UnsureAboutThis

I used to be a versatile top but, a few years ago, started my transition to what I am now--a total bottom. I had no idea how or why that happened because I always enjoyed being a top because it was less work (no messy anal clean-up), and I could always find a ready bottom when I needed to get off. I am a scientific sort of guy so I thought I'd do a little research to see if there is any scientific reason that could occur. I read many articles about this phenomenon but the one that resonates with me was one that stated that there are certain chemicals/proteins present in the ejaculate that, once absorbed, create a dependency on the host's ejaculate. If I understand the article correctly, it means that a when a bottom absorbs the top's cum it changes the bottom to desire it more and more with each load. I'm not sure about how "science" would explain this, but I know that, at least anecdotally, this is true in my case. As I said earlier, I used to be a versatile top, but I was sort of tricked, over time, into bottoming. At first, I started out telling the top that he would need to always wear a condom when he topped me but, little did I know, he was stealthing me. After absorbing several of his loads this way (again, unbeknownst to me) I wanted to try bareback but with the stipulation that he not shoot his load in me. He agreed but (I found out much later) whenever he topped me, he shot his first load in me and kept fucking me until he was ready to shoot his second load. At that point he would pull out and shoot that load on my back. I absorbed several loads through this deception which continued to change me. So, after a few months of that, I realized that I wanted him to cum inside me. I told him the next time he was fucking me that I wanted him to cum in me so I could feel what that was like. He happily agreed. He shot his load in me which I pushed out once he pulled out. He didn't say anything about me doing that but after a few more weeks/sessions of him shooting in me and then me pushing it out he told me that he thought that was rude and didn't want me to do that anymore. I thought about it and decided that I would keep his loads inside of me. I have found that now I actually want his cum inside of me. It has made me into his own personal cum whore, which we both seem to enjoy.

I used to be a versatile top but, a few years ago, started my transition to what I am now--a total bottom. I had no idea how or why that happened because I always enjoyed being a top because it was less work (no messy anal clean-up), and I could always find a ready bottom when I needed to get off. I am a scientific sort of guy so I thought I'd do a little research to see if there is any scientific reason that could occur. I read many articles about this phenomenon but the one that resonates with me was one that stated that there are certain chemicals/proteins present in the ejaculate that, once absorbed, create a dependency on the host's ejaculate. If I understand the article correctly, it means that a when a bottom absorbs the top's cum it changes the bottom to desire it more and more with each load. I'm not sure about how "science" would explain this, but I know that, at least anecdotally, this is true in my case. As I said earlier, I used to be a versatile top, but I was sort of tricked, over time, into bottoming. At first, I started out telling the top that he would need to always wear a condom when he topped me but, little did I know, he was stealthing me. After absorbing several of his loads this way (again, unbeknownst to me) I wanted to try bareback but with the stipulation that he not shoot his load in me. He agreed but (I found out much later) whenever he topped me, he shot his first load in me and kept fucking me until he was ready to shoot his second load. At that point he would pull out and shoot that load on my back. I absorbed several loads through this deception which continued to change me. So, after a few months of that, I realized that I wanted him to cum inside me. I told him the next time he was fucking me that I wanted him to cum in me so I could feel what that was like. He happily agreed. He shot his load in me which I pushed out once he pulled out. He didn't say anything about me doing that but after a few more weeks/sessions of him shooting in me and then me pushing it out he told me that he thought that was rude and didn't want me to do that anymore. I thought about it and decided that I would keep his loads inside of me. I have found that now I actually want his cum inside of me. It has made me into his own personal cum whore, which we both seem to enjoy.

This is my first post, be gentle. 😉 I grew up during the advent of HIV/AIDS so I saw first-hand many friends who ended up HIV infected and then watch these men succumb to the disease and die of AIDS, so I have always been an advocate for condom use and safer sex practices. However, I have a friend who I have fooled around with for years--mostly me giving him blow jobs and the two of us stroking together. After a while he wanted to take it a little further and I was kind of wanting to experiment with different things as well. He liked rubbing his cock in my ass crack and teasing my hole. I think he knew that it made me super horned up to feel his cock pressing on my hole so, at one point while we were doing that, he asked if he could fuck me. I was unsure I would be able to take his cock in my hole but wanted to see what feels like so I agreed to do it as long as he wore a condom. He obliged and fucked me for the first time. It hurt a bit at first but it made me realize how great it felt to feel another man's cock inside of me. We continued to see each other but now he was pushing me to let him fuck me bareback. I didn't realize that, at this point, he was often stealthing me and unloading inside of me. After a while I think something inside of me changed because I wanted him to fuck me bareback. He was happy that I was finally open to the idea of barebacking but I told him I wanted him to pull out and shoot his load on my back. So, with that, he started barebacking me and pulling out to shoot his load. He later confessed to me that he was actually shooting his load inside of me and then continuing to fuck me until he shot his second load which he would shoot on my back, so I was again unknowingly taking his loads. There must be something about taking a guy's load that way that changed me because, at that point, I wanted to feel his load inside of me. I told him I wanted to feel him cum inside me to which he happily complied. After we finished up I pushed his load out of my hole because I was still nervous about having cum stay inside of me. We fucked like that a few times and each time he watched as I pushed his load out of my hole after he finished fucking me. About the third or fourth time I did that, he told me that he thought that was rude and that I shouldn't push his cum out of my hole like that. We talked about it for a while and he said that if I was going to push it out that he just wouldn't cum in me anymore. I realized that I really wanted his cum now so I agreed not to push it out anymore. At this point I've probably taken enough of his loads that I could start my own sperm bank but it feels like with each load I take it bumps up my desire to take more. My buddy has told me that I should start taking loads from other guys now and play the field. Part of me really wants to but I'm not sure if I should or how I would make that happen.