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I actually don't have an issue with a top slamming in on the first thrust. I regularly have tops who want to see me in pain from that initial slam.

I find that tops struggle to cum just from fucking my hole - to the point some have said it's boring to fuck my hole. They have to jerk off to get to the point where they can then ram it back in to unload.

Would love a top to rip me open with that.

I'm attracted to women and want to be sexual with them and have relationships; whereas I'm not attracted to men and have no desire to have a relationship with a man. However I am simply unable to get sexually aroused when with a woman and am at the point where I can only achieve an erection and orgasm when being a bottom cumdump.

Yes jridge, I'm in that boat too. Especially try and deny it just after a fuck.

I hate the taste and my heart sinks when a top tells me to swallow. I do it - and some tops love the fact I don't like doing it.

I agree - a good top doesn't care or ask if a bottom is ok. In fact a good top should make the bottom cum before getting fucked so the bottom is under no illusions that sex is about a top's pleasure.

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... I hate cum. It's one of the primary reasons I bareback and I'm glad tops like cumming in my cunt because I hate cum on my face or in my mouth. I think it's very degrading taking it in the face though I sort of wish more tops would squirt on my face, both degrading and also humiliating that they don't think I'm worthy of taking their precious sperm inside me. I hate the taste too. I've almost puked the two times I've been made to swallow. One top found it quite insulting; the other laughed and mocked me for it. He almost seemed to get off on the fact I wasn't enjoying as much as I hadn't enjoyed him fucking me without lube. I want to be forced to swallow more cum and take more in the face - a bukkake or gokkun type scenario. Just a shame most tops seem to want to bury it in my smooth hole - I think they think I dislike that more - which I do after I come down from post-orgasm high - but most tops have left by the time that happens. More...

I love having my face slapped with a dick. Ultimate put-down for a bottom

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... Where are they? I don't mean gloryholes in saunas, but gloryholes in public toilets or other places. I really want to turn up and serve guys at a gloryhole for hours on end. I just don't know where to find them in London. More...

Physically, on my side. This way isn't painful for me and is the only time I've begun to enjoy penetration. Doggy and missionary normally hurt me, which is fine as the top gets off on it. Standing, bending over tends to be the worst.

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... Probably not for everyone. I'm sure there are many tops with average/small cock who only view themselves as tops. Equally I know there are lots of bottoms with sizeable dicks. For me, having a small cock only strengthens my submissive nature. It's yet another thing that I like tops to humiliate me about and remind me that being so small means I have no choice but to give up my hole as a sexual organ. The best tops I can remember are those who've mocked me for it and not even let me wank during a session to reiterate the fact I don't deserve any pleasure. They tend to be the ones who enjoy seeing me in pain from a fuck too. I also struggle to get and maintain an erection. I'm 23 and every doctor I've seen about it has not been able to understand why this is. I have slightly low testosterone levels, but they say taking additional supplements would not rectify the problem - they think it's mainly a psychological issue. Engaging in the type of sex I do probably adds to the psychological element too. To top it off I cum very little and invariably rather quickly. I've had a couple of tops who've picked up on this and used it as a way to degrade me. They make me cum at the start of a session and I'm one of those boys who loses his libido after cumming. So making me cum, making me eat my cum and then fucking me without any care for the damage you cause to my cunt is the best way of abusing this little fucktoy. More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... I'm keen that this blog is quite interactive and want to answer as many questions as possible - so make comments, ask me questions and I'll make a regular thing of doing a Q&A post every week or so. More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... When I say anonymous, I don't go to saunas, get naked and spread my legs for any top who's wandering past (I want to, but can't quite bring myself to it just yet). The tops who fuck me I generally meet online, craigslist or barebackrt. I always ask if they're neg. I know tops lie, but if they say they are neg that's enough for me. I suppose it's me trying to satisfy my conscience that I'm being more responsible by checking - but there's a chance I've taken a poz load and I don't know about it, or who dumped it in me. I can't quite work out whether that element of risk is the part that turns me on, or whether it's just the general fact I let random men fuck me raw. What I do know is that it's addictive. Even if a guy doesn't cum inside me, I can never imagine being fucked with a rubber ever again. More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... If you're in London, or visiting London and you fancy absuing a bottom cunt and dumping a load hit me up on barebackrt: SubmissiveFaggot. I'm also a member of breedingzone.com, where my profile is also submissivefaggot. More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... I've never been one for Twitter and all that, but having been a member of barebackrt and breedingzone.com for a significant time, I thought why not write a blog about my thoughts and escapades as a gay bareback bottom? It's not meant to be serious or funny - merely my reflections on my sexual preferences and experiences as well as my opinions on sleazy gay sex. I'm sure the majority of people will think it's wierd or dirty, but hopefully those who do enjoy reading it are the type of guys that like bottoms like me, or are bottoms with similar cravings to me. Hopefully the first of many posts! More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... I'm 23 years old. I always thought I liked women. I still think I like women. But up until the age of about 21 I was a very shy boy who had no self confidence, who still has low self-esteem and never knew how to get with girls. When I first started watching porn I very quickly got into rough porn, sites like facialabuse.com or meatholes.com. I used to fantasize about being a guy who could be that macho and dominate and abuse women in that way but quickly realised I couldnt. This is partly down to my mental attitude - I like to think I'm a nice boy, brought up well, university educated and with a standard job. But mostly it's physical - I'm skinny, weak, have hardly started shaving properly and don't have much body hair. Moreover, I'm not well hung, at all - about 5 inches when erect but I have substantial issues getting and maintaining erections. To top it off, even when I do cum, which is mainly when I'm semi hard, I cum very quickly and not much. Because of this I quickly started exploring femdom and consequently rough gay sex, or I imagined myself being the girl in the rough straight porn I watched. From there it's been a spiral into now fantasising and partaking in abusive sex with anonymous men. I don't do it a lot, and this blog won't be about me racking up the number of loads I've got in a year etc., primarily because when I do get fucked I feel guilty and dirty and ashamed for a time after. I try and persuade myself that I want to be with girls and so it goes on but eventually I resort back to gay sex. I have been with the odd girl, but I don't get sexually aroused by them. I don't necessairly get sexually aroused by men and I'm CERTAINLY not into relationships, or any form of luvvy duvvy aspect to being with a man. I on't like kissing other men or cuddling other men. It's just about my holes and body being abused and molested by men. Where does bareback come into this? Well, when I lost my virginity at 19 the man who fucked me used a condom. It remains the only time I've ever been fucked with protection. It just seems that an inherent element of being a submissive, masochistic young twinky bottom is bareback. Because I get off on being made to feel like a useless piece of meat whose sole purpose is being fucked like a whore, being fucked bareback by men I don't know adds to that pleasure. I'll say this once and won't repeat it - it's naive, irresponsible and will doubtless cause me health issues at some point in time. I know that and I'll probably regret it later down the line. But right now the only form of sexual arousal I get is from being a dirty bareback fuckhole and I've come to realise there are plenty of men, especially older ones, who are quite happy to take advantage of my naivety. More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... Before everyone asks, the picture at the top of the blog is me getting fucked. To get readers in the mood for the type of sex I indulge in, here's a video of me getting fucked: http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=p3lhz-G441- More...

