rawsatyr

If I have to choose between 'putting a rubber on' or no sex with the guy, I'm certain I'll walk away from the condom action every time. Can't even stand condom-porns!

I find the whole Nazi-fetish thing 'disturbing'. But then, some of us have a family history, ethnic background or a very brutally real reason to feel that way... And the Nazis knew how to dress.... HUGO BOSS!!! A gullible homo would have fallen for all that glitz and leather! But for the historical record, back in the 1930's, just like ONCE AGAIN TODAY (in the US) there are lots of elitist gays who fall or fell for that strong-man-thing. Sadly, I know quite a few of them! They don't realize that in the initial phase of seizing power, the (rustic German) log cabin gays are nothing more than 'useful idiots' for the inner core of the 'movement'. The SA, 'brown-shirts' lead by Ernst Roehm were a convenient brotherhood for lost souls and frustrated WWI veterans (who in 1933 would still all be in their early to mid 30's) and supposedly at its very core the SA was very homo-erotic. Ernst Roehm was the 'biggest' homo of them all and supposedly Hitler's political mentor. Hitler harbored a deep contempt for his mentor, maybe because of Roehm's earlier sexual advances. And within about a year of seizing power, Hitler decided that the SA with their rude, loud behavior and sexual exploits were a liability for the prudish conservative establishment. In the middle of summer of 1934 he tricked the upper ranks of the SA to gather up for big 'event' in a hotel in Munich where they supposedly celebrated (as usual) had gay orgies and getting drunk. The SS and Gestapo led by Hitler PERSONALLY surprised them all in the early morning hours, with the brown shirts probably with their pants down, and Hitler had them all arrested on trumped up charges. Most were later executed and Roehm given a gun (in his cell) with orders to kill himself. Long story short: that event came to be known as The NIGHT of the Long KNIVES. The SA was outlawed and from then on the Nazis had a virulent NO TOLERANCE policy to 'perversion' and homosexuality criminalized with an existing legal code 'Paragraph 175' (long story...) Anyways, gays from then on could be arrested on mere suspicion and were sent to Dachau where many were castrated, killed, tortured or died through misery.... that's where the pink triangle came in. The movie CABARET is a stunning dramatization of the time: sexually liberated Berlin turning ugly as the jack-booted Nazis would show to intimidate. Supposedly after the war, when concentration camp victims were liberated, the Allies IMMEDIATELY had gays rearrested and sent to prison AGAIN. So NOT SO CUTE ANYMORE when you know all that...

To me there is something very erotic about what you describe: the 'FULLY EXPOSED' and 'sexually-modified' element. I always associate SHAVED SMOOTH with a vanity, muscle, sports thing, guys drawing attention to their definition and their cock and balls being presented to all without anything being 'shrouded' or hidden. Liberated guys, anxious to show it ALL off! In some languages 'pubic hair' is referred to with terms suggesting 'modesty' or 'shame'. I.e. in German the word for pubic hair is Schamhaar, which translates into 'shame-hair'. So 'cutting everything off' is what I associate with 'liberation, modification and sexual optimization', being made AVAILABLE and presented like sexual merchandise. No shame, no inhibition, sex as sport!

I love the way some guys (especially those who look like masculine tops) FLAUNT their fuck-hole and the obvious 'modifications' they have experienced by lots of hard, extended, repeated and fully enjoyed anal RUTTINGS! NO DENYING dude is a but-fuck champ!

