming poz. Some figure out what they want quickly, while others take much longer. To to people and take whatever time to need to decide what you want for yourself. There are lots of good guys here who will share their stories

NiceHard. You aren't alone on this but the way you post, how descriptive, thoughtful, and consisive your posts are is incredible and extremely helpful. You are also hot as fuck...

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I agree completely 100 percent with everything you say. Some on here will say, "Come get pozzed and join the brotherhood and spread the bug and love." Some will say, "I'll never become poz", "I'll always stay negative", "Being poz rocks", "Being poz isn't fun", "I can't risk it", "I want to be pozzed"

You will have to read and listen to every side to decide what's right for you. Staying safe 100% and never having sex. Safer sex with condoms. BBing with trusted partner or buds. Taking a few random loads or hooking up. Accepting that it will happen one day and just taking loads you are attracted to the guy or all loads. Wanting to get pozzed or etc.

With my experience being bbed was slowly happening. But being bred was an accident and manipulated. But it started something which will never stop. I went through the fear of, "Oh he said he's neg..if I just have sex with neg I'll be neg forvever." to, hooking up with more guys and bbing. Sometimes not asking status because it's so hot. Playing with an undetecable guy.

I'll admit I'm not 100% comfortable with bb sex with anyone. i am still selective in terms of sexual attraction. But I will have sex with neg and undetectable. I am getting to the point where I might do poz but I do have respect for those who want to control the viral load and take care of themselves. Much more then someone who doesn't know, doesn't care, or lies.

Honestly, I am going to get HIV+ someday. It is invetible for anyone who barebacks. But more so for a bottom. I will become poz but like it's been stated. It's not like it was in the past where you drop dead, nurses won't touch you, and your life is shortened. I still think there are some minor or overlooked things about being poz or undetecable that is overlooked. Low immunity..hello there.

But all in all I want to have a fun life. I want to have multiple sex partners, fuck buds, friends, lovers, and at one point a man who will own my ass. It's stupid and a turn off always being afraid "OMG is he wearing a rubber let me check" or "MAKE SURE YOU USE A RUBBER" or "I wonder what it will feel like inside for just a minute". I've pretty much always been quick about deciding what I want.

There are other diseases besides HIV to worry about though. But if you manage being poz/und. any STDS then by all means have sex everywhere and with anyone if you want. There is a cause to every effect and every action has it's meaning or consenquences. But that doesn't mean that the consenquences will end your life or make your life miserable.

Regardless of what you do or want to be every situtation depends on how you deal with and taking responsibility for it and having strength in your decisions and actions and not having to justify your reasoning for anyone but yourself. But this forum. This forum isn't neccesarily the reason that "corrupted" me to bareback. I was corrupted when I was born

This forum has given me and others the confidence to see every side of the coin, hear other people's experience, and decide for myself what is right and accept what comes with that and take the responsibilities, consenquences, and gains in full.

I know you will find what is right for you as will everyone else. And may it make you happy and everyone else who is curious. You'll even get to the point when you can tell someone, "Don't bother with that condom I only bb" and not feeling bad about turning down a sheathed cock

When I first got fucked and lost my virginity it hurt like fuck. I was so scared and unsure of how to react and feel. It took 2 more dates until I enjoyed it.

I used to always use condoms and lube and usually did not have problems. Unless a guy shoved it up my ass then I would scream and tighten up. Now that I bareback I have practiced really good breath control and focusing and somewhat meditating as the guy is going inside me to relax. I am still nervous though.

I have done poppers recently though and it feels as if every "worry", "what if?", "Am i?", "Is this?" all those fleeting worries or blocks dissapear and what replaces it is light headedness, numbness, light feeling, and feeling as if invisible chains have been unlocked and all my piggy thoughts desires, slut, whore, slave, bottom, all those tendencies come out and I want to do anything I can to serve the top or take dick up my ass. The top can even push it in without me relaxing and my ass naturally relaxes as the dick is going in. Or if it "pops" in it adjusts and craves it while still clenching on the tops cock and creating a tightness.

But actually last night. A fuck bud of mine got together with me. He used no lube. Once he was hard and horny after making out with him and sucking he got beside me and pushed his dick inside. It wasn't going in all the way and really hurt so he pushed me on my belly and got on top of me and started fucking me. He did not pull out or stop even though I was trying to push him off. He wasn't able to get inside completely but he was inside and was fucking me and I felt what it feels like to be fucked almost dry by a huge cock and take it like the slut pig I am. It was incredible and he came in me fast.

Even though I did not use poppers the memories and familiar feeling of poppers is in my brain and might not always need poppers.

Well to be really fair with a Sir a few years ago in bed he was soft and I got him hard by just grinding my ass against his cock and got him hard and partially pushed against his cock. No lube or spit. He naturally started pushing and pushing in harder. It really fucking hurt so I tried to get off him but he would not let me. He pushed his cock all the way inside me and even though I was wimpering he fucked me like a bitch and hard. Until he came inside me. Then he woke up and used the bathroom and wondered what happened. He was impressed as fuck that I did that.

I think once you experience the pain of being fucked dry or with little lube and almost forced in. You sort of learn how to adjust and sort of makes the craving for cock stronger.

*wants to be thrown on the bed and bred right now*

I do agree that for some or maybe the majority if their equipment isn't as good as others or they feel awkward about it they might lean more towards bottom and being gay.

Bigger dicked guys who can fuck women and impress their friends and be a stud. It's easier for them to be straight or pretent to be straight.

It's different with me though. I remember being able to jack off when I was like 12 or so I was at a friend's house and was surprised as fuck I could do that. Starting looking at gay porn when I was 14 or 15. But that was painful because I jacked off for 3-4 years waiting for sex with a man. My dick has always been somewhat big though. I'd always get nervous in class or out and about trying to hide it. At my first job too. And wearing that apron made it more awkward when I was a bus boy.

The first gay porn I viewed I thought, "This is fucking hot as hell. I want to get fucked". And then I thought for a second.."But I could put all this gay porn away...date a nice girl, marry her, have kids and make everyone proud and please everyone including myself. Because we are supposed to be straight and I could probably do it with a girl."

*looks at more pictures of cock going in ass and group scenes*

"Fuck that. Don't care if I'm gay and like men. I wanna have lots of sex and have fun. Don't care about women, marriage, and etc. Just wanna have fun and have a good life . But before "porn" I did try to date a girl or two in school. I remember that endless bitchy blog about always complaining and pining over here. Glad that shit got deleted with the whole internet blogs when free webs went bye bye. Or was it geocities?

I have a pretty big dick. I don't get into fucking but that's definitely not why I am a bottom. I am a bottom because I am naturally subservient, I like to give men pleasure and I like to feel a man's will, power, and their lust as they take control over me. Whether it's fucking me, kissing me, getting blown by me, or just the foreplay.

I have been a kid growing up, to a teen, to a boy, to a slave, and now I am finally starting to become a man. Someday I might be a top or versatile. I always look up to men who have strength, will, and confidence. But if I finally develop that for myself completely maybe I'll look up to myself

AAAHH

*too much sugar*

Love piss up my ass. I've had probably only 2 guys piss up my ass. It's hot as fuck. After getting fucked long and hard to have them piss up my ass. The only un-hot part is immedietely having to stop and release it. But it's still hot. It's hotter if they cum first then piss though..

..Actually, I haven't had anyone fuck me with piss in me. That would probably feel rather awkward. I'll probably experience that though. I think if it's a light piss load some fucking after is cool but if it's a gallon of piss. You gotta release that