This was my experience:
I was married young, one time an opportunity came up and a gay man wanted to blow me. I worked nights and the wife went to school during the day so our sex life was when we could that left me frustrated. I felt guilty but it was the best bj I ever had.
Things didn't work out with us due to multiple things, knew we just weren't compatible, and divorced although amicably.
Fast forward, met the love of my life. Her and I were perfect for each other and sex was amazing. I did view gay and trans porn from time to time but never even thought about cheating on her. In 2021, she passed away in a horrible car accident.
I was devastated to say the least. About 8 months later, I had met a guy thru work. I am a general contractor and meet tons of people. This guy is a manager at a apartment complex that we were doing work for. He had heard aboit my wife and we talked quite a bit. He was very nice and friendly. I knew he was gay, but didn't think anything about it as I don't judge like that. Work was coming to an end there and he gave me his number and said to call anytime if I just needed to talk or grab a drink.
We did just that. Since he lived about 2 hours from me I decided to get a hotel room because I knew I'd have a few drinks. After long conversation and a few drinks, he opened up to me completely. He explained that he does very dirty things that he can't control and is HIV pos but totally undetectable. I was thrown back. Here is this 5'8", 155 lbs, solid, black man that is one of the nicest guys I've ever met. I asked what he meant and he went into full detail about how he will not and cannot refuse any man that want to fuck him. That he's been bred over and over in gangbangs, video stores, etc. He sensed that I didn't believe him and shows me the vids. He notices that I am hard as a rock so asks me if we can go to my room to veiw them more and he'll blow me. He did and then begged me to blow my load on his perfect hole, I did and the t was it.
I met a great woman and started dating her. She is absolutely great in the sack but my friend kept sending me vids and pics saying if I was on Prep, I could feel his hole.
Long story short, I did and I fucked him harder than ever. I don't have to worry about him becoming too clingy, giving me guilt trips, don't have to meet family, etc that comes with relationships with a woman and he just wants my loads.
Now, I set up his gangbangs. I only let decent size cocks fuck him, keep him safe from assholes that may have thieving intentions, and keep him totally full of raw cum. I fuck a load into him first and last. It's something that I couldn't do with a woman because if the bs emotions that most women get and his ass is better than any womans ass over ever had.