tallslenderguy

my FB, missed Him last night and i have to work tomorrow and Tuesday... 13 hour shifts at the hospital, so i don't fuck on those days... well, maybe Tuesday when i don't have to take care of patients the next day . He's on the DL, so i try not to initiate, but wanted Him bad, so tried to compose something to spark Him. He just left me cum filled before holiday dinner with His family. Was glad He could fit me in (He can always fit in me). i wrote: "Hey, just got home from the gym. i have to work tomorrow and Tuesday, but just got out of the shower if you feel like unloading a nut in your bitch"

Came by late tonight. He's Bi, but i don't think He's had a gf for awhile. Pretty sure i'm the only guy He has been with? i think i''ve got Him convinced to not jack off, that i always want His lust and load any time He's horny, i've gotten good at getting ready fast for Him. i think He still feels like He has to perform, make it last. i've told Him i'm fine with how long or how fast He fucks, as long as He leaves happy and drained. i'm totally fulfilled.

i had a Christmas breeding. my FB had a little time between family events and said He was hard and horny. 🙂 He's pounded me 3 days in a row. He likes to pound till i'm sloppy, so, yeah. mission accomplished. ❤️

Just got back from the gym, no drips, no runs, no errors. 🙂 A real accomplishment. Lately, once He's got me opened, He likes to pull out all the way, then plunge back in balls deep, then pull out all the way, hole gaping, then plunge back in. i wonder if He realizes He is pumping me full of air when He does that? Would be kinda hot if He knows that and does it on purpose lol, but it does make it harder later on when He is gone and i'm trying to hold HIs cum in and absorb it lol. i know other guys can relate ❤️

Yesterday evening, and then again just a few minutes ago. 28 year old body builders have a lot of stamina, i am officially pounded. Christmas eve, and i knew He was getting off early today, so i put off going to the gym in case He needed to nut. Damn, He did. i usually feel when He nuts inside of me, and i did... but He kept going, and then it seemed He did again... but He kept going like He was trying to tame a raging beast within... then again and quietly withdrew. He's always a quiet cummer, so i'm glad i can feel His cum when He climaxes. i am so wet and opened. Be kinda fun going the gym that way. Always fantasize about the hot Guys at the gym, wishing They were horny and needing to breed. i always try to hold my Tops seed in and absorb Him, but i may end up with a wet spot today on my sweats today.

Listen to your instincts. i had a scammer pull that on me, and it was pretty sophisticated. Met a guy online, profile said 18. We were chatting online and He sent His phone number and we started texting... sexting really. Then whoever it was said: "I have a confession to make, promise you won't judge me." i told him i wouldn't, and then he tells me he's really 17, but will be 18 in another month. Says he is living on his own with a room mate, and weaves a tale. i pulled back and told him i didn't judge him, that i knew what it meant to be a gay teen ager. i asked him about doing things with guys his own age, he said he only liked older, and i told him he was gonna have to wait till he was 18. He continued to send naked pics, trying to engage. i changed the topic, trying to be supportive, but non sexual.... then he disappeared. The next day i got a call from a different number claiming to be a Sargent with a Fort Myers Florida police department. Red flags went up (i'm trained on scamming techniques), when asked if i was __________________, then asked me to confirm my address (which they had wrong). i told him i would not give out that information over the phone not knowing who he was. He said, i just told you who i am, then rattled of some numbers and said they were his badge number. Then proceeded to say that the guy talking to me parents had reported me and were coming in that afternoon, and he just wanted to clear it up if it was a misunderstanding. He was pretty good at being intimidating, he said if i would not cooperate that he'd have to swear out a warrant for my arrest. I told him i hadn't done anything wrong and if he wanted my cooperation he'd have to send me his credentials so i could confirm he was who he said he was. That never happened, and i put it together that it was just an elaborate scam. i've encountered a lot of scammers online, but this was by far the most sophisticated.

Most cultures deem 18 years old as old enough to become a soldier and learn to kill other guys. That's "creepy." Make love, not war.

i'm a critical care nurse, and have performed thousands of exams. They all start with determining if the patient is alert and oriented to their self, place, situation and time My first question is: "Tell me where you are?"

Ditto @blackrobe Off the cuff, the description sounds like herpes, could also be syphilis. Unlikely a shaving rash on the shaft.. But the internet of guessing won't diagnose a STD, i'd recommend you get it checked out.

