if you can't swallow meds, you are condemning yourself to a death sentence. if you can get on injectible cabotegravir for prep, that would probably be best. you don't want a disease that requires daily pills vital to continue living if you cannot take oral medications.
for me as a chaser, i just want hiv so i can have sex with some poz guys i fancy who won't play with neg guys. i'm okay with the reduction in life expectancy and having to take meds for the rest of my life just so i can have slutty sex.