Sharp-edge

It was my time to serve my military duty. In Greece it's obligatory for everymale to do so. It was a bit late for me because I had finished my medical studies first (among other studies). If I had an option, I wouldn't serve. I wasn't scared about getting bullied. I'm fortunate enough to "pass" for a straight but that wasn't the important part. What was important is that psychologically I was more prepared (compared to my younger self at 18). So here are some things I'd like to share. Note: I was serving as a physician but still in the rank of a soldier.

1) As one of the physicians of the camp I got to see hundreds of soldiers. They would greet me and call me doctor and I wouldn't know them because they were too many to remember. I saw so many shirtless men. I examined so many chests. I got to know men better. At the same time I realized that we do nothing as a society but talk about women. It's time we start talking about men and not as offenders but as human beings that have needs, dreams and feelings. 

2) It's freaking annoying to be ordered to do something and that in a rude way. They had us do push ups as a punishment for things like talking during our reports or whatever. It felt so abusive and childish. It was more annoying having female superiors because duty is obligatory for males but not for females. You can be a female officer but not a female soldier.

3) I did feel that we were part of a family. They would call me brother, I would call them brothers. It was nice. We were supporting each other. It was a newfound feeling. At some point I fainted (long story) and they carried me back to safety. They told me it's one for all and all for one. I was working too many hours, too many soldiers to see. They weren't patients. They were my comrades, my brothers. The same people that I would typically call patients would sleep with me in the same chamber along with 40 other soldiers. If they coughed, I knew, I was next to them. If they were sick, I'd see them. We would shave, shower and do all sorts of activities together. I made friends.

PS

At some point someone high in the hierarchy (no idea how to call that in english but he was 4 ranks higher from a lieutenant) called in the doctor office and basically told us that if we don't reduce soldiers who are off duty he would turn against us. Then there was a soldier who was a bit sick (but nothing serious). He was so so so fucking exhausted though. I didn't know what to do for some seconds. But it was so easy. I remained faithful to the Oath of Hippocrates which as a Greek person I value most. I gave him a day off because that's what he needed to the best of my knowledge.

PS2

My dick was dead for some weeks. No sexual interest for anything. I was feeling captive. I was feeling scared and stressed and trapped. One night I woke up fully erect. I felt like that night, myself was back. I had started to adapt. All these changed me. I feel that all that nasty behavior of the army made me have zero tolerance for any type of bullying behavior.

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I'd just suck him and ride him

Guys I'm crazy about those toys they are so beautiful and I've seen them rarely in porn. They excite me. They can be rather small just for fucking or large ones to take a fiat. They are the absolute hole wreckers.

Morever, if they had a close end (the inside part) couldn't they be used as condoms? I hate condoms but if somebody wants me to use I could offer him this alternative instead of raw. A hole-wrecker that will keep my cum but he has to take it all.

6 minutes ago, Leathersteel said:

Rubber inhalers or sniffers are great. The double sniffers that go up each nostril are best. Stick up your nose and inhale then wham.  The first time I used them, I was so fucked up from the fumes. I was monkey gooning and dripping pre cum. I don’t use them with fresh poppers as it’s too intense for me.  If I’m huffing from a bottle I like to do 5 times each side to start, holding my breath in last one then slowly exhale. Then I’m off into another sone. 

So they do strengthen the poppers as they say they do? I bought one yesterday but it's in my bf's place so I haven't tried it yet. I like feeling like a monkey too. I feel the blood puming in my head and sometimes I see something purple/blue in the center of my vision which is cool cuz I know I'm high. I do 2 hits but I breathe real deep.

2 minutes ago, BBforever said:

I like using poppers when I'm fucking or when I'm just wanking the rush of blowing is way better.

how many hits would you say you take? (approximately)

2 minutes ago, Leathersteel said:

I’m with you as well, love bating and gooning hard for hours on poppers. Have been inhaling for years and although the formula is not like it used to be, they can still give a great buzz.

Do you have any advice about poppers? I've noticed that from a point on even if I take lots of hits I don't feel that high while in the beginning of my session even 2 hits can send me flying. Do those rubber inhalers help?

I believe many gays hate them for no reason. It's much cooler in their minds to drink or to smoke weed but when you mention poppers some act like you're injecting substances or something. I can't understand why. Personally I love them, I love bating with them but some guys make me feel like I'm a drug addict or something.

Before using poppers myself, I used to jerk with videos of other people huffing poppers (does that make sense?)

