magimix

I have just stayed awake all night 1 g of coke, hot, horney and sexed up. contacted an escort top who i used to see regularly a couple of years ago - visits fell off after I had surgery and could not get up to the sort of activities i wanted to and when i could after 2 months I picked up with a tatooted poz guy i had an affair with almost 1 2years ago - call him Poz Pig. Ironically, over the last few years I have moved on at a pace towards raunchy dirty pig sex. it sort of started when i met Poz Pig, perhaps this need to breed is in all of us - a primeaval instinct. To be honest - I don't bareback - not with abandonment anyway, if i do it's usually a lapse - a dip in and a no, no more. i am the sensible product of the 1980s - pre combination therapy when HIV was a death sentence. I use t o volunteer in my youth for HIV organisations. I had a relationship with Poz Pig, who was infected pre retrovirals and had to go through all the AIDS diseases which are now uncommon. I suppose i've changed, life's changed - I'm not the person I was. Rough pig sex works me in a way vanilla plain doesn't. Apart from the odd lapses, use condoms when I fuck and get fucked. In backrooms and saunas (and indeed with escorts) figuring those who bareback or tolerate bb or is happy with risk taking, is pretty easy. Ive used Poz escorts who I know breed and enjoy breeding, I suppose it brought me closest to something that speaks directly to me, although it's always been fucking with condoms with them. Increasingly for me, the type of sex I have and need is so much an integral part of me I can no longer separate. Poz Pig - with an undetectable viral load has fucked me bare and he's turned me to being fisted - we meet up to do this every month or so - the last 2 times in a sauna with me in a sling - it was incredible - to be opened up wide, punch fucked and then alternated with Poz Pigs bare cock fucked into my wide open hole, surrounded by a ring of guys wanking and shooting their hot load over my chest and strangers working their hands into my already open hole. This is the type of sex that does it for me now. These guys would have been pretty turned on by shooting and wanking into my open hole and I would have wanted that, but Poz Pig is responsible and we do discuss risks and levels of sensible behaviour. In fact we have decided to go back to safer sex - it was just slipping into what I needed - i went through the speculum and piss fucking me. This July I will be turning 50. I have never had a proper fuck - a big part of fucking for me is the giving up of your hole to another man, letting him enter me, occupying me, letting him take control - it's can also be incredibly intimate. increasingly I find a condom a huge turn off , when fucking I want to feel the man inside me, not rubber, I want to feel his cock raw, hard, slippery with precum, I want to allow the precum to work on my arse, to allow the precum to lube my hole and to feel the cock head enter me, forcing open my arse. I want to feel know that he's shot his load in me, entering me, filling me inside with hot cum, an expression of ownership, an indication of having been taken, feeling the cum slip out, knowing that I've been worked wide open. Fucking is about sharing and establishing a closeness and having cum inside is so much a part of that. For me it is also about owning and laying claim - and having your cum deep inside someone symbolises that so well. Dare I say, breeding and and being bred fits that bill even better - a primitive instinct in all of us - the laying of ownership is permanent , being bred by someone who means something to you is like a coming together and an establishment of closeness and a sharing, a strong act of possessing. As i approach my 50th birthday this July, I have made a decision which I have struggled with. I can't live the rest of my life without having ever having had a man inside me the way I need it. I know it seems a bit mawkish - surely lots of men have great sex with condoms, For me, perhaps it's an evolution of who I am, an expression of what I am and a way of actioning what is meaningful to me. Perhaps a naive part of me feels that changing contexts mean we might have to re evaluate what we are abel to live with balanced with what it means to us and whether we are prepared to put up with the consequences. With combination therapy, people with HIV are living longer, almost normal lives - lets not mislead ourselves HIV is still a very serious term condition with very potent medication required to manage it adn serious side effects. My own life is changing, fucking strangely wasn't an important sexual activity for me. About 4 years ago it changed - I discovered my arse, my sphincter and my second sphincter. A small selecton of (embarrassingly) smallish toys (long disposed off) has now become a huge array of mega toys worthy of a Soho shop, fist sized sculptural objects that look more suited as door stops or garden ornaments. I have discovered the intense satisfaction that good arse play brings -the intense shuddering body shaking orgasms that can only be achieved through expert lengthy and deep anal work. It was a revelation being fisted and a happy day when I stumbled onto my second sphincter. I've turned into a pig, I have a pig cunt, I enjoy using it, am vastly turned by being fucked publicly on a sling, even more so if there's a queue! Recreational chems - yes, there are risks - are increasingly common (with gay men anyway) and for those of us who are pigs, have certainly enhanced what we do and experience - sex will never be the same again. There is a part of me that still thinks HIV - where we can should be avoided and safe sex is the answer. There's also another part of me that's now so different to who i was a few years ago. Arse play, fucking and the importance of having and feeling the cock and cum as part of that, and as part of what it all means, has changed for me and not having or being able to do this is increasing leaving a void and unnatural completeness. I'm also too far down the pig road - bare cock and cum sprayed holes are what turns me on. So I have reached a decision, I will make contact again with the escort from 2 years ago. I've looke dhim up on Gaydar - he has tracked me and replied - let's call him Dom Top - two years ago, a definite connection was there - a muscled 6' 4' dominant active top who seemed to know what I needed and was prepared to edge me along, pushing my boundaries, giving me a safe space to play out my darkest fantasies, the mixture of hard, rough and at times physical and verbal humiliation interspaced with what an only be described as gentle protectiveness, had been starting to work perhaps too well, I was no longer just accepting a submissive role but was beginning to believe it and to want it very much. I felt that he knew me better than I did and seemed to tap into a darker more troubled side that I had buried. He had started to take me on a path that I was not sure I want to be on. After all this was the escort - it's still fresh in my mind - who on my first visit fucked me hard - and then pulled out his cock from my arse and then forced it in my mouth - I enjoy the company of escorts but rarely do they shoot their load - and the very full cum filled condom off his cock, made me - shot his load - taking me and understand if things hadn't happened as they did, and I continued to see him, I start to enjoy being used by a Top. Since then Poz Top has taught to trust another enough take a fist deep inside, to experience, accept and enjoy being violated and eing violated, to trust another to he's also pissed deep inside me and gave me my first bare fuck. I get the sense that Dom Top will ethat when fisting me on and accept my part in meeting subjecting me to - Poz Pig and Dom Top were the 2 guys who introduced me to my darker side, bringing out the pig in me. I will work out a plan to resolve my uncertainties involving both of them. As I approach my 50th birthday, it is time to allow the darker side of me to emerge.

