HoneyBuns1980

I was on the fence about going to the baths tonight. But, this one drove me right over the fucking ledge! I HAVE to go now!

As long as the top doesn't busy himself with wanting to stroke me off until I cum before he does, I want it to go on for as long as possible. I very rarely have become too tired to take a cock.

I think you're going to do it regardless if she knows or not. You won't be able to get it off your brain until you do. After that, you might not be able to stop. At the very least, you will likely want it even more and won't be able to rest because you're so preoccupied with it.

Life is SO short. Why spend/waste SO much time on defining labels? Particularly, defining labels for someone else?

I'm not at CumDump level just yet. But, I definitely wish I had a small group of friends and fellow raw bottoms to cruise and share tops with.

I discovered bathhouses in the late-'90's. There was one downtown that I took immediately that was presumably more non-scene than the others in the gay part of town. It's long gone now, and, I've only within the last year started going to the main 2 in the gay part of the city. I was barely legal and couldn't wait to get fucked. I had also recently began cruising the park, book and video stores, as well as a couple adult theatres. I really didn't have much luck at the bath, except for once this older White man - he had to have been in his early-50's, at least- who showed interest in showing me what it was really all about. There really isn't much worth relaying about the actual act itself, but, I just remember that he was inside me raw and TOLD me he came inside me. After he wiped off and left - I can't remember if we were in his room or mine - I swiped my hand back there hoping to feel a warm load of goo, but, I didn't really feel nor see anything. To this day I still believe he SAID he came just to pump himself up that he still could, but, I've never been convinced he actually did. I was so young and naive about and new TO sex that I never gave a single thought to using condoms when visiting the baths, parks and theatres to get fucked by anonymous older men. So, if that old White guy really didn't load me up that 1 time, I can't really say when and where my first load actually happened.

I don’t know about ABS/AVS clerks, but, some the clerks at my preferred bathhouse are definitely in play. At least 1 attempted to fuck me whilst I was in a sling. It was only later that I recognised him as an employee. And, I’ve seen at least 1 of his co-workers “going above and beyond” in the dark, too.

It’d be nice to find just 1 total top on earth who isn’t preoccupied with groping and/or trying to suck my dick and wanting to see me cum. Especially after repeatedly telling them my hole tightens and my level of arousal is zero if I cum from that type of manual stimulation. Odd that they’re genuinely uninterested that I will usually cum just from having their cock in my ass alone. Hell, sometimes I even cum whilst sucking! I don’t identify as a full-time mindless bottom bimbo. That’s only sometimes. And, IF they’re able to leave my dick alone. But, I’m willing to admit that it’d be quite a mental self-challenge for me to find out if I would be able to physically keep going after being made to cum in a manner that I neither wanted nor was ready to do so. I think it’d be advancing beyond a major psychological hurdle for me if I was able to do that.

You should do whatever your top wants you to do and let him make your cheeks available for whom ever he’d want sloppy seconds from.

OR Maybe YOU'RE just too sensitive when it comes to such things. Seems like it. Not everyone wants to feel obligated to converse with EVERY single person who hits them up with an IM. I don't, whether I have the time to get to it or not. If it fits your narrative to think that people like that are "so goddamned lazy", so be it. But, you're assuming quite a lot with what you said immediately following that. And, I could NEVER be so self-centered as to expect a "thank you" when giving a compliment. Never. ESPECIALLY at a hook-up site.

THIS!!! I don't understand why it hits so hard for apparently so many guys when there's no response. How hard can it be to just take the hint and simply move on? Why waste your time on someone who doesn't reply? If there's any remote interest, they'll reply eventually. Maybe they're too busy chatting elsewhere and will get to it when they can. I don't take it personally at all at other sites that have the IM feature if a guy doesn't respond. I simply delete the chat window. It's not that difficult. And, I NEVER block just because someone blew me off. That's weak. And, wanting someone who blew you off to block you just because they couldn't be bothered to reply to an IM? That's just fuckin' weird!

Finally got the 1st ‘Pox shot this week. Already have all 4 Covid shots, but have been apprehensive about making my weekly visit to the baths for the last few weeks. Yet, I hosted a door-ajar darkroom scene a few days before the ‘Pox shot with a guy I’m planning on hosting again next week. I’m still trying to hook-up, but just not at the baths with multiple tops anymore. Not sure if/when I’ll get back to that.

I had someone threaten to send my "faggot pictures" to my contacts a few months ago on my Google Voice number. I told 'em "go ahead. just be sure to use the good ones".

I’ve never been on Grinder, but I recently signed up with a similar hook-up site that seems to have an unusually high amount of crybabies when it comes to non-responses to messages. I don’t understand why they go out of their way to publicly inform the world that someone didn’t respond to their private message, and that they now want that someone to just block them instead. Just because they’re not responding to or even ignoring your message(s)? Seems kinda petty. Truth is, those are probably the same ones who continue to attempt to engage in conversation after you’ve already told them you’re not looking or not interested. Yeah, I ignore messages at that other site all the time. But, that’s also because a lot of guys can’t get beyond a thumbnail pic and don’t bother to actually read a profile before messaging. Fuck no I’m not going to reply to you if you’re skating past my profile containing my likes and dislikes. It’s all right there for you. Don’t come crying to me about being ignored if you’re not going to actually fucking read it.

