Blueyedsoul

I am thinking about it. I'm only 40 minutes up the road in Riverside. Thinking about giving PrEP a work out. LOL.

How? Do you use a product or have a specific regiment?

That's great Tiger! I bet you're looking hotter than ever.

So, I have the night off and I decided to log on to BBRTS. I am only a 45 minute drive to Palm Springs so I'm thinking of checking out the possibilities for a little later after a few drinks. I have never had any adverse reactions to my profile on BBRTS but I just received the following email from a nasty bottom: "I regret to tell you I find your profile VERY VERY OFFENSIVE. I feel really sorry for guys like you! You stupid prep bitch asking those questions? Are you that ignorant? That’s what we need - another desperate drug addict in town willing to take chances barebacking but DEMANDING a CD/VL count! Are you out of your fucking mind? YOU ARE LUCKY I DONT FEEL LIKE STABBING SOMEONE TODAY. PS is a very dangerous place so be careful!" Really? Seriously...This is the kind of crap I have received since I have been on PrEP. I even state that I will ask questions regarding VL and CD4 levels because of the study I am in. What do you guys think? Check out my profile: Blueyedsoulbttm

RawTop: Thanks for doing my homework for me.

Tallbtm: Thanks. That's a good idea.

Pump: I add the Chia to my Nutribullet. I make one in the day. Specifically, a liver kidney detox recipe. I add a tablespoon to that. Then right before bed, I take two psyllium capsules as well. This is all taken at the same time. Same goes for my Truvada. Let me tell you, cleanings been a breeze. I try and do two tablespoons a day.

Rawfuckr: Excellent question! I am on PrEP and have changed my status to Neg + PrEP on BBRTS. Just like those who lie about status, I would have to assume that liars will be present for PrEP. Like you, I am unsure of what their motivations would be however the mind is complex and who knows what the liar is truly thinking. What do I know? Since being on PrEP, my sexual activity has dropped enormously. I've had considerable blow back. I have also thought about lying about my status just to get laid. Sad but true.

Marathonbear: I am in the same boat you are in. I've been on PrEP for three months. I have no issues topping and seeding. But bottoming, as much as I want to be a cum dump, I have only taken one load. It was great. Still tested negative. Now, all I can think about is getting a room in a no tell motel and taking loads. Mentally however, I just can't seem to get there even though I know the research and numbers. I suspect, eventually, I will give in.

Count me in as a Truvada whore! I have been on Turvada for almost three months now. I must admit that my decision to go on PrEP (Truvada) was three fold. One, it was for pure pleasure. Two, after multiple long term relationships that were raw, condoms as a single male in his early 40's was not an option for me at least. After finding myself single, I couldn't stay hard with condoms. If I bottomed, my ass would be destroyed and damaged after most experiences. Ten plus years of raw sex was just too much and condoms just seemed so wrong. Then I heard about Truvada. Actually, I started reading about it here! I did my research and thanks to a post I found here regarding clinical trials, I enrolled in a PrEP study at UCLA! THANKS RAW TOP FOR THIS SITE! the medical side of this site is truly amazing. Since enrolling in the study, I've never looked back. My third and final point on the issue is this, read the research! Why deal with antiquated medical technology? It's just that simple. If I ever seroconvert, it would not be from me being ignorant on the subject. In my mind, I have gone out of my way to protect myself. Does Truvada absolve me of other STI's? No! Does it protect me from HIV-2? No. So I do have some worries but not nearly as much as I used to. Now, being on Truvada is not a license for reckless abandonment. Since being on Truvada, I have had major blow back from sex partners. My action has diminished. I actually have less sex because people just do not understand what the regiment is. So they actually come across as fearful or feel the need to actually accuse me of being poz. When I wasn't on the pill, I got laid almost every night. So now I am confronted with lying about my actual regiment. I know others have expressed this very predicament here as well. Also, since being on Truvada and actively barebacking, I have had other STI's. Yes, all treatable but somewhat of an inconvenience. On the flip side, I feel healthier. I am more in tune with my health and being on Truvada has sparked a renaissance in me regarding my health. I now walk every day - usually 6 miles. I monitor my diet more and consequently I've lost almost 20 pounds. For me, it's been a lifestyle change both mentally and physically. In the end, I find most are unaware of Truvada. Public health officials have done the greater community a huge disservice by not getting the word out. For every day folks, the word is just not getting out. And if it is, there's too many misconceptions.

I recently was presented with this dilemma as well. A few weeks ago, this hot big black top hit me up on one of the apps. Well, as most of you know, that's a weakness of mine even though I am predominately a top. This guy was older, not unattractive at all however something just seemed a little off. He then confided that he had just been released from state prison three months ago and was having problems meeting good bottoms. To sweeten the silent proposal, he sent a picture of his amazingly gorgeous uncut 11" cock. Thick as hell. Instantly, I was ready but I error-ed on the side of caution. For one, he was an hour away. On Southern California freeways, that might as well be two to three hours. Two, what was his offenses? Was it violence or drug related? If drug related, did he do drugs or deal with them. Very important because no one wants Hep C. Three, he wanted raw and even though I am on PrEP, I had not been on the regiment long enough for me to have peace of mind. Lastly, would he be violent towards me. There are just too many unknowns. Now, some will say that those unknowns are also present with your regular run of the mill hookup. And they maybe right. Maybe it's all psychological? Since then, we have talked a few more times. Once I have an idea as to his temperament, if that's even possible via an app, I will entertain the possibilities. Just my experience.

