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  1. Just asking, how many of u do you go to the gym? do you think it's more of a man's or of a woman's thing (or both go to equal numbers)? And do u think gay guys tend to go more than straight ones?
  2. I totally agree on that He said he is scared. I've heard people be scared of ghosts, darkness, but of cocks? Thought them as objects of love not of terror. Anyways he said he can't do it but he didn't get upset or anything. He got worried a bit if that would be a turn off. Interestingly it wasn't. He has other things that keep on intriguing me. I'm always worrying that he could get hurt. Chocolates aside, we have rejected things before trying them, haven't we? I did ask him how much times he cums usually. He said daily, sometimes more than once (at weekends). I asked him if he could restrain from that for three days and he said yes.So he was kinda desperate to cum. He asked me if he could cum when he gets home, I asked him to cum in front of me he did it. First time saw his dick, he gave a nice cumshot. That made me think of chastity even more. I have several questions about chastity and I hesitate to put him on a cage without enough knowledge first. I really like him.
  3. So true.. But he likes being controlled. However even sub guys, they don't really surrender. They want these things to be done to them, so technically they are just in the receiving part, nothing against their will (otherwise it would be a rap I suppose). His asshole could be unfucked I suppose. I'm trying to think of other possibilities. Maybe taking pleasure from being dominated? But can somoene get horny from that? And isn't the fucking itself a part of domination? Maybe he doesn't know himself. I don't believe he knows and lies about it. Could the way of him getting off be being dominated and nothing more? he likes tenderness though. I get to know him better day by day. We experiment more. He likes being told what to do (and I think this is different from being punished which is not my cup of tea or any other beverage for that matter). I thinking he could like getting fucked if he understands it as a thing of submission. He turns me on, all this playful thing has excited me. I wanna explore him but at the same time keep him always comfortable. That may sound funny, but could a guy like him be into chastity? It doesn't involve anything sexual, only sexual deprivation. And that in turn could make him want to put something deep in his gut to get off. Or maybe I'm just too horny about him. If anyone knows about chastity though, I would need some help.
  4. I try to answer this. Maybe he's afraid of my dick, it's not easy to handle 😛 But seriously I don't know. Maybe he had a bad experience or he has an innate fear for the whole act? Maybe he fears that gay sex will result in STIs? But his "profile" doesn't match this fear. He's an educated guy, a good looking one so technically he should be free of these wories, he could reason them he is very smart. And he is not 18yo to be a scared boy. I'm not pushing him at all, maybe that's why he feels safe. I know some guys like jerking off together but he doesnt do that either with me. And it was him who started all that so he must be confident abbout it. Oh and I know he has fucked with girls so he's not a virgin.
  5. I wasn't familiar with that model, yet it seems reasonable to me. He feels nice being hugged. That's way closer than a quick hug of a friend. That guy likes to be touched, wants to get shirtless but does not want sex or anything sexual. He enjoys being told what to do (which makes me thing of submissive guys) yet he doesn't want to be fucked (which could be considered as a part of dominance maybe?). We do some things that could be considered sexual (or erotic). He used a body butter after I asked him, he likes me smell his scent. He likes to talk a lot which is nice. I think it's very rare and nice having someone showing to you his vulnerable time. At the same time he acts like he recognises all that and he tries to "compensate" by helping in every way he thinks. That makes me believe he is a nice person (which I always believed that). But why not sex? I mean not with me, but with someone? He takes care of himself he likes to look nice. Can a person who is asexual take care of his body? Wouldn't he had no interest in that? I don't believe he is asexual though, some times he gets hard. I don't touch his dick (he wears an underweaR) because he won't feel comfortable but it gets hard and some times wet (precum maybe). Could it be a trauma? He hasn't said such a thing. What is it that makes him need protection? Dunno..
  6. I'm just confused. I don't want to feel that I'm taking advantage of him in a moment of weakness. In other words, I'm worried if he really likes my company or if he just needs "help" and I'm the most willing guy. He's a guy that takes care of himself. He's very clean, tidy, he takes care of his body. He is "functional". Why does he crave for a touch? Why didn't he have one? Was everyone too cool to care? If he's gay why isn't he saying so? He knows I won't judge. He tries to say thanks by always bringing a coffee or something. He does undress if I ask him to, he likes to be hugged like that. My dick gets hard, he will have surely noticed. Yet he is not into sex. Sometmes I wanna fuck him hard, but I hold back.
