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GimmeMore: This happens to me all the time. I do not mind a sub panty bitch boy that wants to be a private dancer/cum dump. But I am not turned on by a true self identified tranny. I do not want to see a woman's breast coupled with a dick. Or in the case of a local tranny who is in various stages of transition with breasts, a cock and a vagina... I just do not want to deal with it. Also, and I maybe generalizing here but the trannies in my area seem to have a lot of unresolved psychological issues. I have one friend who loves everything about being with a tranny however he is often telling me stories of encounters gone horribly wrong. Much more so than a regular gay or bi hookup.

Hi All, Update... I went on Tuesday, May 6th to my initial PrEP study meeting. They took plenty of blood. Tested me right there on premise with a rapid test. They then informed me that they would do a VL test and as soon as that came back neg. I would be prescribed the Truvada. For the last few weeks, I have not been having raw sex. It's been rough but everything has been safe. I wanted to insure that my entrance into the study was successful and that I was in fact neg. since PrEP is only for those who are neg. The PhD/PA who drew my blood did state that it has happened where the participant was neg. via the rapid test but the VL test proved wrong. I can't wait to explore my sexuality more. I have never knowingly been seeded. I have been stealthed twice and only recently did I start seeding undetectable bottoms. I was always the top who fucked raw but never seeded. I pulled out. I was that guy. Ugh. I cringe now when I think about it. But until now, after 10+ years of barebacking on and off... I am now so much more open to things. I have fantasies of going to the bath house and being ass up taking every load possible. I have thoughts of being a load whore at a bookstore. The list goes on and on.

I have this issue somewhat often. I have been tested numerous times and nothing found. No STI's, no UTI's. I have come to the conclusion that I just have a sensitive cock. Really sensitive. I have found that after I top, whether I seed or not, I get extremely sensitive and irritated. No discharges and no unusual color changes or skin rashes. I have told this to my good friend who's a MD and PHD in infectious diseases. He can't figure it out.

Rawfuckr: I am like you in that I have been really slutty and have taken plenty of bareback cock. I especially have a thing for riding big black raw cock. I have been stealthed twice and get tested every three months. I also serosorted but have also had the multiple anxiety attacks with the all to common scare but as a result have NOT stopped. I have all of the issues one would expect regarding BB'ing. I have severe condom fatigue and in all of my long term relationships, they have all been bare. Now in my 40's, I instantly go soft at the thought of a rubber. I can't see myself ever having sex with condoms again. I can't wait to have the peace of mind.

Thanks to an earlier post with a listing of PrEP Clinical Trials in Los Angeles. After weeks of debating, I called today and am now enrolled in the PrEP clinical trials at UCLA. My blood work will be on May 6th and follow up is within a week. I'm excited but worried it may unleash a piggishness that I have repressed. I have always fantasized about being a cum dump in a motel or taking loads again at a bookstore or going to a spa or bath house. Recently, I replied to a cum dump ad from a twink who was taking loads. He was on PrEP. As I left and he remained blindfolded, I asked if it worked. He said 100% and has been on it for a while now. I know many of you are on PrEP. Has your piggishness increased? Or did it stay the same?

Travogay: Welcome! You'll grow to really love this site. Even though we are all virtual, I feel close to everyone here. Rawtop does a great job. You'll find the site to be a mix. I find the medical side of the site phenomenal. Take advantage of everyone's knowledge and experience. Don't discount anyone. There's so many with practical advice. By the way, my last load given (last night) was to my bottom in a chair. He's hot as fuck and knows how to treat his top. Three loads gobbled up by a willing ass. Great stuff. Welcome!

Great thread! This is very informative. I have a local undetectable twink bottom who has this very issue. VL under 20 and a CD4 at 300. He's highly compliant and looks to be the ideal patient. So, I seed him regularly. As a neg top I've been only recently been playing with undetectable bottoms. So far it's been great but I have had strange numbers and often question them.

