AlwaysOpen

Not really sure if I would be afraid of a ghost- I figure there have been a hell of a lot of them created over the last 5000 years. Now, living in Fort Lauderdale FL, if I were to see a real TOP- I think I would be absolutely shocked out of my hard on ! <g>

Hey guys- another work week weekend in the middle of the week for me-BBRT had 9 guys looking for sex now- all bottoms, asses up and doors unlocked , so my chances of getting bred and used deep were nil and none. And they wonder why it is called Ft Bottomdale anymore... I hosed out, changed my location on BBRT and put up a notice I was going to be at the bookstore in N Miami, and got on the road. Got to the ABS just about 12 :30- hoped to find a decent lunch crowd. I had on a t shirt with a white pig, and the word CUM in the center of the pig in black, just to reinforce what my role was. I made my way into the booth area, still blinded by the darkness, and headed for the very back, where I could adjust. The last booth had a black guy in it- and he motioned me in. Fast, but thats what I was there for- so I joined him and proceeded to strip quick and got to work on his cock. After about 20 minutes he fed me a load and split. I had well adjusted eyes now, and slipped my shorts back on, and moved around - several guys were willing to feed me their cocks thru the walls, and I enjoyed them- but I was really looking to get my hole opened up. One big dicked black guy let me suck him, but wouldn't fuck, so I worked on his meat and discovered he was all about getting his taint ( behind the balls) licked and sucked as he jacked. I worked him, and when he said he was close, I told him to paint me with his cum. He told me to get flat on the floorfacing him, and when I was in position, he began a furious stroking, unloading a huge cum load onto my face, shoulder, and chest. I came up and licked a few last drops off him, and left the cum on me to dry. I did have to wipe a little of his cum off my eyelids, but the rest was left in place so the CUM pig shirt would hold true . I had a large butt plug in most of the afternoon, so even when I was just giving head at least my ass was involved. It was at one of these points in the 4 pm area that I was naked with it up my ass in the back corner, when a latin with a nice curve to his cock came around and let me get him hard. He felt the plug in my ass, and motioned for me to follow him to a booth. I grabbed my shorts and t shirt from the hiding spot and followed him down the hall bareassed. In the booth, he left the door ajar, and a 3rd guy joined us I was eating the latins cock and he was kissing the other guy- the guy fished his cock out and I was guided to suck it by the latino. The guy who joined us had a thick, but stubby cock- but I hoped to get more action in the middle, so I stood , pulled the plug out, and made it obvious I was lubed and ready. The latin slipped right in, and I went bone deep on the other guys cock. The action kept up- latin man would pull out and I would go down on him as he would suck on the other guy- ultimately the other guy nutted too soon and left. Latino began fucking my hole again, and while doing it there was a couple of knocks on the wall from the next booth.Then a knock on the door, so he opened it, and the Cuban guy with the enormous cock joined us. I went to the base on him before he got hard, knowing it wasn't going to fit in my mouth once hard. Latino went back into my ass, and the Cuban began fingering the latino's hole, then pulled free of my mouth and moved behind the latin and ate the guys hole, before slipping his cock into him. I had hoped to get fucked by the Cuban- his cock is every bit as big as a sm/med hand- but he was rocking up intothe latin guys hole. I shifted, so my ass was alongside the latin guy, and got ina position where I could suck on his cock as he got fucked ( the curve really helped on that) The Cuban could see my hole was well greased and open, and he explored it with a four finger probing. I grabbed my squeeze bottle of J Lube, and handed it to him. He lubed up his hand and put a big thick squeeze on myass, and with that pushed into my hole to his wrist. I hit the poppers quickly- I had been fucked a bit, but not fisted in a week and he was taking my hole like he was fucking the latin. He seemed to be in heaven- a hand in one hole and a hard cock in another- and he worked both in a steady fuck motion. My ass quickly adjusted to the fist in it , and it was feeling really good. He was getting close to cumming in the latins hole, and he was increasing the fuck thrusts, causing his hand in my ass to pop out and then get reentered in a quick punch. It finally popped out one time and he used it to grab the latins hips and take one last deep lunge up the guys hole as he came. He pulled out, and the latin guy stood back up- I figured sloppy seconds were as good as anything, so I took the Cubans cock into my mouth and tongue washed his cock, geting several last drops of cum from it before he pulled out , rubbing his lube coated hand in my hair and telling me I was a crazy fuck, and thanking me for washing him up. Both guys got themselves straightened up and opened the door, leaving me in the booth. I looked out, and the hall was empty. I picked up my pile of clothes, stepped into my sandals, and walked back to the dark end of the hall bareassed.Once there,in the doorless abandoned booth, I pushed the dildo back into my ass, and sat on a metal stool in there. Not too long after, an older guy came back ,hard cock sticking out from his fly, so I went down on him. He began working my tits (Love that) and I went deeper down on him. I stood up and the dildo popped out- he reached back and felt my open sloppy hole, and pulled out of my mouth- I figured he was going to run, but instead he told me to turn around, and in a quick motion he shoved in and began a deep fuck. He said he was going to cum, and he went stiff and unloaded. As he pulled out, he told me to suck him, and I moved to where I could get on his cock. As I was going back down on him, he tried to push his hand into my ass- but it was a large unlubed hand. I found my clothes, pulled out the J Lube , and squeezed a big glob onto his hand. He went abck to the hole again, and this time he was able to push in with a steady pushing; and me relaxing as much as posible. For him it was more the novelty of getting his hand in a hole- not rally about punching or fucking, just the feeling of passing the outer ring. He was still hard in my mouth , and he told me to take him again, he wanted to shoot another load. Withthat he ulled his fist out, and slipped his cock back in and pumped a few times before again making a final push and going rigid as he shot. By now about 4 other guys had moved to the end of the hall and were watching or making their own action. The older guy pulled out and shoved his fist back into my now very open hole, and worked me around so my mouth would be available to any of the guys wanting it in the hallway. As he kept his fist in my ass, a couple of guys produced their cocks for me to suck- none ever came, but seemed very willing to plug my throat as he began getting more active in working up my ass. One guy in particular took great pleasure in raping my throat- he had to be in his late 20's with a rock hard 8 inch cock that he pushed past the back of my throat, holding my head in place as he sunk in to the base, resting there for what seemed like a minute but was more like 10 seconds at a push. The older guy in my hole was hard again, and pulled me off the guy and pulled his fist free of my ass, and put me back on his cock, sucking him for about 30 seconds before he took my ass with it and fucked me one more time. When he finished , I needed a break and grabbed up my dildo, clothes and lube bottle and worked my ass down the hall to a booth to get dressed