  7. I love how direct and to the point that answer is haha I asked him if he feels attraction towards men and he said no. He likes having someone to trust, to protect and to feel protected and sometimes he likes the feeling of obedience. He doesn't feel comfortable in the idea of having sex though (he said). He's a very sweet guy though.
  8. I'm always curious about the dynamics of love and whether they are or not bound to the limitations of one's gender and his orientation. These days I found myself with a couple of guys that we're being trained together. I knew that guy for a couple of years, we had been out together (along with others) but we were never friends. I just thought he was a nice guy to hang out. It's been some days now. We spent some hours together the past days. He's an interesting guy. He's smart (that's a quality I much admire yet rarely see) and he takes good care of himself. The later, somehow attracts me. I will always dress casually with a T-shirt. He's always more formal. I'm sure he flosses every night, his nails are always cut. He is lean and rather tall and he studies hard. I believe there are endless boxes in his mind in which he "places" things. We always had chemistry which I found peculiar. We're an abyss apart (I'm hairy, more muscled, I have a small beard, I tend to be more informal and don't like formalities). Anyway, a couple of days ago we were talking and because someone said something he asked me if I play on my console (i bought an XBOX last year and thing is he remembered that one year later!). he said that he would so want to play (but he didn't quite mean he would come to my place, it's one of the things you just say). But.. I messaged him later and invited him. He came and he was formally dressed and had bought me some candies (that's so formal in my country at least). It's kinda odd because when you go to a friend/colleague or whatever you're supposed to be chill. But in the end we had lots of fun. He even messaged me to thank me. He invited me to his house which was more fun that I thought it would be. After some time he felt like talking and said he feels stressed etc etc and asked me how do I manage to do all the things that I do and still smiling. I told him my "moto" and he smiled back. He said some more things and I decided to hug him. It's not that easy. I always fear when I hug someone he will think I'm hitting on him. Interestingly, instead of doing it and move on he just put his head towards my chest somehow and stayed there. I was confused and all. I felt strange and my heart beat fast. He said if it's okay I told him yeah cool. We stayed like that for several minutes. I asked him if he wanted to watch a Netflix series together (Lockwood & Co which I loved btw) he said yes. We watched it together hugged. We watched another episode yesterday and we will see the rest. He said on his own that he's not gay or hitting on me he just needed a hug and he needed some emotional support? We still are on this hugging connection and I feel confused. Could it be just that? Someone who needs love, but not sexual love?
  9. So there was a guy whom I found hot. He was someone from my training (around 40yo, a handsome man). We were kinda close. I got excited with his class. Actually, it's not exactly a class he works in a particular department of the hospital and I was "given a patient" to present his case. But his case was really complex (and incurable as it seems) an because it's holidays I had lots of free time so I spent some of it with that team. I did some shifts and it was really interesting. It happened that 3-4 shifts were with him. We ended up in his office talking, he asked me what specialty I'm interested in and he talked about his and his job. I don't know how that crucial step was taken (maybe a mix of Christmas cheerfulness, being it night, a bit of horniness?) but it was taken. He complained of being tired and I just started to massaged him he didn't quite resist. He blushed though in the beginning but he liked it. The following day he brought me a chocolate (which was cute; he had heard me telling that I really like a particular type of chocolate). I told my bf that, he didn't get mad. He said that we're almost 10years together and if it could happen only once as a kind of "Christmas gift" he would be cool with that. Three days later we didn't do anything similar (we were not on our own). But on the next shft we ended up again with me massaging him. He's a married guy with two kids. I was very horny at the time but I was also a bit happy. I felt like I was making him feel nice and that feeling was returning back. I ended up touching him and he blushed. He told me that he had never had that with a man and after a short laugh he said that he was too busy with anything and he needed sex. So anyways I sucked him, he came into my mouth (although he "warned" me that he's gettiing close). We haven't done anything after that (it happened the day before yesterday). I told my bf he is still not angry and we had some nice sex. I still feel confused though if that was right despite my bf's approval. I'm not sure if one time was enough and I'm not sure if that was morally okay. I just relieved my horniness with a consenting adult, can't it be as simple as that in my mind?