So this past week was my 41st birthday. And for the first time in many years, I did not have to work and I wanted to treat myself. I knew I wanted to have a great dinner, a nice bottle of wine plus get poppered up and fucked by a big black dick then turn around and hopefully fuck my two week load into a hot twink bottom. Usually, I do not seed however lately I’ve decided to throw caution to the wind. I test every three months at county then in between – once a month – I do the at home blood tests which will send paper of status. I know my sexual health and who I’ve been with. In the end, I had my dinner and placed an ad on Craig’s List looking for a hung black raw top. Within minutes I received an email from a married straight guy with a 10.5” cut cock. He was 6’5”… the only draw-back, no car. What the hell? But he was willing to host. So I told him my only two rules, you can’t seed (Save the lecture gents! I already know the age old debate over a roll of a bottom) and you can’t leave bite marks or hickies. He was cool with that. Off I went. Wow, what a specimen. He was exactly what he said he was. Nothing out of place. We smoked a bowl and I sniffed some poppers and before I knew it, he was eating my ass deep teasing me to the extreme. Then he spit on my hole and then on his fuck stick and to my surprise, he slid right in. For almost two hours he fucked me slow deep and on an occasion hard. Ever position possible, he put me in it. He then busted all over my stretched out hole then slid back in. Amazing. After a few minutes he pulled out and busted all over my face. We exchanged pleasantries and he told me the next time he was going to seed my ass. Sounds good to me. Two hours later I was speaking to a guy on BBRTS. He’s a real big pig bottom. Piss play, seeding, toys, fisting, poppers, group play… you name it, he likes it. Well, he’s also negative with proof. So, 45 minutes later and I am at his house. Again, the same as his pics. Older, muscular otter, jock strap, dildos and Paul Morris video’s on the big screen. This time I was seeding. I promised I would give him my two weeks. Immediately, he was giving me amazing head. Then I was tongue deep in his furry blond ass. Heaven. Then he couldn’t resist and told me to “put it in!” A little elbow grease and I was in. An hour and fifteen minutes later – position after position – I unloaded my two week load in him. My head about blew off. Amazing. My baby batter started seeping out his hole as my dick was coated in seed and ass juices. I then put my cock in his mouth and he sucked me clean as I pulled out a humongous black dildo and up his ass it. While he cleaned my dick I nutted in his mouth again as he shot clear a crossed the bed splatting my chest. Both the hung top and the pig bottom have agreed they want to enjoy my company on a regular basis. Looks like my pool of fuck buds is expanding again. Just like my cock and hole! 41 is going to be a great year!

I am not into the bug chasing but this one caught my eye and WOW. Great story. I never get hard reading the chasing stories but this one had me going.

ABlack1963: I can't believe you would have such a hard time finding that scene. You're fucking hot. Nice profile on BBRTS. I had to check you out. LOL. As for the story: AMAZING! I usually do not comment on stories but this one (coming from a guy who does not do any hard drugs other than weed and poppers), this story had me ready for a gangbang with me as the bottom. GREAT STORY.

There is a local guy here who always posts on CL who sports a Scorp on his chest. Even though he doesn't show his face, I have met him through a friend before and no with 95% certainty that he is poz. I think most young guys are unaware of the Scorp. Who knows? I have always assumed that it represented him being poz.

Cumslut: To bad you are not in Southern California. Young daddy here always having issues finding a good boy to spend some time with.

As many of you know, I have only recently been comfortable with the thought of playing with those who are 'undetectable'. I've read the research and data. I would like to think I have an open mind. My hurdle has been whether or not these guys are truthful regarding their 'undetectability,' for lack of a better/made up word. The first time, I topped a young Latin cumdump nearby [A4A=cumdumplatin]. Tonight, I was hit up by a slightly older black 'undetectable' bottom. Smooth and muscular, I gave in. Immediately, I noticed a wedding ring. He explained he has been married to his partner of 6 years (open relationship according to him). 6 years ago him and his partner tested together. He turned up poz while his partner - the top - has stayed negative. He reassured me he was 'undetectable' with VL under 25 and a CD4 of 365. He says he's been on Atripla for 6 years. I did not seed him since he requested a facial and mouth full of nut. But damned did his ass taste good. Yes, I rimmed the fuck out of it. And that ass, like crushed velvet. Thoughts on his levels? I am not an expert in this area and recognize that levels can be vastly different from adult to adult. Also, is this a step in the direction of not even caring about levels and undetectable vs full on poz and AIDS? It seems like this is a familiar journey for most. Thoughts?

Yes, you should be able to find the seeds in any grocery store in the baking section. They are a tad expensive. Approximately $10.00.

I hate to sound like an infomercial however I received a "Nutribullet" food processor/emulsifier for Christmas and I love it. The recipe book which came with it has multiple recipes with Chia Seeds. I just started incorporating Chia into my concoctions on Saturday morning. From that point on, I have been hooked on Chia inspired blends. I used to have issues with cleaning my hole out thoroughly. The last two days have been quite a breeze. My last big black top (last night) who's a regular asked what I had done different after our fun. Nothing just incorporated the Chia. He then proceeded to tell me that I had always had an amazing ass but this time was a smoother 'silkier' feel! Go figure! Must be the Chia! All hail the Chia, LOL!