I have a whole list of them, 'fetishes' that I consider my 'trigger fetishes', things that SET ME OFF sexually, make me drool (or precum or feel arousal) The effect, although sexual, is much like the response of a well-conditioned PAVLOVIAN dog! Among the first FETISHES I recall were 'exotic guys' with great tans and guys with shaggy, pretty hair. Possibly because my dad used to rail against 'those damn hippies' or saying something like 'faggot women'! The allure of rebel pirates, rock-n-rollers and the FORBIDDEN! And that was in the days when I was still 'straight', chasing and falling 'in love' with girls like a teen-aged fool. But I already noticed older guys sporting BULGES (especially in denims) and the ripple of their KNOBS showing against denims... 'ARE THEY GOING COMMANDO?' I wanted to ask and to feel, but IMPOSSIBLE! Inappropriate! And with that mystery it triggered a new, confusing LUST!!!! Scouring the internet in my fully gay phase, exploring 'the dark side' I went into SEXUAL OVERDRIVE (for a new fetish) when I saw cocky, shaggy-haired young guys proudly posing in or on Jeeps, on the beach, dressed in flip-flops and shorts, being introduced as NEW MEMBERS in a previously unheard-of BAREBACK GROUP (on yahoo I think it was). Before that 'bareback' was an occasional, guilt-ridden departure from 'being safe', still a major taboo (for me). That was maybe 15 years ago when that 'openly, unrestricted bareback, risk-taking lifestyle' was still alien to me. At about the same time I discovered the picture of an Atlanta bad-boy on-line, proudly posing with a hard-on and a Prince Albert in an open Jeep. He was the one who had just months ago snatched away my pretty, much younger BF at the time, and introduced him to a NEW LIFESTYLE in the 'scene' in Atlanta. I had learned that the dude was already in a 'poly-amorous' relationship with two other guys and apparently my boy was their NEW RECRUIT! They were all under 30, flight attendants, bar-tenders, models/hustlers, ALL POZ, all promiscuous and all-out BAREBACKERS!!! Fast forward to now and all those 'things' are now 'trigger fetishes' to me: bad boy sluts, promiscuity, bareback talk and action, Jeeps, flip-flops on sexy guys, Prince Albert piercings, guys who are POZ... recently I added 'elongated fuck-holes' (man-cunts), leathery, well-used, modified, cut cocks to the list as well as sexy guys pissing... like dogs! With no care in the world! Making me drool like a horny Pavlovian dawg!

WHAT TYPE OF GUYS DO TOPS PREFER? To start off with, I'm versatile but enjoy being a top in the right situation. Typically I fuck guys who are LEAN, smooth and have assorted 'fetish triggers' (lollipop cocks, shaved crotches, piercings, ear-rings, masculine voices, sexy hair etc) In short, I used to be a pretty boy fucker and used to be very fussy! (former serial monogamist) I have known guys who pride themselves on fucking ANYBODY! One guy prided himself on his indiscriminate virility even as his friends teasingly called him a PIG FUCKER! Since coming out as a poz barebacker, my sexual behavior has become more 'random' and more focused on SLUTTINESS! And instead of being typecast as 'the pitcher', I leave the options open. I now tend to be the CATCHER of seed, NSA, no questions asked, no rubbers ever, all DNA kept to full absorption, no loads refused (YET)! It's what it takes to be a 'good sport' on TEAM BAREBACK. I have fucked guys who weren't AT ALL MY TYPE, and by 'fucked' I mean 'passively', taking their raw cocks. But I still have a cocky attitude and enjoy sometimes when I can ACTIVELY RIDE a cock of an ugly bull and put on a slut show for myself and 'the anon dude', getting off on me being SUCH A WHORE and possibly (and typically) getting him off with multiple loads... and hopefully having him BRAG about the slutty champ performance in the scene! (thus possibly bringing in other players) You know: word-of-mouth. the excitement of being known as a good SLUT! So there are PASSIVE BOTTOMS: So as I read a lot of the comments on related subjects on here, a lot of bottoms call themselves 'just-a-hole' and have a very passive attitude. No face pics, just asses and holes. Always ass up, face down, buried in a pillow like a cow in the grass. "I NEED to be bred!" "I NEED to be pozzed!" I NEED NEED NEED! And the merchandise is often sloppy, like no gym ever, high as a kite, dick caged or shriveled to nothing. Personality zero! Or paranoid! Or preoccupied on 'apps' already looking for the next hard trick while his own tina-dick never gets remotely hard! I used to be with women, even got married once! Fun sex! BUT, once I followed my 'gay instincts', anything passive, anything 'femme' turns me off, TOTALLY, neediness, clingy types, articles of clothing, stockings, high-heels whatever, femme bitch moaning like Armond Rizzo does to... all kills it! BONER DEAD! But most of the time, lazy bottoms are 'you cum and go'! just hike up their asses or lay there like bales of hay! Does anybody REALLY find that exciting? I can see how the passiveness could feed an ego of some 'alphas' and thus be a turn-on. When I bottom, I can wrap my head around the concept that there is something very hot (to me) about a selfish jerk just wanting to get his nut off... And FOR THE MOMENT, I'll play possum (dead, lazy) and let the jerk be in charge! But in the long run, if he wants more I don't accept turning off my personality! Trust me, I got plenty! And then there are ACTIVE BOTTOMS: Personally, I like playful, seductive bottoms. Possibly guys who LOOK like a stereotypical top and maybe we start out that way... but they also really like to bottom! Maybe even turn tables on you as they know how to 'read you' at the moment responding to their seduction! Guys who IMPALE themselves on your cock, slide down on it like slick demon satyrs who intend to steal your horse and ride it out of town! Ride you hard and put you up wet! Unrepentant bareback devils who ooze and breathe sexuality... those are the super-sluts I crave. Anybody with me on that? What 'techniques' have other REAL PRO BOTTOMS found will bring more boys to the yard? No eye contact? Playing dumb blonde? What types of looks or behavior turn other TOPS on. Especially guys who ONLY top! I'm still learning the ropes!