  10. You're right about that, it's a form of violence. But it was a very complex crime in my eyes. It was meant to cause harm both mentally and physically. That's what makes it special (in a negative way of course). I'm just trying to decipher their "motives". And I hope he will find the help he needs. I feel very sad about that guy. I don't pity him, that's the worst of emotions. Wish he could be helped someone, that there was something to be done. I'm afraid there isn't.
  11. I am most shocked after this [think before following links] https://greekcitytimes.com/2022/12/23/greece-charged-classmate/ where it is reported that several (5-8 adolescents) raped one of their classmates (a boy). I still can't believe that size of cruelty. I mean why? I try to figure. I'm afraid that this is the case of domination. That boy was raped so as to be "broken". I don't believe these guys were gay. What am I trying to say? That not only did they rape him but possibly they want to make him pay for something? Like if they thought he was "a faggot" that's how faggots should be treated? Of course raping is one of the worst crimes but I believe it's more than just rape. It's pure malice. I can't put it into words. And regarding that boy, I don't know which is worse. Having everyone (because everybody in his school will know) know that he is raped? Stupid people believing that since he was raped he is not a man? or if he was gay, could that make him feel that he deserved it? Will there ever be something to soothe his soul? And regarding the other guys, now what? They will get in prison so these will get raped too? That's our answer? Let's do more rapes? And when they get out of jail, after all the torment they will pass during jail, won't they be even worse? I don't know how I feel about this. I'm just sad and angry. Why did they chose to hurt him? Why did nobody stand up for him? I've heard in the news that 4 girls were also watching. These girls that failed to report this should be treated as equally guilty.
  12. I never had any problem accepting FTM guys. On the other hand, I don't think anybody needs anyone's acceptance. I find FTM really hot, I'd live to have sex with a guy with a pussy. There's an FTM porn star called Chance Hart that makes my dick rock hard.
  13. Some of you may remember other posts of mine that I comment other medical specialties that I face during my training. Now it's the time for psychiatry. It's easier to post here. I can post my thoughts without worries. I never think bad of someone, but people tend to misunderstand. We had 2 patients. Both of them were men and the one guy was rather hot. He was a footballer. He suffers from mania. When he's depressed he's still he looks calm. When he gets in the pase of mania he brings havoc. I worried about his mother, I think that he could easily hurt her during that phase. I was thinking would he ever get better? The second one was a boy (he was somehwere 18 but he looked "boyish"). He was sleeping with his father every night, in the same bed. I don't know if I'm brainwashed by all these daddy-son-uncle-whatever porn but I thouht something sexual was going on. My second thought was that his father was abusing me. But I think because I'm gay I tend to reflect that that would happen to them. He was so afraid. We got to listen that he has terrible hallucinations about someone putting blades on his neck and that only when he father hugs him these thoughts go away. I just wanted to hug him tight when I heard these. I don't think I would ever make a good psychiatrist because I would get emotional, especially with guys. But I'm glad I'm having this training. All I did afterwards was to hug my boyfriend because I know he was traumatised by something that involved his father so all that made me think of him.
  14. Most people are turned on in the idea of a younger guy (son) getting fucked by an older one (daddy). Based on one preferences, some consider an ideal daddy as lean, with some muscles while others may want someone more of a bear or whatever. But not their own dad. Because it's their dad and they can't see him like that, maybe because it doesn't work like that or simply because their father is not attractive. Porn makes it easier making such couples and the word daddy has been heavily abused. I've been called a couple of times daddy when I was 27 from 20yo guys. Bcz in their mind daddy = something that when said it is arousing for an incomprehensible reason. If I were to believe all these stories here, it would seem that most daddies spent their time fucking their sons.
  15. You're probably right. I valued her high but she had mostly bad things to tell. She was a bit of what we called toxic. However all her comments made me consider and re-consider things. I learned to have faith in myself and not accept what other say as always true. I really enjoy caring about others. I think love in general is the most natural thing to feel. But many people turn to be selfish and ruin the whole thing. I have to admit though that I am more sensitive about guys. Maybe because I'm gay, or maybe because our society revolves aorund women.