I went back to try my luck at the bookstore again last Wednesday- let the FF bud know I was going to be there, and he said he was going to show up but it would be mid afternoon before he could make it. ( I was intent on getting there for the lunch crowd- post noon timeframe) Between getting up and getting my hole ready, it was already after noon when I finally got out of the house and on the road- so it was more like 1 pm when I was in the parking lot of the bookstore. Not many cars, but maybe that would be a good sign. I paid my $8, went in the back and walked around, getting my eyes adjusted to the dark. As I was walking past one booth, someone inside opened the door and I managed to wlak into the damn thing- ouch! I hoped this wasn't how the day was going to progress! An older grey haired latin guy kept rubbing his cock, so I found a booth with a good gloryhole and went in- he followed into the one adjoining, looked thru the hole and saw me already on my knees and ready. He fished out his cock and pushed it thru the wall- and I sucked him for a little while- nice and hard, so I kept sucking and while working on it, I squeezed out some J Lube and prepped my hole - when it was lubed and ready I got up and put my ass to the hole- the guy could be heard fumbling and putting a rubber on, then he fucked me thru the hole. Less than a minute later he was done and I was able to see him zipping up, then picking up the condom package and leaving. I went to the booth, but no scum bag on the floor, so I couldn't tell if he came or not. I wandered, and got going with a coupl eof guys at the end oa the darkest hallway, sucking one then the other as they kissed and made out. The one guy was very excited, and soon fed me a load, then pulled out and continued milking jizz out and onto my hair, back and arm. The other guy was hard, but never shot, and seemed to be ready to head out when the 1st guy was zipped up and leaving. I saw a huge man wandering- not really my body type, but it was a lull, and I gave a gentle rub as he walked past me. He stopped, and allowed me to play with him. He must have been vacuum pumping all morning- the cock was huge and bloated- the head was actually lost in the swlooen skin of his foreskin. I managed to get it in my mouth, and quickly ran my tongue up under the thick skin looking for the head--he must have been very sensitive, because each time I landed on the head he would jump and the cock was getting harder. When he actually had soem hardness to his cock , I offered him the chance to fuck, but he withdrew and walked back up the hallway. As I was standing in the dark, I saw the FF bud checking out the booths, and walked over to him and rubbed him. He groped me ( hard) and led me into the booth closest to us- the one with the very large gloryhole and a cutaway on one side of the wall for reach arounds. I quickly got out of my track pants and he went for my hole- it was s till good and slick from the attempt to get the pumped cock to fuck me, so he was in 4 fingers deep in one try.Pleased, he had me spread my legs wide and point it towards the glory hole, so a man who had entered the other booth could see what was going on. The FF bud then applied more lube, and pushed in past his wrist, all the time telling me to take it and urging the guy in the other booth to check it all out. After a few minutes of loosening up my hole he invited the other guy to do the same, and had me move my hole closer to the hole. I felt the first few tentative fingers of my hole, then felt the FF bud guiding the man into my hole- the hand was thicker, but I could handle it- the bigger issue was the guy was very unsure of what he was doing and was holding back. The FF bud saw it too, and then offerd the guy my hole to fuck, which the man did quickly--too quickly. About 10 thrusts and he shot his wad, pulled out and left the booth. The FF bud stuck his finger in my hole and pulled out some cum, tasted it, and then went in full hand and began punch fucking my ass. Once he had it all good and churned up, he told me to bend over, and when I was in position, he gave a fast fucking and he shot his load in my hole to mix with the other guys jizz. Urging me to not loose any of his cum, he had me stand up straight again and rentered my ass, sliding in past the wrist and then trying to get the other hand in as well. We/He got close to it, but I am still in need of some stretching work before that happens. He pulled both hands free of my hole, and told me to bend over again. This time he slid his cock back in, and after a few minutes he shot another load. Still holding my position, he remained in my ass and told me to stay bent over, and not to lose any- and then proceeded to fill me to overflowing with his piss. Once the last drops were about out, he warned again to hold it, and pulled out. I was offered his cock, and I sucked it clean of the piss and J Lube and cum. He told me to stand up, and he positioned me to face away from the door, then told me to push it all out hard. In a sudden gush, piss flew and splatterd all over the door of the booth. As the piss ebbed, he refisted me, then as he was certain my ass had been rinsed out well, he ha dme lube my fist up. I was expecting him to show me how to self fist, bu then he told me to fist him. I am pretty naive at fisting as a top, but he coached me in and it was getting my wrist squeezed by his sphinchter in about the 4 th try. . He was rock hard again, and he said I was getting him ready for load 3- at which point he pulled off my arm and spun me around and shoved his cock in my sloppy hole for one more load. Once that was done, he pulled up his sweats, and headed out the door. I turned my attention to the guy in the adjoining booth, - wearing Superman briefs ! He pulle dout his cock and put it thru the hole, and Iwas sucking on it when there was a knock on the door- I unlocked, and the FF bud wanted to show me his t shirt- a fist design- and I reminded him he had not taken any pictures as he had wanted to. With that, he said goodbye and headed out, and I went back to the cock in the wall-- never could get him to cum, but it was a nice diversion as my ass oozed out leftover J Lube, piss and cum. My track pants had gotten wet from all the piss on the floor, but I put them on and went out into the hall and hung out in the dark end. I discovered the janitors closet was unlocked, and with a small flashlight I carry I found the mop and some bleach, and went back to the booth I had been in and mopped the piss up, then did the same to the booth next to it- the floor in my booth had become a skating rink slick with J Lube and piss. I hung out for a while longer, but nothing more of substance came along- and I was ready for the shower at home !