This is an interesting thread for sure. I've discussing this with my best friend a lot lately. Both of us were bartenders for quite sometime. He in a local gay bar while I in a straight bar. Both of us over 13 years at respective bars. We were meeting men regularly. There was no shortage of men who either wanted to enjoy us sexually or as friends or both. Some of my best friends are from this period. Now as my best friend and I have aged we do not go out as often and find ourselves on the apps. As a result, men seemed to just disappear. So, we decided to start going out to the bars/clubs in the local area (Riverside & Palm Springs). We would go out once a week. Even if we had a busy work schedules. We had to stick to it. And we did. Our circle of friends and pool of interested men has began to (pardon the pun) swell. Fast forward 5 weeks later... This past weekend my best friend and I held true to our agreement and headed to the local bar 15 minutes away in Riverside. While there I recognized a local app hot piece of ass. You know the type... gym rat with the perfect face. In the online world he's out of yours and my league. Unattainable and would have no issues letting you know. If you don't look like him, it isn't/wasn't happening. I mean we are talk Men's Fitness cover page material. But I digress This guy had always ignored me even though he lived less that 5067 feet, according to Grindr. But this night was different. Was he really flirting with me from the opposite side of the bar. I thought to myself, no he's not winking at me and smiling but then looking down all coy. Muscles hanging out and these tight stylish shorts with a beautiful tan and he's winking at me. No, surely someone else is behind me. It was crowded after all. Eventually, the night came to a close and we headed out. The next morning I woke up to find a message on Grindr from guess who...the gym rat. He wanted to know why I didn't approach him. I told him I thought it was intended for someone else. He quickly replied that No it was intended for me. He then proceeded to tell me that he has seen me 'in action' a few times while out and about and he liked what he saw. He was interested in meeting up for 'possibilities'. Mainly a discreet friends with benefits/fuckbuddy scenario. Well, he's been over twice now. It's amazing in person. I had him pretty much pegged. He told me I was not his norm but there was something about me. As I get to know him, I like him. He's shown a little more depth. Who know's how it will all unfold. But hey, it all started because my best friend and I had this very question about online versus real life. It's OK to be a homebody and enjoy the apps but realize that that human interaction suffers and your own self esteem may suffer as well. You may miss out on what you are looking for - either long term or short term.

Norcalraw: Sounds hot!

Sleazy: I live 45 minutes from Palm Springs and go out there fairly often. Maybe once and sometimes twice a week. I have stayed at CCBC. That's a local favorite and can get pretty raunchy with a lot of raw action. It is a little far out from the nightlife but there are plenty of options for drinks like the Tool Shed and the Barracks. As for the other resorts, I have stayed at a few and they can all be hit or miss. If you're looking to be a total pig then probably CCBC. Regarding the events, I have never had the nerve to go to the Cum Union events but I know they are quite popular. Leather Pride and Pride in general are somewhat smaller events compared to other Southern California functions.

This is an interesting thread. I feel really bad for this guy "Mike." I had this happen to me yesterday as a matter of fact. Albeit, not with a 14 year old. Here's my experience. I was leaving work yesterday when my phone went off. I had a message on Jack'd. I opened it up and there was a very good looking young athletic man claiming to be 22. He said he had a thing for older stockier white guys and wanted to have some fun. After some back and forth, as well as my asking over and over again if he was over 18. (He really looked like he could be 18 but as I get older, I see more and more guys looking younger when they are not. I guess I am just getting older.) Multiple times he told me to just relax and that yes he was in fact 22. He then sent me the address and so I went. He was less than a mile from my locale. I arrived and he looked exactly like his pic. He invited me in and before I could get accustomed to my surroundings, he was all over me. Hands down my pants, etc etc. Just as he literally unzipped me and pulled my cock out, he immediately got up and said, "Shh! I think my mom just got home!" I immediately zipped up and said, "What the fuck? Are you kidding me? Your mom?!" I knew right then and there that I was a bad situation. As I snuck out the side and around the house, the kid says, "Sorry! I am actually 17." FUCK!!! I immediately got in the car and casually yet speedily took off. A few blocks down the road, I pulled over and immediately took snap shots of his profile, our conversations and all pertinent information in case I needed to prove/defend myself. I then reported the kid to the app as a minor and not 18 and over. Obviously a breach in their user contract. Obviously, I had no intent to break any laws...

Bobbnie: That's the first thing I noticed actually, and I am not a chaser or tattoo fan but that immediately got my attention.

