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Back to the question at hand; how do you feel, is there a disconnect. Hell yes there is a disconnect. Unless you are deep into a circle of guys who play all the time, you tend to hunt around the edges looking for others not in the " pack" . For me, single now 12 years and 55 -well, almost 56- working fulltime and not really a bar goer, that limits the choices. Gay men in this beach city are in love with the tourist- strange fresh meat with no intentions of getting serious or even remembering each others names after 5 or six days of hedonism. I can get laid at the sex club- often by an older, also alone man who is just looking for an outlet. Or by a tourist, looking for sex he doesn't get at home from his boyfriend or wife. As far as me- I have been poz (known by testing) since 1987, although my pozzing happened in 84 I am fairly certain. Whenever I get a flu or cold, I head in to the doctors- not that he can do much for a cold, but to assure myself that it doesn't progress. This week my throat got sore and my sinuses got infected from allergies. Once upon a time I probably would have weathered it out- now, I do the Dr and make sure it doesn't open the doorway for something else to get established and weaken my immune system. A mild infection was detected, antibiotic ordered, and I was on my way-- but the shadow of the HIV hangs overhead with each bruise, cough or lazy do nothing day. Oh yeah- another thing- if you are neg today, and want to make some investments in life insurance for the long term, do it now before you convert. Once you get sick and tested poz, you can forget about any insurance policies, or in many cases of ever leaving the job you are in today. After all, if you quit, what will you do for health insurance? And a new employer, as a part of the hiring screening, can filter you out in the physical part of the hiring process. I would love to retire at 55, but cannot- I need the insurance to cover my ass for the meds ( they still cost me $200 for a 3 month supply- without insurance, it would be almost $2300) Do I regret being poz? Sure. But, I AM poz, so it is what it is-- I have come to realize I don't always see the purpose of something at the time I am living it- but I always see how things in the past fit together to bring clarity to my lifes path and where I am at the moment. Maybe being poz has been a blessing I have not come to wrap my head totally around- yet.

Hey- I was in London in Oct and came home 7 days later with just 2 loads- both from a Fri afternoon at the Vault 139 bar. The naked night Thurs was busy, but the term wanker really lives at most events with nudity in London for some reason- guys standing and jerking, but scurrying away if anyone tries to touch them. That said, the Vauxhall area was festive, although not cum worthy. Hoist for Fist Friday and SBN (stark bollock naked) on Sunday- not crowded, not active. Maybe it wa s that time of the month- but slim to no action.

Hey Tampa- glad you loved our best little whorehouse in FLL. Now, there is an unspoken house rule that you appear to have broken, and need to resolve quickly. All out of towners who have more than 5 loads in their hole must return those loads to a starving local bottom before leaving the club, or face a month of no sex in their own hometowns once they get home. Since you left my city with all those loads ( which I really should have been getting ) you must return immediately and deliver your hole full of Tampa cum , or face a month of sexlessness ! You have been served, and have 1 week to comply <g>

Damn - I read the 1st three parts in one sitting and blew 2 loads (into the dish of ice cream I was eating- nice topping, BTW) For me as a total no recip bottom, that was very rare- last time I had cum was over 40 days earlier.Then part 4 hit, and I was rock hard and shooting before I was 1/3 of the way thru. 3 loads in less than a week- ehad! Whats next? Am I going to turn vers? Or move to DC and search for a new GP? Thanks for writing this- really has me boned up for weird reasons

Ft Lauderdale here too- lots of guys, but like the other local pointed out- difficult here to make long connected friendships-. It seems after 10 yrs here, I know guys, but it isn't really connection type of friends. The men tend to be hunting the weekly tourist in town for hedonism, and once they have had some strange or new meat for a day or two, they drop and hunt the fresher tourist that just stepped off the plane. And all the guys who are partnered, but play on the side , is just numbing. I am at a point where I could leave, but really Ft Lauderdale is paradise in so many ways. Very gay, nice and warm with lots of beach, watersports and nature ( the Everglades are an amazing place to explore) But still, I have been wondering if there is a better place too....