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well guys, after all the fun in November at the bookstore, my ass has been hooked on the play there, and I hit it every Wednesday. December played out well too! I reconnected with the FF bud there in early December- he had been working when I texted him that I was headed to the bookstore- he ended up getting there just a little after I did tho. He had one stipulation- I needed a load in my hole for him to eat out. I went right to work when I got in, connecting with a guy thru the wall, got him good and hard, but when I tried to get him to fuck me he pulled up hispants and left the other booth. I worked on another guy and got his cock hard and was sucking him when all of a sudden he shot and was done.I was in a jinxed state, and the 3rd guy I went down on would not fuck- and was actually trying to go down on me . As I left that hallway, I saw the FF bud, and he point blank asked me if I had his load. When I told him no, he was pissed, and pulled me into a booth. He jammed his finger up his ass, and pulled out some jizz he had just gotten, and fed it to me. As I cleaned his used jizz from his fingers, he reached behind and poked my ass with his other hand, then had me put my hand out and squeezed a blob of J Lube onto it. He instructed me to shove it up my ass- not sure if he meant the lube or my fist, but I worked at getting both covered. After some sucking on his cock, he told me to stand up ( I had shucked my shorts and shirt once in the booth) He asked me if I was serious about learning from him, and I said yes. He asked if I trusted him, and I again said yes. With that he gave me a hard kiss and bit my lip slightly, then told me to face the wall as he proceeded to push his fist up my ass. As he worked my hole open, he unlatched the booth door and swung it open wide for anyone walking by to watch us. A couple of guys watched, one wanted to play, but with him, not me. The FF redirected his attention to me, but the guy wasn't hard or interested. The door got pulled shut, and again the FF bud and I were alone. He had me squat down on the floor, and he proceeded to piss from my neck down, working his stream back and forth to coat all of me in his piss. Once he was done, he had me stand again, and again shoved a fist in my hole, unlocked the door again, and then began pushing his cock in alongside his fist. The floor was semi painted concrete- and between the piss and the J lube, it was slippery as all get out. I was slipping around,all the time his fist packing and pulling at my ass ring. He finally got me slid into a spot where I could keep some traction, and he fucked a load into me with his fist/cock. He eased it all out, and told me to hold his load, but to also get more. I stayed there for another 5 minutes, but no one else was entering the booth- so Iput on my sandals , grabbed my clothes, and walked bare assed to the dark end of the hall. There were guys there- but they were all pretty much just looking for the BJ action, and I didn't get very far with them. The FF bud had landed another load, came by and checked on me, and said to keep up the action- he was headed out. I stayed and played with a heavy set semi regular , who abused my tits and balls, then he fisted my ass--much larger hand than the FF buds, but the hole was pretty well opened up and he squeezed in. Once in, he had me move around to where I could straddle his lap, and as he wormed his fist in me he held me and massaged my back with the other hand. After a few minutes, he extracted his fist from me, and I offered my t shirt to wipe off on. He stood, rubbed my head, and left the booth. I was back the next week, but the FF bud couldn't make it . I played alittle, and then a large- like 350 lb, 6' 7" black guy took an interest in my hole. His cock was really fat, but not much more than 8 inches. He worked my ass and got it loosened up. No way those paws of his would fit, but he did a fine job of using me just the same. Even mentioned I would be a great thing to have at his place on Monday nights for football night when he and some of his homies hung out . I gave him my number but so far, no party invites. 2 weeks ago when I went in, an older black guy- maybe 50-55 ish, saw me- I had taken a black marker and put CUM PIG on my stomach- ( and I had posted on CraigsList I was taking any load offered) He groped me, and I did him ( big) He said to follow him, and we went into a booth inthe center hall. I stripped quickly, and put a shot of J Lube on my ass, as he pulled out a big fat cock. I worked on it, and it was growing, as he began exploring my asshole with his fingers. He spun me around and slid his cock into my hole- slick and ready for fucking. I was head down into the door, and he began giving me a deep hard fucking- pulling out and slamming back in full hilt. At somepoint the door popped open in one of the thrusts, and a few guys who had been trying to peek through the door crack scattered. I relocked the door, and he pulled out -but then I felt his fist enter me. I scrambled for the lube, and passed it back to him. He put a good load of it on my hole/his hand, and then in a motion slipped in past the wrist. He stopped and let my hole learn his hand, then began seriously fisting my ass, pulling out and slamming back in faster and faster. Most of the reentry strokes were a collapsed hand, but near the end he was balling up his hand and punching in with a clenched fist. We were making quite a bit of noise- actually -my ass and the lube were making a lot of noise- and he was sweating - so he took a rest and as he pulled the fist out, still ina clenched mode, he slipped his cock inand fucked until he orgasmed in me. As his cock softened, he shoved his fist back inand fucked my hole a few more minutes with his hand- churning his cum and the lube into a frothy mess. HE finally had to catch his breath, and pulled out one last time and wiped his hand off on my shirt. As he left, I kept the door open and stood there- but no one walked by. I dressed a little , and went out looking. I managed to suck a cock, and then a younger guy from Venezuela fucked me with a rubber on. As he shot, I reached back and grabbed the rubber off his cock and dumped his seed onto me as I sucked the last dribbles out of his cock. He dressed and quickly left. A guy I had contacted on BBRT showed- found me and fucked me fast in the dark hallway end. Now with cum in myhole, on my chest, and on my tongue, I was ready to either head home or get wild- and then the black guy from earlier walked back in. So I waited, and he graced my ass with his fist and cock again- and fed me a load in my hole before leaving.

Hell man- loved the search term hits ! Now just when did you know the Mexican you were breeding was a turkey--did he ask you to wear a rubber?? <g> As to your underwear- I'd love them- but much rather find them someplace- I love finding underwear in public- my last jockstrap came from the side of the onramp onto I 95 here in Ft Laud- not sure if a high school football team had passed by, or if some butch stud's bitch had just done the laundry at the laundromat and piled it in the back of the pick up truck and it flew out- no matter- I wear it now! Laundromats and gyms are favorite hunting grounds, as well as lovers lanes- although I know of few of those in the area

Gawd, how can anyone quantify kinkiest? My most RECENT was at the bookstore- a dom boi I have been playing with , and who has been fisting me there- met me one afternoon- he had already gotten a load- I tried with 3 guys but came up empty- he wanted me loaded b4 he used me. After some scolding, he led me into a booth, had me strip, and then J Lubed my hand and had me try to self fist my hole, while he throat fucked me. He pulled out and held his cock back and pissed all over me, then had me stand and spread my ass for him, and he proceeded to fist and fist/fuck my ass. At some point he opened the booth door- wide open, and all the guys in the place could watch him use me. After he had his load in my ass, he invited a 7-11 type clerk in to use me- very small cock tho and his load was lost on my ass lips- then he told me to keep letting guys use me, put on his pants, and split. I probably was naked in a pool of piss and J Lube for another 30 minutes-- but too many lookers and not enough pigs at that time of day

I clicked off it after he began reaching up and digging out the pieces-- ewww. I am sorry- but that is just way too far out there. How the hell could he have done anything for the next 2 weeks after mincing up his cunt like that?? (And what guy would want to stick their cock in that hole afterwards- just in case there were still glass pieces stuck in there- OUCH