I used to rarely watch porn when I first came out. They were expensive to begin with and I rather looked at still pics to beat off to. And in earlier porn, the corny dialogues, the bogus, predictable plots and the inevitable 'elevator music' would kill it for me. My first BF was a FALCON-top in the 1980s and when he retired into a sedentary life with me and his 'roots', I still never watched any... Then the era of 'politically-correct' CONDOM porn came and that basically killed it for me. Always a reminder that there is a 'scary world' out there and one takes a garbage-bag-thin gizmo to avoid deadly consequences... and when you go through a phase of monogamy, many a BF will get jealous when you get off watching other guys have sex. "What? Am I not good enough?" Fast forward to now: Having turned poz, with a playful partner, embracing promiscuity and SEX AS SPORT it's now open season! All fear, reservations, hypocrisy, jealousies and monotonous monogamy... sworn off, NEW GAME!!! Aspiring to be a good slut and my partner too. We want proper moods and role-models! Mine are ADAM KILLIAN (versatile, champ-cock, promiscuous, ALLWAYS BAREBACK) Alam Wernick (champ slut looking innocent but a proud barebacker) DRAE AXTELL (holy shit, exotic thrill, takes cock like a champ and fucks like a champ himself) Devon Franco,Sean Duran.. to name but a few. HARDCORE BAREBACK PORN STARS! Bold-faced and always mixing it up! And porn is available 24/7 with much of it free. And if it's condom-porn it gets turned off! BAREBACK ALL THE WAY or it's bullshit! We get to choose our favorite 'styles' of porn with Treasure Island and SKETCHY SEX scenarios get top scores. Helix... cute! Almost 'too cute'. Makes me wish I grew up in a time like they do! Vanilla boys with attitudes bore us. Superslut cumdumpsters and serial breeder bucks are our new idols. The internet has become an amateur arms-race with nudity and raw sex! Expect a no-holds-barred, pants down, ass up, dick hard, face showing, tongue out, fuck-hole dripping and stretched will get the most LIKES!!! AMATEUR porn often is better than studio porn with their still awkward, predicatble 'plots'... you know, the pizza boy, the pool boy. The music has gotten better. Really I like techno mixes, club scenes, sex in seedy orgy situations, no loads refused, uncomplicated, versatile players or at least ACTIVE, boner-sporting bottoms with insatiable appetites... Dress code: minimal, action straight to the point. Otherwise believable, captivating 'action drama' like the unforgettable performance of sexy Max Rhyser in the underground poz-conversion thriller 'CHASER' The new porn scene has made it easier to let go of all the chains and inhibitions... I have embraced a lifestyle I once considered TOO WILD and dangerous!