... I dip both holes if he's a hot fuck and in a sling or fucked standing bent over, will even get a bit of a kick if he's reluctant from forcing my wet cock in his mouth and face fucking him. I don't bother if he's on his back, legs over my shoulders- save the squats for the gym I say- I'm just a lazy fucker I suppose

New years eve in shower in sauna- slim young guy with tight hole. Fucked him face pressed against wall tiles, hairy butt pushed out- furry friction always does it for me worked him open, pulled out to shoot, my cock pressed against his hole so that he felt my hot load and fucked the cum back in. Left the dirty fukka fingering his wet cum drenched open hole.

Forgot to add if you're looking for a hot piss fucking chem friendly top, try Tom (qx men). Friendly guy but say the word- can he pound

Is the viral load reduced when piss fucking, as the piss dilutes the cum? (or 'kills off'?)

I think total tops just haven't met the right guy! If I had to categorize myself (rather meaninglessly?) I would define myself as a bottom who enjoys topping. For me they're very different experiences. As a bottom, you give up control and get pleasured (if he does his job well!), fool for not taking this offer, also I think the orgasm I get from being fucked is different from being fucked. When I fuck, I get my pleasure from the effect I give the bottom ie I am in control and have to be mindful all the time. As a top I think the pleasure is more psychological and perhaps as a bottom it can be more physical - I think anyway for me

Not too bothered about sucking cock or being sucked (although quite different to fucking a throat or being throat fucked eye wateringly until you gag- a turn on). Prefer deep rimming with fingering at same time. With fucking, prefer deep thrusts and complete pull out on each thrust, better friction especially with a hairy butt . As bottom or top, prefer to pull out and cum onto open and well fucked hole so that we can both feel the hot load and to work the cum back inside slowly. Noticed that most (including me) are more turned on by feeling the cum on the hole. Does all this make me an ass man (or have I been too influenced by porn?? )

Definitely darker for the full on cum pig in me, dark works better for group sessions, less inhibiting for everyone i suppose - multiple hands cocks and arse holes all lubed and eager for it. When you join one of these, its the cocks n willing holes that matter - not looks! Especially turned on when fuckin to then feel a bare anon cock pressing and working into my wet lubed hole. Dark works better for fetching too (or for freshly used warm condoms )

Depends on who's there, the New Cross sauna can get quite sleazy - there's a sling and on most visits have met guys bb. There's also Locker Room- Wednesday themed nights best, sub/Dom, dads n lads, and poz nights.

... Oh? And I have virgin:)

... unless you're using an oil base lubricant - they're incredibly difficult to break - even under extraordinary fucking circumstances - long hard rough and full 9"+ ) Having said that I have noticed that the really cheap condoms fr the 99p shops aren't as reliable

... I actually prefer pulling out and cumming at the entrance / onto the arse hole, both as top or bottom, fuck it back in or lick it out - you can't miss it

Brad McGuire on Treasure Island - enjoys giving a rough fuck and stays hard enough to give the bottom a good cum fuck

fuck horny, what works for me is to just roll the condom half or three quarters way down - with a good hard fuck and enough poppers, it's only a matter of time.

Used to live next to the Heath, first BB, first piss fuck, first scat... happy days! For strangers to the Heath, no matter how dark, you can't really get lost on West Heath - bounded by main roads and it's on an incline - Jack Straws at the top, walk down, hit the path, walk a bit to the right until the fork, then be guided by the incline - walk down and you'll hit the denser bit where the heavier action takes place (and the fuck tree), if you're disoriented, gauge the slope - upwards to leave, down to fuck!