Welp, I finally hosted a leave-the-door-ajar darkroom scene overnight. This hung guy had been hounding me for a couple weeks at another site, but I was just too nervous to do it. And, I repeatedly told him so. It was difficult to tell if he was trying to convince me how nice of a guy he would be because he really meant it, or, because he just wanted to use my hole. Well, last night he made it clear through all of my hemming and hawing that he "just want(s) sex. That's it". Fair enough, stud. He's a soul brother few years younger than me, so, I was skeptical about agreeing to this. I like older tops. "Older", as in at least 40. But, he had 8 inches for me! What was I supposed to do? I fiddled about for an hour, half-hoping he'd forget about it because I was taking so long. No chance. It was after 3.30am, and I was finally ready. I lit some candles and put on my "uniform"; a hoodie and knee-high socks, gave him the location info, and assumed the position on the bed so the first thing he'd see when he arrived was my bare butt in the air. Fuck yeah I was nervous as hell! More nervous than excited. I think the reverse will be true the more I do it. When I heard him enter, I couldn't believe it was really going to happen. I couldn't fucking believe I was actually doing it and that he was really here! "HOLY FUCKING SHIT!", I kept saying to myself. This was just a really big deal for me to be doing this, and, it felt more like an acknowledgment that I had crossed yet another point-of-no-return as a bottom. I wrestle internally with this all the time. He silently slid in behind me and half-undressed. He took it out and it flopped down on my butt with a smack a few times, and it drove me fucking crazy! He was holding something that wasn't yet at full attention, but, was still clear that it was something you were going to feel. "Oh man...", I whispered nervously. Probably a half-dozen times. I couldn't believe it was about to happen. He positioned me how he wanted - on all 4's - and jammed his tongue in my butt for a few minutes, and it was GREAT! I had asked him a week before if he prefered a pre-lubed hole waiting for him, or if he liked it dry so he could eat it first. I remembered his answer. But, when he started rubbing that big thang against my hole, I quickly reached for one of many lubes strewn about the bed. I especially grabbed for the NURU gel. I like the way it makes my hole so slippery! I had Magnums strategically placed at all 4 corners of the bed, and, I heard him tear open a packet. Yet, when I instinctively reached back behind me - not to confirm he was wearing one, but, just to guide him inside me - I didn't feel it. He'd yanked it off, or, maybe not even bothered to put it on at all. I didn't give a fuck. I was far more busy making damn sure I was well lubed before he entered me. Which, he did, slowly. True to my request. "Don't push in yet", I pleaded, as I patiently wiggled and worked my butt down on his meat. It was so hard! His cock, I mean. I'm always scared of big cocks, but, he just kinda held it there until I was comfortable enough to fully relax. Thankfully, it didn't take too long, and he was fully inside me. That's when he started holding me with both hands at my hips and thrusting. He was really beating it up, but, thankfully, it wasn't uncomfortable at all! He'd beat it up for a few, then, pull out and relax, then, get right back to it. It felt amazing. I tried really hard to keep my whimpering to a minimum, but, he didn't seem as concerned about volume levels as he grunted audibly and increased breathing heavily. I knew what that meant. And, I was ready to accept it. I'm one of those bottoms who doesn't like to be sucked nor stroked, but, can cum without manual stimulation just from being fucked - apparently this is sometimes called a sissygasm - so, I whimpered that I was gonna cum, and, that's when he really went to work! He was giving me everything he had, and I didn't give 3 shits about the chick in the unit across from mine hearing it. I came, and was a mindless mess at that point. He came a few moments after I did, got up, declined my offer of a towel waiting for him in the washroom, pulled up his tracksuit bottoms, and bounced out. I scurried to the washroom and reached for that towel as I felt it running down my leg. I wiped it off, but, might not next time. Especially if I'm not hosting. I think doing a slut walk of shame with a top's load seeping out of my butt would be awesome! I wouldn't say that he "broke" me, but, now I'm not so nervous about hosting such a scene anymore. It'll just have to wait until after I get that Monkeypox vaccine, hopefully this week. I guess I just really wanted to have 1 good fuck before that, as it had been a few weeks. Mission Accomplished.

I see them at the bathhouse I go to. I mean, they're available free. But, it's rare to see anyone actually use one.

It's been bare for me the last few months. All the way to full completion. I haven't been able to stop it when I'm at the baths. I go looking for it when I'm there. I've even ditched the whole "please don't cum inside me" routine now.

Hey, thanks for the perspective of a top stud. When I go to the baths I like to walk around lubed because I'm assuming tops don't want a dry butt. But, that automatically cancels-out the probability of getting eaten out, though. But, on the occasion that I do get loaded up, I leave it in there for the next guy, just in case he's into that sort of thing. Plus, I'm really starting to like that feeling of having a creamy butt! Even I can definitely tell the difference between lube and cum in there.

