I may have come across in a manner in which I did not intend to.
The thrill of sex comes from spontaneity and not prepping in any way but simply just doing. I guess douching is a form of prepping which is obviously necessary for when I bottom but it isn't the same as taking a pill each day.
I do understand the risks I take when I BB which many men took for years before PrEP was available and turned out to be damn lucky. I will start using PrEP at some point in the coming month as I want to carry on having poz free sex.
It's more the psychology behind taking a pill each day. Right now, I'm in my 20s and don't need to take any drugs for my health and want to keep it that way until at least the age of 40.
My previous post and this are in no way insinuating that I want to be poz or that I'm secretly a bug chaser. I'm just worried. I've had therapy previously due to overthinking before, during and after sex so yes, I'd like to constructively discuss the use of PrEP so that having to take it doesn't put me off having regular, fun sex.
I hope this conversation to be supportive and encouraging.