Just finished having every toy in the line up shoved up my ass- except for the small ones ( why waste time) by my ass trainer, once he felt my hole was wrecked out, he began fisting and punch fucking my hole. Always puts a rubber on after he works me out, and fucks my ass-- I get to pinch the rubber off his cock as he pulls out, so I can keep it and his cum inside me. Sitting here ass throbbing, hunting for more cock or play, the rubber somewhere up in my hole swimming with the J lube- we went thru 16 oz of it today

If I am on my days off, well hosed out and got a few good fucks in already, I love it when a guy puts every ounce of his body into trying to fly up my ass. Had a guy power pound me a coupl eof weeks ago at Slammer ( sex club) and I couldn't get enough- pretty sure his pubic bone was bruised the next morning. One ting I do do tho- I pop a half a vicodin b4 doing the sex club- not so much for the fisting or fucking, but it helps me take the biggest cock as deep down my throat as they can go with little to no gagging from me. The expression on the tops face as his cock is finding new ground it normally cannot get to is priceless

Trying to find a regular ring of men who want/ need a morning BJ - 8a till noon availability. Also could be avail after 11p for a pre bed BJ. Totally no strings- I am there for your hard cock and the cum boiling in your nuts. You only need to relax and let it fly. On my days off from work; generally Thurs and Fri- I am always hosed out and looking for a lot more hole play-- but for quick use, BJ work best. This is for real- try my throat out and if you like it you can be in it daily if you need to

I was in London in Oct- my 1st visit. Found the term wankers really was birthed in London- no matter the venue, most guys were standing off and jerking; afraid to have anyone touch them. I got 2 loads the whole week- and it was at Vault 139 on Friday afternoon ( a break from tourist 101) Vault had naked on Thur night- 150 guys bare assed- and only a couple were actually hooking up- with about 20 others crowding around them like cavemen discovering fire for the 1st time. I did Hoist for fist Friday, 20 guys at best.The HardOn party Sat was packed- the 3 slings held 3 sling lizards- and after 5 hrs they climbed out asses dry and bored- the floor was covered in rubbers- all unrolled, but since I was frustrated I began picking them up and checking- and I never found cum in any of them !! Good luck- I hope you hit it on a very cum filled and productive week

Sove- don't let the doom sayers ruin your hopes. I am 110% bottom, NOT a 30 yr old contortionist, and you know what? With a good attitude, a smile and saying Hello once in a while, I have ALWAYS had great times at Inn Leather and Slammer. Of course, there are some guys lost in space- either drugs or booze or , in the Inn Leather scene- sitting poolside on their smart phone looking for guys online- as a parade of willing men sit 4 feet away. Come on down and join the DNA pool- there will be men who will look twice, and some you will want to overlook! BTW- as for Slammer- if you will be here more than a day or two, get the 3 mo membership- with it you can bring in your own liquor <or beer or wine> and the overall cost will be a savings if you think you will be back more than once over a 3 month period. Feel free to pvt me if you want to know any more-- and come on down !! ( just don't crowd me off that big cock I am working on)

Back to the meat of this post. Thank you topman for the thank you. As a bottom who is very obsessed with presenting a clean hole for the top, it is nice to know at least some guys take the time to appreciate the effort some of us bottoms put forth. So how soon do I need to have the playground ready for you to do some seed planting

I had a 19 year, pretty vanilla and tame relationship. And it was what I thought I wanted- just like Ozzie and Harriett, complete even with the dog. Then we grew in different directions and I went poz ; he stayed neg. He got terminal spinal cancer, and I stood by him. But the impending end sent him hunting strange ( which I supported) but also had him nesting with one guy, which eventually killed our relationship before the cancer killed him. Been single, not dating for 11 years now- I hit the sex club or the bookstore or hunt online on my days off . I'd love to hook up with a guy for the long haul again, but this time it would have to be based on kink and caring, cruising and cocks. Since being single I have gotten VERY good at taking a fist or an 11 inch cock, but there is still something nice about being able to recall details of a place or a trip or a gangbang with someone else who was sharing that with you years from now. Even tho my ex has been gone 5 years , I still catch myself wishing I could give him a call to ask about something we did or saw many years ago.