I love getting fucked raw. Most of us, actually, do. But I am getting more and more on board with the idea of being an available cum catcher , on call, for a block of top men- actually, any men from vers/bottom on up- A first hook up would establish if we were actually ( more so if HE was actually) able to work well together towards his cumming. If he liked the first fuck, then I would give him my cell number, and he would be able to text me around my work schedule and I would make my ass available to him ASAP- generally within 30 minutes- either at hisplace or mine- for the sole purpose of him fucking a load in my ass raw and once he is sated, I am off fo r the next service call. I am betting a lot of guys are already doing this to one extent or another- so if you are and have any tips and pointers for making this work well for the guys on the service list, I'd appreciate the feedback. Esp things like how to handle more demand than hole- or if one guy wants to use my ass at midnight, and another wants it 30 min later- but the 1st guy decides to do a long scene and runs over the planned time

My usual bookstore trips consist of a loose pair of cargo shorts ( pockets holding lube, poppers, gum, small flashlight , tit toy or 2) a very loose or oversized tank top, and flip flops. When I get to the bookstore and into a booth, the tank gets pulled up and over my head to expose my tits, the shorts drop , and I get barefoot--guys know right away with a glance in the booth that I am ready to be their pig hole

Hey men- been a week of no sex and I was about to go crazy- so yesterday I made plans to hit the nude beach in Miami, then going over to the bookstore for after beach fun. Put up a connect ad on BBRT with my plans, and then as I was finishing up the hosing and sure everything would be playable, the clouds began rolling in.FUCK! So much for the beach, i guessed, so I went back online and cancelled the ad, and reposted it for JUST the action at the bookstore- and hopped in the car and got my ass in gear. Halfway down to the bookstore the skies parted and the sun was shining-DAMMIT- I could have gone to the beach after all! Well, the plans were on for the bookstore- I quickly recalled ny fisting friend from a week and a half earlier- searched the phone and sent him a text telling him where I was headed. About 5 minutes later my phone chirped- he was very interested but working for another 3 hrs. I replied to him I could wait- would be there and hoped to be well loaded b4 he arrived. By the time I got to the bookstore lot, he had cancelled a client, and was texting me that he would be ther ein 45 minutes The lot was promising- lots of cars, and I went in. A latin guy about 50 joined me in a booth and fed me his cock and then his cum in fairly rapid order. He left, and I stayed in the booth- I had stepped out of my shorts and had my tank pulled over my neck. An older- 55 ish , black guy wandered to the end of the hall where the booth I was in was at, looked in, grabbed his cock and stepped in. I went down on him right away, and as he hardened his cock grew into a banana curvethat slammed the left side of my throat awkwardly as he pushed deeper into my throat. I pinched my tits harder and let him carve a new path down my throat- he was long enough that he cut off my air flow even when I tried breathing thru my nose. I realised I needed to get him off quickly or i would pass out, so I redoubled my efforts- and it worked. I felt a hot splash on my throat wall, and the salty taste of his cum began coating my mouth as he eased back out of my throat. After he regained his composure, the rubbed my head and opened the door and left. I thought about staying there naked , but decided to get up and see who else was in the place. A few guys were wandering, but I was in the stand and survey mode-- and the AC vent was overhead and felt good. As I stood there, the FF bud arrived, and walked back to where I was standing. FUCK! I have seen his BBRT pics, and saw a lot of him thru the wall the week earlier- but walking in he was amazing! Runners body, and in nylon warm ups. He walked up and grabbed a tit, then began chewing on it , gettin gme hard and eliciting a few moans.A coupl eof the guys stopped to watch- but he had other plans for me. We headed down the hallway to the end , where the 2 abandoned booths are, and once there he went back to my tits and began abusing them , as he grabbed and squeezed my cock. I grabbed his groin, and discovered he was wearing a jock under his sweats. I worked his cock out andwent down on him, as he reached around and probed my ass. I had some lube in it, but not enough for fisting. Or so I thought. After he was hard and in my throat, he pulled me around and squeezed some J Lube onto my ass, coated his hand, and began a slow and steady push into my ass. I was almost sure it wouldn't get in that fast, but for whatever reason my ass ring relaxed wide open and his fist slid in quickly. He kept talking, tellingme to show him how much my ass loved his arm- more so the other guys knew what we were up to- and I began humping his hand, inand out- once he had my well lubed up inside, he began pulling all the way out and then shoving right back in- and with it there was a very obvious sucking and squishing sound for all to hear. He fucked my ass like that for 10 or 15 minutes, trying to get other guys to come in and play, but all they could muster was to stand and watch. He finally gave up on the idea of a group scene and proceeded to push his cock in alongside his fist. I had pressure , but no pain- in fact it felt very good. He then began fucking his fist in my ass , until at last he bucked and gave one last shove in. As he shot the last dribbles in, he pulled out his cock, but then clenched up his fist and began plungering my hole, saying he wanted to make sure his cum was way up my ass so it wouldn't ooze out . With the J Lube and his cum getting churned, I had a froth going back there that wasn't leaking out anytime soon. When he was sure it was well mixed, he unclenched his fist and in a quick down and out motion jerked his hand out of my hole, then ran his fingers around the lips for a few minutes admiring the stretch of the skin there. I stood there bare assed as he admired his work, and a guy came up and added a few of his fingers to the hole. The FF bud was quick, and had a hand on the guys crotch- he was hard- and directed him to my ass . I was repositioned so he could enter me , and he fucked for a minute or two before shooting- mostly on my ass lips. The FF bud moved in behind me again and shoved his fist back up my ass, saying he was blending cum loads and making sure I had lots of DNA inme. Once again, when he was sure there was little cum to lose left, he extracted his hand with a slurp and tasted his fingers, then reinserted then and pulled them out for me to sample. Yummy! The hall was empty now- and we decided some fresh air and walking around was in order. I waited as he pulled up his pants, and I found my shorts and put them back on. I found a chair in the front movie room and collapsed in it, feeling the J Lube on my ass and legs- cool and wet. I chilled out, the ff bud went off into another part of the booths and watched some action going on. About 30 minutes later I rejoined the men in the halls, and the ff bud saw I was back in the zone. He came up and began pushing his hand into my ass crack through my shorts, and was actually able to get some distance, thanks to all the J Lube that had been oozing out. His cock was inmy groin, and I could feel it hardening, - he suggested we should go to one of the few booths with an uncovered glory hole, so he could fist me thru the wall again- like he had the 1st time we played- so off we went. He went in his side, I entered and stripped bare in my side, and he had me back my hole to the gloryhole, where he licked at my ass for a minute, then he began the reentry of my ass with his hand. The 2nd time was not as pleasant as the 1st- I don't know if I was cramping , or the position I was in made for a bad entry angle, but it wasn't as much pleasure, and he quickly read that from the way my hole was responding. He withdrew his fist and aske dme if I was OK( thru the gloryhole) . I told him it was not as comfortable for some reason, and he said to come to his booth. So I picked up my shorts, put on my sandals, and walked out and into his booth. I felt bad, letting him down, but he was elated that we had gotten as far along as we had, and then he proceeded to just fuck me, and after he shot, he wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me full against him, and held me for a few minutes while he used the other hand to massage my back and shoulders. It really felt good, and the cramping feeling I had been feeling ebbed and disappeared. Once he was sure I was OK, he tucked his cock away and pulled up his shorts, said goodbye, and headed out. I stayed in the booth for a few minutes, then walked around. Not too long afterwards a stocky short black guy wandered nto the back, I dropped and stepped out of my shorts and he felt around to my ass- when 3 fingers slipped in my ass without any resistance he said something like Oh Fuck, pulled his cock out and proceeded to rut my ass until nutting his load . I decided it was time to split- after 8pm, the after work men had come and gone, and the bar crowd wouldn't be in for several hours. And, my ass was hungry! ( well, my ass was content, but my stomach sure needed food!)