  16. Empathy is a nice word. I had a friend at high school who was crazy about astrology and she told me once "oh you don't have any planets on water-based star signs that's why you have zero empathy". She made me believe that I just can't understand other people's emotions (silly me) so for the following few years I was thinking that I can't and I was trying to get used to it. But I think that I really can understand how someone feels. I do have trouble expressing my own feelings though, I keep them inside. I do know for sure though that being positive bring backs positive things. Sure there will be tough times, I had mine. When I lost my father people were there for me, I felt that they loved me and that made me stronger. In return I help when it is needed, I'm not the bitter guy. I will give add some linguistic info as always empathy is a greek word. But many (foolish) greeks use it wrong. Empathy = En + Pathos (Pathos= Passion), so it means having passion In greek empathy means literally passionate about someone but in a negative manner. Passion means disease in greek (consider the word pathology). So it means have a grudge against someone. The word that means what an english speaker means saying empathy is "ensynesthisi" (to feel one's emotion). I know it's irrelevant, but wanted to share.
  17. He didn't cry that much because we weren't in the best possible for that but surely it released some of his tension. There was nothing to judge about, I just hope it will turn out well. I think you are right about both 1 and 2 and that both apply in my case. But he could go all alone if he just wanted to cry. As I recall the incident he did try to make an intro or something but only crying came out. We have a very good relationship, I hope he trusts me. He' higher in the "hierarchy" than me but he always made me feel comfortable around him and he respects me. That's the foundation of our good relationship. I do believe he likes to be the strong one, the been there done that type but seasons change, now he needs to be helped and that's absolutely understandable. He didn't tell me the classic "don't tell anyone" but I think that that goes without saying. He also bought me a cookie that he knows I love and wrote thanks in the packaging which I found very cute. Wish I could advise him, but it's not a matter of good or bad advice. He just someone to be there for him. I'd really want to discuss that with my boyfriend but he can't. He's jealous of everything so he will say things that will make me angry.
  18. So.. there's a colleague, older than me (around 40) that I really love. Not sexually, I just love him as a "friend". I use the "" because we won't really hang out but I trust him, I care about him, we talk a lot, we laugh together. We have spent endless shifts together and you can really tell when someone is just doing his jobs and when someone is doing his job and at the same time helping and caring for you. There are some days now that he looks sad. I kept on asking him if he's okay and he would say that yeah everything's cool. I didn't think that I was somehow pushing him to tell something, I was just asking because I worried. And today, he asked me to go a small walk (there's a park/small forest in the hospital) and get something to eat while we walk. When we made some steps away from other people and I was just "oh let's eat I'm hungry" he just bursted into tears. He told me what was going on which was bad (but I think it can be fixed) and we hugged very tight. I felt my heart beating fast, not from being horny or something but somehow me watching him crying "frightened" me. I always have a heartbeat when someone cries and I try to help it's a red flag for me. I believe the fact that I'm gay kinda helped because from my experience most straight guys won't bother about how an other man feels. I just feel weird know. I keep on thinking that he's crying and I worry. I'm not at all used to a guy crying. I really don't know how to help when a friend cries. Just let him cry his heart out? Hug him? Be there for him? It's still a shock for me. He was a kind of mentor for me. Always brave, always guiding me. And now he cried. My image of him being fearless just shattered. But that's good. I came closer to him. I just want him to be happy though, not cry.
  19. I always thought that the purpose of each person was to find his other half. For me being in love gives time to one's soul to bind with the other's. So when you will no longer be in love, if things turn out well you will love the other person. My bf, I love him. I'm always happy when I look at his face. I worry if he is okay. Sleeping with him feels like home. However, after 7 (maybe 8 years?) being together we still fuck each other like rabbits. When I find that someone else is hot, I may think that I want to fuck him or flirt him but I wouldn't consider breaking up so as to be with that other guy. My heart is set. If I ever lose him, it will leave a scar, maybe I wouldn't like anybody else. Plus, a small question. I always had a feeling that in english the word love is a little weird. A mother loves her child, two bfs love each other and then we have the "being in love". In greek we have "Eros" which means being in love, it's always erotic, it won't be used for relatives etc We also have "agapi" which is just love (such us mother-child). Is there a commonly used verb that means in love but without using the same verb as love?
  20. As its name suggests, PSA (Prostate Specific Antigen) is prostate specific! So it will increase in most prostate pathologies that include but are not limited to cancer. Even pulpating the prostate can increase its serum levels. Low PSA levels also don't exclude the possibility of prostate cancer. About examining prostates, I just want to make it as comfortable as possible. Especially for old str8 guys that can be super disturbing.