I have a fist fuck player who will drop by every other week and fist my hole- but he always uses gloves ( and all of my toys) When he has my hole gasping , and gaping, and only then, he puts a rubber on and fucks my slop hole while sucking on my toes until he cums. I have gotten him used to the fact as he nuts, I will be milking more of his seed into the rubber, and as he begins to pull out, my fingers ring the cock behind the rubber and guide it off, and back into my hole as his cock head pops out- I get his raw load- and a rubber to fish or fart out of my ass later

I hit the sex club here in Ft Lauderdale on my 1st night off from work each week- this past few months it has been Thursday- which is also leather night at the club, so I get in a few bucks cheaper too ! Last week, I went and had high hopes- the internet had been quiet all day long, so I hoped for some cum from the guys there instead. A fuck bud spotted me and took me into a private room shortly after I had gotten there- still had a full cocktail in my hand. I sucked him up, and he proceeded to fuck my ass for about 5 minutes. I could sense he was building up steam- but then he pulled out, and said he didn't want to cum yet- but his cum was mine later. Oh well, a fuck is a fuck I guess. I wandered around, played on te BJ wall a bit, then had a guy finger my ass in the darkroom, but no serious intentions there. Finally the FB came back around, and either he was very tired or had slammed a couple of cocktails down, but as much as I tried to get him hard, his cock was just not responding. After some very frustrating tries, we parted and went wandering. I was about over the place- the BJ platform had guys buddied up fucking on it- sort of loses the whole purpose of a BJ zone. As I stood and committed to leaving, a tall, lean guy cruised me- not at all subtle. (Good thing- I usually miss the subtle signs) I followed him into a private room, and went down on a very tasty uncut cock that grew into a nice 7 or 8 inch slab of meat. I got up from my knees, and made my ass reachable as I went back to sucking him. Lubed, he fingered 3 fingers in quickly. I handed him the bottle of J Lube, and he set it down and stripped off his pants, pulling the belt free from them, out of his shoes and socks, and then sat down and pulled me headfirst onto his cock. As I sucked him, he began flogging my back with the belt. Hard again, he had me stand facing the wall as he slapped my ass with the belt, then he slid his cock into my ass and fucked me for a a bit, when he pulled out, he picked up the lube and gobbed my ass with it, and quickly reinserted his fist into my ass. For the next 20 minutes, he fisted and flogged me. I could hear the guys in the hall pressing against the door , trying to see in, but really lost all track of them. At about 20 minutes into the fist fuck, he pulled out with a slurp, and sat back down on the bench. He motioned me to come over to him, and pushed his foot up towards my face. Reeking of foot funk and the stink of the floor, he worked the big toe into my mouth, and I opened wider and ended up with 3 toes in my mouth, slobbering all over them. The other foot was busy playing with my balls- not really kicking them, but definitely moving them around. Every so often, the foot knocking my balls would slip lower and he would poke a toe into my hole. Next thing I knew, he had pulled me up to a standing position facing him, and had me straddling his foot, and in a few quick pokes he went in to the arch. Once he had me opened to his foot, he started short punts in and out of my ass with the foot, and as each punt was entering, I began bucking down, trying to get him in deeper. About 10 minutes of this, and my hole was beginning to get a cramping feeling. He pulled out, and had me suck his toes again as he jacked. I began jacking, and as I got close, I came off the toes and shot my cum onto them, massaging the cum between the toes. This set him over the edge, and I was rewarded with a cum shower- in my hair, in my ear, and all over my cheek and mustache. We cooled down- he; rubbing his cum deeper into my hair and pulling me closer to him , and I, massaging his feet. We had a brief conversation- turned out he was from Spain, spoke very little English, and my Spanish was about as weak- and so we dressed, and headed back out into the men of the hallway. I split shortly after- he told me his phone number, but by the time I got home, I couldn't recall even one part of it. Just hope he comes back for more, one of these Thursdays