Language disconnect. Yeah, probably more often than we realize. Even the courts wrestled with what constitutes sex when Clinton was brought up on the carpet re Monica Lewinsky. Ultimately, i think language is subject to the individuals using it at the time (context) vs a carved in stone meaning that everyone always agrees on. Seems the word sex is a polysemy. For me, from a strictly physical perspective (and i don't believe sex is ever "strictly physical) sex involves the Top having an orgasm in me. Without His orgasm in me, it's still foreplay. But i believe trying to reduce sex to 'just' a physical act requires repression/suppression/denial of our other parts (emotion, thought). i think that's where we encounter all the differences on what constitutes sex. i'm really specific when i am communicating with another person about having sex... i spell it out: "i want you to penetrate me with your cock and have your orgasm inside of me." lol, that's the simple, quick explanation, i can get way more complicated , but i never just use the word "sex." i see a lot of profiles where the best guys can come up with is the vagary: "looking to have fun." wtf? i won't even approach those guys lol Making love? For me, that happens when lots of my parts holistically (i.e., physical, mental, emotional...'spiritual?') and lots of His parts engage/connect while penetration with the cock is happening. And i've had that happen with anonymous walk in with a complete stranger... i'm not sure how well it can be quantified? I've literally had to bite my mattress to keep from declaring my undying love for a Guy when He manages to fuck me in such a (seemingly) intentional way that (i perceive) all those parts are engaged and connecting from both sides. And i consider that explanation a gross and inadequate simplification. i think words are only a part of language and communication, and we have to do a lot of asking and exploration, listening and hearing to truly communicate.

It's a fun topic, and i jokingly chose a random, high number. After a day of cruising, it was not unusual for me to have difficulty remembering how many guys that day, let alone how many over a lifetime. But honestly, it's never been about the numbers for me. It was about the craving for connection in that magical way with another guy. The bonding of mutual desire and a very intimate level. i cannot think of any other experience where two people can touch each and have a soul exchange with an otherwise stranger, in a relatively short time. The saying: "make love, not war," comes to mind. Imagine if mankind spent its hormonal energy fucking instead of killing and destroying what a different world this would be? The act crosses so many boundaries. Definitely better and more effective than a handshake.

i wrote back channel to one of the conversation participants who asked, that i'm "exaggerating." sorry, i was playing around, thought others would catch on i was inflating :-). For those truly interested, i have not been fucked >1000 this year lol. About 3-5x a week this year, it varies. Prior to the internet and apps? 3-5x a day wasn't unusual, i suspect for a lot of us. Cruisy places were where we hooked up, and they were public parks, restrooms, BH, Adult book stores, etc.. It was not unusual at all to get fucked 3-5x, one right after the other in a hormonal feeding frenzy by Guys watching you get fucked by Another. It was rare for me to go to a cruising location and not get bred. Even when the internet first started, i got a lot of Guys in AOL chatrooms. It was new. And CL? Place an ad and Guys would respond. i got a lot of anonymous walk in that way. I think it's not as quick or easy hooking up with aps in today's cruising world.

i was joking. i've never counted, but i've been getting fucked for 40 years and just doing dirty math. This year has been a light year, and >1000 just this year. So, who knows when there are years when i was getting several a day? It's a wonderful life... in keeping with the situation. ❤️

This morning. my awesome FB. He leaves me feeling like a rag doll. He's this mass of muscle and He alternates between kissing my back and shoulders while He fucks, lying on top of me, and mostly pounding hard. i feel so amazing after. He really likes how i squeeze His cock when He's inside me, so i do that a lot and milk Him that way. When i suck Him, i rub His cock tip on my face and get His pre cum all over. Today i told Him i do that to get His scent on me, so every time i breath for hours after He is gone, i still can smell Him on me. He seemed to like that.