Wammt- my pleasure. And if any of you guys get into hiking and nature- you really have to give a day to driving up to Joshua Tree and exploring. About 30 miles east of Palm Springs, it is high desert ( figure 20-30 degrees cooler) and looks like a lunar landscape. Speaking of lunar- if you happen to be in Palm SPrings AND the full moon- do Joshua Tree at dusk- I pull off on the Old Dale Mining Rd ( loose sand and hardpack gravel) and get back to where I have a full view of the eastern horizon-mountains to the left and right framing the view. When it is dark,the sky is awesome- and then, just seconds b4 the moon breaks the horizon, the mountains to the north glow silver, and suddenly the entire eastern horizon is a solid longline of orange as the moon crests the edge of the earth. Sort of a zen moment, even better if you are naked ( extra points if you are getting bred too) <g> BTW- re the Motel 6-- if you men think about doing this- be aware there are TWO Motel 6 within a mile of each other- you want the one right next to Ramone- the other is heading towards Cathedral City and isn't in the heart of the city

If you are on a budget- here is another slant- stay at the Motel6 on Indian Canyon and Ramone-- it is 1 block away from the ToolShed ( handy if you think you might over indulge) and is 3 blocks from the busy cruise street of Warm Sands. WiFi is $3 a day, the room prob about $45. During the week, most of the gay resorts will be pretty low occupancy, so if you get a room at one and only 3 other rooms are rented, you could be laying out $150 a night for next to notheing. Most of the PS area guesthouses do day passes, so you can stay cheap at Motel6 and hit one or two of the gay clothing optional places on a $10 pass, and enjoy the sun and any guys who might be there. In Cathdral City, CCBC is ( was at least) $15 for a day or nightpass ( yes, you can walk the prop all night on a nightpass if you so desire) And they have a bunkhouse with a sling in it. I did the Motel6 when I was out 19 months ago, and working withthe internet managed to get 4 or 5 drop by walk ins a day to come by and seed my ass. {Heres the thing: during the week PS is pretty quiet-- the guys of LA and SanDiego work too- and don't generally head to the desert until Fri night, most leave Sun afternoon, or early Monday. And the gay resorts are staffed by local men; so a guy who is fucking around on his husband is not as likely to want to have to walk in to the front desk and have them call you to escort him back to your room for a fuck- b4 his cum has run down your leg the gaygossip line would be whistling with the details} The Motel 6- guys can drive in from the street, park in front of your room door, and walk in unnoticed- fuck , and split. One other thing to consider- during the week, construction crews tend to stay there , so you might get some trade-- on the weekends, the Marines come down from 29 Palms and pack 5 or 6 to a room and let off some steam ( and once they are tipsy, they are a favorite food of the local gay men who drop by and eat their loads)

I did the darkroom last night- got fucked anon 20 or 25 times in the 7 hrs I was at the sex club- but only received 2 or 3 loads that I know of. Like so many sex parties, the guys were there and active, but too many were holding off cumming so they could play all night ( or maybe to save it for the most perfect stud who MIGHt show up later) Now if we could only make darkrooms as productive as gloryholes at the bookstore during lunchhour <g>