Total bottom, no recip man here looking to get your cum. Can be avail for breeding almost every morning from 8a till noon, or all day Thurs and Friday. I don't do drugs , don't need poppers either- just looking for your hard cock, maybe a small to medium fist up my hole too. If you like what I deliver, it could morph into a regular set scheduled event for your pleasure. Do you like public? Lets all meet at Slammer on a Thurs or Fri night and put on a full 4 act show for the twinks to gasp over-- or maybe hit Inn Leather for some sling time during the day

Hey guys- been silent for a few months- my Mom had a massive stroke and after 9 days in hospice passed on Christmas Eve, and with the holidays and having to transport her to upstate NY from Florida, the funeral wasn't until the end of the week. Not here on a pity pulpit- I had a great last 9 years with her and she, and I , were ready for her passing. So, here is the real crux of the post. I drove back home the nigth she died, and spent Christmas Day making phone calls to family and getting the plans all set. On the evening of the 25th, I was online and a traveling man hit me up, wanting to fuck me in his hotel the next day when he arrived. I was in need of sex, and a change from the previous month of hospitals and sitting. When the next afternoon arrived, he was on the phone with me at 3 pm, like he said, but was stalling- wanted to know if I would get fucked by other guys first, since he wanted a cummy hole. Hell yes! I had been trying all morning, but the day after Christmas in Ft Lauderdale is not, apparently, the time to get topped ! He was online on BBRT trying to get tops lined up- I could tell because my profile suddenly started having guys checking me out. At 6 pm, he texted me and said I should come to his room- about 5 minutes from my house- and I was there in a flash, with toys as he had asked. He showed me to the bedroom(he was in a suite room) and I was bare assed quickly- on the bed and he was working an assortment of dildos into my ass to have it loose and sloppy for the guy he had coming over. He had the largest one in me by the time the guy showed up- the man had gotten lost 2 times and had called for directions- he pulled the big dildo out, and pushed in a smaller one and had me hold it in, while he went out and met the guy. He sucked the guy up, and a few minutes later I heard the room door open and the 2 of them came in, and the dildo was pulled out, replaced by the new mans cock. He fucked me for about 10 minutes before cumming, as he pulled out the dildo was pushed back in, and the 2 guys left the room, closing the door behind them. I heard the room door close a few minutes later, and the original man returned, took ou this cock, and had me suck it up to full hardness. Not huge, but it was a cock. Once he was hard, he took my ass and fucked in his load, shooting pretty fast. I reinserted the dildo, and swung around and sucked his cock clean of his, and the other mans cum. No other guys had replied to his offers, so I got dressed, shoving my bandana into my ass to keep the jizz from running down my legs as I went thru the lobby, and held it in place with the leg straps of my jock. Def was a good stress breaker, and made the rest of the weeks drama a tad bit easier to deal with. Back home after the funeral, I sort of hibernated for a couple of weeks,- well, actually, I did hit the sex club for New Years Eve, and stayed for about 7 hours, but only got a few cock to suck, and fucked twice. Not even a fist tho. Then I did sit idle for another week and a half. I ventured back out to the sex club last Friday after posting a quick connect ad on BBRT, and after a cocktail i was ready for action. The first few walk arounds were tame- I managed to get a latino to feed me his cock on the BJ platform- a true knob cock- the head was the size of a golf ball, with a thinner shaft behind. He pounded my throat for about 5 minutes, then quickly pulled out and tucked away- pretty sure if I had locked my jaws on it for another 20 seconds he would not have been able to avoid cumming, but he was a player and was just there to tease some throats. Into the darkroom, I found the bench covered with 3 men, bent over and hopeful. Working thru the room, a hand grabbed my ass and slid a finger into my hole, then pushing me around, he got his cock lined up and sank in. He fucke dme and kept pushing me closer and closer towards the fuck bench, and the guy bent over moved out of the way, allowing the guy to push me onto the bench and really go to town on my ass. With an increase in grunting, I knew he was close and urged him to mark that hole with his DNA. I had several other hands on me pinching tit and grabbing for my cock, and I was soon rewarded with a big cum load from the anon guy fucking me. As he pulled out, he quickly exited the room- I left my ass up , and it was refilled by another cock- not as long, but just as hard. He went right at pounding, obviously wanting to cum and head home.( A lot of guys will hold off all night long, then when their liquor is gone or their bedtime is nearing, will fuck the 1st thing they see-- even if they had avoided that person all night long) I was luck enough to be in the right place at the right time, and got my 2nd load in quickly. By then, the place was getting crowded, but too many lookers and the energy shifted from sex and play to stand and watch. I split after about another 60 minutes of futile hunting. SO- heres the real deal. I am off every THURSDAY and FRIDAY thru Jan and Feb (2012) and will be very much looking for top guys in need of a hole to breed, or to use and then invite others to use. In Ft Lauderdale, but Miami or the general vicinity works for me too. If you want to breed, let me know. Can meet you out at the Sex Club on Sunrise Blvd, or your place or mine