Some how, I am not surprised by this at all. Albeit I am only offering anecdotal evidence, I find that when I talk with an undetectable guy, many of them do not even know what their VL and CD4 count is! Now that I am on PrEP, I have opened up myself to undetectable's. When we discuss PrEP and their regiment, many of them actually have no idea where they stand. And they don't really seem to care. I can count on one hand how many are truly in tune with their health. My experiences may also be contributed to geography. I am in an area in between Palm Springs and Los Angeles. As someone who teaches at a school of medicine, public health colleagues are constantly reminding me that our population is highly illiterate and lacking many basic math and science skills. Unfortunately, the minority community (Blacks and Latino's - many being illegal aliens) which is predominate in my region also have some of the fastest growing infection rates in the country. Due to a lack of insurance (let's not get side tracked by Obamacare/ACA), once diagnosed and treated their healthcare is administered by the county. Again, they just swallow a pill and go about their lives. They don't ask the pertinent questions while some just don't have the financial means to keep consistent appointments. As a result, compliance is skewed and so are the numbers. Just spend a day on A4A and talk to undetectable's. I think many would be shocked as to how ignorant they are concerning their own health.

I just had my first opportunity to piss in my bottoms ass after I dropped a huge load. For me, it actually hurt because peeing while still hard can be difficult. My bottom loved the feeling. I need to try it again to see how I really feel about it. But I think I will like it the more after I train my body to override some senses.

I have a bookstore fetish. I love spending an evening at a bookstore sucking dick through a glory hole. I love to fuck a bottom raw through a glory hole. I've also taken cock raw through them. Although not as much as I used to. I also have a tendency to find a hot jock bottom and get him all poppered up and use him. I have a few of those that are local who find them in this position. I also love to get high on 420, poppered up and bottom for big black cock. I have a few tops who handle that need. My biggest fantasy/fetish... Being a cum dump at a bath house or sex club. Maybe renting a room and whoring myself out to anon loads. Don't get me wrong though. In the end I am not as discriminatory as I may sound. I have a very open mind regarding men and sex. I recently unloaded in my regular cum dump. He then asked me to piss up his ass. It was hard for me but I accomplished it. He loved it. For me it was so so.

Rawfuckr: What is your copay at Kaiser usually? Also, I am confused. Is your healthcare provider Kaiser for everything? Or just pharmacy? I thought Kaiser covered PrEP because of the prevention aspect. I see it on their actuarial for medications. What is your copay at Kaiser without the Gilead rebate? Curious because I am looking at Kaiser as a potential provider.

Gentlemen: A few of you have mentioned you were exposed to Hep B before and either it passed your body with out any complications (CDC says most have this reaction - especially if an adult) or some of you had treatment. For those of you who had it or dealt with it, how was it treated? What was your person experience regarding effects on you as well as the treatment perspective.

For those interested, I will post the outcome of my meeting plus the recommended course of action/prognosis. Again, thanks to everyone who has chimed in. And by the way, I have been asking my potentials if they have had their vaccinations. Again Poz1956, you're correct. Vacuous stares and replies have been pretty standard. Most stating 'Why would I do that?' I posted earlier today about my taking my first load. I fully disclosed my predicament to my top last night. He had no issues since both him and his husband had been vaccinated for both Hep A/B within the last two years and in fact the vaccination had taken. So he had no issues. He actually commended me for being honest. That's one of the reasons why he wants to be my regular.

Poz1956: I am in a clinical study through UCLA and Charles Drew University Medical Center. Trust me, my mind has been wandering ever since the doc called me. I think your assumption regarding "Clean UB2" guys is true. The irony of it, for me anyways, was that I was at the local CVS a few weeks before my starting the PrEP study and had inquired about the cost of the vaccinations. $150.00 each. It was on my radar screen so to speak for updating purposes. Now, I am wondering where the disease is in its progression. Whether or not it's acute or chronic. All I can do is wait and see what the docs on the clinical trial have to say. My appointment is this week. The one doc I spoke with told me that he expected that the infection is one that's recent and the Tenofovir (in the Truvada) has kept the progression in check. Currently, Tenofovir is in a Phase III trial for its effectiveness against chronic Hep B. For those interested, I will post the outcome of my meeting plus the recommended course of action/prognosis. Again, thanks to everyone who has chimmed in.

