Kinkybreed

Soooo over 3 weeks later I finally got an appointment with a doctor. Thank god for my friend who was able to get me the appointment with his doctor because no one else wanted to see me. It was frustrating as fuck. Luckily the lesions are much much better now, stopped hurting and I was still able to get tested. The doctor said that it's always 50/50 with patients coming into the clinic with monkeypox symptoms. 50 Percent actually have it and the other half has Syphillis. But turns out: My tests all came back negative, including monkeypox. Still have to wait for my results when it comes to Gono and Chlamydia but I already got tested for that two weeks ago and it was also neg. My guess now is that it actually is Gono but that the test back then gave me a false negative. Gonna get my new results on Friday and am actually hoping now that the test will be positive so I can finally get treated and get this over with. Once I'm done with this I'll get vaccinated asap. So to everyone who thinks that they might have caught mpx: Try your best to get tested, even if it is literally a pain in the ass to find someone in some areas. The symptoms differ from person to person and can be very similar to stds like gono and syphillis. I was so sure I had it and therefore would've thought that I'm healthy now and won't need the vaccine anymore. Was basically already giving up on finding a doctor who'd see me. So glad I didn't and got tested, otherwise it could've gotten worse over time.

Thanks! And yes, trying my best not to freak out, although that's pretty hard. I've heard from many people who had mpx here (in germany) and they all basically told me that no one helped them when they got to a hospital or a doctor. No one told them what to do other than quarantining and they didn't get any meds. not even pain medication. The only thing that happened was that someone from the health department called them twice a day to make sure that they're still at home. So that doesn't really comfort me and the more stories I hear the more scared and angry I become. Gonna try to go to a hospital tomorrow though, just hoping that I can get the vaccine since it's an emergency and prevent it from getting worse. It's so weird though since all the pics I've seen look so different from what I have. There's no puss or anything, nothing is swollen, I don't have any other symptoms.. Gonna know more soon I guess. And thank you for the encouraging words!

Typing this with a very sore ass right now. Been googling my fingers off for the last couple of days and am basically just freaking out. Since there are so many different experiences around this topic and so much misinformation circling around I just really don't know what to do right now. I wasn't able yet to get vaccinated and apparently there are no places around where I live where I could get vaccinated or tested. So I'm starting this topic hoping that someone who had it could share his experiences with me and if it is similar to mine now. Apologies to the admin if I'm posting this in the wrong place but since it might also be something different than monkeypox (fingers crossed) I didn't feel like this would fit in the other threads. So I had a pretty shitty Date last Friday. On Sunday / Monday I started to notice little pimple-like bumps on my ass including one big one which really just felt like a painful pimple. At first I didn't think much of it since I shaved my ass for my date and stuff like that can happen. First pic here is from Monday showing the little "pimples". On Wednesday the pimples started to look worse and turned into sores. Especially the big one. My hole felt sore and I was bleeding a bit from a wound above it. But again, no wonder after how rough this guy was. Second pic is from today and everything looks way way worse. I'm not really in pain, it just feels like something is wrong (which it clearly is ha) and sometimes I have a tingling / burning sensation inside of my hole which doesn't last though. Weeks ago I've had symptoms for a couple of days which reminded me of gono. I took a test this week and it all came back negative. Then I thought it could be herpes or syphilis but I guess the symptoms would be different? But I also don't have any flu-like symptoms which are associated with monkeypox. And I just have these sores and not the typical fluid filled bumps that you see everywhere. So... I know you guys aren't doctors and I feel uncomfortable as shit to post pics like that but has anyone here experienced something like that? And to those who had monkeypox: Did it look / feel similar to you? Feeling kind of helpless now so I'm happy about any information or tips that you guys could have. And no, I can't contact the guy so I don't know if he had monkeypox or not..

I finally want to live out my fantasy as a total cumdump. Are there any good hotels in London where you can just leave the door open and be a cumdump? Somewhere where you don't need a roomkey to gain access to the floor so I can just wait doggy on the bed for the guys. Any recommendations greatly appreciated!

I keep thinking about applying there. For some reason that comment made me consider applying even more.