Click here to see Submissive Faggot's original blog post... I know I said below I wasn't going to keep a count of the number of loads I've got, but I know people reading this are going to want to know how much sex I've had up to now and a bit more about me so... I'm 5ft 10, 10 stone, skinny, not much body hair, very tight hole. I can be quite fem in bed - I whine a lot and am quite interested in crossdressing. I have a thing for tops who enjoy bottom's feet and mine are are small, soft and very feminine. I'm Jewish and right or wrong, get off on being racially abused, whether it be by white guys, black guys and especially Muslims. (I have an unfulfilled fetish of being raped by a group of guys with Nazi sympathies but I'm sure I'll come back to that.) Lost my virginity at 19 to a random business guy whilst in a hotel in London. It wasn't great - it hurt even though he was quite small and he came pretty quickly on my face. I had played around with a few older men before then - they'd fingered and groped me but nothing more. Since 19 I can't remember exactly who's fucked me, probably because they've all been strangers. It's less than 20 but more than 10 - only two of those have fucked me more than once and all since the first have been raw. Not all have cum inside me though. Most have but a couple have been in my mouth, face or on those feet of mine. Most occasions have been rough and painful, though unfortunately not enough tops ignore my pleas and actually have mercy with me when I wish they didn't. I bleed quite easily from sex and I like it when tops get off on that and try and make me bleed. Think that's all that jumps to mind right now, but will go into more detail about some of these encounters at some point no doubt! More...

Not sure where to put this, but have just started a blog about my bareback sex life, my thoughts etc. Sure it won't appeal to many, but check it out and follow if you like. It's submissivefaggot.blogspot.com

bump - would like to hear tops' opinions on this. As a bottom, I find it degrading being made to cum before taking cock.

About a month ago I had bareback sex with a anon top who I met online. He said he was neg and clean, which is always enough for me to open my hole up raw. For the past week I've had a lot of itchiness, bleeding and discharge from my anus and itchiness and burning at the tip of my cock. I got diagnosed with Gonorrhea, Chlamydia and rectal Chlamydia by the clinic today. I went back to the top on bbrt and told him, that it must have been him because it's been a while before that since I'd had bb sex and why didn't he say anything. To which he replied that I got what I deserved and that slag bottoms deserve to get infected with all sorts. Should tops care if a bottom they fuck catches something?

As a botom, there have been times I have taken cock raw then had second thoughts and asked the top not to cum inside me. Only once has the top listened to my request - if a bottom lets it in bare he should be prepared from that moment on to get bred.

Just got a load now. Top was a old policeman and seriously rough. No lube at all and made me cum first before fucking me. HAd a thing for my feet too so spread half his load on my feet then rammed back in me for the final few spurts. Feel incredibly sore and raw. No idea what his status was either.