Call me queer, kinky or twisted but I'm just about opposite. Uncut guys fucking my hole especially if they slather on too much lube feels just like they are 'jacking themselves off', with virtually no 'skin-on-skin' friction. Over time I have developed a preference for CONTACT SPORT with rugged, well-used, leathery, tightly-cut cocks! The ultimate in ASS-ault weapons. Taking their sweet time getting a nut! Just slapping on enough spit to prime the jaded fucker's ambitions and his high-impact rape-tool! SKIN-ON-SKIN rutting without me flinching. My ass seems to almost 'salivate' in anticipation, especially when the dude has a big flaring head or fat/THICK, ass-stretching shaft. Once he starts to precum or blows his first load, I'm primed for prolonged action. It took me a long time to condition myself for the bad boys. My two or three regulars go in raw and spit-lubed. Lube is there but mostly for the random guys who might join still a bit new to orgy action and who have trouble staying all hard when my hole is pulling an 'extra-tight' attitude... It still does that as I have developed a GOOD GRIP with my kegel exercises lol As a committed sports-fucker (all sex is sport, despite being in a relationship) It intrigues me to think that my tender ass-cunt mucus membrane offers virtually no 'protection' of any kind against the penetrating, promiscuous, RUGGED champ-cock. I'm not 'out-to-get-bugs' but his champ-DNA is definitely staying in my hole and dude is (at least in my mind) transferring his seasoned brotherhood legacy over to me... to full absorption. I suppose commercial lube would also ruin the 'flavor' for those who love to get into 'sloppy seconds', sniff and taste 'the other buck' or even lap it all up before sticking their own by then raging hard cocks right on top of natural wonder they enjoy sniffing...

So there is this guy that when I saw him first over 20 years ago, he was my 'forbidden fruit'. Let me explain: as I learned (just recently from him) the first time I laid eyes on this shaggy-haired, stereotypical California surferboy, DREAMBOY of my wet dreams, he was actually badly underaged. He managed to con his way into the club with his looks, with cunning, that gorgeous sun-kissed smile and from what I gather, his willingness to blow all the key people at the club in charge of security. Yes the owners too, at least that is what he said. At the time he was boyfriends with another long-haired, superhot blondie about his age. I would see the two of them together and avert my eyes as in "Hail Mary full of grace, don't lead me into temptation!" My one all-time crush, whom I would never be able to have... Years went by and we would chat briefly in passing, touch each other even, but either one of us being with a jealous BF or ex and lots of static... his ex became one of my best friends but he told me the hot fucker I drooled over was TROUBLE with a capital T and 'dirty' as he put it. Well, our moment came FINALLY! We hit it off like gangbusters. Fuck all the cock-blocking and acting like a fearful Adam afraid of eating the apple! Besides, that's a fairytale anyway and I'm not buying into it! Hot boy and I FINALLY got naked, talked it over. Turns out HE TOO had a crush on me. Well damn, had I only known. But here we are: Both of us are now verified and admitted barebackers and love 'nasty sex' as he likes to put it into the search bar when we have sex to internet bareback porn, Tonight, him and I will be going to a sex-party together, with the blessings of my man. It helps that my man has already fucked him good once already. Dreamboy, now all grown up and hot in a more adult way, is anxious to celebrate our rekindled crush by breeding me publicly at the sex party tonight. He is cuming over in an hour or so. We will put on our slut gear and each pop a blue pill to make sure we STRUT IN WITH BONERS! Get over the initial 'stage fright'! He wants a CROWD to witness as he cums in my ass while some random hottie I GET TO PICK will fuck him from behind! He said: "Trust me, I know how to do it! You guys stand still while I do all the thrusting!" All the fun I could have had years ago!

My bestie, who is a big app freak with lots of action all day, told me about Adam4Adam. He says he gets MOST of his action that way with grindr being the lamest. I was on A4A YEARS ago but found the demographics hitting me up... well... not right! But it seems to have changed, completely, the look, the app, the players. After installing it yesterday I had about ten hits (high for local) with at least two looking really good... still not sure exactly how all it works. Might be a dead end too. Old school, in the bars, appeals a lot better... maybe it's 'coming back'!?

I have done it to one of the first guys I ever fucked on a car back-seat! He didn't flinch. he didn't protest! Had a guy do it to me Friday... it 'almost' worked... helped out with the most tiny bit of spit... and in it went, with lots of friction... still feels kinda good-n-sore today. Makes me crave more!

I like it best when my friends 'hook me up', as in 'whore me out', 'line up' a random stranger to have sex with. No names, no introductions, no inhibitions! Much like a farmer who puts a cow in a stall and then brings a prized bull in there, yeah ANON and impersonal like LIVESTOCK. With no choice in the matter, no 'backing out'. The randomly picked bull just slobbers and sniffs and hops on the cow like he would on a contraption that resembles a cow. Bangs the crap out of it, her, the 'spawning substrate' and leaves his copious bull-semen behind... brutally injected inside, knocks up another hapless hole and marks his conquest! Stretched, gaped and seed-dripping! Off he goes...