Tiger: Thanks for the reply. I am in your camp completely. It was hot for him to all of the sudden just handle and own it. I guess I can make him think he's the only one.

Some of you may have noticed that I have not posted as of late. The last time I posted anything of significance, I was promising a video of my weed dealer – a straight 11” black dick who fucked me raw a few months ago while his girlfriend sat in the car. Needless to say, I’ve just heard from him today. Never mind that it has been almost 2 months, but I digress. In the mean-time, thank you Grindr! That’s right Grindr! I was recently on Grindr when a young 22 year old black top hit me up. He stated that he was a top but noticed I was also a top. Well, most of you know I only bottom for big black cock! I told him that and he was ready to go. I guess it is the thought of topping a top that really got him. He told me he had an 8.5” cut fuck stick with large balls. He was ready and willing. So, I did what any sex fiend does….I gave him the address. Within 10 minutes he was here. We immediately go to it. He was no talk and all action. It was fun at first but he never sucked, never ate ass, and never did anything other than put a rubber on, then slowly slid into me and then build up to a huge nut and leave. No talk. No nothing! Well, after a handful of times, he hit me up again. Tonight! While at dinner with my best friend, I got a text asking, “What time you home?” I replied, “I’ll home be home after 8.” I never heard back until 2 hours ago when there was a knock at the door. Imagine my surprise! Marion! Yes, that’s his name. And yes, for a top, a little disconcerting. LOL. So Marion came in and this time I got a “hey” accompanied by a hug and rub down. All I could think about was how odd this was. This was not normal for him. At this point, I would have been bent over taking it rough and hard – no thanks to the latex. But no, all of the sudden I was sucking his dick while he fingered my hole. Again, not the norm. Soon, I was bent over and his tongue was deep in me. WOW! SO NOT THE NORM! After quite some time, he gave me the reach around and started working me. To my surprise, I was rock hard! This usually doesn’t happen when I bottom. It was at that point that he spit on my hole, then his cock and started teasing me. Again, not normal! But what does a cock hungry closet bottom do? That’s right, I let him do his thing! And to my surprise, he slowly slid in RAW! I thought this would never happen. But it was happening. He never said a thing! He just folded me up into multiple positions; which is difficult since I am a larger guy. He rode me for almost 45 minutes before he pulled out and shot all over my stretched out hole. It was so fucking warm. The coolness on my raw hole coupled with his cum all over my rosebud was too much for me. Still rock hard, he flipped me over, slid his slightly soft cock back in me and jacked me off using his cum as lube. I haven’t shot like that in ages. He then said to me, “you better not be fucking anyone else like this...unless you’re dating him.” Does anyone catch the irony in this statement? I better not be fucking anyone else raw, but it’s acceptable if I am dating someone. I love how it’s OK to fuck raw with a possible partner and also be OK with cheating. The implication that I would cheat and that would be acceptable. Maybe it’s just me….Or am I too high and over analyzing? LMAO.

Tiger: I love all men. I watched most of your stuff and read most of your writings. You are hot as hell. The reason why I mainly write about twinks is that that was what my last partner was. He was a 18 when we met. Nothing like a hot twink jock who approaches a chubby guy like me and say's, "I am so wanting a relationship with you." So, for four years we played house until I he said he wanted to taste other dick but didn't want an open relationship. So at 23 I sent him packing. The first place he went....All Worlds in Palm Springs. Go figure. Prior to the twink, my ex of 6 years was a hot latino bodybuilder bottom who was 10 years my senior. He still has an amazing body and we are friends. Before the two of them, all partners were my age or older. And in my world, when it comes to sexual pleasures, either you got "It" or you don't. I know right away. Having "It" knows no boundaries of age, ethnicity or disability. In fact right now, I am consistently banging an older mixed guy who is in a wheel chair. He's close and hit me up one night. He was being a cum dump. Turned up neg and said he was done with being a dump however I was always welcome. Guess what? I see him at least 2x a week! In the end, I like all. You just have to have "It." And believe me, many men here have "It." You are definitely one of them! And remember, I do write about my older black men who I love from time to time as well. God, I just love men.

RawTop: Thanks for the info. Highly informative.

Tiger: Thanks for the reply. I was hoping you would since I tend to follow your hotness from afar. I wonder if there's a way to link one blog with a Tumblr account. Similar to here. I would like to capture a younger audience - maybe meet a few new boys - yet also appeal to older since I do not discriminate. It's a catch 22. I guess I want the most potential followers as possible.