i lost count after 707,231

Okay, this is gonna be longish. i went back a half hour, presumptuously, because of your comment that your "ranting" started the last fifteen minutes... so i may have taken you too literally (though in my defense, i did go back 30 minutes lol). Right before writing my response though, you rescued me from my folly and i went back to the 20' mark and listed to Jons question, and the subsequent response, so i'll start there. At ~20' mark Jon asks: "Did they conceive of immigration. Did they see themselves as homogenous. Did they view the fissures between, let's say, Baptist and Lutheran and Calvinist and Quaker. Did they view those fissures as anything other than just disagreement civically, or did they see some of those things as more uniquely American. Did they think Protestant was American. Catholic was, well, maybe we can teach them?" Guelzo responds, as you mentioned, with a reference to black in the military, citing Washington... but i think he also replies to the religion question, though not specifically using any of the four Christian sects, he uses Jewish religion... but the quote from Washington, and the point being made doesn't strike me as a deflection, maybe even more inclusive since he (Washington) included Jewish religion? i agree that (and even wish) that there was more discussion on religion, but i think his response was less specific in maybe an attempt to include race vs exclude religion? He answers: "The leader of the Jewish congregation in Newport Rhode Island, write to him. They're very anxious. What's going to be our future. Are we going to be part of this American experiment? And his response, which i strongly suspect was written by Alexander Hamilton, "this government gives to bigotry no sanction, gives to persecution, no assistance, and asks only that the members of it behave as good citizens." It's the only standard that Washington lays out." At the ~54' mark, Jon asks: ...what is the bias [lists nations of origin then asks]: "Who are the heritage Americans?... "is it their religion? Is it where they are from? Their complexion?" At ~1:03 Guelzo, i think, responds more to the whole question instead of parsing out just religion. To me, he seems to respond to Jons list as a group vs individually. While i think religion has played a far bigger role in this country than this discussion goes into, i do not get the feel the respondents were avoiding or deflecting? Guelzo responds: "...Some say-if you're going to have a nation, it must be built out of these very solid materials, like race, or religion, or language, or culture." So, Guelzo includes religion on a an inclusive list that he juxtaposes against building a nation on an "idea." He goes on for a bit on the divisiveness of those "materials," and ends up with an all encompassing , (and hopefully less divisive?) label ("title") of "citizen" for those who would be part of the "American experiment." I wonder if he is looking to find a way to supersede (transcend?) the former list of what "some say... a nation must be built of"? He concludes: "Everything else [including religion?] is temporary. Everything else is improvisatory." A conclusion that would no doubt have the writers of the pledge of allegiance up in arms, not to mention those who wrote the Declaration "...all men are created equal, endowed by their creator....." Hmm, maybe some gay influence, writing of how men are "endowed?" Guelzo goes on to grouse that he's been labeled "...everything from a Trotskyist to a Christian Nationalist." Which may speak more to the perception of the hearers than the state of being of Guelzo? At the 1:13:30' mark, Guelzo seems to depart from quoting elitists, as does Freeman. They both end by quoting a 'common?' citizen: Guelzo quotes a Swedish immigrant writing to his family in Sweden: "....my cap is not worn out by having to take it off when a rich man rides by in his carriage." Freeman quotes a "someone" (apparently another non elitist? "...when i'm on the street, i do not need to bow down to someone, i can actually stand up." If nothing else, this post is colorful? my response to the video has been adjusted though, added too? i do think Jon's interview (and most discussions of this sort) would benefit from inclusion of someone from the proverbial 'other side.' i wonder if he could have gotten a history professor from Hillsdale College?

I asked @tobetrained if it was okay to share my private responses publicly and he gave the okay. i want to be clear as well, how much i value him and his thoughtful replies. To me, it's nothing but good and healthy to present views that add different perspective in these discussions. i'm not even an amateur when it comes to history, so sometimes i feel like i'm coming from a place of ignorance, i am grateful for shared knowledge and opinion. These are my private responses, unmodified and sans @tobetrained replies, but most of the content is in the preceding entry above and hopefully this won't be confusing: First Response: Hey, thanks for sending this and i think it's fine for you to add it to the online discussion. You seem better informed about history than me. The challenge for me is i am not a professional historian, so not unlike the discussion we have had about healthcare, i end up extending trust to authorities who do have a background. With science, i have enough understanding that i can look for evidence when someone makes a claim, which to me is the next layer up from "authority." Scientists have to publish claims in journals, then other authorities get the opportunity to pic it apart. i guess historians publish papers too, and others can pic their claims and assertions apart, but the how of substantiating history is different than science. Not something that can be replicated in an independent double blind study. Take the bible for instance.... i'm a little familiar with that. Lots of versions, lots of debate. i appreciate your questioning, disputing claims that might go right over my or others heads, but how do we choose between your (or anyones) conclusions or another's? Second Response: idk... i appreciate your questions, and oft opposing view point. i need to re-watch with an eye towards your points. i do not get the impression that Richardson is purposely manipulative, maybe inadvertently so due to unconscious bias? This is my first encounter with Guelzo. When it comes to "who knows," and sources you listed. i confess i'm used to more specific citations that can be substantiated lol. When i read that in your original post, it was sort of overwhelming. my feel was, i'd have to read entire books or go through several courses that i do not have subscriptions too.... By comparison, when i am having a healthcare discussion with someone about a possible intervention, i would cite a specific study, paragraph, etc., with a link to the actual point i am making. i do not know if such a method is available in this discussion? i'm currently rewatching the last half hour of the video with with @tobetrained 's input about deflected question re religion. Hopefully i'll catch what he is pointing out. i'm watching the last half hour, even though he notes it in the last 15 minutes 🙂