RAW is LAW in our brotherhood! Skin-on-skin BAREBACK! With latex rubber it's fake sex! No fear, no loathing, no regrets and no hypocrisy! All loads accepted to full absorption! Condoms are a deal-breaker!

If a real champ top insisted on me shaving EVERYTHING I guess I'd go along with it! As long as his multiple seed loads go up my ass!

I'm doing that myself! I'd like one who gets hard working on tats on my private parts and all... although it looks like I'm going to get my first scorpion tats from my omnisexual, semi-straight buddy who spent time in prison and was cursed by nature with and oversized cock... I'm not complaining... but still LOOKING!

I have a 'thing' for the totally shaved look, especially the crotch and ass! I have always noticed that guys who 'played a lot with others' (sexually) and were physically active (gym) would keep themselves smooth! So now it's a hard-wired fetish now that gets me going: along with a list of other fetishes: i.e. piercings, tats, sexy (long or extra-short) hair, Mohawks, abs, going commando in denims... jock-straps, leather, wrist-straps, cock-rings... hot damn... goes great altogether too

On that note (and upon inspiration) I started an album on the subject! BIG, bold MUSHROOM heads were one of the 'gay gateway drugs' for me (if there is such a thing) Seriously! Seduced me right into the mahlstroem of awakening sexuality and pulled me fully onto the gay side... craving COCK, KNOBS, seed, the DNA of other bucks, the smell and taste of male pheromones! And big mushroom heads had me 'internally drooling' like a damn Pavlovian dog in heat!

That's the best: anon, promiscuous tops with big cocks brandishing brutal MUSHROOM knobs! That PLOP sensation!!! And well-practiced guys who nut with big pulses of jizz without making a sound! Not big on 'stealthing' here but in the days when guys still practiced the 'pull out before your cum' way of 'contraception' (lol) many a sneaky bastard would manage to slip his DNA passed the security check and plant it deep inside the novice's private chambers... and escape into the night without leaving a return address! HALLMARK MOMENTS for a young bareback tramp!

The best way to be 'initiated', rough, raw and by 'legions' taking their turns, celebrating total promiscuity! I say that in hindsight as all of the drugging, 'non-consensual', UNSAFE behavior would have abhorred me once! Now I'm 'on-board' with it!

Looks pretty! Restrained, controlled masculinity! All to focus pleasure on a receptive and still easily-available anus!

I like guys with what you call 'huge gaping piss-slits'. As a matter of fact, what I call 'dimpled, gaping piss-slits' are among my gay 'gateway drugs' that seduced me into cock addiction! To clarify one thing, 'cutting' as a repetitive obsession for S/M pleasures are out of my league. I found images of guys in a hardcore S@M scene making small cut on their chests like tribal people do (to prove themselves) or using hooks and what-not to pierce and suspend themselves with that! Must be 'a trip'! Guys wanting to be neutered, hmm, BEYOND comprehension. But in this group I respect that that many sub-cultures exists... maybe find myself 'intrigued' or shudder and cringe and move along... back to DIMPLED, GAPING, HUGE PISS-SLITS: Yes big fetish in the list of things that seduced me into the gay sex scene!!! I started out chasing girls, being in love, crushes, fucking the first (known slut) girl on a playground at age 15. Never thinking much about dicks... Then the teenage 'temptations' and growing obsessions started: guys with long hair (my dad HATED it and I was forbidden to grow mine) , guys in denims and boots, guys wearing denim vests without shirts, cut-off sleeves, guys in Jeeps, guys going COMMANDO in ragged denims, shamelessly and proud off showing their richly endowed anatomy and obvious circumcision status, with the crowning touch, the BIG COCK-HEADS! Some rockstars flaunted that look in posters teenage girls fainted over. Well it did a thing for me too... Then as I made my first awkward gay sexual explorations, I got obsessed with the 'finer features', flaring 'mushroom-like' cockheads. Specifically I noticed that some well-endowed guys had big, dimpled piss-slits. The first guy I noticed this on, seemed very aware of the taunting feature as he flaunted his dick every time he got a chance. And he was just a high-school senior! Total All-American, modified, circumcised lollipop cock with that dimpled, gaping slit. It made electrifying chills run over my back!!! I later learned that some guys with pee-hole constriction require (or request) a 'meatotomy' (sp.?) which basically means 'slicing off the pointed tip of the tiny pee-hole and the PISS-LIPS' creating a more pronounced, dimpled look that some big-dicked guys may have been blessed with to begin with... no telling. Either way, that vulgarly-masculine look intrigued me and eventually I had that modification 'copied' on me surgically. And interesting that my partner has a gaping piss-slit cock like that too. He just assumes (possibly correctly) it was 'always like that' since getting clipped as a kid. Either way, both he and I find that every cock-sucking gay boy zeros in on the dimpled slit and tongues it as he tastes the precum. I can relate to how that 'less-fortunate dude' you mention wanted to copy your 'virile, masculine, modified' look. It sure made me one happy camper!

