UnsureAboutThis

This is my first post, be gentle. 😉 I grew up during the advent of HIV/AIDS so I saw first-hand many friends who ended up HIV infected and then watch these men succumb to the disease and die of AIDS, so I have always been an advocate for condom use and safer sex practices. However, I have a friend who I have fooled around with for years--mostly me giving him blow jobs and the two of us stroking together. After a while he wanted to take it a little further and I was kind of wanting to experiment with different things as well. He liked rubbing his cock in my ass crack and teasing my hole. I think he knew that it made me super horned up to feel his cock pressing on my hole so, at one point while we were doing that, he asked if he could fuck me. I was unsure I would be able to take his cock in my hole but wanted to see what feels like so I agreed to do it as long as he wore a condom. He obliged and fucked me for the first time. It hurt a bit at first but it made me realize how great it felt to feel another man's cock inside of me. We continued to see each other but now he was pushing me to let him fuck me bareback. I didn't realize that, at this point, he was often stealthing me and unloading inside of me. After a while I think something inside of me changed because I wanted him to fuck me bareback. He was happy that I was finally open to the idea of barebacking but I told him I wanted him to pull out and shoot his load on my back. So, with that, he started barebacking me and pulling out to shoot his load. He later confessed to me that he was actually shooting his load inside of me and then continuing to fuck me until he shot his second load which he would shoot on my back, so I was again unknowingly taking his loads. There must be something about taking a guy's load that way that changed me because, at that point, I wanted to feel his load inside of me. I told him I wanted to feel him cum inside me to which he happily complied. After we finished up I pushed his load out of my hole because I was still nervous about having cum stay inside of me. We fucked like that a few times and each time he watched as I pushed his load out of my hole after he finished fucking me. About the third or fourth time I did that, he told me that he thought that was rude and that I shouldn't push his cum out of my hole like that. We talked about it for a while and he said that if I was going to push it out that he just wouldn't cum in me anymore. I realized that I really wanted his cum now so I agreed not to push it out anymore. At this point I've probably taken enough of his loads that I could start my own sperm bank but it feels like with each load I take it bumps up my desire to take more. My buddy has told me that I should start taking loads from other guys now and play the field. Part of me really wants to but I'm not sure if I should or how I would make that happen.