Been poz since 1987, and am undetectable thanks to 2 drugs I take once a day. I am a blue collar laborer and have no health issues, and get fucked whenever I can find a top.However- maybe everywhere but especially here in Ft Lauderdale- I can be online all day long on BBRT, Asspig and A4A. All my profiles are honest, and I mark poz in each of them. I don't know if it is my age (55), my status of poz, or the fact I am a bottom, but I can go days without a hit from the hook up sites. And some of the hits I do get are from guys on the fringe- the morbidly obese, or the ones who want me blindfolded and waiting- never sure if it is so I cannot see them or so they don't have to see me. Oh, and the meds have me totally undetectable- last test was less than 20 copies of the virus ; which ranks as undetectable. But the meds also have, over the years , fucked with my GI tract and I have some days I eat Rx strength Immodium 3 or 4 times during the day to control the water shits, and any play is out of the question for 3 or 4 days afterwards until things recenter and calm back down.

I was 15- the old postmaster was a geeze and hit on me every time I went in ( our store was across the street, and after enough goading about wanting to see my salami, I gave in and went to his house)- he never got hard, showed me some old super 8 porn, and fucked my ass with a cigar tube as he jerked his limp cock till he dribbled. He took a shot of brandy, and I took off. But I had been awakened to M4M action, and a few months later the Puerto Rican kid up the hill from me got my hole for the first real hard cock in it- and planted many loads over the next 3 years ( I look back and am so amazed at how naive I was - I worried about getting knocked up in the real sense the first few times I had cum in me from him) <g>

