NYBBGUY58

Touching myself? Age 6/7 when I discovered dry orgasms (with the help of a cousin who was a year older than I). I always felt that I was different; this was the 60s in the Midwest, so not really hospitable for a gay kid. I knew I preferred boys, and first heard of Christine Jorgensen (the trans pioneer) when I was 11-ish and thought I'd probably have to go to Denmark for the surgery. I had no framework for being gay at the time, though I was regularly called "fairy," "fem," and "faggot" - the three Fs. I first applied the term "gay" to myself at age 14, while at Disney World (of all places) with my parents, no less. We were getting a sailing lesson (don't ask) on one of the lakes (possibly an artificial lake) and I found myself looking at the instructor, a hunky, dark-haired man. I wondered if he were thinking about me...and it all came together. I was seriously upset for a while, my parents didn't know what to do with me. I accepted it gradually, though that was just my first baby steps towards living as an "out" gay man.

I'm fine with smooth, hairy, shaved, clipped, plucked, waxed, sugared, whatever. Yes, I'm a complete slut! I'm light hairy myself, get sugared once every 4-6 weeks: back, shoulders, 'tain't and crack; the rest is clipped to be manageable.

There's a feeling of deep satisfaction I get from worshiping a top guy, making him feel good and getting the load. I love the pulsing in my butt and his heartbeat.

I know a man who said they regularly topped Austin Wolf, and didn't realize that this muscle guy he was fucking was "the" Austin Wolf was until later.

I never met the man, but I know people who know him, and he apparently isn't/wasn't always a kind person. That said, the whole situation is, to put it mildly, unfortunate.

At home, where I have a rim seat. I entertain guys who then leave me with a little "souvenir" of their visit...there's no place like home for getting bred!

I guess I'm not the spontaneous sort. I usually set up encounters with plenty of lead time, disclose my HIV status upfront and my desire to take the load. And...I have a few friends with benefits. I remember the first time I barebacked years after learning I was HIV positive. We'd set it up, I'd told him the score. When he was about to fuck me (as in I was in position and he was about to enter), he asked "Do you want to take the load?" I answered "This is an option? SURE!!!!!!!!" From then on out, I just made it clear I wanted it bare. If people don't want to that, no hard feelings, I just move on. The moral of this story is, never run after a bus, a train, a cab or a man. There's always another one coming along.

I'm not a fan of al fresco sex, honestly. I'm a boy who likes to talk a bit while sipping tea or wine, needs a mattress and a lot of foreplay before taking the dick.

Sort of. A guy who was fucking me once said something like "I have girlfriends, they're pretty and I like fucking them, but they don't know to touch my ass the way you do." I was playing with his balls and stroking his asshole while he fucked me, and had rimmed him thoroughly before he mounted me...does that count? 🙃

Last load received a few weeks ago in the comfort of my own home, after worshipping him and working him up to the glorious explosion!

I don't think there's a single explanation. Part of it is a particular political moment with moves away from internationalism. It's like asking why did the citizens of the UK vote resoundingly to "Brexit" from the EU? Neither country will benefit economical from isolationist policies, but they make for great sound bytes. Some of it, I believe, is lingering fury over the 2006/2007 subprime mortgage debacle. Entire life savings evaporated, and yet some of the primary beneficiaries (e.g., Jamie Dimon) were never called to account. On top of it, the U.S. chose to use taxpayer money to bail out several industries. In many places, people embrace simplistic solutions because the institutions do not serve their interests. After either the 2008 or 2012 election in the US, an article ran in Vanity Fair(?) titled Government of the One Percent by the One Percent. The economic interests of the vast majority of citizens in the U.S. are not shared by their representatives, and it's not easy to get representatives who will represent us since incumbency is tantamount to permanent tenure, and there's much too much money infused by corporations. The Citizens United Supreme court decision essentially declared corporations and unions to have the free speech rights of individuals. That has left us with a bunch of self-interested "individuals" with outsized funds to funnel into getting candidates elected. Unions have been on the run since the Regan presidency of the 80s, so they don't have as much clout. All of this has translated into unfocused fury and a lack of real political alternatives. I personally think that too many are looking for the knight in shining armor (aka, presidential candidates) to rescue us, which doesn't really work. To create even the possibility of change, the broader mass of citizens of the US are going to have to figure out how to talk one another, and not get so organized the bipartisan organization of political life. Otherwise, our political dialogue will continue to be deadlocked.

I certainly have. Connections sometimes just occur and can feel all sorts of ways. Given the, uh, close quarters sex may feel extremely intimate.

I'll have to hire a photographer the next time I take a dick...😏