And suddenly I saw that for most porn sites (pornhub, xhamster, xvids) hitting "poppers" (no pun intended) returns no results. Where the considered illegal or bad for some reason?

Furthermore, I've noticed that in many porn videos the part where the dude takes a hit happens either when in his back or somehow is skipped. Like it's bad thing. You can see the bottle around but not when somebody hits it.

And then we have the guys who hear the word poppers and think you're an addict person who drinks and injects chemicals all day long. I know there are crazy stories out there but everything we do has a hazard. Even swallowing your own food has a risk of death. I don't think poppers are that dangerous as many people tend to say.

For me I love them. I thought they were used for relaxing the bottoms. But for me their true purpose is popperbating. Nothing feels better to me than jerking off and feeling happy and stupid while hitting poppers.

Not that I want to say that poppers are "innocent" but do they deserve the treatment they receive? Are they that worse from alcohol and smoking? Because smoking is responsible for 1/3 out of all cancer related deaths and yet (apart from New Zealand I think?) if you're of legal age you can smoke your lungs out.

20 minutes ago, blackrobe said:

Incidentally, these kinds of men are repellant to me and they end up on my "unfuckable" list.

For me, I put those type of men on their backs, their knees corssed on their chest and I fuck their hole nice and deep and then I seed them. This explains to them that the source of their behaviour is the lack of a nice and thick dick and helps them move on.

21 minutes ago, hntnhole said:

Sounds like it to me too.  Since he's your "teacher/professor/superior? in some professional way though, it's a big fat risk to get too close to him. 

You don't really need to step into his puddle, do you?  

He's a teacher/examiner but the seminar is ending very soon so we won't have any type of power dynamics.

1 minute ago, blackrobe said:

Interesting. He reads as manipulative, sexually predatory, and controlling. The impression I get is that he has an underlying insecurity and enjoys having power over others. 

Sounds right

35 minutes ago, tallslenderguy said:

Reads to me like he might be homophobic and closeted. 

I think he needs someone to fall for him. It seels every girl he has targeted had a parachute lmao. I can fuck him or get fucked by him any time he doesn't have to feel hurt

He's 100% straight, or to put me more precisely, no matter if he likes or does not like men he's really into women. We call him a vulture. This is a slung term in Greek to signify someone that really "hunts" women.

Physically, he's interesting. Nothing special but he gives me the vibe that "he's a man" and that is somewhat intriguing. He's not charming, he's rather an asshole in behavior.

 We had a special training with him in charge. He called on the phone only the women if they had any questions about the seminar and then he was a bit mean with them by saying that they should have called him to make questions. We, the guys, were never called by anyone.

I feel almost violated by him. He was testing if we got the course skills and examined us. He gave us all a non passing grade and we had to re-do the exam where most of us passed (I did).

I've fallen to his trap. The girls don't like him, he's annoying. Actively, I don't like him either but when he would make some small moves to readjust his shirt of whatever my X rays are activated. Probably he could tell. From a point on he would call me too, as he did with the girls. The other guys he would not call.

When we talk, me and him, he has that bro/dude attitude. If I wasn't experienced with stupid people, I would have bought it. He catches me from the shoulder and talks to me (about related things with the practical course). I'm like "touch me a bit more and somebody will end up with a dick in his asshole real soon".

So this is not exactly a question rather a conclusion: this guy seems to be flatter that I've given him some hints that I like him and he doesn't mind I'm gay. He's equally asshole as he's with the girls. It's almost equality.

I found an amazing guy that we fuck like rabbits. He's mostly bottom and he's into poppers. At first I thought that he would take a couple of hits or something like that. But he literally did dozens of hits. He looked so high and lost. I don't know if I'm a [banned word] or something but I enjoyed it.

Once it was a fantasy of many. Now you get to hear nasty comments that he's a cheater and whatever and blah blah.

But in my mind, he's just a horny guy who needs another horny guy to take good care of him. Is it thad bad?

I was thinking for years of getting a nice large prince albert piercing but never got to make it. Same goes for sounding, I was scared of infections. I also hate condoms because I can't feel a fucking thing when I have put on and they're tight (and a boner killer)

Would you care to ride it? Many times in dating apps (basically romeo) the bottoms are picky the only care for a total top even if you tell them that you only want to fuck them

Send me ur feedback 😉

1 hour ago, Bokkierob said:

I wasn’t really being brave. I was a horny kid with no experience so I looked for an older man who would take the lead and teach me. I did nothing except submit (willingly) to him.