Some of you may have seen a post in the forum I put up in frustration about guys not playing at sex clubs and dark rooms- always standing and stroking but never actually getting it on with anyone, in spite of many available men standing in arms reach. Well, I went back to the local sex club here in Ft Lauderdale last week on a Thursday- the "leather night" >My 3 month membership had expired, and my bottle of rum was almost expired, so I bought a new bottle and renewed my membership. Inside, I killed the dregs of the old bottle and set out to see who was playing- the parking lot had been full, so I had high hopes. Well, there were no men in the dark room, the BJ ramps were bare, and not a single sling in use. I did see a few guys roaming endlessly, but no action. After a few hours, I did manage to get a guy to feed me a load in my throat- but I think it was a case of him not able to stop the orgasm before he could hustle off to cool down. I went home frustrated, my ass not even slightly violated. I had Saturday off ,a rare treat. So after a non event afternoon at the local leather inn, hanging naked by the pool and not as much as one hard cock in either end, I decided to hit the sex club and see how Saturdays played out. I arrived, getting the last parking spot in the main parking lot, and discovered the bottle of J Lube mix I had put in my pocket had leaked half the contents out into my pocket and down the side of the car seat. Fuck! Sure hope that wasn't an indication of the night ahead. Got inside, and there were a good mix of guys, some dressed, some naked, some somewhere in between. My cocktail served, I was ready to play. Stripping to just my leather jock, I began the hunt. Sucked a few cock on the BJ platform for a while as a warm up- none would cum that early, but indeed were nice and hard. I headed into the dark room, and there were 2 men bent over waiting, so I moved on and checked out the bigger play areas- also men around, and some were playing. WOW- what a nice change!! I headed backto the dark room, and put a small dose of J Lube on my ass as I entered. Working thru the room, I got to a squeeze point where I couldn't get any further due to a guy fucking one of the bent over guys. Standing there, I felt a grope on my ass, then a finger. I pushed back onto the finger, and it was replaced by 3. I shifted a bit so I could take advantage of a small open spot on the fuck table, and pulled the J Lube out and put a big shot of it on my ass and the mans hand behind me. With that as incentive, he rubbed his whole hand up and down my crack, spreading lube on it and coating his hand. Then the entry began, and he had his fist in my hole quickly. The fucking next to me ended and the fisting to my hole took on a new intensity, as he punched in and out of my hole. I had a cock presented to my face, which I immediately sucked in and serviced. The fisting was really getting my hole open, and the slurping sound had a small audience gathering. My fist top began using an alternating fisting, first the right fist, then as it pulled out the left punched back in- the left was a slight bit larger. We played for another 5 or 10 minutes, until his arms got tired and needed a break. So we headed out together, and into a smaller room, where he face fucked a load into my mouth. I had lube dripping with each step, so I hit the bathroom and gave the legs and ass cheeks a fast wipe to mop some of the glop up. I wandered, had another cocktail, and sucked a few more guys on the BJ platform. As I went back into the patio area, one of the guys from the bar - latino with a shaved head- brushed by, and I gave him a feel. I stood inside a small room equipped with a OB Gyn type chair, and he came in. He quickly pushed me onto his cock, and as I went down on him, he began playing with my ass. I had very little time on his cock , as he pulled and pushed me back into the chair, and with a quick squirt of lube went into my ass full fist, pushing in deeper than I have taken in a long while. He really seemed a bit out of it, but was very much into it- and was pushing me down with one arm as he tried to get deeper and deeper with the other. In spite of all his pushing and effort, he couldn't break down the 2nd sphincter, and soon headed out of the room. I got up, and back in the patio ran into the 1st fister- telling him what had just gone down. He felt my ass, then he pushed his fist up int me as I stood there. I edged towards the round padded center unit, and knelt on it as he punched my ass into a bigger bloom. Someone fed me a cock from the side, and I sucked on it as my ass opened wider and wider. He pulled out and fucked my very loose ass a few minutes, maybe cumming. As he pulled out, another guy took my hole and fucked, then would stop and hold still for a minute- I assume he was trying to piss feed me- then would fuck more, then hold still and more piss. With all the J Lube and the addition of piss, my ass was very slick now. A big bull pushed his paw in- def a large to ex large fist- and it was a struggle, so I suggested we do a sling. Off to the lockable room , and into the sling. He fisted and raped out my hole for about 20 minutes, but by that point I was beginning to cramp up and was ready for a break. The rest of the evening was short lived, and I was sated, leaving about 30 minutes later -- but not before being there for almost 7 hours !

If he was a new fuck and we entered the relationship with fisting and other kink sex from the git go, then yes. But I had a pretty tame and vanilla lover for 19 years, and I found it much harder to embrace or introduce any fringe sex action with him-- from 3 ways on up to water sports-- and it all went back to what the base/ foundation had been built on- we were both in our early/mid twenties when we first met, and our sex was the basic sucking and fucking. I have been single for 11 years, made quite a few kink friends, and could be a fistee for any of them in a relationship, mostly because of the first encounters with them being more hard core.

I'll take a slightly overweight guy nude sitting on my sofa who can carry on a decent conversation anyday over some super muscled gym boy who is worried that there is a small red spot on his ripped abs that might form a pimple and mar his perfection . I am sure all he has on his mind at any given moment is himself- and frankly, after about 90 seconds of that- I would want to put lots of clothing back on him- specifically, pack his yap with his socks and underwear to shut him the fuck up

At least once a day- I load airplanes for a living, and 1) the people on my team don't want funk next to them, nor should I impose it on them. 2) I think a top deserves a nice, freshly washed piece of ass,unless it is a planned setting for raunchiness, like a gang bang- I would NEVER give my hole up if I thought it was going to be shitty . Def of the school that cleanliness is the rule for a bottom- and stinking the house up with homeless funk is not a part of that book

What really kills me are the guys on their smart phones on Grindr or some other hook up site -- while they are in the bar and standing close to probably 20 other guys who are all interested in hooking up- but also cruising the GPS enabled hook up sites-- so they can tell what the guy 12 feet away is into before risking a conversation with them !!