  21. I checked a patient (it was my first time to do that) for prostate hyperplasia. Nothing too scientific about it, you just put your index finger (with a glove of course) and you pulpate his prostate. You try to feel whether it's enlarged or hard (it should be kinda soft). Based on the instructor's instructions (that sounds weird) you put your finger looking away from the prostate and then you rotate it while you're inside because that way it is more convenient from the patient. Plus, you use a lube that contains lidocaine so as to be even more comfortable. As a gay guy who is versatile, my fingers have examined such areas lots of times so it was "natural". What was weird is that I did it as a professional so I felt shy/weird about it. Plus I think because most doctors tend to be straight (I wouldn't believe that urologists are 50-50) maybe the think that having a finger (half its length) in your anus must be super painful, but really it's not. Another thing is that I could check my bf's prostate which I find be to be caring. Have u ever had that exam performed on u? What where your feelings? Was it awkward?
  22. It's not personal, she hates all gays equally. Sad though that all these years around me didn't help her reconsider. I can perfectly understand disliking something unknown or strange maybe the stereotypes have had their part. But having a gay colleague with whom u had a really good professional relationship and treating him like that? She's hopeless. Plus, I know from my experience that many researchers are gays at least in biology. For me it's 60% girls, 30% gay guys and straights are hard to find. We don't have a newspaper but we have the student's union which is strong. I also consulted an organisation about gay rights and they said they can legally support me if needed. I also found a second guy, former researcher who told me he received a similar behaviour and he's more than willing to see her face the consequences. I also had a small act of support. The lab stuff (basically the master and phd student) printed a sheet and post it in our news board (the physical one not somewhere online) [think before following links] https://prattlab.chem.lsa.umich.edu/img/DEI Poster.jpg which is very kind and I appreciated it.
  23. I really thank you for all your comments, your support means a lot. My ginger feels sad, like he's to blame (but of course he's not). He thinks I shouldn't have introduced me and I shouldn't be pushing things further than that. But I don't blame him, it's the society that makes him (and many of us) feel that way (that you're not very normal and as such offensive behaviours are tolerated). But seasons change and we stayed far too long in the darkness. I have no issue of accepting my sexuality. I'm a left hander, the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I live in a world made for right handers and I try to survive all these right-oriented objects that affect my life. Everyone is just saying that it's strange that I use my left hand. But I was always thinking they're stupid, we have two hands that are mirror images of each other, I use the left. Is this so serious? So that made me think later that I'm also different in sexual preferences. People can't get that i'm lefty, maybe asking them to comprehend my orientation is too much. Why am I saying this? Because what I believe (that gays are just gays, not sick people or anything) and for all the people who get bullied someone needs to make a start. So yeah, I'm gonna push things further, until I set things right. She can believe whatever she works but her actions are subject to law and my rights are legally protected. I started making some contacts and I believe a kind of report will be filled tomorrow or the day after that. I've also been advised to have a lawyer. I will keep u posted guys
  24. I'm working in a university as a researcher. That means I'm by no means permanent, I have a contract that expires every year and is renewed. I'm semi-closeted if this term exists. This means I won't say hey dudes I'm gay! but if you ask me maybe I will say I'm gay and I have a bf. However I have not said any of these at my work until very recently. Something inside me said "enough" so in an event I brought my bf and introduced him. Thankfully all my colleagues were very excited and were happy to meet him. All but one, the professor. She said that I'm embarassing the laboratory (but really there is nothing embarassing, even if being str8 looking matters, we are both like that). She called us [banned word] behind our backs and another word (that if I were to translate it precisely it would be the one who survived an abortion). I didn't know but she has a thing against gay people. I just feel unwanted since then and my job at jeopardy. I'm not sure if I care about that, I don't want to work for people that I don't appreciate but I won't just observe her fire me for being gay. I told her that I know all that and I feel deeply offended and that after 7 years of collab I hoped better than that. She told me it's not personal and she just consider us to be sick (irony: she's a biology professor) and she mostly pities than hates us. I told her that she should pity her students who have her as a professor and that she spreads discrimination in an academic environment. She told me we better stop our collab and not to renew my contract. I just feel angry and sad. I wanna do something about it
  25. Seth Green but a bit younger (he looks too old for his age now) but somewhere around the Scooby Doo era oh man I'd marry him
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