Well I'm so jealous of that (in a positive way). I got fucked by a stranger when I was 18. I met him at an app, got into his car later that night, he fucked me in a beach. I asked him to use a condom, the condom broke (or he broke it) none of us cared. He said in time I will be able to control my asshole and open it at will.

1 hour ago, PozTalkAuthor said:

 

I proudly label myself as "side-versatile" (anal is not the only phase of an erotic encounter).

When he started playing with his tongue on my ears, than neck, nipples, I was in heaven but when he began licking my hole I was his.

Same I did with my bf, he was labeling himself "straight" before. My current partner. As soon as my tongue accessed his hole, I had him. "I just turned 53 with dozens of women left behind, and know nothing about sex", he said. Now he's 55 and we still have the world ahead!

An interesting way to call yourself. At first I didn't enjoy bottom as well, I was a versatile dude. But I always felt that I needed at least a couple of guys to breed me despite not liking it that much, I needed the cum to take the seed.

13 minutes ago, PozTalkAuthor said:

You start by liking men, then continue your journey with LICKING men, and then... 

 

Seriously: my attraction for males started when I was 11-12, I assumed it was the affection for my stepfather and how coldly my biological father treated me. Then at 16 I had my first fake-boyfriend (just cuddles) until I turned 21 and it started by using my tongue on a man's body. The guy who's 20 years older than me and we are still friends.

you're right about that. I think the journey begins with licking. It's the tongue that pushes through

19 hours ago, Bokkierob said:

A year. I knew I liked men, not boys from when I was 13. I had no idea how to proceed so I’d hang around locker rooms at the pool or gym. I’d walk around naked in front of men I liked hoping that one of the men would be brave and horny enough to hit on me. At last a guy at the pool caught me staring at his cock. I noticed him staring back so I brushed up against his crotch. he started chatting to me and told me I had a nice body. I told him I liked his hairy chest and his big cock. that sealed the deal. He asked me to follow him back to his place. I went willlingly. Back at his, he undressed and I saw a man’s hard cock for the first time. He undressed me and massaged my body, ass, cock and balls. He asked me what I liked. I told him that this was my first time. He just muttered “oh fuck” He made me hold his cock and rub it. I said I liked that. Then he made me kneel in front of him and he told me to open my mouth. I was so excited. He put his cock in my mouth and told me to suck him. I did and I loved it. So did he. After only a few minutes he shot his load in my mouth. I wasn’t ready for how much sperm a man can shoot so I swallowed as much as I could but most of his load landed on my face. That was how I met my first Daddy. After a few visits I was swallowing his loads and a couple of weeks later he broke in my ass. So just over a year between knowing I liked men to swallowing loads and taking a cock up my ass

That is so great and I'm glad you had a positive experience. I don't know if I should have tried something similar back then. I suppose it can be also a cultura thing. 15 years ago when I was an adolescent I don't think I could have that outcome in a country like Greece. But I definitely needed a man like the one you described.

Did he wear a condom?

I started realizing that something was attracting me towards other boys when I was very little. I was a kid I wouldn't understand (I'm 32 now). I liked their nipples I think. I had noticed that I enjoyed more being around boys than girls but there was nothing romantic, it just felt better. At 12/13 I started to actively like classmates. I was scared though. I didn't know what I could do if i had a naked man/boy in front of me. I would be scared. I had sex at 18.

Sometimes I think that for my case I would just need a man of my liking to be patient and teach me how man sex is made. I somehow feel sorry because I never had that experience.

We're together for 10 years. We've been through many phases. Initially, we didn't have. We were both hesitant. Then I was the top. From a point on he became the top and I would fuck him rarely. Although I really like to fuck I think I'm the truly vers guy because I don't mind fucking or get fucked but he's more of a top. So it's a 90% of him fucking me.

We tried some toys: a butt plug, a hollow butt plug, two double ended dildos, anal beads, cockrings, poppers and a cock extender

1) The double ended dildos were a failure. I told him we wouldn't like it but he's stubborn. We barely use them. The one double dildo is curved (maybe it was for women so as to penetrate both pussy and asshole)

2) The butt plug.. I'm trying to get it inside me. It hurts but I lwant to take it all. I've grown an apetite for making my asshole larger

3) The anal beads: Absolutely love them. I like that it stretches me and when I'm about to say it hurts too much it's swallowed inside my guy and I'm relieved. However if I take all four beads I see traces of blood so we don't use it now.