Since I do like Sex and have been fucked often I wouldn't say that I have a tight hole. I'd say I'm in the middle. Also tried fisting a couple of times and it took quite some time til I could get one in. I rarely ever do it since I am actually pretty cautious of becoming "too loose". But I also just seem to be good at relaxing I guess. Most of the guys who fucked me complimented my ass and hole but there were the occasional ones who made a comment or two. Something along the lines that I must be such a slut cause it was easy to put their dick in. And it actually somewhat hurt and concerned me. Especially when it comes to guys who I'm seriously dating. I want them to have the most fun and just not everybody has a big dick. I'm also not a huge fan of lube. Spit makes me feel much more of the sensation. So yeah, I've been thinking about it too much probably. Scared to "ruin" my hole for other guys, scared to be judged and scared that I wouldn't find as much pleasure in smaller or even average dicks after fucking too much or trying out fisting some more.

If it helps you: A bit over a week ago I also had a risky encounter. I was also super high and that wasn't completely my choice. I can't remember everything but I've been thinking about it and thinking about it and thinking about it. And the more I thought about the more sketchy things appeared to be. I was and sometimes still am anxious as fuck about that. I was and sometimes still am pissed as fuck about myself that I've driven myself into this situation. After all, I was not on prep, since it was basically my first sexual encounter during this pandemic. I wasn't really able to go and get PEP after that. But whenever I feel the memory and anxiety rise in me, I try to remember the fact, that I can't change it. I can spend my time constantly worrying about it or I can try to minimize my worries until I can get tested and can learn from that experience. So yes, trust me, I do understand the anxiety. It can be paralyzing and can lead to all sorts of stupid behaviour. But when things like that happen, it opens another chapter. Takes time to get used to it for sure. But it shouldn't be the end of the world and although it is hard, I do not think that it's worth it to torture yourself with self-hate, self-pity, whatever you might call it. And your therapist is right. Coming out to your father is a big step in the right direction. Once you got rid off one reason to hide, the other one's will follow time after time. Enjoy yourself, love yourself.

First of all: I understand where you are coming from and trust me when I say that I also found myself in similar situations and was extremely anxious then. However, having sex shouldn't cause anxiety, it should cause an orgasm and happy feelings. You are taking prep AND are using condoms most of the time so you are literally doing everything in your power to be as safe as possible. Of course drugs make you more uninhibited and will most certainly cloud your judgement. Cause when you are high, these happy feelings are the main focus. Is it smart? No. Do you take drugs to continue being smart? Definitely not. Most of the time it's about losing inhibitions. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Whatever happened, happened. And while it might stresses you out, you can not change it and still you did everything in your power to protect your health. Although I really want to see that doctor who prescribed you PEP even though you've been on Prep for two years. That really causes stress for your body. I'm not a doctor but I'm almost certain that you should definitely not take both at the same time (hell, it even says on the bottle that you shouldn't take more than 7 pills of Prep in a week). Also: HIV is not that easily transmittable AND being on daily Prep protects you almost 100%. Multiple studies showed that. So taking PEP on top of that seems highly unnecessary and actually more damaging. While I can still understand your anxious reaction, you really shouldn't have anything to worry about. It's all going to be fine. Don't let fear ruin your sexual self. Rather embrace it. It's also never healthy to keep things bottled up.

Damn. This is one of the best stories on here. I always wanted something like this to happen to me!

Fuck, this story is just too hot! I need these guys in my life! 😄

I'm @Lswellkink on Twitter. Still a bit scared to be honest but I will post some pics and fucking vids there soon ;)

I think my first one was Chlamydia. Multiple months after that it was gono and chlamydia again. Got stealthed by a guy back then, but at that time I still took prep. I think he might also had another gift he tried to share 😉

Well it's not the fault of the guy that he has a small cock and he still has a right to get some pleasure. Of course big dicks are a bit more fun to play with but in the end it's all about satisfying the top. Just imagine having a small dick and guys would refuse to suck you off because of that. Just imagine how happy they must be to get sucked off then. So suck that load out of them, they'll thank you.

My own father? Hell no. Other Dads? Most definitely 😛 I live in a suburban area and whenever I go out for a walk and see one of the daddies around here, I can't help but fantasize about how hot it would be to suck them off and give them some pleasure

Yes I know, and I completely understand it and not at all "condone" it. Especially because there were chems involved, which can make it hard to cum. But I was basically the only bottom there haha. I do understand though that they wanted to fuck even more guys once they had their fun at the orgy and didn't want the fun to end. (Same as me) I'm a perfectionist and when I get fucked, I want the top to have as much pleasure as possible and serve him as good as possible. So getting bred is somehow the ultimate reward or at least a nice sign that me and my ass did well. Getting fucked for almost two days straight by multiple guys and not really getting bred felt just a bit frustrating somehow. The chems turned me into a really cum-hungry slut and I really did work my ass off (pun intended)