When meeting new guys, I try to avoid politics, religion etc as much as I can. At best I start 'scoping them out' but quickly changing the subject when I sense the 'thing is going south'. The guy who calls me his 'best friend' (a sexy law enforcement guy) and my most regular fuck-buddy both have similar political views that totally clash with mine. AND hate each other! AWKWARD! Meeting new people, it's gone bad for me for telling 'too much about myself' (career, favorite candidates Bernie etc) and then be accused of absurd 'contributing to the exploitation' of this and that or being a 'racist' or whatever. Never saw that coming. Instead of my boner growing and getting to next base with little cumdumpster here I'm 'defending myself' against absurd allegations by a political half-wit or self-described animal rights activist! Learned about benefits of STAYING NEUTRAL early on though as a 144 lbs freshman at UCLA, going out into the gay world as a gay freshman, so green, I hadn't even gotten a full bareback anal bonding yet. Here I am trying to make small talk with party-boys and barflies, getting too 'smart' and not being understood about my deeper 'ponderings' about i.e. political change in China (post Mao) and what that all could mean for the future (1990s) of the world. Older gay guys, the kind that were totally self-absorbed with their West Hollywood microcosm would give me puzzled and irritated looks and say: "Why do you concern yourself with STUFF like that! It doesn't have anything to do with us!" (bar-flies? gays? Americans ?) DON'T ASK, DON'T TELL is always a good policy when you really just want to get laid. Some political convictions and dogmatic RELIGION to me are about as much a turn-off as bad breath. Hopefully I'll get to consummate my SEXUAL needs before learning more about the guy.... sometimes I discover on facebook who they really are "Oh shit, let's skip Margharita night plans we discussed!" (he might show me a new swastika tattoo) Had some of the best sex with a former Jehova's witness and a 'straying' Mormon though!

You know, watching some animals (like goats and dogs) lap up piss, their own and that of their breeding partner makes me think that something in us humans can be awakened to bring out the animal side in us. I have certainly met some guys who impressed me enough with their manner, looks, OOZING (perceived) virility, cockiness and so on that I could imagine being horny enough (as an amateur) to suck down his essence like my life depended on it. In the past I only had other guys beg me to 'piss in their mouths' but like a prude declined the offer. I have had guys later stand over me, unbutton their fly and release a fat pecker in my face, teasing it. A guy in leather jacket with his shades on comes to mind. I'll never forget that 'larger-than-life' perspective of that gorgeous cock dangling in my face, teasing me... it was in a public bathroom in a club in a blatantly taunting manner, aimed to entertain the random people walking in to their cheers and intrigued approval... but then dude put his junk away. I did think about the 'temptation' many times and could imagine swallowing his piss... I like all aspects and suggestions of 'impregnation', marking, collaring, a dude 'becoming part of me'... it is animal and ritual in nature and psychologically 'irreversible'! Once we take the step we have entered a new world, a seedier world, one that by suggestion alone will give us a boner and tingles again and again...

I have never done the 'piss thing' but reading your description of 'being marked by a top' I feel myself aroused in a strangely animalistic way...

A bottom can be thankful by not getting clingy or sounding 'needy'! Or not go psycho when you after a few dips into the fertile hole move on to pollinate other 'flowering holes' craving cock-pollen... If you want more, be chill about it and act like a dude, not like a rejected woman. No love letter please!!! lol