4) The hollow butt plug: damn that's hot. It stretches me nice, he enjoys ficking me and I feel wrecked. Love it

5) The cock extender. It's just amazing. It wrecks me as well. I want to get larger and arger sizes until I get a rose bud

6) Cockrings. They really made a difference. It takes us at least the double time to cum

7) Poppers. My bf doesn't like them but he enjoys watching me inhale. He says he feels my gut relax. It makes my face red, it feels like my head is burning and my heart beats fast. I love the feeling. Sometimes it affects my erection but even that feels hot

PS1: I try to get my bf's fist inside me. I can take it almost until the wrist but then I feel an intense pain at a certain point and he can't push any further. I don't know why and how could it help it. But it needs so little to get deeper.

PS2: Now that I've stretched my asshole with toys and his hands I feel like my gut turned into a second sexual organ. It feels better than fucking alone. It feels like I can control my asshole better. I also feel that it's not just the asshole, but the hole gut that's part of the sexual game and that I want to be filled.

I always thought it was a hot toy but I'd never got the chance to use it. I bought it with my bf. It had 4 beads. My bf was scared of putting it inside me. He barely put a bead in me.. but I was too much of a whore and ended up putting all four inside. It was a nice feeling. My gut felt so stuffed and the whole experience was really satisfactory. I even fucked him with all the toy inside me. I thought my asshole was gonna drop it but unless I pulled it it would stay inside it. And when it stretched my asshole during the passing of the bead's largest part damn that was hot. The only bad thing was that I noticed some traces of blood. But really small ones, like 3-4 drops/clots. I feel perfectly ok, no further sign of bleeding so I guess this goes in the place of "it's not something to worry about but try to take it slowly"

Another thing is that while I love fucking I have a desire to have toys in my gut.

17 hours ago, norefusal said:

wow. honestly, this sounds like 3 divas making a simple hook up into a fucking tv mini series of drammmmmaaaa! 

he's needy and an emotional manipulator and check yourself before this guy drives a wedge between you and your partner

you're also a bit needy. stop making his need for self care about you feeling rejected. if he needs to pull away and have some alone time, why not just respect that. 

and altho your partner is right this guy is making a simple hook up into a fucking life altering event, wanting to push him over the simp edge by locking his dick up and relishing the idea of him crawling back for more is cringe. maybe corrupting subs isn't the healthiest new hobby? 

Aren't you a bit harsh on all of us? Should we be cold and uninterested in the fear of a random stranger calling us a tv mini series drama? Think not.

16 hours ago, brnbk said:

Medicine is one of the most difficult professions on earth, IMO, especially if you a surgeon coz you are dealing with someone's life. In an hour someone could be here or no more. 

I must confess, two dicks for someone who hasn't had even one - all his life - would be a bit too much for anyone. However, I am not convinced he did not want to try it. Only when you try something do u get to know how you really feel about it. He could be straight and bored and unhappy with life and have wanted to try a gay threesome. It is definitely within the realm of possibility as I could see myself being unhappy and lonely in a location and wanting to make friends and end up with females who might end up trying to bed me.

Oh yes it is. And many people don't understand that. And a patient that dies can be a devastating thing, because you may feel responsible despite not being anybody's fault.

About the two dicks, you're very right (although deep down I think he knows he was a lucky guy). Now he's found himself a woman, trying to feel straight or something. We're not as we were. They won't talk. My bf does not want me to talk to him. They've exchanged some bad words between them (in greek we say that a tongue does not have bones but it can crash bones). Now I'm having two "baby surgeons" to take care. Last time we talked he said that he was very happy about his gf. I told him that I know him too well and his eyes tell otherwise. He got angry. I told him I think highly of him and he's better than that.

11 hours ago, anonCUMtainer said:

Yes, he needs time.

You seem very eager to take this next level (when there does not seem to be a reason to rush), so this will feel like it is taking an eternity. Please be patient.

Blame yourself for what? Try not to read too much into anything...and give it space. All good things come to those who wait...or is that ketchup.

What I replied to the previous comment +

I've thought again and again of everything. What we said, what he said (running through my head lmao). I believe all of that was too much for him and that he's an awesome dude who feels lost and threatened. On the other hand I believe for myself that although I tend to be a good person, lust overtakes me. I should know better than have sex with him. He enjoyed it. I'm sure of it. But his regret is ruining everything. I should have forseen it. I got drunk by his face looking at mine.

20 minutes ago, RawNerdUK said:

Hopefully the lack of reply means things have been sorted and everything is good again.

Ehm it could have gone better.