Well, am relieved now to know it is still all in my head. A young guy I used to fuck and breed a lot came by to see me at work yesterday. It's been 5 years, almost 6 since we last had sex. I didn't cum in him, but was able to fuck him for 30 minutes without an problem. 14th guy to have sexual encounter with since becoming active again.
Although the encounter has reminded me just how uninformed some guys are. He nearly panicked when he heard about the other 13 in such a short time span, and worried that I could have caught something, which although true, is unlikely in my case. He wasn't even aware there were people who have immunity to hiv. Says, I'm still one of only 2 guys he's ever let fuck him raw . The. other being an exBf. He's primarily a closeted bisexual, mostly has sex with girls only stil. But he did tell me how he's been getting more into pnp, and how incredible sex is on certain drugs, and how he craves something up his ass when he does certain drugs., and I should try it some time. Then kept offering me some of his Vodka, since it was only the two of us. He knows better. LOL No I didn't drink it, I know better.