Hey guys- I have noticed more and more sex venues, sex clubs or bars with dark rooms or whatever, are gettting weirder and weirder. I was in London last month for a week, and hit four or five clubs and a sauna. One bar featured a couple of naked nights: lots of guys walking around totally naked, most fondling themselves. It had a dark back hallway and several large contact area rooms, but as a rule there was almost no interaction happening. And should two guys get together and begin to play, suddenly there were 20 others ganged around the two, but the onlookers were just that - standing and staring, mindlessly jacking (wanking, since it was London). No one was interacting with the hot man next to them, and heaven forbid someone might reach over to feel someone's tit or balls: the guy would find his hand pushed away and the other guy would scurry away, apparently afraid someone else might make physical contact with him. A couple of nights later I went to a party called HardOn. There were 300 very hot men and a clothing check was available so there were plenty of naked men. There were three slings, yet by and large there was no real orgiastic fucking/sucking/playing going on. I stayed late, and only got fucked twice- no cum from it, but it was a lot more than a lot of the others ended up with. And-- same attitude. Guys were wall to wall in the play area, but they were all so isolating- not wanting to accept a rub or a casual feel. ( And it wasn't because it was me- I got to the the point I just stood back and began observing the action not going on- it was across the board rejections of any man touching any other man) There were huge bowls of rubbers in the play area, along with lube. At 3 am the floor was littered with lube pack and rubbers- and in my frustration I began lifting the spent rubbers to see if there were any signs of guys actually "enjoying" themselves. I probably picked up 40 rubbers from around the area, not a single load in any of them ! Back home in Ft Lauderdale, the same thing has been going on for a few months. My favorite sex club has a full parking lot, yet the slings are empty, the dark room has 3 bottoms bent over waiting, waiting. Guys are roaming endlessly, they wander into the darkroom and immediately rush out when somene tries to grope or make any contact withthem ( what were they expecting in a dark room with bottoms bent over asses open and willing?) I asked around- and the same reading has been felt by other guys - the energy is just very off , weird. The men who work the sex club have made the same observation too- lots of men, but none want to make the one on one connection. So, my question is this- have the guys gotten so wrapped up in the internet and cruising porn sites and hook up sites with profile after profile, but no real interpersonal connections, that when they are faced with living, breathing real time sex, they don't know how to enjoy it? Is the next generation of men so used to jerking off while IM'ing someone, or while watching someone on X Tube taking an elephant trunk dildo up their ass, that they don't know how to get hard with anyone elses hand, skin against them ? Or is this the outflow effect of all the safe sex messages over the last 20 years- don't touch, don't do it, don't take risks..... Fuck! I was at a gay resort here last May for a BBRT party/CumUnion gathering. Hot men naked everywhere, when 2 guys retreated to their guest room, but left the curtains on the doors open. Again; 10 others quickly mobbed in front of the door and stood there staring/watching/ jerking. And even though there were sexy, attractive bodies 5 inches away they could have been doing the very same thing they were watching with- no a single guy made a connection. I sure hope the tourist season gets here soon, and that they bring a more connected sexual energy with them.

I grew up in a small town upstate NY in the 60's and mid 70's and never saw any of my family naked. But my nudity experience kicked in just after high school when I discovered the mountaintop stream above New Paltz where the college aged and left over hippies used to hike the stream and lay out naked. Even the state park ranger was just a pair of shorts, collecting the 25 cent land use fee when it was convenient, smoking weed with the hippies most of the rest of the time. Once I saw how cool it all was, I made that my daily hang out in the summers. Since then, I try to stay as naked as I can whenever I can. Just have to remember to keep the garage door closed- the other day a bud came by and gave me a good fucking- I had the garage door up and the car pulled in, which I normally don't do- he wanted to see the yard and I took him out using the door in the kitchen that opens to the garage. I was about 5 steps out towards my side yard when I realized the garage door was up, and so a full view of us from the street- we had a good laugh on that one- and continued on to wander the yard and look at the vegetable gardens and how they were progressing