Feeling the same way here. Once you join, I don't think there's any turning back. But, I do want to join...

I can speak only as a black guy - and a bottom - but, I would think it's not such a big deal for black tops to hook-up with a bottom of a different ethnicity. Black tops tend to be fetishised and objectified by non-black bottoms. I doubt they're complaining about it, though. But, as a black bottom who lives in a painfully white major metropolitan area, I just assume that when I go to the baths that I will find far less action and interest than my non-black fellow bottoms. I'm genuinely surprised when a non-black top approaches me there. Not that I have a preference regarding such matters - but, it's typically the soul brothers (I love saying that 😍) who I attract most. By far the only white guys - just as an example - who look my way are the ones who assume I'm one of those BBC tops they daydream about. I guess the fact that I'm typically dressed in girls knee-high socks and not much else didn't give them any clues as to what my preferred role is. It can be tough seeing white guys (usually tops) going out of their way online to specifically mention they're not into black guys (typically the bottoms). As if they think quickly adding "just a preference" lessens the blow any. You know who you are. I don't mind to play the role of the mindless bottom bimbo for a guy if he's sincerely into me as a person. No, I'm not looking for love. But, it does help if the guy is genuinely interested in me, if only for the duration of a fuck. But, I can be one of the most stuck-up bitches you'll EVER meet if you make it clear or are giving indications that you're decidedly NOT into black guys, specifically. Sometimes I get the feeling that certain white tops would first fuck a dog before a black bottom. I ignore those guys with a vengeance and will NEVER give them the time of day.

Oh wow! So, Sniffies is primarily for anonymous hookups then? I signed-up a week ago and had no idea. Have always wanted to host a leave-the-door-unlocked darkroom scene, though. Been chatting with a guy nearby - he hit me up almost immediately after I created an account - but, I'm not really keen enough to make the time to go over there so he can shove his bare cock up my ass. Which, he's made fairly clear that's exactly what he wants to do, after eating me out first.

Your next immediate move should be to delete your account. If you don't, you might not ultimately be able to resist the urges that obviously consume you.

2 Sundays ago at the bathhouse. I like to go on Sundays because it's the Lights Out event. Brings out my inner mindless bottom bimbo side that I'm finding more and more difficult to suppress. I walk around with nothing on but a dark hoodie and thigh-high socks. Although I'm not necessarily a "Sissy" - however you want to define that - I'm defiantly a non-masculine bottom. Most tops don't seem into that, and, that's fine. I don't go trolling for just any swinging dick when I'm there anyway. I really don't. But, every so often, there'll be a guy who seems to have a fantasy or secret crush on a guy like me. Those are the ones I'm looking to please. I like to stand in a corner adjacent to the GH booths because it's apparently too dark for me to be seen when I do. But, with the aid of the mirrors on the walls, I can see who's coming towards me before they can see me. I seem to get the most attention from the soul brothers when I go to the baths in my sissy boy gear. I saw this one walking towards me and I made my move. Not directly TO him, but, near him before I scurried to the other end of the maze. I just wanted to make sure he saw me, and, waited for the reaction I was hoping for. I didn't look back over my shoulder to see if he was watching my ass as I walked. I can't help it. I don't do it deliberately, but, I know it moves in a way that guys like. After several minutes, I made my way back to my usual post in the darkened corner, and, sure enough, I could tell that the same guy who I had hoped saw me dash in front of him minutes before, was sitting on a bench in the opposite darkened corner, stroking something long and hard. I immediately made my way to the nearest GH booth, and waited for him to enter the adjacent one. I didn't wait long. Once I heard him close the door, I positioned myself up against the the hole ass first, and waited for him to do what I hoped he did best. He had trouble lining his cock up with my cheeks through the GH, as, I'm a few inches taller than he was. So, he said something - which, I couldn't really make out, but, knew what it was anyway - and next thing I knew, he was knocking on my door. I opened it for him, of course. He wasted zero time in positioning me exactly how he wanted me, and I was happily helpless as he did. He had me bent forward in no time and surprised me with how thick he was! He could tell I was struggling with it a bit - I can handle length better than girth - and seemed to enjoy it. Of course, I walk around already pre-lubed, but, I quickly applied a bunch more so I could fully accept that big thing inside my hole. I wanted it just as much as he did. He eventually worked it all the way in - it didn't take long for me to relax back there - and went to work. Truth be told, the actual fuck itself was rather uneventful. That's largely why I tend to want to avoid same-booth sex. It's too difficult to maneuver in such a small space. But, I have to do whatever the top wants, so. He was finished within a few minutes, sadly. But, he did exactly what I wanted when I heard him breathing heavily as he pumped away : "just keep going", I said. He might've replied "yeah?" And, I most likely responded with a breathy "yeah, I'll take it". I don't know why I always say that, but, I do. And, I did. We each thanked the other for a nice fuck and then went our separate ways. I didn't see him again the rest of the night.

I really didn’t BB much at all until fairly recently. That’s when I really began studying hypno and training videos.