Well, after Fridays dry day, Saturday began slowly, I finally got things in my gut and hole under control by 1 pm, and the neighbor came over and fed me his 9 inch meat, coated my throat with cum, and split. The FF bud had dropped offline by the time I got back on, and none of the sites were producing any interest. So I put on some clothes and went to get a sandwich, and then to a local gay bar that was open. Had a drink, and one of the regulars set me up for another- but I wasn't really wanting to get too loose that soon, so I thanked him, and headed out. Slammer ( a local sex club) wa sopen, so I stopped by the ATM and got some cash, hit a liquor store for a bottle of rum, and headed off to it. It was 7 pm, still early, but a good time to get there- no lines, and I had to renew my membership. Once that was done, I went in and had the bartender make a stiffer than normal cocktail for me. As I got some of it in, I walked around- I hadn't been to the club in 6 months, and wanted to see if anything had changed-- damned if my favorite sling was missing - the one out in the open by the BJ platforms! FUCK!!!! A husky guy in knee high boots came by and said something- couldn't understand him. One walk around and I was ready- headed into my favorite spot, shucked my warm up pants, leavingme in a jock an leather vest. I had packed the vest with a bottle of J Jelly,Boy Butter Extreme, poppers, tit toys, and,a pack of gum that promised fresh breath After stashing the pants, I walked back out and the husky guy saw me and wanted to serve me. Hmm, no, I'm here for tops, but thanks .I went into the dark room, 2 guys bent over, no one else tho. Back to the bar, and i had another drink- 2 guys naked playing pool were fun to watch, and the evening crowd was beginning to arrive. My next walk around I ended up on the patio, and in the dark corner a guy began fingerin gmy hole- 1, 2, then 3. I pulled out the Boy Butter, and he lubed up and worked my hole apart.I handed him the J Jelly, and withthat , he was in my ass nad fisting me over a padded center unit. This drew a small knot of men who watched, a few reached under to see if it was really going up my ass. Like any crowd, it got too pushty tho, and I was ready to stand up and get some circulation in my lower legs. He also began exiting- turned out it was the bottom slave-- he had shifted roles to serve me ! How nice!! Well, my ass was slick with lube, my mood was up, and I was craving cock, so I went to the darkroom again - more guys- 2 still bent over the table, but a line against the back wall. I wandered in, and felt a hand on my ass, then it found my hole, and I was pushed forward and ove rthe table. In a flash, I had a cock in my ass, and another being presented to my mouth. The guy in my mouth didn't last long, and fed me a nice load. The man behind kept fucking, and at some point he pulled out and someone else replaced him. Another round of fucking, and with a lot of noise he picked up the pace and finished up. I held tight for a minute, but when nothing else came in, I walked out. Took a break and sat out in the smoking patio, where a guy burning a Red motioned for me to service him as he smoked- so I got to my knees and sucked him to the base as he smoked- when he finished his cigarette, he pulled out from my mouth, told me he didn't want to cum this early, and tucked his cock aaway and headed back inside. I went back to the large back room, and after a few tugs and gropes and fingers in my hole, a guy moved around and got behind me, and eased an already hard cock into me. He fucked me over the center padded unit in multiple positions, but never shot a load. I went back out- tons of men now, but sometimes when there are so many guys, the action tapers off, and it seemed like the scene was more about 2 guys hooking up and 20 guys watching at the moment. I went to get a fresh drink- hell, I had lost the last 2 somewhere in the place - and ran into a friend. We talked a little, but he was up for getting laid, and he was off into the frey. I sipped my drink, relaxing and getting my second wind. As i hit the end of my drink, I got up and went back to the darkroom- just after walking in, a big solid guy fingered my ass, then grabbed me by the arm and led me out, and across into one of the small booths. I guess he was about 35, light black, and maybe 6 foot- but he was ready to fuck. I took off the vest, and went down on him, and at this point in my night I was able to take ALL of him to the root. He was very appreciative, but was out for ass. He pulled me up, and turned me around, to have a shot at my hole. He asked if I had rubbers, and I told him I never carry them. He pushed me more into a 90 degree angle so I was able to brace myself, and then he pushed in. My ass was pretty much loose and willing to take anything, and he was in to the base pretty easily. as he would push in, I was thrusting back, getting some deep bottoming going on, and he was loving it. I think he was getting too close, because he stopped, pulled out and told me to sit on it, and with that he moved and took a seat on the bench. I noticed then that he had put a rubber on at some point, but fuck, what a cock to ride! I backed up onto his cock, and began riding it and grinding down into his groin. I know the guys outside heard him, and I was rewarded with a few very hard and totally sunk in cock thrusts b4 he shot his load. I pushed down as hard as I could to get him way up, and stayed as he softened. At thispoint I began contracting my ass , milking his cock, and as sensitive as he was, he began laughing and bucking. I kept up, grabbing at his softening shaft with my puffy ass lips, and as he slipped out, I kept his rubber up inside my ass. He was baffled how I had done it, but I just laughed, reached back, and poked the little bit of it that was exposed back into my ass. I told him if he wanted it back, he was going to have to fuck it out of me. And, I sucked his cock clean of the residual cum on it, he straightened himself up, and headed out. I ended up in the darkroom again, and took a guy with a huge PA in his cock. It was in and the metal was cool in my hole, but he only pumped my ass for a coupl eof minutes before pulling out and going after another hole. I had been at the club for almost 6 hours, and besides being tired, I was getting to the point where I wasn't really into the guys remaining- many were coming from the bars, and were cocktailed almost to the point of being obnoxious- pushing and shoving in the darkrooms, or being loud and vocal in the sex areas ( and not in a sexual context) . When I got in the car and got the key in the ignition, I realized it was a fter 2 am- I had been getting fucked for almost 7 hours! Oh well, made up for Friday!

If i had not jacked off in the morning , I would have been totally sexless Friday. Did I use up all my sex credits Thursday, or did I fuck up by jacking off Friday morning ( ah, but my tits were so tender and sore-perfect for jacking to) So now it is Sat, and again my hole is fighting me- hose after hose, and it isn't right yet-and past noon! A neighbor wants a BJ, and a FF bud might play, if I can make it right. FUCK!!!!