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EEeek. That's one party i'd skip, i was being more ethereal when referring to the "universe", more like gratitude to invisible influences out there... if there are any, for such a wonderful connection with another Guy. It's not really rational or born out of any specific belief, more like i am overwhelmed by feeling so good and grateful, i just want to include anyone or anything responsible in my gratitude.

i'm reading a common theme: "gratitude." i definitely feel that, and it extends to the universe lol.

i relish connecting with a Guy wholly. i do not experience (or want to experience) sex in a one sided way. i am not doing Him a favor, and He is not doing me a favor. We both want to fulfill, please and be pleased by each other. We are naturally attracted to each other and experience connection, and maybe even a bond, in a symbiotic act. If it's quid-pro-quo, i'll pass till i find the right Guy Who wants/needs me as much as i want/need Him.

Two times today, earlier at about 1030 this morning, then about 15 minutes ago. This morning was a new guy, young guy who hit me up on squirt, says he's married to a woman and he'd never been with t guy before... pretty sure that's true. He was really nervous the first time. i set it up as anonymous walk in and made it as comfortable as i could for Him. me naked and ass up waiting, door open. He was so nervous the first time that He couldn't get hard, so i offered to suck Him and He came really quickly, only semi hard. He's a really sweet guy, gives off a great vibe so it's really natural and easy to love on Him. This time, He really wanted to succeed with fucking me, and with a bit of encouragement, He did. Was a totally sweet breed. He left happy and was writing an hour later saying He was hard and wanting to "pound me." i didn't jack off, i really prefer not to cum using my penis, i love if i getting fucked often enough, to have my Tops orgasm be my orgasm. i love the intensity of going a long while without cumming, it really makes receiving more intense for me both physically and psychologically. i think it makes it better for the Top too, because i'm pretty voracious to give Him pleasure lol. So my sweet FB left happy, and i'm of course totally happy too. That dazed after feeling lasts for hours with me, and i have His cock scent all over my face so every time i take a breath, i'm breathing Him in. Fuck, i'm high from both of them.

The last two days, my long time FB. i was in Hawaii for a week, so seems we both went through some withdrawal. While i'm bottom, there's a part of me that really loves to give pleasure to my Guy, and he loves to be penetrated and fucked, though i do not cum in him. One thing i really love about the close to 1000 times He has bred me (every time we are together) is that i have never cum having sex with Him. i have discovered how satiated, satisfied, i can be having a Guys orgasm inside of me and experiencing His orgasm as mine when He has it inside of me. i tried viagra for awhile, so i could get around my brain and be able to fuck and give him what he wants, but i had some really bad side effects, so i told him about a month ago that i was taking it for him, but had to stop. He was totally cool about it, and it sort of re-energized the Top in Him, but there has been a couple of times since stopping with the viagra that i've just spontaneously gotten hard and fucked him. Last two days were the second and third time that has happened. After, it seems like He went twice as long fucking me than He usually does, and He has a lot of stamina just on a usual basis. He's a body builder, so when He plows me, it's a major pounding for a long time. It's so fucking awesome, i feel like a rag doll by the time He nuts in me, and He seems particularly happy as well. life is good.

i too am concerned about the importance of competition as a factor of growth, creativity and innovation. On the flip side, i think some things like pharmaceutical development could benefit from removing the 'middleman' profit taking element that often exists in a competitive dynamic. The current system of drug development by profit taking pharmaceutical companies is largely subsidized by our tax dollars. Why not take those same tax dollars and hire scientists directly to develop medications. We could incentivize competition by paying bonuses on things like finding cures vs med management of disease, to name just one area that pharma exploits for profit. Scientists can compete amongst themselves and incentives can be paid directly to those doing the research while eliminating the middle person who doubles cost in profit taking. i do not believe socialism should be universal, but is there a place for socialism with modifiers that encourages competition while eliminating non productive elements that simply profit off anothers efforts without producing anything of social value in return? "Indicators suggest that the biopharmaceutical industry, which is largely enabled by government investments in basic research, is thriving. From 2000-2019, U.S. spending on pharmaceuticals increased from $253 to $345 billion.... The increase in pharmaceutical sales has also generated enormous profits for the pharmaceutical industry. In another study, we recently showed that from 2000 to 2018, 35 large pharmaceutical companies had cumulative revenue of $11.5 trillion and net income (earnings) of $1.9 trillion. Moreover, that study also showed that large pharmaceutical companies had median net income margins of 13.8%, significantly greater than those of other large corporations in the S&P 500 (7.7%) and similar to those of other research-driven companies." [think before following links] https://www.ineteconomics.org/perspectives/blog/us-tax-dollars-funded-every-new-pharmaceutical-in-the-last-decade