1988BBcumdump

For me, I think the thing that pushed me over the edge was self-esteem issues and it wasn't a single event that changed me. When I was younger, 18-19, as a slightly chubby, shorter, redheaded bottom guy, I didn't get a lot of interest from guys my age and it made me feel super ugly. In retrospect, it's probably because I simply didn't put myself out there, and there were fewer younger guys out at the time. Around 2008, prep wasn't a thing that was available and HIV was a real fear. I was prepared to be a safe bottom, carrying condoms and everything but I didn't have the confidence to say no if a guy wanted to fuck bareback and I lacked the confidence to say no to men I wasn't really attracted to. This resulted in me having a lot of drunk sex with middle aged men who wanted to fuck without condoms, which I wasn't comfortable with. I felt bad about it after each encounter, but in fact during sex, I encouraged them, because I knew they wanted to fuck raw and I knew it gave them the most pleasure. The thing that changed me is the lust of those men. I thought I was an unattractive guy, but these men were undisputedly into me, it's impossible not to think so when your getting fucked in doggy in position by a rock hard daddy, sucking off his friend waiting for a turn at your ass. They were willing to fuck me raw dispite the increased risk which made me feel hot, like I was worth the risk. The fact that a lot of the hookups came back for seconds to fuck their loads into me really helped me get over my self-esteem issues. I felt attractive and wanted. And It was great to be offering bareback at a time when a lot of bottoms were safe only, i think a lot of hotter guys, who wouldn't normally go for me, fucked me because I was so willing to go raw. After a handful of encounters, I started really enjoying being a bare slut and Cumdump and the negative feelings about my body petered out. I did stop having sex for a while for fear of STIs and HIV. But when I decided to go back to sex in 2018 ish, I got on prep, embraced my body, and really enjoy raw piggy sex. Since then, I think I've been fucked with a condom twice. I don't feel bad about myself any more, just happy to have the sex I want with men who want to have sex with me.

I've always been a bottom first and a barebacker a distant second. For me, it is important to do what the top wants, regardless if he wants to use a condom or not. That being said, I was online a few weeks ago in a hotel, looking for a top. Usually, after chatting with a guy for a bit, I decide I'm ok being fucked by him. (It's usually a yes, after filtering out some of the more crazy men). A guy close by messaged me, but wanted to use a condom. I actually said no thanks..... First time I've said no, after "deciding" yes, which felt like I was letting the team down, lol. He gave me a few texts about STIs after...which I took gracefully in case he wants to fuck raw sometime. It's such a great feeling to meet up with a stranger and sometimes seeing the face of surprise as you slide his cock into yourself without a condom. It is great when sometimes a top asked you if you want a condom and you can gladly say no. It is great to have a man fucking you raw without talking about anything other than 'when' and 'where' he expects you to be bent over for him. And it is always great when every type of man unloads into your ass - it's the best feeling of accomplishment! I enjoy getting fucked raw so much. Love to be a cumdump for a man who needs one. Starting to realize this is a fundamental part of me. I guess this means I'm turning into a barebacker first and a bottom second. In the future, I'm going to try to focus on the men who need raw bottoms. It just feels like I'm better suited for it, even tho I feel bad for the condom tops.

GoldenPuppy88

17 men so far, about half either mulit load or repeats, so maybe 50...Corona definitely slowing it down 🤷🏼‍♂️

Yes, I was 20, in university at Halifax, in summer. At the time, I soppose I was kinda twinky with a bit more chub and muscle, blue eyes, red hair. I had just seen a movie drinking at a bar after, was drunk, and the guy that I was interested in (long story, he was long term friend who was extremely emotionally abusive) blew me off at the bar and I had to pay his tab. I was horny and upsett so, I headed up to citadel hill, the local cruising ground. Did one circuit around the place, and saw a guy in a car he said hello, and I just got in the passenger seat. He said hi, started his car and started driving. He was probably early forties, brown hair, a dad bod, hairy, had a wedding ring on. He asked me if I was straight, and I said no, sorry, gay here. He said that was ok and asked what I was into. Me being drunk and nervous I said 'lots of things'. He asked if I liked to be fucked and I said I love to be fucked, even tho I hadn't yet. I asked him if he would fuck me. He smiled, chuckled to himself, and said 'oh yeah your getting fucked tonight'. While this was happening we were driving to the middle of nowhere, probably for 15 min. It was like 2:30am at that point, no cars on the road. I was getting nervous. He stopped at an empty carpool somewhere and told me to get in the back seat. I undressed inside, and jumped back through the middle seat. He got undressed outside and came in. I started sucking his cock like my life depended on it. It was a bit bigger than mine, probably 7 inches, cut. I sucked him for about 5 min or so then he asked me to stop, otherwise he would blow. He then Laid me across the back seat, put one leg over the passenger seat, and another over a rear headrest so he had easy access. He started rubbing his cock on my hole. I was tight, but I used some toys, so I wasn't completely closed up. He spat on my hole a lot and started to press his cock into me. At this point, I realised he wasn't wearing a condom, and I got scared and clenched, his dick was pressed out. I was embarrassed about that. I had a condom in my wallet, and thought briefly about asking him to put it on, but I was afraid he wouldn't fuck me if I did. So I decided that I would let him fuck me bare. Since it was unsafe, I was sure he would pull out to cum. Trims out I had no reason to be embarrassed, he just smiled at me, grabbed his shaft, and guided his raw dick into my ass. He fucked me for maybe 20 mins, slow and deep. He used spit and water from a water bottle as lube. I was in heaven, loved the feeling of his cock in me. He would pull out completely, then press back in, and I could feel everything. Eventually, he picked up the pace. He asked me where I wanted him to cum. Wanting to be accomadating, I told him 'anywhere you want' still thinking that he would pull out. He started fucking me harder, started grunting and shooting inside me, I felt the cum, cause we weren't using much lube. Three shots inside, his dick came out, and there was one more shot over my chest, from his dick to my nipple. I scooped up the cum on my chest and swallowed. Was still in shock that he had bred me. We cleaned up a bit and he drove me back to the crusing ground. I felt really bad about it for a long time afterwards, but since then, I've been hooked on bareback sex. Now, I think my first time is super hot, and I'm so glad I was able to provide what that top needed, even tho I didn't want to.