Aw hell- love the internet- put up a post, and when I hit send i had timed out on here! Anyway- Thursday was Veterans Day, and I woke with a crappy gut--must have been the MindErasers and gin and tonics the previous night at the gay bingo. Or the Dunkin Donuts coffee in the morning. Anyway- by the time i felt sure the ass was clean and safe for extended use, it was noon. I put a post up on BBRT that I was headed to Haulover Beach (nude beach in Miami) and then at 4 would be at Prime Time Video for guys to use me. Got to the beach, nice views on the north;gay end. Lots of foreskin But there is no action on the beach, and the city patrols the parkinglot heavily in undercover cars and with undercover cops. S o, anyplay was happening at the bookstore. I left the beach alittle late, and got to the bookstore just after 4 pm. I went on my phone and updated the BBRT connect now and to let guys know I was at the bookstore, in cammo shorts, and theirs to take and use until they got off- no questions asked-no one refused. I paid my $8 and went into the back. It takes me a few minutes to get my eyes adjusted, so I headed into the center hallway, and eased halfway down into the darker area to adjust. I felt hands on my tits, so I pulled my tank top over myhead for easier access. He chewed and tugged on them, then led me into a booth. I dropped my shorts ( once the button pops, the drop like a rock) and began suckin ghim as he worked my tits between his fingers. He shot quikly, and slightly salty batch of cum. He zipped up, and began to unlock the door, then paused since I was still naked. I told him it was OK, and he opened the door. A few guys had gathered outside the door- Iguess he made a little noise when he was cumming- I don't recall. The door swung back shut, but I didn't lock it. A few seconds later it opened, and a latin guy came in, fumbling to whip out his cock as he did. He locked the door, and went right to it getting my mouth on his cock. He must have been late for dinner, because he only held out a coupl e, maybe 3 minutes, before planting his seed against the back of my throat. He quickly tidied up and split. I looked out in the hallway- actuallyI stepped out- but no others were around, so I put my shorts and sandals back on and walked the halls. I made a connection with a guy, and we went to a booth. I was sucking him, and had a lot of saliva to spare, so I made an obvious point of putting a load of it on my fingers, and then lubing my ass with it ( it was lubed already- so the spit was more for show) He took the hint, and moved me around so he could reach my hole - and pushed in. A nice thick cock, like a can of Red Bull. He banged my head into the wall numerous times as he fucked me, and I did my best to stay bent over in a V shape with my legs splayed out far enough that my hole was his level--but iwas getting a cramp and he needed to cum quick.I began flexing my ass around his thrusts,and it worked- I got his load in my ass-- my urging him to be sure and plant his seed deep helped a lot too! He left, and I againput my shorts back on, and went outto see who else was there.An unsteady guy ( drunkish??) went into a booth with a gloryhole and a gap on the side for reaching around, so I went in the adjoining booth, stepped out of my shorts, and got on my knees. He saw me, and puthis cock- nice and thick- thru for servicing. I did, but he was too cocktailed to really get rock hard- he tried to fuck me when I turned around and put my ass to the hole, but ultimately I had to cut my losses with him and move on. I spotted a short latin leather daddy type- big black beard and stache, receeding hair, big arms and eraser nips as I came out of the booth. I played with one as I walked past, and he grabbed mine with one big paw and squeezed . I told him to use them as he wanted, and he pushed me back into the booth I had been in. He chewed on my tits and groped me, and I played with his and felt him up.He was big! I began fumbling withhis pants, and he took over and pulled out a thick,long tapered cock, uncut. I went down on it and willed as much saliva as i could to help get it into my throat. As it hardened, I heard the booth door open next door- maybe the drunk was leaving?? My hole was already oozing the earlier load, and big Daddy cock was going to be in it soon- he was already fingering it, tasted the cum on his finger, and pushed me down so he could eat my assout. Once he had all the cum he could reach, he stood up and pushed in the full 8 or 9 inches of his cock. From the booth next door, thru th ehole, I heard a guy encouraging him to tear that cunt up, fuck it hard, etc. He got off being watched, and moved us into a pose wherethe guy in the next booth could see everything going on. After 5 minutes of the anal assault, he pulled out and moved me to where my ass was against the hole, and I felt tongue and lips on my ass. I was given his fat cock to stuff my mouth with . The guy on my ass got done eating and began fingering my hole, then a cool liquid hit my hole, followed by his fist. Big cock in my mouth and now a fist about to enter my hole- I grabbed a bottle of poppers from the floor and tookan extra long hit, then pushed back on the wall as the cock in my mouth tried to get deeper into my throat. In no time at all, the fist was in, and the guy in my throat was in and out of my airway. My ass adjusted to the fist quickly, and the pig felt that, so he ramped up the action, sliding in easy and then balling up into a fist as he would pull back. Afew rip out exits and lots of talk between my two men, and the guy I was sucking pulled me off the wall and he backed up to it to take the guys cock. I repositioned to suck the guy in my booth, and ashe got fucked he got closer and closer. I knew he had to be close- he grabbed myheadoff his cock and pushed it between his legs so I was crushing his nuts, and I felt the cum begin- hitting my back, then my neck. I slipped back quickly enough to get some on my cheek and chin. He wiped off in my hair and left the room. I locked the door- the guy was still on the other side of the wall , so I repositioned my hole to where he could access it. He reached thru and pushed in- I braced myself against the other sid eof the booth, and he fisted and punch fucked my hole thru the glory hole. I was far enough off the wall that i could look between my legs and see the arm sliding back and forth thru the hole an dinto my hole- sort of surreal.He told me to back my ass to the wall - he wanted to fuck me, so I backed up and with one last closed fist he jerked out of my ass and slammed his cock back in. About 5 strokes later, he unloaded his nuts into my hole- then as he pulled his cock out, he jammed his fist back in quickly, saying he didn't wan this cum to go to waste, and wanted to make sure it was far enough up my ass to stay a while.I could feel the mix of J Lube and cum in my ass getting whipped into some froathy mess, but my hole was really responding and opening up for even more use. At last he slowed , and the with another clenched fist, he pulled out,leaving my ass lips hanging out. Then he told me we weren't done- he wanted to take my ass a lot more, and to give him my number. I did, of course, and he logged me into his phone. I hope playtime comes again soon,and often. Took a break after him, and when I came back to play /hunt some more, I had a short latin guy grab my tit and give me a big smile. Did I play with him befoe, was he very friendly, or was he here from my post on BBRT?? I wandered a littel, and the scene had tamed waayy down. Latin guy came by again, and this time I grabbed his tit, he took both of mine , and we ended up in a booth. He dropped onto my cock, working my tits- a surefire way to get me off way too quickly. I moved him around and went into his pants- hunting, hunting- then it dawned on me- this was the guy with a half a pinky sized cock ( when hard) who was a top fister. I grabbed some Boy Butter Extreme out of my shorts and put a large gob of it on my hole- more than enough to lube it and his hand too. He went in and fisted in the lube and used my hole for about 10 minutes, mostly punch fucking it. Then he tried to put his cock in my hole ,and for a few strokes tried to fuck. Then he went back to fisting me another 10, maybe 15 minutes. Then he tried fucking- I don't think he ever came tho. After he left the booth, I checked my phone and the fister from earlier had already texted me that he wanted more, soon. SWEET. Back in the booths, I got another load down my throat from a guy who was into tit play- promised me it was a 3 day load, but it was delivered far enough back I couldn't tell. By now the afternoon crowd was gone, the night crowd was about 3 hours away, and I was sated, so I left. What will I get into Friday???

Well, after my afternoon fun, I tried for more loads and came up empty. So Tuesday night I went out to a local bars underwear night in my rubber shorts - they have a reinforced hole over the asshole- so I can pass as being covered when in fact its full access to my chute. Pretty much old and tired there at 10 pm- they offer free food till 10 for happy hour- but as I was sipping my drink a tall slim guy came in and got a draft, and sat a seat away from me. As we got to know each other, he reached over and felt my shorts. Then he adjusted himself very openly. All I needed to know- we got into sex talk, and I discovered he was pretty much who would be doing me this night. Another beer for him, and then we wandered to the dark back area of the bar, where I went down to the base on him. We began to have a small circle of guys around us, and with me bent over blowing him, my hole was exposed and I felt a probing finger. I stood up and told him if he wanted to be the 1st in then we probably should move positions- he wanted it, and I slipped around and leaned over a counter. He moved in behind me and found the hole, pushing in . Suddenly we both had hands roaming on us, as he pumped and fucked my ass through the shorts. After he finished up, we both headed out for another drink, and I ended up giving him head one more time before leaving for the night. Got up on day 2, full of good intentions of getting laid all day, but only got fucked one time, by a guy who has been unloading in me for 2 years as of this week. So I guess he gave me a 2 yr anniversary "gift" yesterday With his juices in , I went to one of the local gay guest houses to hang out by the pool ( they advertise a sling in every room ) About 10 guys hanging out by the pool, but no action ever developed. Oh well, Thursday is dawning, and I am hopeful today will bring big loads in my ass- if not, I am definitely heading to a sex club tonight !