I have been talking to a big black top who lives 10 miles away from on A4A for the last 2 years. He's married to another man who lives in Los Angeles. Since I have been on PrEP we decided to finally meet. He provided up to date testing papers. We had two cocktails, smoked a bowl and then proceeded to the bedroom. I must say, his pics did not do him justice. He had an amazing body and a cock which looked unimpressive. After so coaxing from my warm mouth it came to life. 10.5" cut and thick. Just as it was time for me to take it, he broke the seal on a fresh bottle of Amsterdam poppers. He gave me a large hit and then took a large hit, lubed up and slowly invaded my pucker. Wow. What an amazing top! No pain, no discomfort. He went slow then picked up speed. Every position possible. Then it was time for a deep fucking. And he went deep. Again, no pain or discomfort. Then he told me he was close. I told him to go for it...AND HE DID. He slammed in deep. I could literally feel his cock twitch and pulse. I could not feel the load but I could feel every bit of the 10.5" move and convulse as he bred me. What a feeling... He then pulled out and that's when I felt the load. And it was deep. He then pushed back in and pumped again for about 5 more minutes when he dropped his second and final load in me. Wow. Amazing. Afterwards, we had another cocktail and talked. He wants to be my regular top. He explained his marriage and relationship. He also thanked me for not being a bad bottom who complained. Complain? It was one of the best fucks of my life and my first consensual load ever. On my drive home, I could feel his load slowly dripping out of me. Again, what a feeling. All night long I was mentally and physically enjoying the experience. And most of all... No anxiety or guilt over the encounter. Previous encounters had always resulted in anxiety and doubt. Not this time. Now, I know why I take that Truvada pill every night before bed. I may just embrace my inner bottom sluttiness more often.

Everyone: I should clarify... I took a work trip to South East Asia (Thailand and Loas) back in July of 2000 where up to 90% of the population are positive for Hep by the time they are 40. I had multiple vaccinations and to my recollection (which is a bit hazy) Hep A and B were given. My counselor and doctor in charge of the PrEP study I am participating in has already ordered my previous medical records. The way I see it: 1) Either I was not given the vaccination or the vaccination did not take. 2) If it didn't take or it wasn't given then I am probably positive for Hep B. It's a matter of where I am at... and has it progressed or passed. 3) Presuming I'm positive then I have been asymptomatic. If asymptomatic is that due to the Truvada suppressing the disease? **Stat from the World Health Organization**

Gentlemen: How many of you have contracted Hep B? I have a recent fuck buddy who just contacted me stating he has tested positive for Hep B. Naturally he is concerned and now I am also concerned. He is not on PrEP but I am. I've only been on PrEP for less than a month. Our last hookup was a week ago. Although no seeding occurred, I am now realizing that the likelihood of me being infected is great. I have contacted my PrEP counselor regarding this news however a physician has not contacted me as of yet. I suspect I will hear from them tomorrow. According to the literature I've found, Tenofovir (in Truvada) is also used for treatment of Hep B. Also, according to the literature, most (80%) rarely develop liver issues. Apparently, once exposed the body naturally begins to fight the virus. For most it is a case of "acute" Hep B meaning that the person recovers from the infection relatively easy. "Chronic" Hep B can lead to cirrhosis of the liver or liver cancer. Any of you gents battle Hep B? If so can you share your experiences? How did your body react?

Hey guys, well, it's been two full weeks since I have been on PrEP and I do feel different mentally. I now know longer fear or have the anxiety of sex like I used to even though that never stopped me. I have now done the responsible thing by updating all of my profiles: Adam, BBRTS, Grindr, Jack'ed, Scruff and my CL posts, etc. Prior to PrEP I mentioned 'anything goes' and would post test dates and results while having the proof ready to send. Now, I keep that info only because I am in a PrEP study through a major medical school here in SoCal. Imagine my surprise when I started receiving hate mail?! Seriously?! One guys said I was lying and lulling tops into a false since of security. Another top told me I must be HIV+ while another regular BBC raw top told me that he now wanted to use rubbers because I was obviously wanting to take poz loads. Needless to say, I am shocked at the adverse reactions. Since I have been on PrEP I haven't bottomed for anyone. My tops have all got cold feet. They had no issues topping me raw before. One black guy said it was a government conspiracy and that "THEY" wanted me "sick".. just like the CIA in Compton. It's literally breath taking. Anyone else getting this kind of blow back (pardon the pun)? Anyone thinking about lying about being on PrEP? It seems I got more play without the little wonder than with it. Thoughts?

I'd definitely be in as long as faces/identities could be protected.

Thanks guys! I appreciate the feedback. It is all real and true. He's a great dealer and a great top plus business is always on the up and up. LOL. JustAnotherFox: I agree with you. No issues with bug chasing however I am not a chaser and on PrEP. It does get a little overwhelming at times reading all of the chasing stories.

Forgive me if this is in the wring forum...OK guys, for all of you PrEP bottoms, I have a few questions. First off, I start PrEP this Tuesday. I have already gone through the labs/tests so Tuesday is the big day. My questions are the following: 1) How long was it before you took a load. Did you wait a few days? I have heard many of you say that you didn't wait to long. Your experiences? 2) How long did it take you to take just any load? Did it take you a while longer psychologically to knowingly take a poz/charged load? 3) How many of you are actually taking multiple loads in one setting (bath houses, book stores, gang bangs)? Again you experiences please. I am having all of these thoughts about nights at a bath house, or a gang bang or something else. The bottom cum dump in me is already plotting.