Well , lets see- got a late start today- I think I was trying to catch a cold all day yesterday, so last night I took a good swig of NyQuil and slept in late today. Finally got my as sin gear, went to S Bucks and had a coffee, talked with a bud there- but all those 30 yr guys in the tight pants and t shirts turned my "whore" mones on to the point of distraction-- excused myself and came home and got right online. If you have never been to Ft Laud, it is a great, huge gay area. And mostly bottom! Checked Asspig, BBRT, Adam-- nothing. Began doing some online crap, when the pig on BBRT began oinking- a FB was wondering if I was a cum shot low!! Sweet! I had worked the hose up when I got home from coffe- so I was def ready. A couple of rounds of email, and it was agreed he would be over shortly- 10 min or so. Now, I have never SEEN this guy- his profile on BBRT has his torso/cock shot. And when he arrives, I have the side door from my bedroom to the drive unlocked, and I am lubed and blindfolded. He comes in, fucks in a load, and splits. About 20 minutes later, I could hear the pig oinking again- he had been delayed- would e mail me when he was free. Well- at this point I was in need of cock, so I wasn't turning him away. He got back to me about 30 min later, and said he was ready if I was. I was, and he arrived about 15 minutes later- me bent over the bed ready for him. I heard the door open, and then a dildo entered my ass- I had several laid out - soon replaced by his cock. He entered easily, and gave me a fairly good fucking- but he wasn't in his usual cum and go mode. Just about then there was a knock on the side door ( crap! Was the old lady next door snooping??) I (still blindfolded) said for him to ignore and just lock the door so she couldn't walk in- but I heard him say hi, and the door opened . He was back to shoving the dildo in my ass, and I could hear someone else getting undressed in the room. He pulled out the dildo, and a thicker cock took my ass- I knew then he had invited someone else over to use his anon cum hole. I rocked on the new cock, letting him feel the back of my ass wall and squirming so he could scrape the sides. He pulled out, and the other guy re entered me, and began pounding in fast- I knew this was too much for him and a load was coming-- and he shot in less than a minute. As he pulled out, his friend slipped in, and began creaming the load already in my ass. His thrusts were deep and hard- then he slowed and I felt additional pressure on my ass- the other guy had picked up a dildo and was pushing it in alongside his buddies cock- not sure if one or the other got uncomfortable, but the dildo soon pulled out and the man in my ass pumped a few more times, then unloaded into my ass. As he withdrew one of them pushed the dildo back in ,and I heard the door open and close. I could still hear one man in the room as he dressed, then the door opened, closed and all was quiet. I stayed bent over the bed for another minute as the cum slipped higher up into my gut- then got up and got back online- sending a fast thank you note to the FB, and then back on the hunt for frsh loads

Damn- 125 guys have read this so far and not a single cum drop from anyone :-(

On vacation from Tues 9 Nov thru Wed the 17th, not going anywhere- why bother when you already live in a gay mecca? Just looking for versitile to all top guys who want to play and use my holes- not esp looking for my release, just yours. I plan to do a very deep clean out Monday night, and then have my ass in ready form for any action the rest of the week, so if you are horney, hit me up. Would be great to get a few loads pumped in my ass early in the morning, then head to Haulover with them intact- then over to Prime Time Video after the beach and get whored out by some agrressive top man. If you know you want my ass at a certain day and time, let me know and I will make sure to be open for you. Never done it, but I am curious about getting a chem piss enema straight from the source, and see what my ass craves afterwards

If you guys are close in all other things other than sex, you need to sit down and talk HONESTLY with him. Let him know what you want/ need. And if he isn't willing to be the source for it, then you need to find out where he is at with you getting your needs met from guys outside the relationship. If the relationshiip is important to him, he will either give you the sex outlets himself or from others with his blessing. If the relationship has other major cracks, you are about to discover them in a damn fast rush. I don't think I would divulge your past tricking out, but explain your wishes. 5 years is about when the excitement of sex in a partnership gets rusty, and you need to understand it isn't any one mans "fault"- just happens. I had a 19 yr partnership, and about 12 years of it were sexually dead- but everything else was so great we both hung on. What killed our partnership was when he had a yearlong affair with a guy 5 states away - had he told me of it from the front end I might have dealt with it, but getting blindsided really puts you in a defensive position. And we had an open relationship for the last 10 years so we both knew the other was getting sex, but it was an understanding that it was to be casual and recreational- not emotional. So - get your partner, have a hard , honest talk- and clear/refresh the air with him. He may be just as hungry as you are, and just as frustrated at how to get his sex menu met- maybe even embarrassed at some of what he wants and feels too shy to express them to you. Both of you have to agree to be non judgemental in the talking process

There is a site running now that might help you guys flesh out the mechanics of this. It is www.OralServiceM4M.com , and the concept is bottoms ready to orally service a top on a no recip basis. It has been around a couple of years, and I have used it ( as the service provider , of course) with some success. The biggest problem is when I am available and ready, all too often no other guys locally are online, or they are all bottoms too. But, if you are all into the idea of on call cum holes, the site administrator might be able to coach and lead you along the route to how he got things up and running

I've been poz since at LEAST 1987- an affair with a banana put me into anaphalactic shock and the ER- after they got me sort of stable and not on the verge of crashing ( my BP was 70/40 in the ambulance) the ER doc ordered a bunch of tests- including the then standard HIV test. Later that nighthe cancelled the order, but the nurse didn't get the message and at 5 am was in pulling blood for it. A week later the doc called me at home and flat line announced I had AIDS and should make an appointment with his office for a Western Blot test to be sure. I went, I was positive- and I never went back to the asshole again. My partner stuck with me, but our sex life died quickly afterwards. The relationship hung on, but it too ended about 10 years later. So , for more than 10 years I have been single, and get laid somewhat often- but it is always anon or nothing more than an occasional fuck buddy type of thing. When my lover and I parted, I moved to a new city, and since moving in myhouse 10 years ago, I have had a total of 3 men sleep over-none none more than 2 or 3 times-- many more have dropped by for a no commitment fuck- they either have partners or are just playing the field for a fresh hole. Is it the HIV that makes dating so hard, being over 50, or the prevalence of quick connect ads on hundreds of web sites that make sex so easy and spurn getting to really know someone before hopping through the Crisco can?? Health wise- as much wild and kink as I do- I am undetectable, never have experienced any of the opportunistic infections, and generally have not shown any outward signs of having HIV- I can pin aging to more of the changes in my physique rather than the virus. I DO see my doc regularly ( every 4 months for labs) and whenever I get a cold lasting more than 3 days. I eat well, balanced meals, and I don't smoke or PNP. Meds are a daily event- and I make sure NEVER to miss them- when switching docs a few years ago, my current doc took me off what I was on so I could get a viral load to detect my resistance--it came up quickly, and I saw just how important it is to be faithful to the medical regimen